再見了，泰順街

你們也搬家了。我們以前盡力捍衛的家園也賣掉了，也該是分錢的時候了。

我們常把回憶挂在嘴邊，但或許..我們大家太高估每一段美麗的回憶了，因爲到最後... 還有誰記得以前一切的一切呢

到底是爲了誰，到底是爲了什麽，把家裏搞到這樣呢

只希望總有一天會風平浪靜

再見了，泰順街。

再見了，我的童年。

我們向前走吧

week 9?!

from the heavens to the world to the heavens again
from the ending to the ending, never got to begin

sense the serene

Am I a dreamer? Dreaming about the good life
Beautiful house, beautiful children, with a beautiful wife
Far away from the miseries of the shallow cities
Far away from nine to fivers in the cubicle office
But this stress arises cause I'm here tryna be there
Sweating a future I'm not sure will even be there
I hear that global warming 'bout to burn us up
And the climate's changing; the future is dark
This inertia's problematic cause I don't wanna think
Hoping today's sorrows will flow through this ink
But each moment's beautiful like each beautiful wink
Perfectly disguised as hell if you find the missing link
It always happens after the death of your own time
And after you find the missing depth of your dimes
I fear for a future that has no 'you' and 'i' in it
But for now I sense the serene in every single minute

lovers and friends from start to end

that's why you should sleep early. keeps you from having these crazy thoughts.

and yes i still miss y'all.

金言幾句

今天閲到這幾句金言，好像還蠻值得參考學習~

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人在什麼時候最清醒?

1、天災降臨後。2、東窗事發後。3、大禍臨頭後。4、重病纏身後。
5、遭受重挫後。6、退休閒暇後。

人在什麼時候最糊塗?

1、春風得意時。2、來錢容易時。3、得權專橫時。4、迷戀情愛時。
5、想佔便宜時。6、老年癡呆時。

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一語道破！

1、世界上難以---自拔的，除了牙齒，還有愛情。

2、廢話，是人際交往的第一句話。

3、現實中，人們用真名講假話；虛擬中，人們用假名講真話。

4、生時---何需久睡，死後---自會長眠。

5、痛苦，本來就是清醒的人，才能擁有的享受。

6、大學就是---大概學學。

7、所謂長大，就是你知道那是什麼事；
所謂成熟，就是你知道後，故意說不知道。

8、感情經得起風雨，卻經不起平淡；
友情經得起平淡，卻經不起風雨。

9、願意留下來，跟你吵的人，才是真正愛你的人。
在乎你，才爭才吵。留下來的，是不離不棄。

10、謊言與誓言的區別在於：
一個是聽的人--當真了，一個是說的人--當真了。

11、回憶，是通往寂寞的牢。

12、對自己好點，因為，一輩子---不長；
對身邊的人好點，因為~下輩子不一定能---碰到。

a place without tears

Call this sentimental, call this emotional
They call whatever they want it, it's personal
But never for a second do I doubt this feeling
'Cause it's hard moving on from the previous reeling
The sun rays tell me each day will only get better
But every night that passes gets bitter and bitter
Empty promises on letters, now just waste papers
Hoping someday we'll meet in a place without tears

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this is for the people always feeling trapped
got nowhere better to go so we always go back
piling stacks of life, resourcefully abundant
but can't help always feeling this redundant
that shit repugnant, gliding through great disruptions
the only proof you see is in that manifestation
this congregation of constructed institutions
is killing my natural instincts and intuition
rolling forward but retarded in inertia
developed by my habit of developing pyrexia
it comes from nowhere and suddenly, kaboom
like a dormant spore only destined to bloom
but i'm honestly sick of waiting for shit to happen
an opened can of worms sinking right in tandem
needing oxygen to sustain my resurrection
but always waking up to this god-damn situation

우산

어느새 빗물이    내 발목에 고이고
oneusae pitmuli  nae balmoke koyigo
참았던 눈물이    내 눈가에 고이고
chamatton nunmuli        nae nungae kohigo
I cry~


텅빈 방엔 시계소리       지붕과 입 맞추는 비의 소리
tongpin bangen shigyosori       shibongwa ip machuneun biwi sori
오랜만에 입은       코트 주머니속에 반지
oraenmane ibeun       koteu chumonisoge panchi
손틈새 스며드는 memory       며칠만에 나서보는 밤의 서울
sonteumsae seumyodeuneun memory       myochlmane nasoboneun pami seoul
고인 빗물은 작은 거울       그 속에 난 비틀거리며
goin pitmuleun chaneun koul       geu sone nan pikeulgorimyo
아프니까 그대 없이 난       한쪽 다리가 짧은 의자
apeunigga geudae obni nan       hanchok daliga chapleun uicha
둘이서 쓰긴 작았던 우산       차가운 세상에 섬 같았던 우산
dulishi sseugin chagatton usan       chagaun sesange som gatatton usan
이젠 너무 크고 어색해       그대 곁에 늘 젖어있던 왼쪽어깨
yichen nomu geuko osaenhae       geutae gyote neul chotoyitton winchokottae
기억의 무게에 고개 숙여보니       버려진듯 풀어진 내 신발끈
gionui mukehe kokae sukyoponi       poryochindeut pulochin nae shinbalggeun
허나 곁엔 오직 비와 바람 없다       잠시라도 우산을 들어 줄 사람
hona gyoten oshin piwa param opda       chamsirado usaneul deul chul saram
and I cry~


어느새 빗물이       내 발목에 고이고
oneusae pitmuli       nae palmoge goyigo
참았던 눈물이       내 눈가에 고이고
chamatton nunmuli       nae nungae goyigo
I cry~

그대는 내 머리위에 우산       어깨위에 차가운 비 내리는 밤
geudaeneun nae moriwie usan       oggaewie chagaun bi naerineun bam
내 곁에 그대가       습관이 되어버린 나
nae gyote geutaega       seupgwani dwioborin na
난 그대없이는 안되요       
nan geudaeopineun andwiyo

alone in the rain, rain, rain       nothing but pain, pain, pain
girl i just want you to know
alone in the rain, rain, rain       nothing but pain, pain, pain
and i just can't let you go


하늘의 눈물이 고인 땅       별을 감춘 구름에 보인 달
haneului nunmuli koin ttang      pyoreul gamchun guleume boin dal 
골목길 홀로 외로운 구두 소리       메아리에 돌아보며
golmongil hollo uiloun gudu sori       mearie dolabomyo
가슴 졸인 맘       나를 꼭 닮은 그림자
gaseum cholin mam       nareul ggon damreun geulimcha
서로가 서로를 볼 수 없었던       우리가
soroga soroleul pol su opsotton       uliga
이제야 둘인가       대답을 그리다
icheya dulinga       daedapeul geurida
머리 속 그림과 대답을 흐린다       내 눈엔 너무 컸던 우산
mori sok geulimgwa daedapeul heurinda       nae nunen nomu kotton usan
날 울린 세상을 향해 접던 우산       영원의 약속에 활짝 폈던 우산
nal urrin sesangeul hyanghae chopton usan       yongwonui yaksoke hwalchak pyotton usan
이제는 찢겨진 우산       아래 두 맘
icheneun chitgyashin usan       arae du mam
돌아봐도 이제는 없겠죠       두 손은 주머니 속 깊게 넣겠죠
dolabwado icheneun opgettchyo       du soneun chumoni sok gipge nohgettchyo
이리저리 자유롭게 걸어도       두 볼은 가랑비도 쉽게 젖겠죠
iricholi chayulopge golodo       du poleun galangbido swipge chotgettchyo

어느새 빗물이       내 발목에 고이고
oneusae pimuli       nae balmoke goyigo
참았던 눈물이       내 눈가에 고이고
chamatton nunmuli       nae nungae goyigo
I cry~

그대는 내 머리위에 우산       어깨위에 차가운 비 내리는 밤
geudaeneun nae moriwie usan       oggaewie chagaun bi naerineun bam
내 곁에 그대가       습관이 되어버린 나
nae gyote geudaega       seupgwani duioborin na
난 그대없이는 안되요
nan geudaeopsineun andwiyo

alone in the rain, rain, rain       nothing but pain, pain, pain
girl i just want you to know
alone in the rain, rain, rain       nothing but pain, pain, pain
and i just can't let you go


난 열어놨어 내 맘의 문을       그댄 내 머리 위에 우산
nan yoronwao nae mamui muneul       geudaen nae mori uie usan
그대의 그림자는 나의 그늘       그댄 내 머리 위에 우산
geudaeui geurimchaneun nawi usan       geudaen nae mori uie usan
난 열어놨어 내 맘의 문을       그댄 내 머리 위에 우산
nan yoronwao nae mamui muneul       geudaen nae mori uie usan
그대의 그림자는 나의 그늘       그댄 내 머리 위에 우산
geudaeui geurimchaneun nawi usan       geudaen nae mori uie usan
나의 곁에 그대가 없기에       내 창밖에 우산을 들고
naui gyote geudaega opgie       nae champakke usaneul deulgo
기다리던 그대
kidaridon geudae
I cry~

그대는 내 머리위에 우산       어깨위에 차가운 비 내리는 밤
geudaeneun nae moli uie usan       okkaeuie chagaun bi naerineun bam
내 곁에 그대가       습관이 되어버린 나
nae gyote geudaega       seupgani duioborin na
난 그대없이는 안되요       그대는 내 머리위에 우산
nan geudaeopineun andwiyo       geudaeneun nae moli uie usan
어깨위에 차가운 비 내리는 밤       내 곁에 그대가
oggaewie chagaun bi naerineun bam       nae gyote geudaega
없는 반쪽의 세상       그댄 나 없이는 안돼요
opneun pamchonui sesang       geudaen na opsineun andwiyo
forever in the rain~



Suddenly the rain has gathered at my feet
The tears that I held in are welling around my eyes
I cry~

The sound of the clock in an empty room
The sound of the rain hitting the roof and my lips
The ring inside the coat I haven’t worn in a while
The gathering memory
The Seoul I haven’t seen in a few days
The gathered rain are like little mirrors
Within them I struggle because it hurts
Without you I’m like a chair with a short leg
The umbrella that was too small for the both of us
The umbrella that shielded us from the cold world
Now seems much to big and awkward.
Your left shoulder always got so wet
I hang my head with the weight of the memories
My shoelaces are untied, undone
Now all thats next to me is the rain and wind (not there)
a person that will hold my umbrella for a while
and I cry~

A puddle of rain has gathered around my feet
The tears that I ~held in are welling around my eyes
I cry~

CHORUS
You are the umbrella above my head
The cold rain falling above my shoulders in night
You next to me has become a habit
I cant be without you

alone in the rain, rain, rain       nothing but pain, pain, pain
girl i just want you to know
alone in the rain, rain, rain       nothing but pain, pain, pain
and i just can't let you go

The ground has gathered the tears of the sky
I can see the moon behind the star blocking clouds
The sound of lonely shoes echo down the alley
I turn around
Its just heart wrenching night
A shadow that looks just like me
The us that couldn’t see us
Are we two now?
The answer is lonely
The picture in my mind and my response is vague
The umbrella that was too big in my eyes
The umbrella I close facing the world that made me cry
The umbrella that I opened with the promise of forever
Under the now ripped umbrella are two hearts
I guess even though I turn you wont be there
I put my two hands deep inside my pockets
Even though I walk carefree
My two cheeks will easily become wet
Suddenly the rain has gathered at my feet
The tears that I held in are welling around my eyes
I cry~

CHORUS
I opened the door of my heart
you’re the umbrella above my head
You are my shadow, I am your shade
You’re the umbrella above my head
I opened the door of my heart
you’re the umbrella above my head
You are my shadow, I am your shade
You’re the umbrella above my head

alone in the rain, rain, rain       nothing but pain, pain, pain
girl i just want you to know
alone in the rain, rain, rain       nothing but pain, pain, pain
and i just can't let you go

Because you are not next to me
I waited outside with an umbrella
outside your house
I cry~

CHORUS
You are the umbrella above my head
The cold rain falling above my shoulders in night
The world is in two pieces without you next to me
you cant be without me
forever in the rain~

rainy days like these

alone in the rain rain rain
nothing but pain pain pain

and it just wont stop raining these few days
feeling a little bit sick to the stomach

but by tomorrow i'll be fine. as always.

reminiscence of disjointed dots

Yet the rain doesn't stop dripping into the hollow block
Knocking upon reminiscence of disjointed dots

after all these months

"Um, third time's the charm, hopefully

When I chime on your door you'd still let me in

After all these years, the room you caved in my heart

Is exactly the same as you had left it

I realize that you have moved on

New styles and cliques like them silent flicks

I'm speechless in this golden occasion

The beautiful expression on the silver creation"

slipping away

hello, how are you?

my little man slash poet slash mc.

you might be busy with school and learning german, economics, political science and getting ready for further studies in germany in the future.

i know sometimes it feels like this dream feels like a distant memory because you don't even have much skills.

but hey.

you do remember what it was like writing your first rhyme, right? i know it's hard, but don't let that feeling slip away.

rest well, else your health's gonna recline again.

hard

must not complain.

the life altering moment when mum left us.

life is hard but nobody said it was gonna be easy.

must not complain.

new mottos

must not complain.

must bring change.

must get it done.

我們什麽都不是

因爲到最後，

我們什麽都不是。

恭喜好朋友Cheryl今晚2013年7月15日以最高榮譽學位化學科學士順利畢業。
而什麽時候會輪到我呢？


期待爸爸看到我畢業的那一天

happy birthday to me

Dear family and friends, thank you for your wishes, whether virtual, in voice, via text or in person. Each and every one of them have been well-received, and I appreciate them all, whether you're a friend new or old, close or distant.

To be honest, I hesitated writing this note because I've always been one who's quick to show my disapproval of those who facebook their problems, instead of facing them (though I know I'm guilty of it sometimes >.<). But I suppose they have their reasons for doing so, and, well, I'm no different.

It's been a crazy year since my last birthday.

Last birthday, I recall spending time at a Grill party with friends whom I've spent a significant amount of time with in Germany. That was one of the few great moments last year.

And something struck so bad (something which some of my closer friends know about), and instantly it became so hard juggling housework at home, work in school, and a job I couldn't quit because I had made a promise to an ailing teacher to see his students through PSLE. He eventually passed away, which left me pretty much in a limbo.

I started turning up late for school, constantly not having enough sleep, and neglecting my then girlfriend.

Meanwhile I grew distant with friends, stopped going for soccer, and eventually, had my girlfriend ignore her way out of a relationship, which, to be honest, I couldn't quite handle anymore. I wasn't doing well for anything actually. I struggled to attend Aikido training sessions, struggled to keep up my passion for German, I struggled to put on a happy face when I meet the kids during every Sunday class.

Ain't trying to find excuses, but I just can't tell you how glad that I survived 2012, and see that my students had all done reasonably well, well enough to go on to their respective secondary schools. And I just can't tell you how glad I am to have continued with German (hence some good friend(s), and me being better prepared to go on exchange soon). Just can't tell you how glad I am to have persisted with Aikido (hence attaining 6th Kyu, and enjoying every training session that I'm able to attend!).

Even till today, sometimes I get annoyed with the constant bickering with siblings because of the new roles all of us learn to adapt to. I get jaded sometimes, but looking back on the experience accumulated, though I can't figure out whether they've been good or bad, I'm definitely sure they've made me grown. And I'm still learning every day.

I'm just glad I made it this old.

For my host family who keeps in touch with me, reminding me of the good times I had in Muenster, Germany, I thank you so much for reminding me of the little happy things that every student should treasure while being a student.

For the friends who understand me, stood by me, and kept in touch with me on a frequent basis, thank you for your care, concern, and for bring joy and laughters into my life always!

And as for my dad, I think you're the most capable person ever. Your strength to carry on through adversity inspires me whenever I lose my passion for life. Trying so hard to give me the life you never had, for that I love you, sincerely and truly.

And I hope one day I have the courage to say them to you in person. And one day I swear I'll give you the life you deserve.

I love you.

Sometimes I get annoyed with the constant bickering with siblings because of the new roles all of us had to learn to adapt to. 

累

老實說,在這個只有我在乎的家庭裏存在著，很累

不能跟別人怨一聲‘累’，我只好又回來找你這個又笨又呆的部落格發一下牢騷

因爲只有你不會訂我嘴，又會一字不漏的把它們全記載下來

還是你可靠

因爲23嵗生日這一天，我並不覺得特別，只覺得自己一點用處都沒有，一點被別人珍惜的感覺也沒有

有時想找個遠在韓國的朋友訴苦，但又不想打擾別人

還是自己振作起來，加油吧

useless prick, ha.

Sometimes I feel like a useless prick
Falling to diseases that make me sick

And that was how I spent my fucking 23rd birthday.

At my aunt's place while I seek solace in this place.

another tired night

sometimes i feel tired, and the indecision is killing me
swaying moods like the moon, aint no one feeling me

Land of the cross

"Look up to the cross, stranded in the land of the lost"