USUAL BOOK OUT TIMING: Fridays 1530hrs - 1630hrs
TRADES COURSE POP DATE: 150509 1900hrs - 2100hrs [Friday]
(I drove my BX during the parade! View facebook)
After POP went bedok to eat bbq seafood. Reached home around 11 i guess.
160509 [Saturday] - Played soccer. Supposed to go NTU Tea session but raining. =( No umbrella. Replayed MGS last episode within one afternoon.
180509 [Monday] - Cancel MySavings account. Went to fetch my bro together with my mum.
190509 [Tuesday] - Met Hazel & Shirley for Hazel's belated birthday. Dhoby Ghaut Cathay Nihon Murah. (View facebook)
200509 [Wednesday] - Meet Sam Tang & Jun Wei watched 'Angels and Demons'.
210509 [Thursday] - Went swimming in the morning, then met YiWei, Sean, Marcus, Ben, Jerrold, ShiJun, Jason, Billy for Kuishin-bo at Suntec City at 1730. OMG $40 dinner is burning a hole in my pocket =( (still owe shijun $2)
220509 [Friday] - Went for Thai restaurant in Kovan for lunch. Went swimming after that. Meet Tang and Junwei for 'Night at the Museum 2'. Ate LJS.
230509 [Saturday] - Soccer was pathetic. Only 5 people came (YX left) lol. Played with the kids at the netball court. Nvm then sigh. Met Zhang, SzeJun, Alab for lunch at Carl's Jr. before YiFeng joined us after that. Went Coffee Bean's to chill. Think they went for movie after dinner. Had steamboat at home! I love my mum's cooking. =D
240509 [Sunday] - Blog this thing and get ready for book in.. The same old shit again haha.
1st Book-in after Trades Course: 24th May 2009, 2200hrs [Sunday]
These few nights were damn busy god damn. Finally collected some decent beats.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
050509 Media.
Thought of a remake of the 'Media' back in Jan 2006.
Week in, week out, I'm ostracised, confined to the military
Now everytime I'm unleashed to the world I'm lost in reality
That day boredom drove me to switch on my grandy T.V.
What flashed thru' my mind were images of tragedies
A conscript who tastes mild freedom every once in a while
I saw excess, extravagant freedom drivin' people senile
I saw the downside of all these shit; people don't know shit
About the definition of all boundaries and limits; I saw people crazy
Crazy 'bout the media frenzy, masterpieces of papparazi
Politicians charismatic, outspoken with ideals; contradictory
Plainly speakin', people readin', watchin', hearin', speakin' religiously
About systems and institutions put in place by the people before thee
So confident about the understanding of the human society
But to me so obtuse - they institutionalised so completely
'Cause they run their lives so rapidly lately, souls lost completely
Seein', believin', into this vortex of complexity
[Hook]
The net, audio, radio, paper, the media
Extend they hands to greet ya, to meet ya
With toxins, poisoned data to feed ya
Now they ready to pounce, devour and eat ya
The sex and the violence, the rude and the nude
Teachings of failed parents; failed to understood
Most afraid of they kids comin' back home with earrings
Kids blockin' out words of wisdom they hearing
A cartooned body; outlet to vent they frustration
They situation they in, result of failed education
Coupled with inadequate communication with reality
Makin' names for theyselves in virtual reality
Couch-potato lifestyle, eatin' your mashed potato
Makin' news on radio, stories on your T.V. show
So you guys out there get a whole true story video
They just givin' you what you want, entertainment and news
More news, bizzare news, hypocritical views, you can't argue
The weakest link in the poison text filter; through you
What comes around, goes around, it all comes back to you..
[Hook]
The net, audio, radio, paper, the media
Extend they hands to greet ya, to meet ya
With toxins, poisoned data to feed ya
Now they ready to pounce, devour and eat ya
Whatever.. Fuck this.
Week in, week out, I'm ostracised, confined to the military
Now everytime I'm unleashed to the world I'm lost in reality
That day boredom drove me to switch on my grandy T.V.
What flashed thru' my mind were images of tragedies
A conscript who tastes mild freedom every once in a while
I saw excess, extravagant freedom drivin' people senile
I saw the downside of all these shit; people don't know shit
About the definition of all boundaries and limits; I saw people crazy
Crazy 'bout the media frenzy, masterpieces of papparazi
Politicians charismatic, outspoken with ideals; contradictory
Plainly speakin', people readin', watchin', hearin', speakin' religiously
About systems and institutions put in place by the people before thee
So confident about the understanding of the human society
But to me so obtuse - they institutionalised so completely
'Cause they run their lives so rapidly lately, souls lost completely
Seein', believin', into this vortex of complexity
[Hook]
The net, audio, radio, paper, the media
Extend they hands to greet ya, to meet ya
With toxins, poisoned data to feed ya
Now they ready to pounce, devour and eat ya
The sex and the violence, the rude and the nude
Teachings of failed parents; failed to understood
Most afraid of they kids comin' back home with earrings
Kids blockin' out words of wisdom they hearing
A cartooned body; outlet to vent they frustration
They situation they in, result of failed education
Coupled with inadequate communication with reality
Makin' names for theyselves in virtual reality
Couch-potato lifestyle, eatin' your mashed potato
Makin' news on radio, stories on your T.V. show
So you guys out there get a whole true story video
They just givin' you what you want, entertainment and news
More news, bizzare news, hypocritical views, you can't argue
The weakest link in the poison text filter; through you
What comes around, goes around, it all comes back to you..
[Hook]
The net, audio, radio, paper, the media
Extend they hands to greet ya, to meet ya
With toxins, poisoned data to feed ya
Now they ready to pounce, devour and eat ya
Whatever.. Fuck this.
280409. Untitled.
Have you ever experienced the fragility of relationships
Like you never knew how far close was, till things dip
Things sour, shit happens, rage boils and evaporates
To thin air, leavin' you red faced and your closest friends dead
And then you wake up to your senses, to reality, to realise
You had just self-destructed, faltered defences, you're demise
"What have you done?" Destroying what you helped build
Now you an empty man, trying in vain, escape from guilt
It's stupid..
If you had known, you wouldn't have blown
Wouldn't have retrieved the bone that never was
Coz what you see may all be false
Fuck you if you don't feel remorse..
A couple of years back I had a belief
A belief that true love exists, true love I could trust
Now two years later this story's been told till rust
The more I speak of it, the more flack they cast
It's becomin' a joke, one laugh too much
It's gettin' sticky, like covered in starch
But what can I do? Only to live my life away as a fool
Like the Jack of all tricks, never knew he was just a tool..
If you had known, you wouldn't have blown
Wouldn't have retrieved the bone that never was
Coz what you see may all be false
Fuck you if you don't feel remorse..
Like you never knew how far close was, till things dip
Things sour, shit happens, rage boils and evaporates
To thin air, leavin' you red faced and your closest friends dead
And then you wake up to your senses, to reality, to realise
You had just self-destructed, faltered defences, you're demise
"What have you done?" Destroying what you helped build
Now you an empty man, trying in vain, escape from guilt
It's stupid..
If you had known, you wouldn't have blown
Wouldn't have retrieved the bone that never was
Coz what you see may all be false
Fuck you if you don't feel remorse..
A couple of years back I had a belief
A belief that true love exists, true love I could trust
Now two years later this story's been told till rust
The more I speak of it, the more flack they cast
It's becomin' a joke, one laugh too much
It's gettin' sticky, like covered in starch
But what can I do? Only to live my life away as a fool
Like the Jack of all tricks, never knew he was just a tool..
If you had known, you wouldn't have blown
Wouldn't have retrieved the bone that never was
Coz what you see may all be false
Fuck you if you don't feel remorse..
Sunday, May 10, 2009
So what.
Just met this arrogant bastard from my sec sch days. His initial response was like: 'huh u man ah'?
Wanted to talk back but ah nvm, not like such ppl are of any importance or significance to me anyways.
What's wrong with being a man. I'm doing my best, contributing and still serving for a country I'm not even sure I'm commited to. Perhaps the people here is the reason why I've never felt a sense of belonging here, and I've always felt like going back to where I should be. Sigh.
Can't be officer or sergeant because of sbj? That's stupid.
But in any retrospect, after these 7 weeks here I think I'm starting to appreciate my vocation, but I'm defo not takin' anything for granted. Hopefully the next batch of commanders that come in are decent people. Then perhaps they'll change my perception of y'all local lads.
Wanted to talk back but ah nvm, not like such ppl are of any importance or significance to me anyways.
What's wrong with being a man. I'm doing my best, contributing and still serving for a country I'm not even sure I'm commited to. Perhaps the people here is the reason why I've never felt a sense of belonging here, and I've always felt like going back to where I should be. Sigh.
Can't be officer or sergeant because of sbj? That's stupid.
But in any retrospect, after these 7 weeks here I think I'm starting to appreciate my vocation, but I'm defo not takin' anything for granted. Hopefully the next batch of commanders that come in are decent people. Then perhaps they'll change my perception of y'all local lads.
Saturday, May 02, 2009
If I Didn't Have You
"If I Didn't Have You" (Live)
Performed by Randy Newman & John Goodman
Written by Randy Newman
Music From The Motion Picture Original Soundtrack "Monsters, Inc." (2001)
Live At The "Oscar - The 74th Annual Academy Awards" (2002)
If I were a rich man
With a million or two
I'd live in a penthouse
In a room with a view
And if I were handsome, it could happen
Those dreams do come true
I wouldn't have nothing
If I didn't have you
Wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
Wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
Wouldn't have nothing
For years I have envied
Your grace and your charm
Everyone loves you, you know
Yes, I know, I know, I know
But I must admit it
Big guy, you always come through
I wouldn't have nothing
If I didn't have you
You and me together
That's how it always should be
One without the other
Don't mean nothing to me
Nothing to me
Yes I wouldn't be nothing
If I didn't have you to serve
I'm just a punky little eyeball
And an ugly little optic nerve
Hey, I never told you this but
Sometimes I get a little blue
But I wouldn't have nothing
if I didn't have you
Dance with me
I wouldn't be nothing
If I didn't have you
I wouldn't know where to go
Wouldn't know what to do
I don't have to say it
'Cause we both know it's true
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have you
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have you
Performed by Randy Newman & John Goodman
Written by Randy Newman
Music From The Motion Picture Original Soundtrack "Monsters, Inc." (2001)
Live At The "Oscar - The 74th Annual Academy Awards" (2002)
If I were a rich man
With a million or two
I'd live in a penthouse
In a room with a view
And if I were handsome, it could happen
Those dreams do come true
I wouldn't have nothing
If I didn't have you
Wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
Wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
Wouldn't have nothing
For years I have envied
Your grace and your charm
Everyone loves you, you know
Yes, I know, I know, I know
But I must admit it
Big guy, you always come through
I wouldn't have nothing
If I didn't have you
You and me together
That's how it always should be
One without the other
Don't mean nothing to me
Nothing to me
Yes I wouldn't be nothing
If I didn't have you to serve
I'm just a punky little eyeball
And an ugly little optic nerve
Hey, I never told you this but
Sometimes I get a little blue
But I wouldn't have nothing
if I didn't have you
Dance with me
I wouldn't be nothing
If I didn't have you
I wouldn't know where to go
Wouldn't know what to do
I don't have to say it
'Cause we both know it's true
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have you
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have you
Yesterday
Singer: Atmosphere
Album: "When Life Gives You Lemons, You Paint That Shit Gold" (2008)
Song:
"YESTERDAY"
[Verse 1]
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I didn't stop cause you was walking the opposite way
I guess I could have shouted out your name
But even if it was you I don't what I would say
We can sit and reminisce about the old school
Maybe share a cigarette because we both fools
Chop it up and compare perspectives
Life Love stress and Set backs
Yes'
You could tell me how hard you had it
And you could show me all the scares to back it
And we can analyze each complaint
Break it down and explain these mistakes i make
I like to tangle up the strings of the puppetry
But you knew me back when i was a younger me
You've seen Sean in all types of life
And I've been meaning to ask you if I'm doing alright
[Chorus]
Yesterday, was that you
Looked just like you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you
Yesterday, was that you
Looked just like you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you
[Verse 2]
I'm Shook
I know
I pushed when I should of pulled
Took it all back if I could I put that on my soul
And I would make a top notch good listener
If you could block off a little time out to give it here
Since we went our separate paths
I hits a couple of snags
That remind me of the past
I cant front I'm having a blast
But damned if I ain't afraid of how long its gonna last
Sitting here wishing we could kick it
Gimme your opinions I do miss the criticisms
I didn't mean to be distant
Make a visit
Ill wait up and keep the coffee brewing in the kitchen
But who am I jokin' with
Theres no way that you and I will ever get to re-open it
It doesn't matter, this is more than love
And maybe if I'm lucky, get to see you out the corner of
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
And when you left, I didn't see it comin'
I guess I slept, it ain't like you was runnin'
You crept out the front door slow
And I was so self-absorbed I didn't even know
And by the time I looked up it was booked up
Put it all behind you, the bad and the good stuff
A whole house full of dreams and steps
I think you'd be impressed with the pieces I kept
You disappeared but the history is still here
It's why I try not to cry over spilt beer
I can't even get mad that you're gone
Leavin' me was probably the best thing you ever taught me
I'm sorry, it's official
I was a fist-full, I didn't keep it simple
Chip on the shoulder, anger in my veins
Had so much hatred, now it brings me shame
Never thought about the world without you
And I promise that I'll never say another bad word about you
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I knew it wasn't you, 'cause you passed away, dad
[Outro]
Looked just like you
Strange thangs my imagination might do
Take a breath, reflect on what we been through
Or am I just goin' crazy 'cause I miss you?
Album: "When Life Gives You Lemons, You Paint That Shit Gold" (2008)
Song:
"YESTERDAY"
[Verse 1]
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I didn't stop cause you was walking the opposite way
I guess I could have shouted out your name
But even if it was you I don't what I would say
We can sit and reminisce about the old school
Maybe share a cigarette because we both fools
Chop it up and compare perspectives
Life Love stress and Set backs
Yes'
You could tell me how hard you had it
And you could show me all the scares to back it
And we can analyze each complaint
Break it down and explain these mistakes i make
I like to tangle up the strings of the puppetry
But you knew me back when i was a younger me
You've seen Sean in all types of life
And I've been meaning to ask you if I'm doing alright
[Chorus]
Yesterday, was that you
Looked just like you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you
Yesterday, was that you
Looked just like you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you
[Verse 2]
I'm Shook
I know
I pushed when I should of pulled
Took it all back if I could I put that on my soul
And I would make a top notch good listener
If you could block off a little time out to give it here
Since we went our separate paths
I hits a couple of snags
That remind me of the past
I cant front I'm having a blast
But damned if I ain't afraid of how long its gonna last
Sitting here wishing we could kick it
Gimme your opinions I do miss the criticisms
I didn't mean to be distant
Make a visit
Ill wait up and keep the coffee brewing in the kitchen
But who am I jokin' with
Theres no way that you and I will ever get to re-open it
It doesn't matter, this is more than love
And maybe if I'm lucky, get to see you out the corner of
[Chorus]
[Verse 3]
And when you left, I didn't see it comin'
I guess I slept, it ain't like you was runnin'
You crept out the front door slow
And I was so self-absorbed I didn't even know
And by the time I looked up it was booked up
Put it all behind you, the bad and the good stuff
A whole house full of dreams and steps
I think you'd be impressed with the pieces I kept
You disappeared but the history is still here
It's why I try not to cry over spilt beer
I can't even get mad that you're gone
Leavin' me was probably the best thing you ever taught me
I'm sorry, it's official
I was a fist-full, I didn't keep it simple
Chip on the shoulder, anger in my veins
Had so much hatred, now it brings me shame
Never thought about the world without you
And I promise that I'll never say another bad word about you
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I knew it wasn't you, 'cause you passed away, dad
[Outro]
Looked just like you
Strange thangs my imagination might do
Take a breath, reflect on what we been through
Or am I just goin' crazy 'cause I miss you?
Junction
I'm tired of saying the same shit everytime I rap
Tired of thinkin' thru the shit that I've never had
All these time, in my life, the regrets that I have had
It's absolute craziness, sometimes it burns when I'm mad
See all these time in my life I've lived passively
Institutionalized, homogenized, conformity
Compromisin' with the system, becomin' one of 'em
Only to realise I'm no different than all of 'em
Used to condemn the life they've had; hypocrite
Now I find myself in an awkward situation; I'm sick
Sick of givin' the same old excuses everytime I quit
Showin' no signs of remorse, reluctant to commit
To this common cause we envisioned to make it
But that was yesterday, it's gone so, ah, fuck it
Let's not accept that we all have limits
Let's see how far we can go with talent we emit
I envision ten years on I'll still be the same
Just another person, passerby, no one knows his name
Havin' made a choice between fame and mediocrity
Never had a shot at producing his own CD
Never had a shit clue about what to do with his life
Never had a breakthrough lookin back in his life archive
Another ten years on sinkin' in a mid-life crisis
Envy of all the wealth, fortune and fame that could have been his
But it don't matter I'm not in here for the money
The tangibles in life; it don't matter really
As long as you have the food, water and shelter
But you don't just wanna be another miss or mister
You just want to be remembered as someone unforgettable
Someone incredibly, truly, remarkably inspirational
So many times in my life I've said it's make or break
Now this time's for real.. Or is it all fake?
Tired of thinkin' thru the shit that I've never had
All these time, in my life, the regrets that I have had
It's absolute craziness, sometimes it burns when I'm mad
See all these time in my life I've lived passively
Institutionalized, homogenized, conformity
Compromisin' with the system, becomin' one of 'em
Only to realise I'm no different than all of 'em
Used to condemn the life they've had; hypocrite
Now I find myself in an awkward situation; I'm sick
Sick of givin' the same old excuses everytime I quit
Showin' no signs of remorse, reluctant to commit
To this common cause we envisioned to make it
But that was yesterday, it's gone so, ah, fuck it
Let's not accept that we all have limits
Let's see how far we can go with talent we emit
I envision ten years on I'll still be the same
Just another person, passerby, no one knows his name
Havin' made a choice between fame and mediocrity
Never had a shot at producing his own CD
Never had a shit clue about what to do with his life
Never had a breakthrough lookin back in his life archive
Another ten years on sinkin' in a mid-life crisis
Envy of all the wealth, fortune and fame that could have been his
But it don't matter I'm not in here for the money
The tangibles in life; it don't matter really
As long as you have the food, water and shelter
But you don't just wanna be another miss or mister
You just want to be remembered as someone unforgettable
Someone incredibly, truly, remarkably inspirational
So many times in my life I've said it's make or break
Now this time's for real.. Or is it all fake?
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