Meaning?

To actually treat others even more than me, and then come back around swearing you were always down. To lose a great friend and all this shit. Blame it on me. It's all me. Ok. I would rather have sacrificed those times I had and to have it normal forever. It's just not the same. I went around tellin' people about it? I didn't. But you won't believe. I can't be bothered to explain anymore. You won't want to listen anyway. I never even blog about it. Not till this post. Who blogged?

Those no-friends of yours speak of so many lies. They tell me how they feel about somethings, then tell you another. You don't like how I put it, but it's f- up. You actually trust them. I'm disgusted. Utterly disgusted. If I said this right into your face you would say I'm self-opinionated. So what am I supposed to do? Let it go? Haven't I done that? I never bugged about anything. You wanna talk about it, ok. Nobody's stoppin' you.

I always knew something like that would happen.
If you'd still remember what I said on day 1.

And to not see that 'withheld' shine on my screen again.

I lied to you about how I felt, just to let it go. You believe? You think I really felt that way? Ok nvm. For me to trust so much in you and then that's it. That's it?

Upset ur whole entire life? please.

I didn't want to talk about this anymore. But if I don't jot it down somewhere, who would know?

People only read about it, but they'll never understand.

This is not for you, it's for me. This is not an argument.