Sunday, September 30, 2007

So far.

Kin told me this was da' real shit, and this was the start of it

Little did I know he meant it, for real, it couldn't be less surreal

I thought, maybe I had some doubts in me, I wasn't sure either

A rap superstar misfit? But I felt more like I was a piece of shit; I screamed,

In high self-esteem, when I thought I met the girl of my dreams

But it wasn't meant to be, I tried to circumvent it, but you see

Somethings happen for a reason, somethings do not, you gotta agree

Tuesday, September 04, 2007

Waitin'..

This was an old piece which I just came across. It was supposed to be done as an audio, but never had the chance. Now I don't think it should be written anyway. Life goes on, what's gone is gone isn't it. haha.

p.s. it's supposed to go with the beat 'Waiting On You'.

People say fate shall meet us together up there
But the when passion's lost, you just won't care
Like when we started lovin' each other, I felt like
You were like none-other, trust her
To know you, and you'd never thrust her
Coz she was like my soul(sole) motivator
To guide me to my goal, till the future gets bleaker
But you could always make your presence felt stronger
You were always there when I wanted to die
Wishin' I just die and leave this world full of lies
But there's too much in you for me to leave
Believin' that we could overcome the naive-
Ness in us, we coulda repaired it, couldn't we
But you didn't, we couldn't, we shouldn't, see
It was on my part to relive the moment
The further we went, something went absent
Nothin' is instantaneous, just ask your parents
This is a torment, for your treatment, what's the reason
Love became stagnant, redundant, now so distant.. and so ancient


[Hook]
Waiting on you..




That night I was isolatin', left thinkin'
Why I was doing all these for you, sinkin'
Well if you were in my position, you'd rather
Put down all your ammunition, and be gentler
Steppin' stone for your thriller, reminder
I'm smarter, now, better than ever, remember
That letter that was left in your drawer, has turned sour
Rottin' because of past tears over the past years
That necklace, still silver, was rusted, to pieces
And when you put on your earpieces, this piece is
Meaningless, purposeless, senseless, you're useless
Till now I'm still aimless, still fameless, you're shameless
Sensitive, insensitive, over-sensitive, what's your motive
My heart is small, but active, feelin' something so massive
Seduced by you, confused, and I too was fused
I'm like a big joke you can reuse.. reuse.. reuse..


[Hook]
Waiting on you..


People change, and we can do nothin' to fix it
Lackin' in patiece, soon it becomes a bad habit
Used to share a common bond, now you won't respond
Like a cushion to solid rock I'm to rest on
Press on, I'd like to hear once again from you
Angry, 'cause I didn't catch the first dawn with you?
You knew I had no choice to, I had a curfew
Friendship over relationship, tryin' to start something new?
Havin' the patience in the first place, we could ace
In the love race, off the pace, back to the first place
A friend, irreplaceable, a fiend, effaceable
Life is tough, havin' to split my personal
A joint between your axil, a memory eraseable
Where love first found, all this shit sentimental
Assume? Fuck it, it was all you, with me in the room
Make love? We made out without breakin' out, takin' out
What we stated out, like shadows slowly fadin' out
Blackin' out into darkness, and you started backin' out
The truth was I wanted to screw you, it turned out I never knew you
And I'm left here wonderin'..Why I'm waiting on you-u-u-u-u-..


Thought you would be with me till death
But you walked away, just like that
And we never kept in touch no more.
And you just vanished.. Without a trace.
Love become hate?

It's fucked up ain't it
How we from strangers becomin' friends to becomin' strangers again
It's fucked up ain't it

Saturday, September 01, 2007

Out of sight..

I'm writin' this in the middle of the night, when hope's out of sight
And the future turns bleak, right now, maybe right after tonight
The night leaves rustle, and I hear the door creakin' in at night
Thinkin' it was just my imagination I let it go, till my frustration strikes
This hesitation to let go, this elation to make known, just a reservation in my expectations for my education, yea fuck my full time occupation;
You get it, a fool-time occupation.
I got an anticipation for this aggrevation of an agression prickin' me and it's disturbin'
Maybe that's a reason I can't fall into sleep, I've got tricks' played on me, it's diss-curbin'
Music is a life worth risk-takin', I'm just thinkin' too deep, but if to you it's shallow
It means you suck so much you can't even follow, so these few bars I start to flow
On 'em, just a simple few bars before I close my eyes and go to sleep..
Hopin' I'll wake up tomorrow to achieve the dream I had in my sleep
And that's about it, I have no other deeds, this is gonna repeat
But what am I supposed to do? Bring em home and leave it alone

sorry didn't manage to flow finish. I'll complete asap.