Sloppily lazy

I'm crazy, that's what somebody once said to me
Just coz I can't wait to see this world in harmony
"But too bad that ain't happenin'" she said
"This world's gonna rot before the last man gets paid"
The ice's gettin' pretty thin, girls gettin' ready to trim
Slim into tight fit bikinis, find mr. right and swim
To regret when he's got no money for a diamond ring
Breathless, loss of direction, that death thoughts bring
Suffocatin' is for weaklings, I see hope on the horizon
'V. Techs' on the uprisin', Vio-'lense' is in the pistons
Bortex' on sky flyin', suddenly the world's in a vortex..
Neck-breakin' speed, battles 'tween the rich and sex
The poor's inevitable presence is the consensus
What makes the fences, is the defences they claim
Censorship on immoral material and values that brains
Smarter brains, Powered brains, and breeds Painer pains
"I need some counterpain from the bruise and burn
Inflicted damage from the ink of this page overturned"
How that's happenin' is outrageous, utter ludicrous
Designed, custom-made intellect genetic material
Rids us of our ability of think, decide and choose
So the smarter we get, the more rights we lose
And till this point I can't but stop and think, before I go crazy,
That she was right - I was crazy - just so crazy.

Music > Entertainment.

Sometimes u think about how music can change moods and such.. And you question if it's really just about entertainment that music thrives on.. Sometimes I think, there's no harm in having entertainment music.. Suddenly caught this song on some blog, felt it really suited the shrek theme. Perhaps music is also about having the ability to adapt to the different themes..

All Star

from the movie "Shrek"

Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me

I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed

She was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her

Thumb in the shape of an "L" on her forehead

Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming

Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running

Didn't make sense not to live for fun

Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

So much to do so much to see

So what's wrong with taking the back streets

You'll never know if you don't go

You'll never shine if you don't glow

[CHORUS]

Hey now you're an All Star get your game on, go play

Hey now you're a Rock Star get the show on get paid

(And all that glitters is gold)

Only shooting stars break the mold)

It's a cool place and they say it gets colder

You're bundled up now but wait 'til you get older

But the meteor men beg to differ

Judging by the hole in the satellite picture

The ice we skate is getting pretty thin

The waters getting warm so you might as well swim

My world's on fire how about yours

That's the way I like it and I never get bored

[CHORUS] X2

Somebody once asked, "could you spare some change for gas

I need to get myself away from this place"

I said yep what a concept

I could use a little fuel myself

And we could all use a little change.

Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming

Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running

Didn't make sense not to live for fun

Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

So much to do so much to see

So what's wrong with taking the back streets

You'll never know if you don't go

You'll never shine if you don't glow

[CHORUS]

(And all that glitters is gold)

Only shooting stars break the mold...

How fast

Wednesday (21/5/08)

Finally the last day of school for term 2. Couldn't have come at a better time. Totally exhausted and drained from all my energy, I seriously needed a long break, and of course, time to catch up on my work.

And it was the soccer final as well. MJ - VJ at Jalan Besar stadium. The pitch seemed a lot smaller than usual (I thought our school's was small enough, turned out it was smaller than our school's, I think) The match started on a real high. The first goal came within the first minute - Mahdi scored after a VJ defence scramble - they had failed to clear an easy ball they should have dealt better and mahdi just slotted it cooly into the corner of the goal. So we thought the game would be an exciting one since VJ would definitely be fighting to claw a goal back. And they eventually did, having hit the post earlier after the mj keeper failed to hold on to a weak long shot. After a lot of long balls from both sides, MJ's sloppy defending allowed this VJ striker to be left unmarked and he just volleyed straight at the keeper. The keeper palmed it - but into the back of the net -.- And that was really just the start of the battle. Mahdi terrorised thru the left flank, dribbling past the defenders again and again - and it was him who provided the cross near the byline for mj striker to head in. Well-worked, and thoroughly deserved lead.

But after the break it got pretty boring - both sides still adopted the long-ball tactic, and they were just muscling around instead of making full use of the ball. So injuries were inevitable - both sides suffered 2 injuries i think. And the mj sub-striker hit the post towards the end of the match. But that didn't have any bearring on the match anyways - mj still won 2-1, reclaiming their title after defeats in the 2006 and 2007 finals.

Soon after the award ceremony, I rushed to find Harng-Yi in the VJ contingent - still has that same face despite all these years. Haha! And he's got braces too! Though he's taking them off soon. Should have taken picture of something. But then again, my hp camera sucks (it's not my camera actually, it's my bro's) Sianz. Still, we managed to talk a bit, though I felt rather guilty for holding him up (think he was supposed to go home with his classmates or something), so after some time I decided to head off to find alab, yongjie and the rest at city hall.

It's always nice meeting up people whom you've not met for a long time and catch up a lil bit on how each other have been doing - really gives a sense of time and great pleasure recalling things from the past - how i used to call wan xin peacock and such. Ha. But harng-yi says he's not 'as arrogant as he used to be', so i really wonder how he's like. ha. But looking at marists in mj (with the exception of kenneth), I dun really think they give a damn of their old classmates anyway. Like my sis had said, I don't really think classmates are that important as I thought they were. Dun get me wrong, I'm not saying they aren't, but most of them aren't, I guess - they'll probably forget about you and get on with life as if they hadn't known you. But of course, it's the exceptions that make a difference. How fast time's catchin up on me. How fast.

Dreamer.

Aussie, on his way to find his biological daddy
Separated since a kiddy, now that he's age twenty
In his head he's got a responsibility on his shoulder blades
Said he's on a mission to find out the truth before life fades
On this plane of this famous local brand which I shall not name
Things started out happy at first, but life never was the same
Would have been in ashes had he sat on the left side of the plane
But then the plane burns into ashes as he saw his teacher's brain
Splatted all over the floor, as he crawled out of the torn plane with a fall
The plane had crashed into the hall of a building forty-storeys tall
He dashed away from the scene, lights of the flame erupted in beams
Explosion, followed by concussion, immediately blinded it seems
What happened for the rest of the day, he had not known
The next thing that happened was in a hospital back at home
How he survived was a blur, with minor scratches and burns on his feet
Whilst the rest had died, not even knowing they died in the heat
Of all this misery, he couldn't see, or hear, from tapes and CDs
The emotions of these people, as he sat there watching the TV
He couldn't believe he was the only survivor of this trauma
As he read, the death toll more than 110,000, 5 months lata..

[Documentaries keep playin' it, they keep repeatin' it
He tries to hide away from it, tries to avoid it
But all he gets is the pain and trauma from it
The shock and disbelief, god was hiding it
The book of death, he would and should have died
With the rest, he'd rather not be blessed
The media keeps comin' up to him, requestin'
For interviews for this exclusive broadcastin'
But fuck it, he ain't doing it for his own sake
He ain't gonna earn easy cash in this flake
He had seen enough of God's treachery
He's had enough of it.. All he wants is some peace and be free]

And when I woke up from being a dreamer
To being haunted by it all morning, like fever
Never leaving the top of my head, I guess
I'm finally starting to see these images
Nobody wants to be a child nobody cares
But all they wanna do is to earn their wages
Well if that's what you want, staying hungry
And foolish.. I guess I can only disagree
So maybe the next time you call people stupid
Know you ain't nothing till you've seen this side of it..

untitled/

幾次的擦肩而過 你是否有察覺到
陌生的背影暗示 你那迷人的味道
在我周圍圍圍繞 希望你能微微笑
請你對我示個好 說個哈儸讓我發燒..

[副]
我們膽小得可愛 只懂在一旁等待
期待你主動告白 現在才終于明白

現在我一人發呆

無緣等那天到來

[Incomplete]

Gen.

I'm happy in my own zone, frozen in time zone
No worries and whatever, so please leave me alone
Tired of always being treated second class
It's just not in my culture, origin or past
My generation of never ration, vortex of illusion
We need some rarefactions, like waves, compressions
Depression got me staring far into future
Is it a proof? The truth? Or is it all spoof?

See this thing works on a simple basis
It's either kill or be killed, so face it
We ain't got nothing since day one
So I contemplate the day we eliminate guns
Masters of weaponry, speaking of which contrary
It's an eye for another, degradin' nature mother
So as I see 20 other cities emerge and prosper
Urban lives the bed of crimes, socialised, marginalised

[Outro]
Ironic how lives should been better, but I bet you
50 years down, problems wouldn't be this few
So fuck it, let me see you judge,
I'll see you higher classes stumble and crumble
Humbled and fumbled when you start to mumble
I just realised this space's too small for me to grumble
It's late and my belly starts to rumble..
So fuck it, I could be havin' apples to keep doctors away
While 20 million people die silently, kept and locked away..

Started: 12.59
End: 1.15

recover time.

E: I love rhyming.
A: That's the tenth time you told me that.
E: I mean, just exactly how many times can you rhyme?
A: Ok, that's the eleventh time.

I can't stop rhyming, sometimes
One after another, in bars and lines
Words, can't get out of my mind
I need some peace, space and time
And for once stop being a mime
Feelin' sour after having lime
Doing tricks that you feel sublime
That'll be the eighteenth time
I rhyme for the nineteeth time
Well if you can't shut up then fine

-some random lines talking to zy. Don't really make sense, but I'm just tryin' to recover.

Observation zero.

"It's early in the morning, I'm just wakin' up,
I had a rumble in my belly, I am R. Kelly".

Thinking about the Jim Carrie's parody in Physics lecture about Quantum Physics, it just made me recall about the times I used to watch so much parody, of which "Trapped in the Closet" was one of the first MadTV parodies I watched. Went to watch it again, probably wasn't as hilarious or stupid that I felt about it the first time I watched. But it was the rhymin' that got me goin' on listenin'. Perhaps after A Levels I guess. Kinda miss the time doing all my favourite things. Seriously.

Anyways, was supposed to wake up at 6 (as I always do on Fridays) for morning run, but got so tired from teachin' Chem till 3, that I decided not to. Fridays, I really love them. Short 4 periods only, though I had extra Physics consultation, which has cleared doubts for me. At least for Forces and Dynamics. But still, there's so much ground to catch up on. Can't believe it's gonna be less than half a year before A's! Was talking to Hazel, got to know her Chem SPA was today, wonder how come theirs was 2 weeks later than ours. She mentioned though, that she was really worried for her other subjects other than Maths. Their principal actually sent their block test results to their parents! =/ Gosh. That's like worse than mj.

After school headed to Orange Valley Home in Simei for Guitar Club's CIP. Didn't do a lot though, it was mostly the rest doing the job. In all honesty, I didn't have the mood actually, but did try to listen closely to whatever the person-in-charge, Eathel, said. She's quite an inspirational person, but I still do think these were just some of the things that we tend to neglect in life because of everyday work - so much so we don't have time to stop and think about them.

There's just so much more else things to do than studying, which I'm starting to get sick of.

Mood: can't be bothered about anything else but soccer tmr. Maybe I should stop going for guitar lessons for the remaining 6 months or so and look for another teacher instead. Thought it was supposed to be more fast-paced since it was 'intermediate', it wasn't, and I don't think I'll learn much from this course. Piano after A's? Maybe bah. Just put it aside first.

The simplest things

Today (saturday) was supposed to be a stressed one for me, but it didn't turn out to be so. I dunno how i got away with all the troubles I had over my undone work and revision. Oh well.

Woke up at 10, i got a shock that I slept for 12 hours. And it was only due to the last min cancellation of soccer that I managed to get the luxury of the long hours of sleep that I've been so desperately deprived of late. My lil bro wanted my to accompany him to buy Mac breakfast, I think it was all the accumulated fatigue that glued me down to my bed. I rejected and stayed in bed playing gameboy, reliving all the childhood memories of pokemon as he went out to get breakfast for us.

What seemed like a good act, was to be followed by a complete day of tantrums.

First, the debate over the mcgrill. I wanted to try coz i've nv had that. Then he wanted it for himself. Lol. So nvm about that
Then he didn't want to do work or at the least abide by any of the rules set by mum.
And more of course. I cant really be bothered about the details. No violence, but all bicker. haha.
Pretty good a reminder wad i was like as a kid. haha.

Anyways, i had unknowling undergone a whole day of 'wasting time' practising guitar, piano [天空!] and doing all sorts of things that I know i shouldn't be doing at this point of time. I guess people need a break from their day to day work sometimes. And if there was anything I needed, this was it.

Went to guitar after my failed attempt to complete the sgc on isis portal before 6.20. Anyways didn't really cover much. All steven covered was 'what i've done' by linkin park and 'first time' by lifehouse, both pretty catchy songs, although not really my type of songs. But nonetheless, nice. Had a little problem mastering the songs coz of the complex chords + tuning down thing (first time) and strumming patterns (what i've done). still working on them though.

Pretty weird I havent seen hong xiang for 3 consecutive weeks now. Wonderin' how he's doing coz he's the only person i talk to in class. Gotta ask for his contacts the next time I see him. Think the workload's catchin up with him recently. I used to be overwhelmed by all the things we had to do in j1 after the honeymoon first three months. Oh well the vicious cycle just repeats in every system I guess.

So I had thought that the movie would start at 8, until confirmation with eugene that it was at 8.30 that I decided to walk home instead of the bus to save money. Pretty broke these days coz I havent collected my allowance and i dun feel like touching my savings. And there's still tuition fees, dental fees, hp fees! oh man. the only commendable thing is at least I've got my hp fees in check. it's declining for sure. [so sorry to pat if u read this, that'll mean i'll have to reduce my global smses =X]

Didn't change after I got home, and only reached tamp at 8.25. waited at the contro station for a while coz i had expected somebody to be there somehow. Then huiping told me she'll be late. So i headed for gv first. And wth! My earpiece spoilt when I walked thru courts via the 3rd floor. The cord entangled with the cupboard knob and then the whole thing came out! It got loose after that.. And only one side had sound! Damn. More $$$ to be spent! Couldn't have come at a worse time. And that means going to tuition tmr without music! that's a torture, really.

[Eugene didn't ask me to go for movie! Think the rest of the ppl outside exco weren't invited for the movie, but rosanne asked huiping i think, who asked around after that] And that caused chaos, i think, coz they had booked the tickets earlier. The tickets (for initially me and zhiling, i dunno why the arrangement, i think it was darren who suggested it) for me and kaiping were in theatre 3 while their were in theatre 1. There's like somekind of ongoing scandal rumours i think. And that's quite surprising considering I've never been suggestive or whatever. sigh.

Anyways kaiping's quite a nice company to watch movie with! haha. quite talkative and discussions were lively during the show eh! albeit softly coz we are considerate viewers who dun want to disturb the others! I think i should have gotten a drink or smth coz my throats were thirsty at the end of the movie. Pretty nice plot, although actions were rather limited, i think. But i felt it was okay, just nice, considering it certainly did give non-ironman-readers, like me, a very clear picture of exactly who iron man was and how he came about. Several humurous parts too. Tonny starks certainly has a way with words, as illustrated with his sweet-talk prowess in the first parts of the show. haha.

DAMN we shouldn't have left the place early. i suggested we go out wait for the rest coz i didn't anticipate more to come in the credits, and thought the rest would have been outside waiting for us, which wasn't the case of course. Sorry kaiping!

After the movie i guess everyone was so tired that the only thing that we all wanted to do was to go home and have a good rest. Everyone dispersed immediately after that, with huiping (bus 27), aiman and i walking to the same bus stop. Wanted to take the mrt since it'll be faster but decided to take bus 21 with aiman instead. Pretty much to chit chat about, and only then did i realise aiman's not a malay, but an indian! but from the way she talks, it's read hard to tell. haha. she's better off being like her mum, like i think i am. ha. and she plays dota too! okay, she's only picking it up now, but still! girls dun really play the com these days, do they? or is it a wrong assumption i'm making? certainly not for my mum and sis, and definitely not when it comes to fighting/ strategy games like dota. pretty cool huh. No wonder arvin.. *coughs*

That was it I guess, after sending her home and getting home myself, it was close to 12. Guess it's the simple things that can be satisfying sometimes. And in that I dun suggest the first sentence in this paragraph is. I'm saying about today in general. ha. if only life was so simple to look at and deal with.

Then i slacked a bit, tried completing my sgc but no avail. no thanks to jake who got me distracted as we rhymed a few bars. wanted to post our convo here but then both of us had closed the convo window as I was about to end and publish this post.

Damn.

Coz i thought those lines were rather reflective of my current ability (they sucked), but after a's i'm gonna work on it.. for sure.

Zoom.

Ok, actually was supposed to finish blogging on recent happenings on the day itself, but sigh. Got loads of things to do. So i was thinking i'd might as well update all at one shot during this labour day holiday.

It traces all the way back to 11 April.

• 11 April - Shirley's Birthday!

PRE:

It took us quite some time doing all the planning for Shirley's birthday. Liyun texted me to remind me of her birthday, which I obviously did remember! ha. But decided to wait to see if they wanted to do anything. And so that week we (Liyun, hazel, myself) decided to meet up on Saturday, but turned out that Liyun had her taek stuff so it was just hazel and I. But seng yang joined us after his talent management workshop. Can't remember the exact date, I think it was 5 April, a Saturday. I had to stay at home cause someone from the HDB wanted to check our pipes. Which meant I sat out soccer that day, after much persuasion and convincing from my mum and sis to skip soccer that saturday. They were done with the pipe checking after around 1 pm, and then I rushed all the way to Marina Square to meet hazel. Honestly speaking, we didn't have a clear plan on what to do or buy, so the both of us spent a LONG LONG time coming up with ideas and finalised with 18items. Initially I suggested buying a pencil box and 17 pens. Ha. In the end we didn't, of course, we had: a bottle of beer, some mug + fortuneteller + cupnoodle piggy pank+ 1 comb + 1 mirror (from minitoons), water bottle, wallet, handphone pouch, pencil box (with a few pens to make up 18 items =X). And did i tell shirley that we had come up with so many things that she already had! Damn! haha.

Anyways, on shirley's birthday itself, a friday, it was e-learning day for me and that meant no school! So we had planned to meet shirley in school early in the morning that day at the block of flats near sa. My mum suspected something actually, but I managed to pull through =D

Woke up at 5.30am just to prepare to go sa early in the morning! I think shirley was touched and surprised with whatever we did, I hope. She even initiated buying of all the stuff for hazel that she even gave me a full description of making a "Taurus baby" shirt for hazel. Cool huh. Well I really hope that kept us closer together, after not meeting for such a long time. The only pity was that Liyun couldnt join us in time =X

Having met shirley, hazel and sy, I had to RUSHRUSHRUSH all the way back home to get my guitar for the class CIP at some senior citizens centre. On my way home I happened to tune to 五月天's 《金多蝦》, which I thought I could have played for the old folks. But I freaked out la, especially with only like 20 mins of practice of the song. I was overconfident I guess. But turned out I was a piece of shit. Bleh. Oh yes, today was the day the PW results were released and Huiping helped checked the results for me coz I was rather lazy to go school again =/ An 'A'! So that's 2As so far, I hope will be able to go further come march next year. But there's still a long way to go of course! =X MJ's PW results were frightening: 76% As i think, 23% Bs and the rest (only less than 1%) got below B! Incredible huh!

And then RUSHRUSHRUSH back to sa for the LIVE! Concert, which yuchuan had planned about a couple of weeks ago during the time nearer to jisoo's bday. A lil cheapskate as a birthday present i admit, haha, but nonetheless, it's the thought that counts. The concert wasn't particularly entertaining, rather repetitive, but it was the feeling of the school that brought back so much things that we shared as an og. The freshie feeling of being a noob around in school keeps popping up and the images keep flashing in the back of my minds. How childish and kiddish i was as a j1 freshie when i thought i had the whole world under my feet. haha.

Nvm about that, I passed to jisoo her bday present, a korean guitar song book, which i dunnno if she liked it, but i couldn't find a better alternative =X and of course, jinang's letter which I had kept so long. Pretty pointless now i guess, but i hope it does remind us of the freshest and most memorable memories we had at the exact same spot we were seated. sa's lecture hall does have this smell and feeling I'll never forget, which jisoo shared the same view that I had =D

A nice time we had being together. Missed those times which we'll never be able to go back to.

p.s. steven claimed he saw me coming back from the concert although i dunno how or where he saw me though. hong xiang suggests he was stalking me! =X

• 19 April - RUSH!

Pretty much so i guess. After soccer I had to go around kuan's neighbourhood in search of a bookshop that provides photocopying service at the lowest rate. In the end it was a case of me searching for a shop with the best service among all the shops. All three shopkeepers weren't particularly helpful, the second even wanted to charge me extra money just for helping me staple the notes together. wth. But no choice, coz the school didn't upload balance of payments notes online, so had to photocopy for shirley coz she claimed sa's econs notes were rather messy and disorganised. haha. The photocopying cost more than i had expected, in fact much higher coz each page (not paper) was 10cents. wth. but considering it wasn't really a lot, nvm ba.

So RUSH and RUSH and RUSH to marina square to buy hazel's gift - the fortuneteller-in-a-bottle thing. Bought one for hazel and cheryl (tan), then the shopkeeper told me it was buy 2 get 1 free -.- i didnt need the third actually, but decided to give one for my sis.

• 20 April - nth much, tuition, write letter, do hw

• 26 April - guitar concert

• 1 May - watch movie with cheryl and zhiling

Fruitful holiday? Maybe. Haha.

p.s. Description of shirt (it's in my sim card, but just in case i forget =/)

-Top front right corner put a hazel nut then write 'Happy 18th Birthday' around it then on the sleeve write her name 'hazel'.

-At the back write a taurus baby is born on [put a pic of taurus] 23/4/1990 at the bottom put e picture of a taurus a bit different can write a taurus baby girl instead then draw a baby girl pic instead of taurus then the rest the same like that seems easier.

Maybe we could get her t-shirt done after a levels. I know it seems rather distant but it'll be here and over VERY VERY VERY SOON!

Jiayou guys! =D