gay rhymes

Gay rhymes

It's a dangerous attempt, probably my one and only chance

But I think I blew it tonight, displaying too much pretense

On hindsight it might have been better with a direct pursuit

But you couldn't skip foreplay to go to the interlude

It doesn't usually work that way, how the game is played

Showering compliments, praise bombardments like air raid

Then you go on to tell her how you really feel about her

That ain't my demeanor, casting my doubts about her

I admit, I got into it thinkin' I could stir some shit

The closer I got the more I couldn't do runs and hits

Thinking I got the skills to impress, except I couldn't dress

Striking out at tests, let me try sparking your interest

新的開始

I feel like a traitor already.

I'm losing my identity, but I'm not about to give up yet.

This is the 21st Century, you don't need a paper or a book to demonstrate your love.

29 JULY 2011.

一個新的開始

ha, smileys, ha

The language I speak is in the form of smileys and laughters

cause and effect

I don't think it's fair that I be contributing shit towards the cause when 2, 3 years back then YOU GUYS DIDN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT US.

You left the beginners to struggle, and I was the one who was there to help them. While you guys just stuck to your own little social enclaves like you gave a fuck about the rest.

And as I speak, I know y'all probably don't even acknowledge my existence.. but haha that's fine by me. But you guys going around asking for help (and to help publicize), you can forget about it.

So, the next event is coming up, and if I do turn up, I'll be turning up for the sake of this one good pal I have. That's it. Not because I support the cause. 'cause y'all aint worth shit.

shinigamis and apologies

Shinigamis..

And suddenly the thought of death is somehow bestowed on me.. maybe through the most ridiculous dreams I've ever had.. Or perhaps it's the "Death Note" mangas I've been reading.

I don't care if I'm gonna die first. The only thing I wish is to have met you earlier.

All of a sudden my life seems so packed. There's this sudden anxiety about going back to school and you know, being put into a whole brand new institution. Well, not entirely new but after these 2 years, think many will be nervous to some extent.

This is the last chance man. I've gotta do it. Persevere for 3,4 years. No more excuses.

And damn. I want to do my music too. I want to travel. I want to be with my family, I want to see my relatives, I want to stick around with my friends. And maybe it's so true that I cling onto things too much, too often. Gotta learn to let go.

But motherfuckers you don't understand the magnitude, the severity of this shit.

And lol on a side note, think I've gotta learn to let go of that pride and learn to apologize. But I really didn't feel as though I made any contact at all. But since it's been proven that you've hurt yourself in the process, I'm sorry I wasn't the one who apologized first.

Basic German!

Let's learn some basic German! :)

Counting Numbers in German:

eins (ighnss)
2	zwei (tsvigh)
3	drei (drigh)
4	vier (feer)
5	fünf (fuunf)
6	sechs (zekhs)
7	sieben (ZEE-ben)
8	acht (ahkht)
9	neun (noyn)
10	zehn (tsayn)
11	elf (elf)
12	zwölf (tsvoolf)
13	dreizehn (DRIGH-tsayn)
14	vierzehn (FEER-tsayn)
15	fünfzehn (FUUNF-tsayn)
16	sechzehn (ZEKH-tsayn)
17	siebzehn (ZEEP-tsayn)
18	achtzehn (AHKH-tsayn)
19	neunzehn (NOYN-tsayn)
20	zwanzig (TSVAHN-tsikh)
21	einundzwanzig (IGHN-oont-tsvahn-tsikh)
22	zweiundzwanzig (TSVIGH-oont-tsvahn-tsikh)
23	dreiundzwanzig (DRIGH-oont-tsvahn-tsikh)
30	dreißig (DRIGH-sikh)
40	vierzig (FEER-tsikh)
50	fünfzig (FUUNF-tsikh)
60	sechzig (ZEKH-tsikh)
70	siebzig (ZEEP-tsikh)
80	achtzig (AHKH-tsikh)
90	neunzig (NOYN-tsikh)
100	(ein)hundert ([ighn]-HOON-dert)
200	zweihundert (TSVIGH-hoon-dert)
300	dreihundert (DRIGH-hoon-dert)
1000	(ein)tausend ([ighn]-TOW-zent)
2000	zweitausend (TSVIGH-tow-zent)
1,000,000	eine Million (igh-nuh mill-YOHN)
1,000,000,000	eine Milliarde (igh-nuh mill-YAR-duh) Note the difference to American English numbers, often wrong translated!
1,000,000,000,000	eine Billion (igh-nuh bill-YOHN)

half	halb (hahlp)
the half	die Hälfte (dee HELF-tuh)
less	weniger (VAY-nihg-er)
more	mehr (mayr)

Distractions.

You know you shouldn't but you are!

Getting distracted lol.

hypnosis

I developed the powers, the linguistic prowess

Now it's the only thing I've got, so I devour

They can try to take my material objects

As the connection between soul and body disconnects

Limitless mental capacity, I pursue

Till the death of the grim I know I'll pull it through

Hypnos is what makes you sleep, Thanatos at chimes

I'm the Baku, so when you sleep you don't dream at times

And at times the sleep is heavy you aren't ready

Defence against the dark arts no you can't savvy

Or catch the glimpse or the wink, as the battleship sinks

You are your own master, 'cause you are what you think..

walk the walk

And the world will look upon me like the death monster

When the girls look upon me like I'm the play master

I'm the great thinker, a late sleeper and a date keeper

Possessing the oracle, traits of the late cancer

And when the world blows me away they can thank me for this

Predicament, prophets, integrity and the abyss

The almighty world is at mercy of my fingertips

Make the ants and the bees play to the rules that I keep

They say death and sleep are like cousins, so they don't sleep

But I say fuck deaths and sleeps 'cause the city doesn't sleep

Dancing with the devil till the wee hours of each night

So death must be embedded within broad daylights

See the problem is we submit to death readily

The mind is more vulnerable than you think, irony

Lies between the lines we see in statements, declaration

Yet the subconscious refuses to admit the addiction

What do we see? What do we perceive? What do we believe?

Deliberate faith or the tricks up the magician's sleeve

I can sit here all day and talk gibberish talk

But when it comes to the walk you still have to walk the walk

old writtens

Getting all the unwanted attention in this town

But I guess everyone's just attracted to this clown

Need to get the fuck up, and get the fuck down

Exercise is the only way to shed those pounds..

Tell my aunt that she should be proud of the way she's raised her kids

I know how hard it is on a mother who's been through all that shit

Married to a lazy husband she doesn't want to acknowledge

Leo, hunger for that pride she cannot distort that clean image

Tell her how beautiful her two kids are, bright like shining stars

How they resemble the younger I, look how chubby they are

How they can be so carefree like I was back in the days

People tell them to stop eating but happy they should stay

Tell the food nutritionist to shut the fuck up, they know nothing

About the human soul that makes this chicken soup we drinking

How it cleanses our blood and makes us better individuals

That we should live to the fullest, there might be no tomorrow

And tell the doctors who refute the fundamental medicals

To keep workin' hard and prove they be thinking logical

The layman only trusts in the mainstream information

But never understood how that shit is prescribed education

Supergirl

[Verse 1]

Looking for a girl I can marry to be my wife

It's like a classic fairy tale played in my life

I met a girl who's a couple of years younger

Non-believer of love at first sight, so I looked over

But who was to know what I was missing in the first place

I was blinded to your angelic face, in the love race

Open-minded, but never the type to make the moves

I'm the shy type, so when it comes to love I always lose

Girl we're like the couple made in heaven, give this a listen

From the same land we in the same story, the same tandem

I can see so much in common between the two of us

Felt an instant connection the moment we met, plus

Smitten by the way you talk, the way you smile gracefully

The way you bring entertainment, acting hysterically

I ain't never felt this way about a girl in my life

So give me a chance, you know I can be your Mr. Right

[Hook]

Supergirl, Ms Independent

She doesn't need a man, she's the..

Supergirl, Ms Independent

Give me a chance to make amends

[Verse 2]

Talkin' bout the kind of songs we listen, movies we watch

From the childhood we had, to our hobbies, the sports

It was one chance to make it right, once chance to impress

Nothing special, 'cause that's how I always treat my guests

Over a cup of coffee, caramel or tea

Can we get away from the summer heat and just be me

Guys desperate after confinement in the army

But I always had options, not to brag but honestly

Them emo girls don't move me, I like the cheerful you

But I hate your mind games, that's a fact that's true

Friendly gestures, but stop keeping me guessing

I can't decipher if you're just nice or being friendly

Stop judging me like I'm already a bad boyfriend

'cause we can make it work if you'd give me a chance

I know you've got plenty of friendships to juggle with

But the thought of you I've got to handle with, wanna be with..

[Hook]

Supergirl, Ms Independent

She doesn't need a man, she's the..

Supergirl, Ms Independent

Give me a chance to make amends

Saddening Happiness

Happy man outside, a sad man inside

Most of y'all don't really wanna see my real side

'cause I have too much pride and I don't confide

In people I don't know, keeping distance in strides

Most of y'all equate bitches to women and sluts

But never knew the definition of true love

For one I've never had it too, thought love was true

Till I was dumped back then, yea I felt it too

See, I'm not about to emo on this blog again

Too many wasted minutes on stupid so-called friends

Attempt to vent, hatred inks with this pen

The high life, I could never really understand

Or contemplate the world with its order tipped over

Religion and faith I try to wave but I pushed over

'cause I ain't feelin' it, so I don't believe in it

Seein' is believing and I don't see the point of it

Played it cool, try to stay true but instead I turned blue

I ain't a scholar, but I ain't no motherfucking fool too
When they told me I was bottom of the meridian

You never gonna make it, so get out of the system

But I stuck with it, played with it, even rolled over it

And now see where I'm standin', on this same concrete

There are no blinds, there is no sign, and there is no line

No rules, so I'ma reclaiming the lost and what was mine

Clueless about the boundaries of the space of time

Facin' set-backs, but I declined and still deter-mined

To one day make it like the athletes who did it

Thru' the struggles and the fall, and proud of it

Sadness, can you express, take the stress test

From the tip of the high-est, this I confess

Pointless, to hide inside your blanket all day

Get a air fresher, an air breather, let it fade away

Clear the air with a little, music filled drizzle
Let the jazz fizzle, take away the miserable

Bosa Nova is good when it sets the mood

I love it the most, classic music is all good

I tapped my feet to it, attempt to dance

Fucked it up with bad rhythm 'cause I can't dance

But I didn't come out to dance, I came to have fun

Even if it means dancing alone with no one

Just wanna have a good time, this time is mine

Work and love, the two last things on my mind

But now that I mention it, awww fuck it

Painful memories tempt to evoke, but I just shut it

I am happy today, better than yesterday or the day before

Than I can imagine, within the soul's deepest core

Lies the happiest man on earth, you just gotta know it

A big wide smile to the sky, yes I too damn know it

I've gotten over it.

There's a drive and a sense of purpose.

'cause I love my fam more than I have ever I thought I did.

And there's music to do.. Looking forward to every recording.

The nights aren't that scary anymore huh. hahahaha. How silly.

I'm so happy and I damn I feel it. I'm so happy.

what.?

I'm swallowing cats and I don't mean it like a Chinese
I'm following facts and I don't mean it like a journalist
I be the conformist, what the rest of the people is
What the confirmed is, what the test of illegal is
The simple-lest cause of the root of all evil
Let's get away from devils with a rest sabbbatical
I'm the lyrical, so I'm never droppin the subject
To kill flows that's whack and rhymes that's whack
You better be running fast when the paper chase is back
You'll be whipping tears that pass and when the face is sad
Frowning like inverted vees when the tissue is off the sneeze
Clownin with favourite tees when I shoot the birds that wheeze

mood swing

I'm not really in the mood man.

July 8th is approaching and I can't focus.

It's not some girl problem or money problem or dilemma shit.

I think, and it seems like.. I'm still recovering from the depression.

Gotta set my mind straight, there's more problems to deal with, more things to accomplish.

WHO'S GONNA BUY THE GOD DAMN APARTMENT?!

I am.

WHO'S GONNA REALIZE HIS DREAM?

I am.

WHO'S GONNA LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST?

I am.

Smitten? I think I finally found someone I could speak at ease to.

WHO'S GONNA REALIZE HIS DREAM?

I am.

But it's tougher than you think. Wake up cousin.

Maisie Flowers

Dear Maisie

It's been seven years since we last met

Still remember when you encouraged me giving me a pat

When I was struggling with the stress and the pressure

Cracking up under the expectations on my god damn shoulders

I was barely 14 years old, never knew my life goals

Still dreaming away in my classes I had my own troubles to juggle

Girl problems, weight problems, teenage rebellion

Livin' in my own world thinkin' they were very big deals then

But then I had to grow up, I had to stay away

From the past memories that used to haunt me every single day

I missed my childhood, my friends who left me for good

But still fantasized that someday they would come to understood

That it was against my will, never wanted to leave this place

Never knew how many times I've cried for this one small place

Damn the world was so small then, now it's huge and boundless

But you understood how hard it was on an immigrant like us

It was like yesterday I saw you at one of those malls

And you looked pale and frail, thought something was wrong

But something held me back, and I didn't even greet you

Now I can only wish I could have said something sweet to

The one and only teacher I truly admire and respect

Who didn't try ta judge me even though I wasn't perfect

Too many money suckers educators in this industry

Pretending to care when all they care about is their salary

I'd bet you were the last of your kind in your golden time

These days it's hard to find an adult who'd cross the line

Take the leap of faith and courage and do the stuff you did

Showering love on them stupid and immature kids

Used to visit you once in a while in a single calendar year

Until in year 2 I decided it wasn't worth the effort or the tears

And a year later I realized my mistake

When a friend of mine said you were gone and dead..

Seems a lot of people don't remember your name

A child wondering why it always brought me such intense pain

Sorry that I took this long to finally say that I love you

Guess some words just had been kept too long inside too

Who would have known 7 years later I'd still remember you

As the motherly figure I looked up to, I'll remember you

Whenever I'm feeling down and I look at the sky

Try ta imagine your smile in the clouds, then I'd give a sigh

Wishin' I'd hugged you before you left

Because no one could have predicted their very own death

This is a simple verse I've been wanting to share

Even if I'm the only person in the world who'd even care

You meant so much to me and for that I'd say peace in heaven