I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY THAT I LOVE YOU

To families and friends

I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY THAT I MISS YOU.

"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody"

It's an old book but it totally echoes my current state of thought.

Who doesn't get frustrated when life is bullshit

And it doesn't play out the way that you want it

Fuck it, let me state all the worries I possess

Not enough love, not enough friends and not enough cash

Not enough hugs, not enough bitches to show my love

But I don't let media fool me thinking there is true love

And every page states minimum wage in this fucking cage

Short-sighted faggots can't envision the future image

Where alienation's gonna hit you harder than you think

That's the reason there is no water in the kitchen sink

I feel like a loser and things only gets sorer

It gets worse when your pockets feel lighter without dollars

Struggles of the poor, turned behind by blind eyes

Suddenly I have a dream of catching the ryes

Too often I have a problem with my hermetic self

Can't let go of the hook I cling onto since age twelve

Pictorial signs that dictate personal profiles

Sentimental minds that dilate critical smiles

So when I grab the mic I grab it tight, I grab it right

Never forgetting those who shone the light in the darkest nights

I remember when I was just a kid with no worries

But memories seem so distant I wonder if that kid was me

Raised by a driven dad and a loving mum

But still dependent on them at age twenty one

Passin' life, I went to school, crossing boundaries

Determined not to let anyone see the real side of me

But I understand that ain't gonna get me far

People get defensive after they sustain a scar

Not willing to open up to people, are they

But reality and truth can't match, they say

You just gotta live with it, through the fog and the mist

And hope one day eternal bliss really exists

But for now that day shall remain a beautiful dream

Where the patch of grass will glow a pasture green

Chances are slim, but that don't mean it won't happen

Meanwhile you can fight till the sun is burnt

Till day turns night till the death of zeitgeist

When nothing matters, fuck the times you memorized

When you were mesmerized, by the person next to you

And you realize I was the only person who was true

I MEAN IT WHEN I SAY THAT I LOVE YOU.