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I guess I only have myself to blame.


Supposed to wake up early to go play soccer or basketball or smth with my cousins at around 10 at 台大, in the end I woke up at 12+, largely because I had went to the mountains the day before, it was so exhiliriating, and the sleeping factor - I didn't sleep AT ALL! Ok, maybe on the bus yes, but it was only an hour! Didn't reach 台北 until like 5? OMG it was so tiring. I'll blog about it (with pictures when I have the time).

Yup anyways, it was like this. 濃濃 had to go 西門町 for his band 'interview', or so they call. This band called '井' needed a singer, so he went there for a try-out in hope of getting recruited. In the end he PANG SEHED me! Coz some girl asked if she could come along, so he agreed immediately. Like WTH! HAHA. But nvm, I guess everyone's got their own things to do at each stage of their life. Somethings are just more impt at this stage of his life? Maybe? Ha.

So that left me with 皮皮哥哥 to accompany me to 微風 to have lunch with 舅舅，舅媽，奶奶，阿公，媽媽，姨姨. When we reached, they just had their lunch -.- So I had lunch with him only, we had 2 salad set lunch sets which cost like NTD300 each! Good food dont come cheap, of course. Ha. 跟舅舅走，一定有美食，准沒錯！=D

(Picture of the salad)

We spent some 2 hours at the cafe there I think, from 3 - 5pm. But we had some interesting conversations, that's for sure. Though we were rather bored at first, but we still crapped our way thru, we saw this 立委, I cant rmbr the name, but they were discussing about him, saying something about him facing the wall for most of the time. 一定是見不得人才看牆壁！Ha.

We had Japanese muahchee too! My favourite. Especially the chestnut flavoured. They all said I had the lucky one with a whole chestnut wrapped within the dough. LOL!

Had an 'argument with 皮皮哥哥 over the crumble bread he bought. Coz I was unwilling to give up the bread I had set my eyes on! HAHA.

Oh ya. We were talking about relatives losing touch with each other, therefore leading to generations of relatives not knowing each other, and marrying each other, resulting in 'defective' childrens. Then 皮皮哥哥 was jokingly saying 'might as well not be close to each other!' So there wouldnt be feelings lost. Ha. But I doubt we'll ever lose touch, eh? I hope not. Haha.

Straight after LUNCH, we had DINNER. I'm serious. 婷婷姐姐 came all the way down from 新竹, then we had dinner together at 南京飯店. I think. Once again, lots of jokes coming from 婷婷姐姐！ =D About his husband, his father-in-law, mother-in-law. Ha. It's the way she says her stuff! Just so hilarious! =D

We had lots of food! Again! =D

(Picture of food(s))

HAHA!

Shockingly, there was a COCKROACH in the soup! Fortunately I havent had any bit of the soup, while the rest had finished theirs =X They had it replaced and treated us to some red bean muahchee. But it still wasnt worth it! I feel.

Went home, talked, played 'advertising space', hands sore! =X

Played 'joker'. Sleep.

Watchin'

Didn't really do much today.

Morning:
Couldn't really sleep in the morning coz of the coldness. It was so cold I think I had 2 blankets. Plus grandma's turning and tossing made my sleep even worse. In the end I went to the living room to watch the horror clips. I think I'll miss them when I return to Singapore. Some of these stories are really nice. My 2 favourite programmes are: "大膽旅行團" and "不可思議的世界", both which the host is 小潘潘.

Afternoon:
Didn't go uncle's shop till it was around 1. Was super late. Anyways, they hired this new university girl.. She's only 17 years old! Born in 1990, although she claims she's 19 -.- She was so quiet that even my uncle said that we should talk to her more. Yup anyways she's nice =X But I shouldn't go into that. Went to the bank with 濃濃 to pay the bills, then went home to play PS2, he introduced me to Metal Gear Solid 3, which I have yet to try. Oh my god it's damn cool. The graphics, the feeling when you get your hands on the controller. Really makes you feel like a spy, although I must say it's quite hard to manipulate Snake, but the interesting part is the stamina and hunger part. You have to hunt for animals and fruits to feed your character! Quite cool huh!

Night:
Thereafter, 舅媽 asked me to meet at the shop at 7.30, then we agreed to go 南機夜市場 to have 羊肉爐, still tastes the same! It feels great to have it especially during winter. Really warms the body up, and makes me feel much much better. And there was this routine. We went into the market and had red bean soup! We'll never give it a pass when we pass by here! Haha! =D

And when we went to 85度C to have cakes and coffee, I heard over the radio, they were playing a song with a beat that was so SO FAMILIAR! Then when I went over closer to the speaker, I realised it was the beat Kin and I attempted before. The 'Watcher' beat! So whilst the rest were sitting down and having their cakes and coffee, I was trying to listen very closely the song. Although I couldn't really hear clearly because of the noise level there, I heard the 2 lines from the chorus, something about:
".. you got your eyes on me...
I feel you watching me..."

Something like that. Not too sure but I'll go find out the rapper of the original song. Ha.

Feelin' you're being watched?

Damn the hot springs!

Was woken up by the constant voice of my Mum.

It was a last minute thing, but my mum's cousin (I suppose I'll call just call him uncle) called to ask us along to 烏來　to go for the hot springs.

I think it's been years since I've seen this uncle, in fact, I barely know him! He's a police officer, actually the head of the area around 烏來, so he was quite familiar with the place there.

First off, we took the MRT to 新店 where we took Uncle's huge van (he borrowed it actually) to his police station where we sat down for a 'tea session' and played with his 2 year old son, who was initially very shy, but his smile just brighten up my mood, and the atmosphere! On the way there my sister and I were just sitting at the back of the van and listening to the conversation between my mum, uncle, uncle's vietnamese wife and my mum's twin sister. Quite dull, actually. But then I was listening to Uncle's vietnamese wife speaking, and surprisingly her mandarin's very good, and the best thing is that she knows how to speak 台語！ I should really reflect upon myself eh. How can a Taiwanese not know how to speak his own dialect! Shit. Ok I must really learn and read up on it. SIAN!

Ok nvm. After that we headed to the hot springs, which made my skin all itch and reddish! I think my skin's not very resistant to the 'polluted' water there. Even my mum caught a bloodshot eye. The very next day my grandfather was shocked to see the rashes on my arms and my neck, then he told us that the hot springs there aren't 'clean'. Like they actually 'recycle' the water because of the lack of pure spring water. I heard they actually categorise the hot springs into 3 levels, the top level being the cleanest, and the 3rd bottom level being filthy because of the water trickling down from the 1st level! Like OMG!

No wonder these rashes develop. Damn!

But one thing I enjoyed was the food we had at this restaurant on our way to 雲仙 to take the cable car.
(I'll post the video)

The cable car at 雲仙 was so fast, I think we got to the other station on the mountain in less than 2 minutes! The scenery was picturesque, but a pity there were mist blocking our view from the top when we got to the top of the mountain - on foot. Little did I know that was the native place of the native tribes - 泰雅族！

Some people were dancing there, some were selling their local foods - the fried small prawns were nice! Crispy and a lil salty. =D

(Picture of cable car)

一周...就這樣過去了。

在臺灣的一周，就這樣過去了。

不知不覺中今天就晃過去了。
今天中午12點才起來，後來跟媽媽，浚一起去師大後面吃中餐（意大利麵，用酒參塔調配而成的青漿雞肉焗麵），買了一杯珍珠綠茶，沒想到我來到臺灣，竟然會愛上如此簡單的飲料-綠茶。師大開了一家新的茶店-茶宛，他們的珍珠超Q的，讓人喝了又想喝。纍計了3各蓋章，相信在會新加坡之前一定有辦法纍計滿10張，哈哈！

後來在回家之前，在路上踫到妹妹。沒想到她也會悶，剛問她又不要跟我們一起去！然後就一起回去，媽媽先去洗頭髮。

我們先回去看小孩子，在約4點妹妹就和媽媽和姨姨一起去某某親戚的家，我先去舅舅店裏拿麵綫，然後因爲眼睛有點發痛，先睡個回籠睡覺，沒想到一睡就睡到9點，10點！小孩子一直喊肚子餓，跑去冰箱拿muah chee出來吃！你看！餓到這種地步！想姨姨他們一定很遲才回來，所以先去師大買雞排和鹽酥雞給他們吃。

媽媽他們約午夜12點才回家，還好我早點買東西給他們小孩子吃，不然真的讓他們挨餓！哈哈。

沒什麽事，就上個網，聼聼丁文琪的老歌，在MSN聊一下，就這樣吧。

明天還要到新光三越排隊買puma鞋，還是早點去睡，不然別人搶光我要的款式就可惜咯！

OT:想想，時間過的很快，就一個星期了。
還是趁早去買自己要的東西。
現寫個單子再說吧。

My 1st weekend.. Home.

禮拜五的晚上，妹妹和我原本不該在舅舅家住，但因婷婷姐姐的慫恿，也難得她從新竹回臺北，而且濃濃又說他考試沒什麽好準備，所以我們決定撤銷我們原本的計劃。

禮拜六不知怎的，我9點多就起床了！雖然4點才睡，但總覺得睡了很久，而且太陽有那麽亮，我就不知不覺的早起。難得早起床，我也難得看新聞，得知臺灣政治最近的一些熱門話題和消息。

果然真的很離譜！

關於陳菊當選無效的時間，讓我很難以理解。難道正義因爲藍綠的關係，而有了新的定義嗎？真的很荒唐，而讓人難以理解的！

Funny things

I can't believe I'm saying this. Yes - they are CUTE! my little cousins.

我：昱昱你讓我抱一下好嗎？
昱昱：爲什麽？
我：因爲不然以後我就抱不動你啦！
昱昱：是不是因爲你以後就變老公公啦？
我：... ...

我們大家都在客廳看《星光2幫》，包括姨丈。
昱昱看到我的腿毛。
昱昱：阿淵哥哥，你腳上怎麽會有毛？
我：哎喲問那麽多，你以後一樣也會有。
昱昱：可是爸爸（姨丈）沒有啊！
姨丈聽到，說：因爲哥哥18嵗，爸爸38嵗。18嵗長毛，38嵗毛掉光光。
昱昱：哦。
大家捧腹大笑。

呵呵！很可愛吧！昱昱腦筋其實很靈活。

聼婷婷姐姐說，以前曾發生過這一件事：
婷婷姐姐去奶奶家，兩個小瓜在玩玩具。
丞丞看到昱昱的玩具，用硬搶過來。
昱昱：把玩具還給我！
丞丞：才不要！
昱昱靈機一動，叫丞丞看牆壁。
丞丞不理會昱昱。
昱昱：你看婷婷姐姐！
丞丞信以爲真，轉過去看姐姐。
昱昱動作很快，馬上把玩具槍過來，迅速抱回房間。
丞丞立刻哭泣，姐姐去安慰他。
昱昱還真會耍心機，呵呵！

還記得去年他們兩個小瓜不知爲何爲了"889"這個數字那麽迷，我說一句"889"就超興奮的，會一直跳。就有一次他們在奶奶床上，我喊一句"889"，他們馬上抓狂，在床上亂跳。昱昱興奮到不小心跳到床的邊緣，結果‘撲通’一聲，跌下床。一般孩子都會哭，但他就很勇敢地獨自站了起來，然後又在床上活波亂跳，搞“自-High”，一直喊"889"。
真的是很佩服小孩子。
（"889"是dominos熱綫2393-9889中的"889"）
我們原本是有錄起來的，後來因爲我手機損壞，資料損失！
可惜啊可惜！

In a unfamiliar position.

I found myself in a unfamiliar position when I went to 7-Eleven today. What a huge difference I immediately felt.

So. I was buying a drink for myself, and there was this caucasian in front of me, taking out drinks from the fridge. As I stood behind him, the fridge door knocked into me when he flung the fridge.

I didn't exactly know what I was doing, but my initial instinct was to say 'Sorry'. And immediately after I said that, he replied in Chinese‘不好意思！’

And I was so So SO SHOCKED.

Okay, I know this is Taiwan and people here, including the caucasians speak Chinese.

But it just felt so hilarious at that point of time.

Like, wth! I was put in an awkward and unfamililar position.

It just felt weird coming in contact with caucasians who speak Chinese! I feel so happy, glad and proud to witness that sometimes.

But I dunno exactly why. Haha.

p.s. visited 士林，公館，景美夜市！Food fiesta! Though I've been trying to control myself. I think my sister's gainin' weight at a rate faster than I am. Ha. I should be doing fine. haha.

看了婷婷姐姐當時結婚的照片。很感人，只遺憾當時無法參加她的結婚喜酒。還有濃濃在喜酒時彈吉他，真是感人的一幕！

新不了情

昨天我們6點左右到達桃園機場。

感覺真的不一樣。


那‘臺灣’的空氣，就是有一種特殊的味道，讓人回味無窮。

剛下飛機的我，很迫不期待回到家裏，看到阿嫲，阿公，姨姨，姨丈，阿丞，昱昱，舅舅，舅媽。

到了車站，我原本很想拍幾張照片留念，結果電磁沒電-.-便利商店也沒買電磁。搞什麽啊！然後我就在便利商店買飲料在車上喝，好笑的是，我竟然忘記拿飲料！後來還是店長追我叫我那飲料！


我太糊塗了吧。我想大概是我不習慣臺灣便利商店不發紙袋的做法，連我都回望了拿飲料。又或許是我太興奮了！哈哈。


雖然聽説家裏最近發生很多事情，不過還是希望能好好放鬆自己，在這短短的一個月好好休息，享受。


一到家裏，舅媽，舅舅兩人很快就到家裏，接著皮皮哥哥也跟我們見面，我們到師大夜市吃宜蘭臭豆腐。果然是真材實料!脆皮，加上那豐富的餡料，淋上特別調成的漿汁，搭配得天衣無縫。贊！

而且回到臺灣最期待的是冬天的粉圓，湯圓，剉冰！我們在三兄弟對面的那家剉冰店，雖然不是我吃過最好吃的，不過也是讓人能舉起大拇指的！=D

不過我們其實在吃東西的過程，雖然說真的沒什麽話題聊，不過聼了大人他們的談話内容，發現我們這次回來好像會大有不同。不只是大人他們自己的問題，我還發現濃濃即將考期中考試，看來這次回來真的不會像上次一樣的輕鬆自在。

可是，返臺灣的感覺總讓我覺得有種歸屬感，而無論假期會過得如何，我還是希望能找回從前的那種感覺..

臺灣，不管是昨天，今天，或是明天，就是會讓我心不了情。

p.s. 棒球世界杯在臺北舉行！有空一定要去看看，體會在球場當球迷的滋味！=D

Give me a Sign

So we did meet up, and we watched 'Game Plan'.

It was quite a nice show, although it felt surreal and so idealistic. ha. like it had a TOO happy ending.

But like yj said, it really was quite humorous. The story was well elaborated, although they tend to have neglected some parts of story, especially the part on how the girl came to find Joe. But overall i'd still give a three out of five stars. Worth watching. And The Rock is hell muscular. Ha.

After the show we were aimless, walking around trying to find some place to settle down and eat. In the end i think we spent 30, 40 mins choosing a place to eat? In the end we went back to yoshinoya, the place where we first decided -.- Ha. Anyways it was great to have it at yoshinoya. like we talked for an hour plus i think. talking about things that reminded me of those secondary school times.

But honestly speaking, I felt I was a lil too serious last time, maybe I should have slackened a bit and enjoyed myself. Coz we dun get that kind of life anymore now. So all I can do now is to enjoy myself now i guess? I don't wanna look back and see myself being so serious. There's a time to relax, so maybe from thursday onwards i will.

Recalling those stuff. I think I used to have something against everything. Although I'd probably have kept things all to myself. But it don't really matter now i guess.

I think i have my own friends, you've got your own, people move on. Whether or not classmates remain in touch.. Don't really bother me anymore. Schools weren't meant for all these bullshit anyway. Only people who see thru it'll understand what I'm talkin about.

And so we left after having a long conversation. I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Although we spent quite a bit, something I think i expected. ha. Nvm i shall take it as I treated jun wei for his bday. Ha. Oh, and I've finally passed cheryl's present to her. It's been with me for like. erm. since january. So 10 months since I've said i was gonna pass it to her =X

Talkin' about synthesizers, I think I shall start saving after I come back from taiwan. Synthesizers'll help ease those complicated things i hope. Needa practise on guitar and piano and sharpen my skills up. I wanna perform at school concerts next year!

So for the moment maybe everyone's feelin' a little lost and things like that, probably a sign from somewhere'll help everyone out.

-anticipation.

Peace.

Ok nvm about that sucker.
I shall chill since I should be in a happy mood.

Fuckin' shit not worth my time thinkin' about.

Off to meet cheryl and jun wei.
Finally after we've said it for a couple of months. Been looking forward to it. haha.

Peace.

Pussycat.

"I thought I saw a pussycat!"

Thought I'd like to talk about some pussy who talked behind me and rubbished that when I came online. Whatever whatever. Ha.

Manure is the name of your beloved boyhood club
Try to criticise my idol but you ain't shit; just a sub
Warmin' the bench's what you're good at, you piece of shit
Talkin' about my team, I admit, I have a bad habit
That gives me the right to say whatever I like
Thinkin' you could talk shit behind me, drop the talk, let's FIGHT
If you a man, speak up for your own words, PUSSY
Try to push me, then hide safely back in your own shell, PUSSY
That's what pussies do, like fighting with your own self
Tried to put out the flame but you ignited it back yourself
You could have a million friends, feedin on them like leeches
The truth is you a loser fan, arrogant bitches
Making acts to fake out facts, that's just too sad I say
Virtual friends, ritual fiends got ya hoist away
Actin' like you know shit, but you ain't shit, funny
You can compare someone you know nothin' to me
Like he's seen the world locally, can you diss me legally, STUPID
Retaliate? Come and diss me back, THAT'S A SISSY ACT
Thankfully I've got friends speakin' in da name of peace, I'm pissed
But for the moment I'll tape up my mouth and say nothin',
Bitch. And try provokin' me again, bitch.
I may take a few lines from 'Girls' but that's what I think of you too, bitch.

It's not just a diss. It just means you're low class.
And if you ever read this, fuck you.
Like you lack creativity tryin' ta mimick me.
And whatever whatever. Ha.

Gentle Reminder

Think there's a few things I gotta say to some people before I leave.
Yea and before that I've got my OP tmr.
And then I'll sit down somewhere, settle down, think about and decide what I'm gonna do for the rest of my life.

The things I gotta say.
That'll mean calls. ha.

And of course, to visit the people I'm indebted to.

Hey. It's just a gentle reminder. haha.

Damn.

Put your hands on the floor, I see ya creepin' thru' da corridor
Been ta' where the hardest war was fought, where there was blood galore
Police knockin' on your moma door, when we used to be down and poo'r
What's in store, little on this dot we call pore, an ass before the four
Letters, that's what I'm talkin' about, we're crazy about, ravin' about
The materials we don't own, but in reality whores got they spendin' about
A couple o' times a week, we just cheeky geeks runnin' out of creep
I got a problem with ma' sleep, it gets worse in dreams when we meet
They call me a freak, but it dun matter so long as we belong here
And we know no fear, we drive thru highways on the front gear on doses of beer
It's been a year since they got him in jail for blackin' mails and smackin' males
But it dun matter as long as we're here together, laughin' in tears
20 years down the road I forsee a completely new me, and a 'mini-me'
And another millenium I'ma vanish without a trace, to outta space
Where I find myself outta place without a face, and out of the race
Bold the relevant, old the irrelevant, till we work our ass off to be immaculate
Let's tabulate, and formulate the rate we're gonna make it happen
But you know it don't matter as long as we're here together
And you'll know it all don't matter when we'll all be like: "fuck my alma mater!"

Damn.
It all don't matter.

p.s. The wonders of Latin.

All it took.

That night I had to endure the temptation of restoration
And the redemption of resurrection, different combinations
Old school, new style kind of displays that left me feelin' dismayed
But fuck it 'thee, you had to make me wanna cut out this play
Let me bring you back to November last year, before everything disappeared
Like birds struck with cupid's arrow, now you makin' me drown in my sorrow?
"See you tommorow", was the last thing you said, lust was to be borrowed
My biggest mistake was to take you thru' my highs and lows, now swallow!
The biggest phantoms of wallows, feelin' green when you mix blue and yellow
What used to be a blow ain't nothin' when now everything's mellow
To me or to you, to him or to her, they or us, fuck all the tasks
Suckin' up to me when you feelin' what I felt? Frozen and melt
Remember when you first threw me out in the blue without a clue?
That's true, through and through, got some regrets for ya to chew
Little less than a year, ya feelin' lone and pain standing in da rain
Alone, uncock a champagne... were you trained to entertain?
It's laughable.

Feelings may go?
And memories will stay?

It's just too bad.
8 months was all it took.

IF you still remember what you did..
And for christ sake I'm not emo-ing, I've just had enough.
Don't regret your actions, or swallow your own words. That's what you said.

Gone.

I was reading thru' some people's blogs today
I read about changes in life, how people lose what they think they had
How people have their dreams.. shattered and gone.
As I read on, my mind just blanked, as I felt my fingers tremble and my heart shrank..
It wasn't just a prank.. I had just witnessed another living evidence of people who never lived..



I was inspired to be admired, brave and rave, about what that's required
Now, I wonder how I venture to my future, and my future career
Wondering how I'm gonna ever get what I desire, now I feel dire
And tired, but I ain't hittin' my thirties, I ain't got my shire, or even hired
Fired, or perspire, and guess what people's talking about me
An appetite subdued, that's how I'm feelin', what got me reelin',
Was people not real-lin', fakin' it up, and makin' it up, just to get me down
Remindin' me Yen trusted the fella' with the dolla, now that's a bizzare
Close up to me, clothes up on me, you can never tell what rose upexpirin'

I'm perspirin', when people mocked about me not workin' to be aspirin'

Like i needed aspirin, to get me set off and runnin', gunnin' and shinin'

So I'm startin' off with polishin' my shoes, hopin' it would get me thru' to me

See everyone's got their turning point of life, I've got my own to tell
Like 'wait a second if you've got a burning point you got to dwell',
This girl lost her wishes to the glitches, and these snitchers
Were none-other than those none-the-richer, she was more like the hitcher
Someone's offed the switches, and tried to sting a hole in my stiches
These parasites like leeches, some preachers tryin' to reach 'em
Here they claimin' they can relate, I'll get it straight to da' point

When you make a mistake, no matter the rate, you still dissapoint

So tell me the reason I'm still stuck here in sedate, I'm sick here

Solute and minute, grown a shoot and I'm root, the fear of fear

The dreams about bein' a lawyer, doctor, an emcee and a singer

Bewildered, but neither of all confounded, either that or I fall, grounded

Now I'm not here pretending I can relate, but I can feel hate

Within uncontented, when they uncontested, incompetent

They call it fate.. Or mere destiny.. But beyond's what meets more than the eye..

And after that lil' chat I had with Kin, all the more I feel what's lost.. and gone.

The once wild dreams.. Just vanished.. And perished.. Was it too late to save it? Or is this our last chance to wake up from our long trance?

God knows the past was gone.

Gone.

Remiscent.. of 4th February 2007.

我走在這路口..

It's been sometime since he came up with his new album, and it was released quite some time ago, but due to my exams, I havent updated myself with this fantastic new album of his. It's nice, I'm serious. I've always liked his songs, and it fully satisfied my excitement and anticipation and it surpassed my expectations for this album. I'd like to introduce two of his songs that I personally enjoy listenin' to.

Like everyone who faces the lowest point of their lives, I believe everyone does, sometimes we do want to look back and see what we once had, and reminisce about some of the good times we had with our friends and family. You really never know what you got, till it's gone.

歌手：張震岳

專輯：OK

《思念是一種病》

當你再穿山越嶺的另一邊
我在孤獨的路上沒有盡頭
...
一輩子有多少的來不及
發現已經失去
最重要的東西
恍然大悟早已遠去
爲何總是在犯錯之後
才肯相信錯的是自己
他們說這就是人生
試著体會試著忍住眼淚
還是躲不開應該有的情緒
我不會奢求世界停止轉動
我知道逃避一點都沒有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈

[當你再穿山越嶺的另一邊
我在孤獨的路上沒有盡頭
時常感覺你在耳后的呼吸
卻未曾感覺你在心口的鼻息]

汲汲營營
忘記身邊的人需要愛和關心
藉口總是拉遠了距離
不知不覺無聲無息
我們總是在抱怨事與願違
卻不願意回頭看看自己
想想自己到底做了什麽蠢事情
也許是上帝給我一個試煉
只是這傷口需要花點時間
只是回想念過去的一切
那些人事物會離我遠去
而我們終究也會遠離
變成回憶…

Oh~ 思念是一種病
Oh~ 思念是一種病 (一種病)

Rap:
多久沒有說“我愛你”
多久沒有擁抱你所愛的人
當這個世界不再那麽美好
只有愛可以讓它更好
我相信一切都來得及
別管那些紛紛擾擾
被讓步開心的事情停下了腳步
就怕你不說就怕你不做
別讓遺憾繼續一切都來得及

《路口》

一個人走無聊的路口
我還在做夢以爲你會喜歡我
我的希望落空而香煙不離手
抽到我心很痛

兩個人走我恨這路口
你說不愛我放我在夜裏難過
連再見也不說而眼淚沒停過
苦到我鼻涕流

愛情就是黑洞扭曲我所有
我想要愛你卻迷失了我自己
真的分不出來給的是不是真愛
游戲我玩不起來

我不想走去你媽的路口
破碎的痴夢丟到馬桶讓水流
本人依然沒救而香煙沒停過
咳到我心很痛
深陷沼泥之中沒有人救我
手機上都是你曾經留的訊息
你眼神的不耐有如利刃飛過來
瞬間我終于明白（不在為你心痛）

A few more weeks till I'm going back taiwan, and I was thinking if i should go back. Maybe I should save the money for something else, but on the other hand, I really miss my relatives, and the prospect of all the things we're gonna do together always excites me. I want to return home, but circumstances just don't permit so.

思念，是一種病。

真的。

So far.

Kin told me this was da' real shit, and this was the start of it

Little did I know he meant it, for real, it couldn't be less surreal

I thought, maybe I had some doubts in me, I wasn't sure either

A rap superstar misfit? But I felt more like I was a piece of shit; I screamed,

In high self-esteem, when I thought I met the girl of my dreams

But it wasn't meant to be, I tried to circumvent it, but you see

Somethings happen for a reason, somethings do not, you gotta agree

Waitin'..

This was an old piece which I just came across. It was supposed to be done as an audio, but never had the chance. Now I don't think it should be written anyway. Life goes on, what's gone is gone isn't it. haha.

p.s. it's supposed to go with the beat 'Waiting On You'.

People say fate shall meet us together up there
But the when passion's lost, you just won't care
Like when we started lovin' each other, I felt like
You were like none-other, trust her
To know you, and you'd never thrust her
Coz she was like my soul(sole) motivator
To guide me to my goal, till the future gets bleaker
But you could always make your presence felt stronger
You were always there when I wanted to die
Wishin' I just die and leave this world full of lies
But there's too much in you for me to leave
Believin' that we could overcome the naive-
Ness in us, we coulda repaired it, couldn't we
But you didn't, we couldn't, we shouldn't, see
It was on my part to relive the moment
The further we went, something went absent
Nothin' is instantaneous, just ask your parents
This is a torment, for your treatment, what's the reason
Love became stagnant, redundant, now so distant.. and so ancient


[Hook]
Waiting on you..




That night I was isolatin', left thinkin'
Why I was doing all these for you, sinkin'
Well if you were in my position, you'd rather
Put down all your ammunition, and be gentler
Steppin' stone for your thriller, reminder
I'm smarter, now, better than ever, remember
That letter that was left in your drawer, has turned sour
Rottin' because of past tears over the past years
That necklace, still silver, was rusted, to pieces
And when you put on your earpieces, this piece is
Meaningless, purposeless, senseless, you're useless
Till now I'm still aimless, still fameless, you're shameless
Sensitive, insensitive, over-sensitive, what's your motive
My heart is small, but active, feelin' something so massive
Seduced by you, confused, and I too was fused
I'm like a big joke you can reuse.. reuse.. reuse..


[Hook]
Waiting on you..


People change, and we can do nothin' to fix it
Lackin' in patiece, soon it becomes a bad habit
Used to share a common bond, now you won't respond
Like a cushion to solid rock I'm to rest on
Press on, I'd like to hear once again from you
Angry, 'cause I didn't catch the first dawn with you?
You knew I had no choice to, I had a curfew
Friendship over relationship, tryin' to start something new?
Havin' the patience in the first place, we could ace
In the love race, off the pace, back to the first place
A friend, irreplaceable, a fiend, effaceable
Life is tough, havin' to split my personal
A joint between your axil, a memory eraseable
Where love first found, all this shit sentimental
Assume? Fuck it, it was all you, with me in the room
Make love? We made out without breakin' out, takin' out
What we stated out, like shadows slowly fadin' out
Blackin' out into darkness, and you started backin' out
The truth was I wanted to screw you, it turned out I never knew you
And I'm left here wonderin'..Why I'm waiting on you-u-u-u-u-..


Thought you would be with me till death
But you walked away, just like that
And we never kept in touch no more.
And you just vanished.. Without a trace.
Love become hate?

It's fucked up ain't it
How we from strangers becomin' friends to becomin' strangers again
It's fucked up ain't it

Out of sight..

I'm writin' this in the middle of the night, when hope's out of sight
And the future turns bleak, right now, maybe right after tonight
The night leaves rustle, and I hear the door creakin' in at night
Thinkin' it was just my imagination I let it go, till my frustration strikes
This hesitation to let go, this elation to make known, just a reservation in my expectations for my education, yea fuck my full time occupation;
You get it, a fool-time occupation.
I got an anticipation for this aggrevation of an agression prickin' me and it's disturbin'
Maybe that's a reason I can't fall into sleep, I've got tricks' played on me, it's diss-curbin'
Music is a life worth risk-takin', I'm just thinkin' too deep, but if to you it's shallow
It means you suck so much you can't even follow, so these few bars I start to flow
On 'em, just a simple few bars before I close my eyes and go to sleep..
Hopin' I'll wake up tomorrow to achieve the dream I had in my sleep
And that's about it, I have no other deeds, this is gonna repeat
But what am I supposed to do? Bring em home and leave it alone

sorry didn't manage to flow finish. I'll complete asap.

How to save a life

The few of us guys were just shoppin' around in white sands looking for the perfect gift for mr chee and mr gan, the only 2 teachers we can actually relate to. haha. then came across this song that alan lim said it was nice. Listened closely to it and I felt it was rather nice. Not that I havent heard this song before, I'd probably had forgotten it sometime ago. Ha.



So it goes like this..

The Fray:

How to Save a Life

Step one you say we need to talk

He walks you say sit down it's just a talk

He smiles politely back at you

You stare politely right on through

Some sort of window to your right

As he goes left and you stay right

Between the lines of fear and blame

And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best

Cause after all you do know best

Try to slip past his defense

Without granting innocence

Lay down a list of what is wrong

The things you've told him all along

And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice

You lower yours and grant him one last choice

Drive until you lose the road

Or break with the ones you've followed

He will do one of two things

He will admit to everything

Or he'll say he's just not the same

And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend

Somewhere along in the bitterness

And I would have stayed up with you all night

Had I known how to save a life