Lookin' at Me

(Inspired by 'The Kite Runner')

Lookin' at Me..

Look..

[Verse 1]
Reverse the time, I didn't see my story would unwind
The way it did, since when did I call you a slime?
And those horrible things I did.. I hope you're fine
With each blow dealt, sometimes I wonder if a line
Stands between you and I, like white and black and grey
If I had learnt 'how to save a life' like the fray
I wouldn't let all these happen, but shit happens
You fail to distinguish a brother from a friend
Fail to differentiate love from hate, I love to hate
People sufferin', but it ain't me, goodness sake
How could I possibly have known you as a slave
You've been my fam, my full-time friend, an all-time-fave
But all I had done in that alley down the block
Was watch him rip down your pants, his pants, blown a cock
Thought I was stronger than that, turns out I'm not
I'm just a coward, like sheeps in a herd, I'm just a dirt..


[Hook]
Lookin' at me in the mirror, a thousand times over
I love you, forever, "for you, a thousand times over"
Lookin' at me in the mirror, a thousand times over
I love you, forever, "for you, a thousand times over"


[Verse 2]
Reverse the curse, but too late you still ain't a nurse
You can't heal a scar, let alone these fuckin' burns
That creep into your souls at night, so now you learn
It not the privacy earned, it's the love you yearned
Love of a dad, you've always had, but never read
Through lyin' eyes, hidden money under the bed
A theft that never was, I saw his eyes turned red
Confessin' to a lie, stupid; I admit, my bad
Didn't realise the impact of the words I said
That summer after winter, I'll never forget
Now I'll have to do all those dirty chores instead
Never the same, spendin' time on my own, instead
Of havin' you by my side, overturn the tides
Without you by my side, life's a sole bumpy ride
Wishin' you were here for me, for me to confide
Promise if they hurt you again I'll put up a fight..

I'll put up a fight..


[Hook]


[Verse 3]
Reverse the time, intertwine twenty years down the line
Thought I had you forgotten huh, nah not this time
The call summoned a trial, sentence for my crime
I guess I shoulda read the signs, read your mind
Your voices for me to save your ass for once, this time
But stupid; I couldn't see you drownin' in brine
Where was I? Far away from Afghan, I think I'm blind
Blinded from the good that you shine, the good you defined
Perhaps punishment to leave me alone forever
The most apt; I didn't deserve your love, ever
But you could tell I was the most sorry, said 'I'M SORRY'
But that changes shit, for the first and last time, I cried
'Cause nothin's changin' the fact I made a mistake
God's the only person to decide what to take
From a lethargic liar; just one lie too great
That's all it takes.. To take your life crate..


[Hook]


[Outro]
And perhaps.. There's a way to be good again..
(Loop)
Lookin at me in the mirror..
"For you a thousand times over"