Friday, February 24, 2006

Mis-Matched

A day of mixed emotions. I don't know how to decribe it myself, as it's been some short of pathetic day for me, probably my worst day on this god damn earth.

Fridays, my favourite day of the week. The slackin' day..
Lessons for the day: PE, Maths, Chinese (+Enrichment), English and FTCT.
How tough can the day get?
But it never gets easier than this.

PE: I could have scored this long range goal, curling with an outrageous swirl, and with great speed. All for the efforts for the goal of my life (maybe besides the goal I scored from half-field in last year), all hopes were dashed for Yu Lun's safe hands, claiming the ball and making it seem so easy. But deep inside me, I knew it never was. It was still a good game, in addition to the fact that our team was outnumbered. 11 VS 2, although in reality the numbers were equal. The only 2 players active in play throughout was probably Shawn and Andreas. I was feeling some sort of f- up, but the day just had to carry on. In a sucky fashion. (Actually it started off worse. Read on to find out why)
Dissapointment

Maths: Mr Toh was absent today; he had to attend some course. Nevertheless, it was wishful thinking from me to think he would let 4V off so easily. Unpredictable as he always is, he gave us a quiz on Frequency Distribution, without prior notice (or at least I didn't know about it)!

But the thing about today's Maths lesson was about me helping a classmate in his quiz. I know this kinda thing is so-called branded 'illegal' in tests, but who gives a damn? Definitely not so was our relief teacher Mr Tan. Although I myself isn't that mathematically inclined, I thought I've assisted him as much as I have liked to. After listening to KC Tan's comments about this guy, I am all the more determined to make a difference to the many lives around me, and to introduce colour spectrums to this world that is, ironically, 'black and white' in colour.
Jubilant
( Shows I'm gradually working towards my aim that was set since I started out with this blog.)
Chinese: As usual, no comments. (What positive things could I think of to describe LMS's chinese lessons? I've just massacred some of my brain cells to answer to that).
For the 'Enrichment' after school, worse. I mean. We (and Shawn Wee and Samuel Ee) went to class late 'cause of playing soccer, and went lost count of the timing. The China teacher was, and still is I think, so damn boring and lame. She likes to pick on me to answer questions, and I'm sick of it! I just hope the 8 lessons of the Enrichment course ends asap.
English: What else can I add on. I mean. KC Tan is simply a teacher who rocks more than anyone else. We basically went through the last pair of people for the oral presentation (Siang Yong + Wai Khang ) and the uses of Sensory words in descriptive essays. And that was it.
FTCT: Nothing special. Just some jigsaw puzzle activity that was supposed to teach us to Begin with an End in mind. Worked to its purpose with little effect.
Now, about the morning incident. Unlike the other days, I decided to take the bus at Tanah Merah instead of Tampines. To my upmost surprise, the number of people taking bus 14 at the bus stop has dropped dramatically since the start of this year I think! Herm.. Anyway. I saw her at the bus stop, and waved to her, my intention to obviously catch her sight. I don't know if it was deliberate though, for she totally ingnored me, as if not to have seen me. But I was sure she saw me when we were boarding the bus, But it was some luck of mine that I didn't get onto the same bus. -*Cough*-
Let's carry on with the day after school. We were supposed to not be playing soccer, but to do something else with JM and YX. But JM was just so reluctant and not committed to it that we had to cancel the whole thing. In the end we ended up at the soccer court. And it wasn't pleasant to me at all, this I know why, but I cannot explain why people diss my physical aspect of my game. If someone really wants to be competing at the highest level, this is something that I'm afraid, he has to overcome, although I am very clear that this part of the game can be done without to enhance the beauty of the game. As I ponder over this, I'm self-reflecting, and I am determined not to commit the same mistake the next time (if there is, but I seriously doubt so).
Anyways, f it. What's been up man 24th Feb? Couldn't you have made my life better? Or even my luck? But I don't blame you. I'll be psychotic if i do. I've got noone else to blame but myself. I'm still in the stage where I'm searching for the place to pick up from. With some guidance or so, I strongly believe this can be achieved. What is wrongfully mismatched, have to, and will, be rectified, so long as I put in the effort to make some difference. Ee Yen of 25th Feb, bring the challenge on!

Thursday, February 23, 2006

One of Us

Today. It's been somewhat special. I don't know. Is it. Or not. Suddenly. I get some clarity. As I enjoy doing something I really enjoy. I look around. There's this person. A loner. Maybe he knows he's lonely. But whether or not he knows the reason behind it is another thing. Maybe he does. Maybe not. No one knows. But this sudden rush fills me. Maybe 20 years down the road, I may not remember his name, even if I were to browse through my blog, and thoroughly.

However, I hope that day doesn't arrive, and it never comes across me, for any similar case. I want to make a difference. I wanna give something to the people around me, to the people around me. You can call it love. You can give it a name, the so-called Care. Whatever the noun, It won't be able to fully define, explain and describe it. 'Cause this thing, is what makes the world go around. What comes around, goes around. What is gonna happen, eventually will be so. It's all down to me. One person, one brave man. It's all that I need in my life. I'm gonna change the way things seem to be. It all starts from the heart, and it begins from here.

23rd Feb 2006, this is all I've got for you. I'm never gonna see you again. I might miss you. But i guess not. The future is an unknown. Like those who solve mysteries, like those who unveil theories, I'm looking forward to it as much as y'all do. Perhaps even more. 24th Feb 2006, I'm coming.