I opened my eyes, only to see darkness in my eyes..
Fear slowly engulfs me.. Like a stab straight into my thighs
Pain.. I couldn't see a thing.. Blink! Now let me see something!!
But all I could see was the night.. Whatever happened to my sight?
Stupid questions flowed into the back of my brain.. Am I insane?
I tried to stand up.. I'm just blind am I not? But why am I lame?
On the bed, paralyzed, now all I could do was visualise
My world.. Lonely and Empty.. Now I tried to fantasize..
I was once criticised for crucifying the handicapped..
Zap!!! Now I'm one of them.. It's hard to even take a nap
Because that's when nightmares haunt me, the illusion that I see
So daunting, then it collapses to become reality..
My family, my friends vanish in thin air.. There.. Memories..
It's sad to see, that you can't see, and everything is radio
It's sad to be me, now that I can't see, images on stereo
Frequency, am I supposed to detect? Mirror.. Please reflect!
The silence in the night drowns me, alone, loneliness kills
When I pick up the receiver to call, no reply still
All alone, quiet, then my dying brain cells went on a riot
Vulnerable, anyone can deceive, who shall I believe?
I was naive, love from the world was what I perceived
I was relieved to have my choices sieved, now I'm grieving
They say my only disadvantage's anger mismanage
Broke out in cold sweat, I was blind-folded standing onstage..
The world was my only stage, "LET ME OUT OF THIS CAGE!"
As aging hits like raging blitz, degeneration-engage!
Shh.. Silence spoke in sentences... "Shit! My body can't take this stroke!"*
God's toying with you, life's playing with you, can't take this joke?
Emotionless, I was instantaneously motion-less
Momentarily speechless, wanted to cry, but screech-less
We had what we were given, we thought we would be forgiven
But we forget we're even, till the day we're driven to heaven..
"Whatever our individual troubles and challenges may be, it’s important to pause every now and then to appreciate all that we have, on every level"..
'Cause you never know when you'll lose all that you have..Treasure.Witnessing stupid things that happened just right in front of me during my adscolent years has got me to realise that you don't always get what you deserve to get, and sometimes, you get what you don't deserve to get.. 'Cause life is unfair.
Ever thought of being blind for just a day? I've lived with a blind, and I know how tough life is without functioning eyes.. Not only is she sickly, she can't get to live with even her own daughter.. Her dearest daughter has migrated overseas.. She thinks her daughter was happily married.. That's why she's happy for her.. She thinks her biggest achievement was to allow her dearest daughter total freedom in whatever she chose in life, in hope that she can live the way she wants.. And be happy.. But her daughter often quarrels with her husband, to a point she once told me that she had divorce in mind.. But decided to hang on for her children..
The blind's biggest joy was her daughter's 'joy'. Now imagine how she'd react if she discovers that her daughter regrets migrating.. And she wants to go back to live with her sickly mother, but she can't. Now we all know how fair life is, but maybe, that's what makes life an obstacle, a challenge.. You can't predict when's your last night, your last 'goodbye' to your family, your friends, to simple things like your eyes. But what we can do to make life an enriching one, is treasure.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
To this day, I mourn..
Unusual dreams haunt you when you think you've forgotten about them.
I seldom dream, but when I do, it's surprising that I can actually remember what I have dreamt.
But to you up there, there's something that I wished I had the chance to tell you, but I didnt.
In primary school, I always hated Science, always scoring just average for my tests and exams...
Not that I really care about academics now, but I felt that if there was someone who could really change the mindset of students, it was you.
6F never really kicked off to working hard for PSLE.
Cause everyone hated studies.
Then you came in, and changed the whole situation.
Among all the teachers I have met, none of them gave a damn about their students...
But you were different, not like those teachers who circumvent,
Like those angels from heaven you represent, your loss we lament
For justice you made a stand, for your rights you would defend for it,
Fight for it, contrite for any motherfucker who dares to quit
Of the slackers you persuaded to make a flit.. It was lives you lit
None in the class was left behind, none of our pranks did you mind,
It's crazy shit that we were confined, it's lazy kids you refined
You got the class to unite, now we divide, pain and memories subside...
Remember you got us to stand side-by-side, like men we held on tight
And when you tripped and fell, just when you were doing a show-and-tell
The class laughed, you got on your feet, went back to your seat
As tears rolled down your cheek, thinking how cheap we are, "Bizarre!"
You wonder where these kids would end up after graduation,
House estates agents, another cleaner cleaning up the gents?
Maybe another bankrupt who's just keen to earn a few cents?
NONSENSE! Potential is what you see, "just locks missing the key"
Came in, inject some sense, words that weren't nice, put us on the device
"God, give 'em some advice!" Message sender.. You.. In front of our eyes
Like waves that surge, like litters up the shore you purge, Strive, I URGE!
Push on you must, never give up even if you're one of the last,
Even if you're off your task, live with no mask, live with no regret
Got that? Now after the big days, what you sow is what you get
Finally.. The big days were over, and the 'fever' deteriorates
Leave the school with pride, the spirit, and always remember what I said..
When we came back to get our results, fear occult, then tears of joy
None more warmer than yours, student-teachers no more, 'fly away boys'!
Freedom.. From that fucking school that used us as tools, but not you
Stayed in contact, connection.. Then kids back in action, forming factions
Back to the 'nest' to visit those who moulded me, all left, so deft!
But you? Always there to help chicks preparing for their biggest fight - flight
A touching moment, you had my greatest respect, perfect I suspect?
Strong and healthy, unexpectedly, devil sets in stealthly..
Why? Why the unfair ruling of god? My lord, see clearly!
This woman is the greatest person ever, she should be loved dearly!
As the lungs expand and contract, the number of cells subtracts..
Inconspicuous, lookin' ready to bring this batch of chicks to flight,
By then she was still young in her early 30s.. The phone had rung..
Time to go, my lady, your lungs can't support, end of span.. Now report!
The strong evilish devils were dead wrong my lord! Undeserved!
A sin.. Did she commit? If so, I'll serve any sentence for it!!!
And that night, I woke up shivering in agony.. Internal struggle.. 'Cause I never had the chance to say goodbye to you.. 'Goodbye'.. Is really very difficult to word.. Especially when you just left us, without prior notice, that you were heading for the stairway to heaven..
Did you know something? I once saw a woman at Katong Shopping Centre, just a couple of months before Harng-Yi told me you left all of us.. There was this woman with her old mother, and she very much resembled you.. But then hesitancy sets in.. She's too skinny for you. .Too pale too.. So I decided to take it that it was just another person on this god-damn earth who looks like another person I know. But 2 months later when Harng-Yi rang me up to inform me of the bad news, then I realised that the woman was not someone else..
It was you.
To you up there, I'd just want you to know:
Even though it's been 2 years since you've left..
The impact you have made before your candle glowed for the last second, is phenomenal..
As we all grow up, we lose our innocence, and our dedication to our goals..
But I'm pretty sure being a teacher was your goal in your life. And now, being more mature than I was, I'd like to say that you really kept your innocence and your dedication, and stretched your helping hands to a lot of us..
Then, as I wanted to complete my sentence, there was this huge balloon that blew up in front my eyes. It was labelled 'HOPE'.
And I woke up.
How idiotic is that?
But I still recall what I wanted to say to you before the connection from the earth to heaven was cut off..
"Even though at this point of time many of the 6F people may have forgotten you, but it is to this day, I mourn.."
I seldom dream, but when I do, it's surprising that I can actually remember what I have dreamt.
But to you up there, there's something that I wished I had the chance to tell you, but I didnt.
In primary school, I always hated Science, always scoring just average for my tests and exams...
Not that I really care about academics now, but I felt that if there was someone who could really change the mindset of students, it was you.
6F never really kicked off to working hard for PSLE.
Cause everyone hated studies.
Then you came in, and changed the whole situation.
Among all the teachers I have met, none of them gave a damn about their students...
But you were different, not like those teachers who circumvent,
Like those angels from heaven you represent, your loss we lament
For justice you made a stand, for your rights you would defend for it,
Fight for it, contrite for any motherfucker who dares to quit
Of the slackers you persuaded to make a flit.. It was lives you lit
None in the class was left behind, none of our pranks did you mind,
It's crazy shit that we were confined, it's lazy kids you refined
You got the class to unite, now we divide, pain and memories subside...
Remember you got us to stand side-by-side, like men we held on tight
And when you tripped and fell, just when you were doing a show-and-tell
The class laughed, you got on your feet, went back to your seat
As tears rolled down your cheek, thinking how cheap we are, "Bizarre!"
You wonder where these kids would end up after graduation,
House estates agents, another cleaner cleaning up the gents?
Maybe another bankrupt who's just keen to earn a few cents?
NONSENSE! Potential is what you see, "just locks missing the key"
Came in, inject some sense, words that weren't nice, put us on the device
"God, give 'em some advice!" Message sender.. You.. In front of our eyes
Like waves that surge, like litters up the shore you purge, Strive, I URGE!
Push on you must, never give up even if you're one of the last,
Even if you're off your task, live with no mask, live with no regret
Got that? Now after the big days, what you sow is what you get
Finally.. The big days were over, and the 'fever' deteriorates
Leave the school with pride, the spirit, and always remember what I said..
When we came back to get our results, fear occult, then tears of joy
None more warmer than yours, student-teachers no more, 'fly away boys'!
Freedom.. From that fucking school that used us as tools, but not you
Stayed in contact, connection.. Then kids back in action, forming factions
Back to the 'nest' to visit those who moulded me, all left, so deft!
But you? Always there to help chicks preparing for their biggest fight - flight
A touching moment, you had my greatest respect, perfect I suspect?
Strong and healthy, unexpectedly, devil sets in stealthly..
Why? Why the unfair ruling of god? My lord, see clearly!
This woman is the greatest person ever, she should be loved dearly!
As the lungs expand and contract, the number of cells subtracts..
Inconspicuous, lookin' ready to bring this batch of chicks to flight,
By then she was still young in her early 30s.. The phone had rung..
Time to go, my lady, your lungs can't support, end of span.. Now report!
The strong evilish devils were dead wrong my lord! Undeserved!
A sin.. Did she commit? If so, I'll serve any sentence for it!!!
And that night, I woke up shivering in agony.. Internal struggle.. 'Cause I never had the chance to say goodbye to you.. 'Goodbye'.. Is really very difficult to word.. Especially when you just left us, without prior notice, that you were heading for the stairway to heaven..
Did you know something? I once saw a woman at Katong Shopping Centre, just a couple of months before Harng-Yi told me you left all of us.. There was this woman with her old mother, and she very much resembled you.. But then hesitancy sets in.. She's too skinny for you. .Too pale too.. So I decided to take it that it was just another person on this god-damn earth who looks like another person I know. But 2 months later when Harng-Yi rang me up to inform me of the bad news, then I realised that the woman was not someone else..
It was you.
To you up there, I'd just want you to know:
Even though it's been 2 years since you've left..
The impact you have made before your candle glowed for the last second, is phenomenal..
As we all grow up, we lose our innocence, and our dedication to our goals..
But I'm pretty sure being a teacher was your goal in your life. And now, being more mature than I was, I'd like to say that you really kept your innocence and your dedication, and stretched your helping hands to a lot of us..
Then, as I wanted to complete my sentence, there was this huge balloon that blew up in front my eyes. It was labelled 'HOPE'.
And I woke up.
How idiotic is that?
But I still recall what I wanted to say to you before the connection from the earth to heaven was cut off..
"Even though at this point of time many of the 6F people may have forgotten you, but it is to this day, I mourn.."
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Post 4V - 4S Match (Total mauling!) =)
Yesterday's match was quite simply, wondrous.
4V 4 - 0 4S
For the first time that I have played for 4V, we played like a TEAM.
Many times in the past have I complained about the lack of team coordination, not being on the end of receiving passes, being isolated on the pitch, people being selfish..
But not yesterday.
And yesterday's match will probably be the ONLY class match that I'll never forget.
Finally, I've found my true self (on the pitch).
Those past matches, I didn't even give in 50% of my effort, I know.
Yesterday still wasn't my best though, I know it as well.
Maybe it was the cramp, but it doesn't really matter to me I guess.
What was notesworthy was, I really played well. I'm not being arrogant or what, but I feel so proud of the team, the class. We may be strangers, but at least, when we come together to work as a team, under pressure probably, we've shown that we can do it.
The class's cheering was so deafening. Really. And to Kat, it's really nice of you to have come down to give us support. =) It was much appreciated. =)
Now this was how the match went.
4V 4 - 0 4S
For the first time that I have played for 4V, we played like a TEAM.
Many times in the past have I complained about the lack of team coordination, not being on the end of receiving passes, being isolated on the pitch, people being selfish..
But not yesterday.
And yesterday's match will probably be the ONLY class match that I'll never forget.
Finally, I've found my true self (on the pitch).
Those past matches, I didn't even give in 50% of my effort, I know.
Yesterday still wasn't my best though, I know it as well.
Maybe it was the cramp, but it doesn't really matter to me I guess.
What was notesworthy was, I really played well. I'm not being arrogant or what, but I feel so proud of the team, the class. We may be strangers, but at least, when we come together to work as a team, under pressure probably, we've shown that we can do it.
The class's cheering was so deafening. Really. And to Kat, it's really nice of you to have come down to give us support. =) It was much appreciated. =)
Now this was how the match went.
- The 1st goal was scored by Benny. I assisted it! It was Kang Yu's cross I think, that was actually a bit too far, but anyways, I just headed the ball backwards towards the centre. It could be luck that it landed nicely to the feet of Benny, but he managed to pull of the challenges of at least 2 defenders to tuck the ball in sweetly. =) Nice team-play I felt. =)
- The 2nd goal was a fluke. Comical goal scored by.. ME! =) It was again, Kang Yu's cross, poor cross it was, that went straight into the hands of Fredrick, but somehow, he dropped the ball. My first instinct was to run up straight to tap in the ball. And I was rewarded. =) Fredrick tried grabbed my leg to prevent me from scoring, but with all the loud cheering behind me, I knew I just had to stretch an inch more to tap the ball just pass the line. POWER TO THE PEOPLE!!! =) No glory in that, but I really enjoyed it. =) Sometimes you really just need luck to score those type of goals.
- The 3rd goal was scored just a few minutes into the second half. By me again! The 4S defence failed miserably to clear a Guo Hao corner. And there I was at the right place, at the right time, to tuck the ball in from just about 3m out. That really compiled the misery on 4S.
- The 4th goal was scored by Benny (which looked like Shawn's goal.. Lolx!). By this time I had already had my muscle cramp, and the attack depended very much on 'The Trio' consisting of Guo Hao, Benny and Shawn, who, by this time was given the freedom to roam about because Jonathan came on for the injured Kang Yu. Kang Yu suffered from what I saw, a quite severe cramp. And because we had used all of our 3 substitutions, I had no choice but to continue playing. =s Anyway back to the goal, it started off with some brilliant dribbling skills that really baffled the defence. His shot was superbly palmed away by their keeper, and like how I scored my goals, Benny too was at the right place at the right time, making the most out of the confusion. =)
And that was how the goals were scored. But what was unthinkable was that 4S didn't convert any of their 3 penalties! The first penalty was of the result of Gabriel's handball, and the second, Kang Yu's handball (he was supposed to clear the corner ball out of the area, but it surprisingly hit him on the arm. I wonder how he did that). The third was an undeserved one for them, because it should have been an indirect freekick for Jonathan handling the ball out of his own area. That was, I suppose, to award them a consolation goal? But who cares? They missed it too. =P
After that I went home with Yu Xiang, talked about some random stuff.. Then had some trouble trying to walk home with just one 'functioning' leg. It's now better, but I hope I will never sustain such cramps again. It's excruciating to get a cramp in the middle of a match. And what's worse is when you are the last man and you can't get subbed out.
I know it's not a problem with warming up. We did warm ups quite thoroughly, even had a lot of time to kick the ball around before the match.
Still, there are somethings that I know I must improve on my soccer. Here's the list of the things I wanna achieve, but for anyone who feels that there's some other aspects that I needa improve on, feel free to leave comments! =)
- Larger strides
- Better ball control (I still suck at it)
- Shooting (still always shooting towards the left! =s)
- My control technique (I know ppl have opz abt this... But I will change myself kz? =) )
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Post-Motivation Camp =)
Finally the motivation camp is over.
These 3 days has really been an enriching one.. Mabe not for me, but for at least the people around us.. I feel.. Finally some sense is injected into these people..
Why?
Why is it that we needed someone else to interpose our class? Why is it that, the problems that were asked and thrown straight to our face, have to be questions that you guys have never ever thought before? You mean, you guys have never questioned yourself about life?
Yes I agree that everyone is lonely. Maybe this motivation camp shall unite and gel us together, for the moment at least.. Not that I'm being pessimistic, but maybe this bond we share.. Will one day be broken? Of course that's one thing that I wouldnt want, but can we all prevent that from happening? Life moves on. People change. Can we withstand the pressure of this harsh reality and really hang on as a class, even though we move on from secondary school? I really hope we can, but it'll really much depend on everyone else. Thus, I really hope that we shall not forget that this motivation camp was meant to hold us all together, but we will not forget that there's no purpose behind us all going together.
Nonetheless, I really want to congratulate you guys for finally finding out who you truly are.
Life has been a struggle to me, maybe to you guys as well? I'm really glad that through this camp, you guys can be a little more appreciative about the things, the people around you?
Friendship is the only unsunkable ship.
To Cheryl,
I really salute you for your immense courage that you have never shown before, finally revealing who you truly are, letting yourself totally go, letting yourself understand and really appreciate your friends, even though I may not be 'close' to you in anyway, I really congratulate you for really seeing through life.. Life is more than finding the person who don't care for you. It's hard to love, but it's very easy to be loved. We all know it. So all we gotta do now is to thank the people who have stood by us throughout, whether the good or bad times.
I've lost the people whom I love before, and I know what it's like, especially when you think of the people in the darkest and loniest nights.. And on the festive seasons, on christmas, being alone.. Really sucks. But you know, love is nothing but an illusion. I used to love this girl a lot. But all she gave me back was, pain and anguish.
Love, is, in my own words, the optical illusion that we shall all try to forget. You are strong Cheryl! Live on! You're never alone! All you have to do is open yourself more! =) We're all so proud of you! =)
To Maisarah,
also, I must admit I'm not that close to you either. But listening to you talk about your own life, it was really poignant. There are somethings that I really didnt know until this motivation camp. Now you said about your family.. I guess no one's perfect? Maybe your family problems are affecting how you are doing in school, but let's not have it as an excuse okay? You are physically strong, now show us that it's more than the outside. =)
To Siang Yong,
another person whom I'm not close. That's probably why I'm posting about you guys. I don't know you guys well enough, that's why I'm telling about things that maybe, I'm not in a position to judge, but from what I can see, you've really changed a lot after this camp. If you hadn't felt anything for yourself, you wouldn't have cried your heart out so badly on the 2nd night. People don't show concern for you. You think you're insignificant. But you know, we all know deep inside you, how much you actually care. Now, pick yourself up from where you last fell, and rise from there. Even if you think you're too late, which is always better than never, and even if you think you can't get up, roll. Your speed is no doubt much slower than those who pick themselves up and run on from there, but well, at least, you'll never be left behind to those who never pick themselves up. We all know how great the things you can achieve, if you just believe in yourself. Your drawings.. You said they needed inspiration. Perhaps that's why studying is nonsense to you, because it kills your inspirational cells? Yes, I hope that while you attempt your shot at the O' Levels, remain who you are, as in, your character. Be who you are, because who you are, is unique. No one can ever replace you, no one can take away your drawing skills. Now, put the talent within you to good use. =)
After talking so much about you guys, it's about time I give my opinions.
This camp's been.. Somewhat meaningful, but only to those who have never thought about the questions of life and death. If you thought those failures, those horrendous struggles that Ramesh mentioned are really difficult situations that you think you won't be able to handle if you were to meet them, let me tell you guys. There's more worse things that.. Have you guys ever thought about the difficulties that people face behind their success? But actually I'm not really surprised that people never think about these, never appreciate what they have.. To those willing to heed this advice, this is not half as brutal as reality. If you ever thought what Ramesh mentioned are the hardest, I'm sorry but I think you'd probably need some soul searching.
Time's a factor. Can we harness the power of time to heal people on the surface, or to heal people, starting from the soul. Never hurt the people you love, and to those who hurt you, remember, no one actually gives a damn about who you are. You can always make a difference, however, caring for others. Love, is not a sin. But if someone decided to lie to you, decided to cheat on you, maybe it's time for us to move on, away and very very very far AWAY from the past. The past's not the future. If someone decides not to love you anymore, let it be.
Just remember, they may one day miss those good days they had as they reminisce about the happy moments you have with them, about the promises they have broken, about empty empty dreams that were never satisfied, but it's to their massive loss not to have you by their side. He's stupid. He's a jerk. For me, she's just going through her adscolent time of her life. But when they wake up, you'd probably not with them anymore. Regret, is what we failed to get, at the first chance. Regret. And ironically, that's what adds the colours to our life.
Can we live to write finish our life book in a happy tone, or end the story on a sad note? The decision is yours. Not to walk alone. =)
To all 4V-ians. Love is really hard. 'Cause you can't just express it in the form of words. There's somethings you just can't word it out. But if there's something I'd want 4V to know, is that:
"You guys have made an awful significant impact on my life."
Lonely is inevitable. But can we all pull it through? Let's hope we do. =)
To every single 4V people,
You'll Never Walk Alone
These 3 days has really been an enriching one.. Mabe not for me, but for at least the people around us.. I feel.. Finally some sense is injected into these people..
Why?
Why is it that we needed someone else to interpose our class? Why is it that, the problems that were asked and thrown straight to our face, have to be questions that you guys have never ever thought before? You mean, you guys have never questioned yourself about life?
Yes I agree that everyone is lonely. Maybe this motivation camp shall unite and gel us together, for the moment at least.. Not that I'm being pessimistic, but maybe this bond we share.. Will one day be broken? Of course that's one thing that I wouldnt want, but can we all prevent that from happening? Life moves on. People change. Can we withstand the pressure of this harsh reality and really hang on as a class, even though we move on from secondary school? I really hope we can, but it'll really much depend on everyone else. Thus, I really hope that we shall not forget that this motivation camp was meant to hold us all together, but we will not forget that there's no purpose behind us all going together.
Nonetheless, I really want to congratulate you guys for finally finding out who you truly are.
Life has been a struggle to me, maybe to you guys as well? I'm really glad that through this camp, you guys can be a little more appreciative about the things, the people around you?
Friendship is the only unsunkable ship.
To Cheryl,
I really salute you for your immense courage that you have never shown before, finally revealing who you truly are, letting yourself totally go, letting yourself understand and really appreciate your friends, even though I may not be 'close' to you in anyway, I really congratulate you for really seeing through life.. Life is more than finding the person who don't care for you. It's hard to love, but it's very easy to be loved. We all know it. So all we gotta do now is to thank the people who have stood by us throughout, whether the good or bad times.
I've lost the people whom I love before, and I know what it's like, especially when you think of the people in the darkest and loniest nights.. And on the festive seasons, on christmas, being alone.. Really sucks. But you know, love is nothing but an illusion. I used to love this girl a lot. But all she gave me back was, pain and anguish.
Love, is, in my own words, the optical illusion that we shall all try to forget. You are strong Cheryl! Live on! You're never alone! All you have to do is open yourself more! =) We're all so proud of you! =)
To Maisarah,
also, I must admit I'm not that close to you either. But listening to you talk about your own life, it was really poignant. There are somethings that I really didnt know until this motivation camp. Now you said about your family.. I guess no one's perfect? Maybe your family problems are affecting how you are doing in school, but let's not have it as an excuse okay? You are physically strong, now show us that it's more than the outside. =)
To Siang Yong,
another person whom I'm not close. That's probably why I'm posting about you guys. I don't know you guys well enough, that's why I'm telling about things that maybe, I'm not in a position to judge, but from what I can see, you've really changed a lot after this camp. If you hadn't felt anything for yourself, you wouldn't have cried your heart out so badly on the 2nd night. People don't show concern for you. You think you're insignificant. But you know, we all know deep inside you, how much you actually care. Now, pick yourself up from where you last fell, and rise from there. Even if you think you're too late, which is always better than never, and even if you think you can't get up, roll. Your speed is no doubt much slower than those who pick themselves up and run on from there, but well, at least, you'll never be left behind to those who never pick themselves up. We all know how great the things you can achieve, if you just believe in yourself. Your drawings.. You said they needed inspiration. Perhaps that's why studying is nonsense to you, because it kills your inspirational cells? Yes, I hope that while you attempt your shot at the O' Levels, remain who you are, as in, your character. Be who you are, because who you are, is unique. No one can ever replace you, no one can take away your drawing skills. Now, put the talent within you to good use. =)
After talking so much about you guys, it's about time I give my opinions.
This camp's been.. Somewhat meaningful, but only to those who have never thought about the questions of life and death. If you thought those failures, those horrendous struggles that Ramesh mentioned are really difficult situations that you think you won't be able to handle if you were to meet them, let me tell you guys. There's more worse things that.. Have you guys ever thought about the difficulties that people face behind their success? But actually I'm not really surprised that people never think about these, never appreciate what they have.. To those willing to heed this advice, this is not half as brutal as reality. If you ever thought what Ramesh mentioned are the hardest, I'm sorry but I think you'd probably need some soul searching.
Time's a factor. Can we harness the power of time to heal people on the surface, or to heal people, starting from the soul. Never hurt the people you love, and to those who hurt you, remember, no one actually gives a damn about who you are. You can always make a difference, however, caring for others. Love, is not a sin. But if someone decided to lie to you, decided to cheat on you, maybe it's time for us to move on, away and very very very far AWAY from the past. The past's not the future. If someone decides not to love you anymore, let it be.
Just remember, they may one day miss those good days they had as they reminisce about the happy moments you have with them, about the promises they have broken, about empty empty dreams that were never satisfied, but it's to their massive loss not to have you by their side. He's stupid. He's a jerk. For me, she's just going through her adscolent time of her life. But when they wake up, you'd probably not with them anymore. Regret, is what we failed to get, at the first chance. Regret. And ironically, that's what adds the colours to our life.
Can we live to write finish our life book in a happy tone, or end the story on a sad note? The decision is yours. Not to walk alone. =)
To all 4V-ians. Love is really hard. 'Cause you can't just express it in the form of words. There's somethings you just can't word it out. But if there's something I'd want 4V to know, is that:
"You guys have made an awful significant impact on my life."
Lonely is inevitable. But can we all pull it through? Let's hope we do. =)
To every single 4V people,
You'll Never Walk Alone
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