Keeper of the Night

Starting to read on this book called "KEEPER OF THE NIGHT".
Think it's not bad actually.
I shall write a review on this book or smth after I've read finish.
Btw, Cheryl, remind me about ur piece. I scared I forget.
And yea. To remind myself, have to buy SAJC badge for Jacqueline. Lol.

SAJC or MJC?
Can't make up my mind.
Maybe there's no more chance for me to change.
That Cindy la.
Psycho me somemore.
Lol.

Anyways I'd like to thank Ms Lam. Such a cool mentor. So nice to chat with.

And yea.
Suddenly I think of you, my friend.
Rest in Peace yea.

ynwa.

Aviation (2004)

Xue Qi recommended me this song.

Wow.

One word, to put it simply - NICE.

Thx for recommendation. =)

Well, it's kinda true.

When a good girl's going bad, she's gone forever... ...

Hmm..

This song is nice.

Not for sentimental value ok.

The past is past.

Bring it. =)

Aviation:

YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING

[Talking:]

This goes out to someone that was

Once the most important person in my life

I didn't realize it at the time

I can't forgive myself for the way I treated you so

I don't really expect you to either

It's just... I don't even know

Just listen…

You're the one that I want, the one that I need

The one that I gotta have just to succeed

When I first saw you, I knew it was real

I'm sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn't me; let me show you the way

I looked for the sun, but it's raining today

I remember when I first looked into your eyes

It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise 'cause I didn't want to get hurt

But I didn't know I made everything worse

You told me we were crazy in love

But you didn't care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did

Then you wouldn't have hurt me like I ain't shit

Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me

I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared

When I would run my fingers through your hair

Late nights, just holding you in my arms

I don't know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you

I really wanna know you like no one else could know you

You're number one, always in my heart

And now I can't believe that our love is torn apart

[Chorus:]

I need you and

I miss you and

I want you and

I love you 'cause

I wanna hold you,

I wanna kiss you

You were my everything

And I really miss you

[2x]

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man

And then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand

The thought of that just shatters my heart

It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you

Now I wanna hold you until I can't hold you

Without you, everything seems strange

Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I'm insane,

Take away the pain

Take away the hurt

Baby, we can make it work

What about when you

Looked into my eyes

Told me you loved me

As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie

I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes

Now I'm not even a thought in your mind

I can see clearly, my love is not blind

[Chorus:]

I need you and

I miss you and

I want you and

I love you 'cause

I wanna hold you,

I wanna kiss you

You were my everything

And I really miss you

[2x]

[Talking:]

I just wish everything could have turned out differently

I had a special feeling about you

I thought maybe you did too

You would understand, but…

No matter what, you'll always be in my heart

You'll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical

I remember all the time that I had with you

Remember when you first came to my house?

You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real

But now I can't take all the pain that I feel

Reach in your heart, I know I'm still there

I don't wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?

I didn't think you would ever do me like this

I didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed

I thought you'd be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?

Now I'm nothing to you, you're with another guy

I tried, I tried, I tried, and I'm trying

Now on the inside it feels like I'm dying

[Chorus:]

I need you and

I miss you and

I want you and

I love you 'cause

I wanna hold you,

I wanna kiss you

You were my everything

And I really miss you

[2x]

[Talking:]

And I do miss you

I just thought we were meant to be

I guess now, we'll never know

The only thing I want is for you to be happy

Whether it be with me, or without me

I just want you to be happy..

Advertising Space

Heard this song by Robbie Williams over the radio.

There's a story behind this song, and I'll post it soon.

Robbie Williams

{Intensive Care}

ADVERTISING SPACE

There's no earthly way of knowing

What was in your heart

When it stopped going

The whole world shook

A storm was blowing through you

Waiting for God to stop this

And up to your neck in darkness

Everyone around you was corrupted

Saying somethin'

There's no dignity in death

To sell the world your last breath

They're still fighting over

Everything you left over

[Chorus]

I saw you standing at the gates

When Marlon Brando passed away

You had that look upon your face

Advertising space

And No one learned from your mistakes

We let our profits go to waste

All that's left in any case

Is Advertising space

... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Through your eyes

The world was burning

Please be gentle

I'm still learning

You seemed to say

As you kept turning up

They poisoned you with compromise

At what point did you realise

Everybody loves your lies

But you ahahh

Special agent for the man

Through watergate and vietnam

No one really gave a damn

Did you think the CIA did

[Chorus]

I saw you standing at the gates

When Marlon Brando passed away

You had that look upon your face

Advertising space

And No one learned from your mistake

We let our profits go to waste

All that's left in any case

Is Advertising space ooooohh

[Chorus]

I saw you standing at the gates

When Marlon Brando passed away

You had that look upon your face

Advertising space

No one learned from your mistakes

We let our profits go to waste

All that's left in any case

Is Advertising space

... ... ... ... ... ... ...

I've seen your daughter

Man shes cute

I was scared but I wanted to

Boy she looks a lot like you...

Operation: Yu Chuan

NEW YEAR'S DAY 3 (20 Feb)
That morning. yea. I went Yu Chuan's house with his friend, Jing Nan, Rui Zhe, Mandy, Wai Sum, Ryanna, Ka Ling.

Actually Yu Chuan's house is quite small, but it's just nice for a family of 4 to stay in. Quite comfy too. =) The only thing that lacked was games! We played poker cards throughout the whole visit, plus some t.v. watching.

Hmm.. I shall not elaborate on the details, but the things each person did. Roughly.

Yu Chuan kept asking me to teach him guitar, which he successfully learnt the front part of<< 愛我別走>>.. Haha. Aiya it'll take time la. Slowly man.

Jing Nan crapped her way through, but the good thing was that she participated everything we played. haha.

Wai Sum, Ryanna, Ka Ling were relatively quiet.

Mandy did join in too, though she got sleepy after that and dozed off for a while.

Karoake session - in his room! Lol.

Yu Chuan's best friend, Benedict was supposed to come, but he didn't. Maybe he went in the evening, which by the time I had left. Was called up to watch Norbit but didn't - I had already made my promise.

Conclusion: The food was ok - thanks yc! And I love the big love-letter cookies your house had. And his brother is cute - and quite serious. Lol. I watched with him Discovery Channel! Then he kept blabbering about the sleepwalking show! haha.

Went jm's house after that with yewf, and we did something that was meaningful in our perspective. It's all up to you to decide whether we did the right thing though. But thanks to your mum too, the mini 'steamboat' was nice.

Rushed off back home, 'cause I have school the following day. But still was scolded after I reached home at 11am. Assignments still undone. Song for tmr's test still not practiced. =/

None.

People feelin' they can relate, but the worst thing they can teach is hate..
Remorse.. For whom?

When deeply in love, you don't see the big deal of the weaknesses.
But when love fails, and becomes hate, all the good points 'shrink', in your eyes, and become negligible. And weaknesses become the main highlight.

Like someone said, no one is perfect.

None.

And none, for anybody else to understand.

I'm not gonna do anymore empty talk.. Just let things take its place.

Disappointed..

And none.

Nothin' else.

Prioritising is important.. But when you feel something's amiss, and you can do nothin' to fix it.
Just let it go.. Even if you're forgotten.. But not to me.

Why did you even wait outside? Are you stupid or smth? You wasted 3 days of your precious life away. And perhaps more in the future. And the person whom you waited for doesn't even know it, neither does the person feel for you. The person doesn't even care, from what I see. Friend, I'm being real here - what you did was stupid.

It's not like the person doesn't know how much you've given in. Not like you didn't try. And your reward - not even a word of appreciation, gratitude for your effort. Are you an idiot or what. I'm speechless you know.

Cheer up boy, you're the man.
You're not alone, and if you happen to read this post, just know that, even if you think I can't understand you, the truth is, no-one else can.

Cheer up yea.

ynwa.

Mahjong-Frenzy CNY

NEW YEAR'S EVE (17 Feb)
We had a mini-barbeque at grandma's house, which is supposed to be against the tradition of reunion dinner. Chatted with Victor and Vanessa. Entering university seems tough.

Only three families, including us, showed up at the reunion dinner. The others were busy with their own things.

Reached home and played mahjong with my family till 4am!

NEW YEAR DAY (18 Feb)
Went grandma's house to have lunch. More people showed up. Song-song and aunt kept asking me to appeal to SAJC after the release of results! Some said MJ would be good though, so no worries!

Played with Cassandra, Isabell and Natasha after lunch. Showed them some 'magic tricks'. Three cute girls, but they are like obsessed with magic! Lol. Then they kept asking me to 'do it again' and to teach them. But magic is not learnt to be taught. Wanted to take their photos but they're so camera-shy! Kept shunning away from the camera. Lol.

Stan smsed me 'coz he was bored. Nothing much else I guess.

We went to the temple after lunch before heading home to have a break. Didn't really take too long a break as we had to return to grandma's house for dinner in the evening. After dinner watched 突然發財 on Channel 8. Didn't get to watch finish the whole thing though. Had to leave half-way.

Yewf was telling me what happened on his side on the phone. He like over-excited or something. haha. Then he happened to be watching the same show on Channel 8! Omg the show is damn lame.

Then we started to play mahjong at around 10pm. Stopped the game to pick up my brother from work. Then continued to play from 12pm to 6am! =)

NEW YEAR'S DAY 2 (19 Feb)
Went cousin Steven's house to have lunch. A lot of people were there too! They didn't give us red-packets though. -.- But ok la, I'm fine with it. Played computer games with Shaun and crapped. The food was nice, all cooked by my aunt! Sure is a good cook. And the chocolate mint cake made by my cousin's wife is simply - heaven.

Edmund and Susan came right after lunch for around 2 hours till 3pm, when they had to leave 'cause someone was going over to their place. But the three kids, like yesterday, were still figuring out the magic we showed them yesterday. Taught them how to play BLUFF and HEART-ATTACK! =)

After they left, we sat down to watch JJ's concert on Channel U. Coicindentally, Mayday's concert was on another channel. =/

And guess what. Steven said he could help me get Mayday's concert tickets next time! =)

What a gain for this CNY!

Ghostrider

Went back to school today, despite being sick.
Went to have breakfast with my dad, before picking up Gabriel at Tanah Merah mrt and proceeding to school after that.

We reached school at around 9.50. then took some photos. The guard kept staring at us, and made us sign the visitors thing. Lol. What for. We called Mr Toh to come and save us! haha. He was actually late for lesson but he still came to our 'rescue'. Lol. Then he rushed off immediately after that.

First person we saw - Ms Woon. She saw Gab and hit him hard on the arm. Lol. Kept complaining about gab's grades. And reprimanded him for not dropping the subject. She kept saying that she knew gab couldn't cope with it. Then some tall, Indian student of hers came to see her. She got distracted and then Gab and I rushed off to the canteen to get a drink. Gab tried to avoid Eddie Tan, but couldn't. We wished him Happy New Year, chatted a while and moved on to find KC Tan at staff room. In the end he wasn't there, but we met Mr Sara. Wei Choy called me, wanted to find us at staff room, but went to hiding after seeing Mr Sara. For what. Lol.

So we headed for the hall to catch the performance. It wasn't that nice though. Shit la. Wasted my time. Shoulda went for school today. Lol. Only thing I got from going back was the yellow piece of paper to join the alumni.. Not many people went back school though.

But the main thing was I helped a friend sort out some differences.

Sam Tang called me and told me that they reached TM already. They were gonna have their lunch first. Gab and I rushed to board bus 10 and reached TM at around 12. Sam Lee, Yu Ren and Sam Tang were there already. Jun Wei was still on his way there. So we went to buy the tickets first. We walked past Pastamania, and samuel tang reminded me that samuel wee works there. Went in to say 'hi' to him. My sister was there and she kept calling me. But I didn't realise. In the end she called me when I left Pastamania. Ran all the way back just to see her! haha! =)

Not long after Jun Wei arrived and he, together with Gab and I, went to eat while the other 3 went to play arcade. Lol. We crapped our way through and I didn't know Jun Wei turned GAY! Haha. So lame.

We met up afterwards, and after stoning for a while, we agreed to split up. Tang and I went to buy drink while the rest went toilet. Save time. Actually we only had 10 mins left. But Tang wasn't concerned at all. Still took his time to stroll down to the basement NTUC. Ask him hurry up he kept replying 'aiya still have time'. Really relaxed leh he. Lol.

Catched movie. Had quite a few hilarious parts if you think more to what's on the surface. Lol. Parts like 'look into my eyes!' and 'forget your friends, family, love - you're mine'. Those who nv watch won't understand la. Lol.

The movie's quite nice - although frankly speaking the storyline wasn't clear - the story moved on too quickly, and the good guy won too easily. Not really thrilling. Kinda anti-climax especially towards the end. Rating: 7/10. Next movie to watch: EPIC MOVIE. Looks crappy enough. lol.

Jun Wei kept asking us to go play pool, but after much dileberation and time wasting, it didn't work out. Went back home instead.

Helped tidy up the place to prepare for CNY.

Old Song

Old song. Nobody said nobody can't listen to old songs.

Yewf and I were talking till we suddenly brought up about this song.

YOU AND I BOTH
Jason Mraz

Was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
Oh things are gonna happen naturally
Oh taking your advice I'm looking on the bright side
And balancing the whole thing
But often times those words get tangled up in lines
And the bright lights turn to night
Until the dawn it brings
Another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just read of
Others only read of the love, the love that I love.

See I'm all about them words
Over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards
More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive

You and I, you and I
Not so little you and I anymore
And with this silence brings a moral story
More importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

Cause you and I both loved
What you and I spoke of
And others just dream of
And if you could see me now
Well I'm almost finally out ofI'm finally out of
Finally deedeedeedee
Well I'm almost finally, finally
Well I'm free, oh, I'm free

And it's okay if you have go away
Oh just remember the telephone works both ways
And if I never ever hear them ring
If nothing else I'll think the bells inside
Have finally found you someone else and that's okay
Cause I'll remember everything you sang

Cause you and I both loved what you and I spoke of
And others just read of and if you could see now
Well I'm almost finally out of.
I'm finally out of, finally, deedeeededede
Well I'm almost finally, finally, finally out of words

Why am I even doing all these

Went to the market with my mum in the morning. Rented some magazines and books before buying lunch for my siblings.

After that my mum's friend called for us to go wash spa. So i went back home, changed and went out with her there. My first time, and the feeling was really nice. Feel more refreshed now. lol.

After that I went to 羅志祥's autograph session with her to get my sister's album autographed. Hell lot of people. Waited for 5 exhausting hours standing! I don't even know why I am even doing these kinda things.

Waiting for things that I know it won't happen at all..

Maybe it's just faith that keeps me going.. Maybe.

Faith.

Faith certainly tells us what the senses do not, but not the contrary of what they see; it is above, not against them. - Blaise Pascal.

This is lame.

School was, as usual, the same.

First, we had P.E. in the morning. We played handball. I felt I played pretty well until I twisted my ankle.. Kinda pain now, but could still walk a bit.. Hopefully it won't be as painful tmr. Lol. Li Yun was making fun of me saying I shouldn't cross the dotted line. But well, am i supposed to focus on the game or the space where I'm standing on? lol. nvm la.. the rules are so troublesome for me to follow. lol.

After P.E. we had Chemistry lecture immediately. I sat beside Hazel and Mark. Chit-chatted for a while and was smsing throughout the whole lesson. In the end I didn't get what the lesson was about. Man. It's all pat's fault la. Keep askin' me about guitar lesson. lol. Still say I stone somemore. lol.

Following that was 1.5 hours of break. I can't really rmbr what I did though, but I was hanging around with O.G. people discussing about the Angel and Mortal thing. Then I decided to go S.C. there to find my classmates. They were playing carom. This is so lame. I'd rather go to work.. Perhaps working would be more productive. Sounds so hip too.

Then we went for maths lecture which was conducted by Ms. Chan. Attitude problem man. Dunno what's wrong with her. Kept shouting.
"If you don't shut up I'll ask you all to come and sit at the chairs right in front of me!"
"We're gonna spend ur C.T. funds on buying masking tapes to tape ur mouth!"
Yea yea. W/e.
Some people were laughing for no reason. This is lame.

1 p.m. Time for G.P. tutorial. But Mr Pang had to leave at 1.30 for some course. He's always going for some course. Went through arguments and explanation. That's about it I guess. Then we discussed about several issues, like "The implementation of I.R. should be abolised". But it was Tejas doing all the work. Well. I dunno. Lucas, Chong Yi, Zhi Li, Sean, Seng Yang were doing the debate on "pms should be encouraged'. And they made a fool out of it. If it were me I would do the same. They had a nice approach though.
"Promotes new industries, practice for newbies, to have better life"
This is lame.

Break again. I went cafe to find O.G. people. Then had a chat with Yu Chuan.. Then I was wonderin' if I should go guitar. I went to get my guitar and crapped with the seniors for a while.. He actually didn't stop me from pon-ning the session. Lol. So I decided to leave school anyway. And walked to the MRT station with YC. Bought bubble tea on the way. The bubble tea outside school is not bad actually. Not too sweet and just nice. =)

Suddenly we talked about online games and he talked about the various games he played when he was in Sec. 2 (GB) and Sec. 3 (MU). Lol. Life is about games? I haven't really settled down and played a game properly for a long, Long, LOng, LONg, LONG time.

So we decided to relive the moment. We went back home straight and played this entirely lame game. But I kinda enjoyed it though. For no reason. Haha.. YC thanks for accompanying me ya. Thx. =)

Suddenly I feel like talking about Miss Lam. But well, I'll pen it down one day. That's all for now. =)

My day summed up with three words:
LAME,

but nice.

Unfinished business

A mole of hoes acting like it's none of their business, takin'
A turn for the worse, like a bomb in the tomb right about to burst
Quench my thirst, but first, shut the fuck up and listen to my verse
Immerse yourself in the music, must you just be so robust and cussed
Rumours disgust, attractin' cretins, twirlin' in the media gust
Outcastes, never past the task, always unmasked, and ever out-classed
Sprectrums, influence through the cranium like penetrative radium
Intra-reflections through refractions, indexes of mediums
Unvarnished facts, double the taxes and troubles with the sexes
Livin' the devil, sniffin' the revels, he contracts and relaxes

..Unfinished.
Let's do it all over again.
Fuck the past..
My childhood, adolescent years, and the the new phase.
I'm in the 'let's do this shit for real' kinda mood.

The Revival
4th February 2007
and beyond

我知道..

《而我知道》

作詞：阿信　作曲：阿信　編曲：五月天

冰塊　還沒融化　你在看錶

我　笑的尷尬你說　最近很忙　改天聊吧

那天　我在樓下　想了很久　想　你說的話

你說　愛情很窄　世界很大(而我們應該長大)

就這樣吧　就這樣吧　我想我　聽懂你　話中的話

而我知道那真愛不一定能白頭到老

而我知道有一天你可能就這麼走掉

而我知道我知道這一切我全都知道

我就是受不了

而我知道我們曾天真的一起哭和笑

而我知道放開手但不知道怎麼忘掉

而我知道你走了以後的每一分每一秒

卻還是這麼難敖

微笑　緊緊咬牙　給你祝福　你　自由飛吧

你說　溫室沒有燦爛的花(你總是很有想法)

就這樣吧　就這樣吧

我同意　可是我　淚如雨下

《分手吧》-張震嶽

寫一封沒有地址的信

想寄到妳的心裡

告訴妳漸漸變淡的愛

妳是否曾經注意

過去的美麗日子已經不再

我還在傻傻地找尋

也許妳想要說但說不出口

我知道妳想說...

分手吧 我們分手吧

不要再騙我說妳還愛著我

妳我的夢 彼此的不同

就算是當作一時糊塗愛錯

分手吧 我們分手吧

不要再騙我說妳還愛著我

妳我的夢 彼此的不同

就算是當作一時糊塗愛錯

两人世界

兩人世界

有你的溫柔伴在我身旁

有你的勇敢堅持著我的喜歡

只要能夠多看你一秒

感覺到我對你的期望

如果你的淚水又不經意滑落

如果真是謊言已分不清

如果我有牽起你的手

你到底會不會把它緊緊握著

我們曾經喜歡過擁抱過親吻過

現在卻像一場夢一醒只剰空

但我不管我是否曾經擁有著
只求自己再相信愛你不是個錯

有你的微笑世界變得美好

有你的氣息孤獨便離我而去

只要不能再望一秒
就不見沒有你的煎熬

如果我放手能換取你的自由

如果這一走不再回頭

如果我們這樣就結束

你到底會不會感到一絲難過

我們曾經打閙過曖昧過牽著過

現在卻像陌生人揮手也懶惰

但我不管我是否曾經擁有過

只求自己再相信愛你不是個錯

難道朋友應該矜持與此而不要變情人

難道愛是那麽的脆弱那麽經不起考驗

Wonderful piece in my opinion.

Thanks, Cheryl =)

You have made a difference in my life

Child - Adult HOOD

Ice cream, eatin' while i'm screamin' in my own dream
Mixin' around with those from the ghetto, my own team
Those were the times I'd say I really loved the most
The times I shared with myself and nobody else
Enraged devil in madness, killin' everybody else
Ostracised, un-socialised, why the fuck bother?
Could'a never been born, un-fertilized, why, father?
Never understood, buffer-zone makin' me all alone
Never lived through boy-hood, i'm a deadwood, I am home-grown
But what is home? The place where the heart is? Where is it?
I can't find it within me.. This holy place is lonely
My friends befriend me, I love this girl wholeheartedly
They knowin' me inside out? I'ma knock you out
Turnin' points of life, breakin' points to fade you out
Checkin' points to check you out, at gunpoint, played me out
Strike out in the game, this moment I feel I'm worn out..

[Hook]
I still remember the times we had
But we can't go back
I still remember the friends I had
But y'all can't come back
Even with the time machine I wish I had
But I won't go back
Prayin' for the innocence we had
But we can't go back

Death comes in threes, and everytime I breathe
I see the shadow in me, the past sorrows in me
Sin-forgiver who never wished for this to happen
Hell should never exist, look what happened to 'em?
She didn't want to grow up, losin' thy innocence
No concern for motherfuckers, freely speakin' nonsense
But fuck it, when we were young we wanted to grow up
Filled with ambitions and dreams, part of the adult set-up
But when we got older we didn't want to grow up no mo
Life is hard, we bein' torn' us apart, don't be sure
I could be doing all the shit that I wanted
Restrictions, limitations, we like preys bein' hunted
Used to think that those fairy-tale loves that existed
Fuck cash, the root of all evil, we weaklings are ousted
The writers, THEM! We livin' out our life-spans drawn out
I don't see the love in true love anymore, who's worn out?


[Hook]


The Death
23 October 2006 - 3 Febuary 2007


Fuck your love songs.

Reminisence.. of those St. Andrew's Days.

Today was cross country at east coast park.
We were consistent ok.
I, Romit, Jothi and some other guy walked throughout the cross country and chit-chatted for like 1 hour. Even the WaiSum, Zhen Ying, Polly caught up with us after they started off from the mark 30 mins later. Around there la. Anyways it was full of bullshit. Romit blabbering about Adjit and Jothi and I crappin around. lol.

Then after we reached the finishing point, we actually forgot to take our cup of milo. wasted. ha. romit was then playin' around with a pair of sunglasses. then during the mascot, we were laughin' our heads off and making fun of all the mascots.. But the best was Loyfatt house's. Presenting.. the 'i-fatt'. the best part was that the slogan was 'i fatt, u fatt, we fatt'. that was absolute lameness.. haha. they had to win the title given their 'perfect slogan'.

..Unfinished. Posted December 11 2007.