All it took.

That night I had to endure the temptation of restoration
And the redemption of resurrection, different combinations
Old school, new style kind of displays that left me feelin' dismayed
But fuck it 'thee, you had to make me wanna cut out this play
Let me bring you back to November last year, before everything disappeared
Like birds struck with cupid's arrow, now you makin' me drown in my sorrow?
"See you tommorow", was the last thing you said, lust was to be borrowed
My biggest mistake was to take you thru' my highs and lows, now swallow!
The biggest phantoms of wallows, feelin' green when you mix blue and yellow
What used to be a blow ain't nothin' when now everything's mellow
To me or to you, to him or to her, they or us, fuck all the tasks
Suckin' up to me when you feelin' what I felt? Frozen and melt
Remember when you first threw me out in the blue without a clue?
That's true, through and through, got some regrets for ya to chew
Little less than a year, ya feelin' lone and pain standing in da rain
Alone, uncock a champagne... were you trained to entertain?
It's laughable.

Feelings may go?
And memories will stay?

It's just too bad.
8 months was all it took.

IF you still remember what you did..
And for christ sake I'm not emo-ing, I've just had enough.
Don't regret your actions, or swallow your own words. That's what you said.

Gone.

I was reading thru' some people's blogs today
I read about changes in life, how people lose what they think they had
How people have their dreams.. shattered and gone.
As I read on, my mind just blanked, as I felt my fingers tremble and my heart shrank..
It wasn't just a prank.. I had just witnessed another living evidence of people who never lived..



I was inspired to be admired, brave and rave, about what that's required
Now, I wonder how I venture to my future, and my future career
Wondering how I'm gonna ever get what I desire, now I feel dire
And tired, but I ain't hittin' my thirties, I ain't got my shire, or even hired
Fired, or perspire, and guess what people's talking about me
An appetite subdued, that's how I'm feelin', what got me reelin',
Was people not real-lin', fakin' it up, and makin' it up, just to get me down
Remindin' me Yen trusted the fella' with the dolla, now that's a bizzare
Close up to me, clothes up on me, you can never tell what rose upexpirin'

I'm perspirin', when people mocked about me not workin' to be aspirin'

Like i needed aspirin, to get me set off and runnin', gunnin' and shinin'

So I'm startin' off with polishin' my shoes, hopin' it would get me thru' to me

See everyone's got their turning point of life, I've got my own to tell
Like 'wait a second if you've got a burning point you got to dwell',
This girl lost her wishes to the glitches, and these snitchers
Were none-other than those none-the-richer, she was more like the hitcher
Someone's offed the switches, and tried to sting a hole in my stiches
These parasites like leeches, some preachers tryin' to reach 'em
Here they claimin' they can relate, I'll get it straight to da' point

When you make a mistake, no matter the rate, you still dissapoint

So tell me the reason I'm still stuck here in sedate, I'm sick here

Solute and minute, grown a shoot and I'm root, the fear of fear

The dreams about bein' a lawyer, doctor, an emcee and a singer

Bewildered, but neither of all confounded, either that or I fall, grounded

Now I'm not here pretending I can relate, but I can feel hate

Within uncontented, when they uncontested, incompetent

They call it fate.. Or mere destiny.. But beyond's what meets more than the eye..

And after that lil' chat I had with Kin, all the more I feel what's lost.. and gone.

The once wild dreams.. Just vanished.. And perished.. Was it too late to save it? Or is this our last chance to wake up from our long trance?

God knows the past was gone.

Gone.

Remiscent.. of 4th February 2007.

我走在這路口..

It's been sometime since he came up with his new album, and it was released quite some time ago, but due to my exams, I havent updated myself with this fantastic new album of his. It's nice, I'm serious. I've always liked his songs, and it fully satisfied my excitement and anticipation and it surpassed my expectations for this album. I'd like to introduce two of his songs that I personally enjoy listenin' to.

Like everyone who faces the lowest point of their lives, I believe everyone does, sometimes we do want to look back and see what we once had, and reminisce about some of the good times we had with our friends and family. You really never know what you got, till it's gone.

歌手：張震岳

專輯：OK

《思念是一種病》

當你再穿山越嶺的另一邊
我在孤獨的路上沒有盡頭
...
一輩子有多少的來不及
發現已經失去
最重要的東西
恍然大悟早已遠去
爲何總是在犯錯之後
才肯相信錯的是自己
他們說這就是人生
試著体會試著忍住眼淚
還是躲不開應該有的情緒
我不會奢求世界停止轉動
我知道逃避一點都沒有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈

[當你再穿山越嶺的另一邊
我在孤獨的路上沒有盡頭
時常感覺你在耳后的呼吸
卻未曾感覺你在心口的鼻息]

汲汲營營
忘記身邊的人需要愛和關心
藉口總是拉遠了距離
不知不覺無聲無息
我們總是在抱怨事與願違
卻不願意回頭看看自己
想想自己到底做了什麽蠢事情
也許是上帝給我一個試煉
只是這傷口需要花點時間
只是回想念過去的一切
那些人事物會離我遠去
而我們終究也會遠離
變成回憶…

Oh~ 思念是一種病
Oh~ 思念是一種病 (一種病)

Rap:
多久沒有說“我愛你”
多久沒有擁抱你所愛的人
當這個世界不再那麽美好
只有愛可以讓它更好
我相信一切都來得及
別管那些紛紛擾擾
被讓步開心的事情停下了腳步
就怕你不說就怕你不做
別讓遺憾繼續一切都來得及

《路口》

一個人走無聊的路口
我還在做夢以爲你會喜歡我
我的希望落空而香煙不離手
抽到我心很痛

兩個人走我恨這路口
你說不愛我放我在夜裏難過
連再見也不說而眼淚沒停過
苦到我鼻涕流

愛情就是黑洞扭曲我所有
我想要愛你卻迷失了我自己
真的分不出來給的是不是真愛
游戲我玩不起來

我不想走去你媽的路口
破碎的痴夢丟到馬桶讓水流
本人依然沒救而香煙沒停過
咳到我心很痛
深陷沼泥之中沒有人救我
手機上都是你曾經留的訊息
你眼神的不耐有如利刃飛過來
瞬間我終于明白（不在為你心痛）

A few more weeks till I'm going back taiwan, and I was thinking if i should go back. Maybe I should save the money for something else, but on the other hand, I really miss my relatives, and the prospect of all the things we're gonna do together always excites me. I want to return home, but circumstances just don't permit so.

思念，是一種病。

真的。