Had a lil' too much drink over at the table there
My mind started to swirl, I had to breathe in some fresh air
I pulled back my chair, my mind was tellin' me to 'back off'
But somehow my heart was tellin' me to drink and let off
My internal frustration holdin' me back from misery
It's been troublin' me, it seems like I get away scot-free
Puttin' up a blur front and pretend to be retarded
But ha.. act blur and live longer.. that's how you become smartened..
And I never will let my mind succumb to poison.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Monday, July 20, 2009
Thanks....
6th July 2009; 1700hrs at City Hall MRT
After COS duty on Sunday, left camp at around 0830hrs after helping Marcus guide vehicle to prep for the parade. Thanks staff for promptly typing my Off letter to release me on time =D
Reached Pasir Ris at around 1030hrs, home at 1045hrs or so.
Actually wanted to have a nap (there's always a lack of sleep during duties), but I can't remember what occupied all of my time. Had to unpack my stuff, wash my clothes, I think I went out for lunch I think, can't remember honestly =X
Left house around 1620hrs, reached punctually but somebody was late =X haha went up raffles city to walk for a while.
Met pat at around 1715 I guess. Received my present (thanks) and had to help someone carry her box of shoes haha. Went to buy tickets first before we walked all the way back to raffles city to have mos burger, something pat craved for for some time already. She had emi burger while I had teriyaki burger.! I think we idled there for some time before we decided to catch the 1900 movie. Was slightly late but as you guys know gv movies come with complimentary many many many commercials haha.
Ice Age 3 was enjoyable, the animation was immaculate, and the plot was substantial; in fact I felt as though I was watching Toy Story when I was a kid all over again! And with a friend it was even better! Trust the reviews on this one when they say it's even better transformers2 haha!
The movie's duration's slightly shorter than 2 hours, so after the movie we hung around at pan pacific, walkin around aimlessly and takin' silly pictures hah.
Had to leave before the last train left, went clementi where we departed our ways.
Reached home 0100hrs the next day. Tired. Oh yea. Not mentioning my whole family questioning me why I was carrying those shoes -.-
Think! THINK about where to go tomorrow!
7th July 2009; 1730hrs at Clarke Quay MRT
This time around it was I who was late... =X
I overslept on the train to raffles place, had to take the train back to city hall then to dhoby ghaut.. heh she was waiting for me on the platform but I didn't know so I went up the escalator to the mall. sorry about that eh.
We walked to the newly-renovated Liang Court Shopping Centre, she wanted to go to the Japanese supermarket (Meidi Ya), where she seemed keen on gettin everything she could bring over back aust. haha. In fact she bought a few boxes the Japanese crackers! I bought this box of cookies which u could draw on it using chocolate bits and cream.
Had Ra-men at Liang Court, I don't know why but it seems everytime she's back we seem to only eat Jap food ha.
Took a stroll along Clarke Quay, before the long awaited ice-cream! but darn we should have seen the turkish ice-cream stall first! haha.
Before she left we went listening to some caucasian guy singing at a pub. He sounded pretty good on the guitar singing 'I'm Yours' (and some overture I can't rmbr what song it was) and 'I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing'.
Her dad came to fetch her home, talked to JiaMing for a while on the phone for a while. What happened for the rest of the day remains a blur. All I could remember was I was a lil down, what the fuck was I thinkin' man. I might just regret it for life.
After COS duty on Sunday, left camp at around 0830hrs after helping Marcus guide vehicle to prep for the parade. Thanks staff for promptly typing my Off letter to release me on time =D
Reached Pasir Ris at around 1030hrs, home at 1045hrs or so.
Actually wanted to have a nap (there's always a lack of sleep during duties), but I can't remember what occupied all of my time. Had to unpack my stuff, wash my clothes, I think I went out for lunch I think, can't remember honestly =X
Left house around 1620hrs, reached punctually but somebody was late =X haha went up raffles city to walk for a while.
Met pat at around 1715 I guess. Received my present (thanks) and had to help someone carry her box of shoes haha. Went to buy tickets first before we walked all the way back to raffles city to have mos burger, something pat craved for for some time already. She had emi burger while I had teriyaki burger.! I think we idled there for some time before we decided to catch the 1900 movie. Was slightly late but as you guys know gv movies come with complimentary many many many commercials haha.
Ice Age 3 was enjoyable, the animation was immaculate, and the plot was substantial; in fact I felt as though I was watching Toy Story when I was a kid all over again! And with a friend it was even better! Trust the reviews on this one when they say it's even better transformers2 haha!
The movie's duration's slightly shorter than 2 hours, so after the movie we hung around at pan pacific, walkin around aimlessly and takin' silly pictures hah.
Had to leave before the last train left, went clementi where we departed our ways.
Reached home 0100hrs the next day. Tired. Oh yea. Not mentioning my whole family questioning me why I was carrying those shoes -.-
Think! THINK about where to go tomorrow!
7th July 2009; 1730hrs at Clarke Quay MRT
This time around it was I who was late... =X
I overslept on the train to raffles place, had to take the train back to city hall then to dhoby ghaut.. heh she was waiting for me on the platform but I didn't know so I went up the escalator to the mall. sorry about that eh.
We walked to the newly-renovated Liang Court Shopping Centre, she wanted to go to the Japanese supermarket (Meidi Ya), where she seemed keen on gettin everything she could bring over back aust. haha. In fact she bought a few boxes the Japanese crackers! I bought this box of cookies which u could draw on it using chocolate bits and cream.
Had Ra-men at Liang Court, I don't know why but it seems everytime she's back we seem to only eat Jap food ha.
Took a stroll along Clarke Quay, before the long awaited ice-cream! but darn we should have seen the turkish ice-cream stall first! haha.
Before she left we went listening to some caucasian guy singing at a pub. He sounded pretty good on the guitar singing 'I'm Yours' (and some overture I can't rmbr what song it was) and 'I Don't Wanna Miss A Thing'.
Her dad came to fetch her home, talked to JiaMing for a while on the phone for a while. What happened for the rest of the day remains a blur. All I could remember was I was a lil down, what the fuck was I thinkin' man. I might just regret it for life.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Sing-along-song
Sing-along-Song
Singer: Khalil Fong
Music/ Lyrics by: Khalil Fong
I wrote this song it's not too long
'cause I've been thinkin' about you
I wrote this song maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you
Well I don't know what you think about me
Or maybe you think nothin' at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see
[CHORUS]
Oh it's a sing-along-song it's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing along maybe if you want to
'cause baby I wrote this..
I wrote this.. For you.
I wrote this song it's not too long
'cause I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you
Well I just want to make you happy
But maybe you want nothing at all
And how I wish that you're meant to be
Forever and a day with me
[CHORUS]
[BRIDGE]
In every way you mean more to me than you'll ever know
Girl I'll show my best to show these words are true
And if you'd like to make a song
And be a perfect harmony with me
Oh I'd find the greatest words to sing
So we could write our own romance
And..
[CHORUS] X2
Singer: Khalil Fong
Music/ Lyrics by: Khalil Fong
I wrote this song it's not too long
'cause I've been thinkin' about you
I wrote this song maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you
Well I don't know what you think about me
Or maybe you think nothin' at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see
[CHORUS]
Oh it's a sing-along-song it's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can sing along maybe if you want to
'cause baby I wrote this..
I wrote this.. For you.
I wrote this song it's not too long
'cause I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you
Well I just want to make you happy
But maybe you want nothing at all
And how I wish that you're meant to be
Forever and a day with me
[CHORUS]
[BRIDGE]
In every way you mean more to me than you'll ever know
Girl I'll show my best to show these words are true
And if you'd like to make a song
And be a perfect harmony with me
Oh I'd find the greatest words to sing
So we could write our own romance
And..
[CHORUS] X2
Birthday thanks..
Thanks..
to first of all, my family. Thanks to my Mum for treating the whole family to buffet at nihon mura (ehub) on 12th july 2009. Thanks to my Bro, Sister and mum (again) for coughin' up the money to buy me an ipod touch. Thanks for the company always. Thanks mum for givin' me life. Thanks to my lil bro, though there was no gift from him (he's expecting me to give him one for his bday haha), thanks for the company, even though I get mad at him sometimes but yea it's niec havin' a kid as a bro. Thanks to Dad for the birthday message I got from him, even though you can't be here physically, but we all know how hard it is out there being the sole bread-winner and workin' your heart out for the decent living standard we're having, and to prepare us kids for future college fees. Really appreciate that. To 姨姨，謝謝你一直以來的支持，謝謝你對我們的要求不厭其煩！我生日那天你寄來的簡訊，提醒了我不應將一切當作理所當然的，應該珍惜我周圍的人。=D
to Alab and Yifeng for celebrating my birthday for me in advance on 13th july 2009. Went teo heng on the monday (I had off for ndp rehearsal on 11th july). Despite the time constraints (we sang from 1.30pm to 5pm) coz I had to book in at night, I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Havent sung for a long time so I'm glad to return to the mic haha. Thanks alab for always providing great companionship when life gets mundane, and thanks yifeng for the support he always provides.
to SzeJun for the birthday greeting on facebook, sorry not that I wasn't concerned about your situation, just thought we oughta look around us for a while, and lend our helping hand to someone we all hold so high regard to. That's what friends are for isn't it. Hope we can do something about it. And of course, hope your situation makes a turn for the better too =D
to Staff haojie for the fabulous meal I had at swensen's on 14th july 2009. Actually expected to go dutch but he treated us all. I feel bad sometimes coz he's so generous and sometimes when I look at myself, damn I'm one ugly selfish bastard who compares people time to time. Thanks staff. For the birthday cake we all enjoyed in branch. Thanks for always makin' everyone feel so welcomed and homely in branch. =D Thanks 3SG Zhiquan, 3SG Benedict, 2LT Kane, Marcus and Sean for the company for the dinner we all enjoyed.
to Patricia for the company on 6th and 7th July 2009 when you were here. Thanks for the birthday present (soccer ball), really glad to have you as a personal friend of mine. Irreplaceable friend. =D Just hope things'll be alright for you over there as I'm speakin' right here. And of course, your fiance! Take care! =D
to Hazel and Shirley for the birthday smses, but most of all, for always providing companionship and always filling my boring days with fun and love.
to ShiJun, for making that effort to make my day on birthday even though it was slip-shot. But hey at least it's an effort, and I appreciate it =D Thanks for the budget card (and you got everyone to sign it), and the breakfast zzz. HAHA. Thanks bro. Lookin' forward to workin' together in army for the rest of our army life.
to Mary Anne (I'll remember your birthday's on 20th dec), JiaMing, JianZhi, Kat for the smses.
to HoYan, Zoe, Ben Chan, Sim Weijie, Emily Huang (congrats on your r/s), Han Liang, Raymond, Esther Chan, Steve, Rossane, Cadence, Lifeng, BaoChuan, Ivan Ho, Lilian, JingNan for the birthday greetings and wishes on facebook. Sorry for the late replies was in camp la..!
Hope I didn't miss out anyone.
to first of all, my family. Thanks to my Mum for treating the whole family to buffet at nihon mura (ehub) on 12th july 2009. Thanks to my Bro, Sister and mum (again) for coughin' up the money to buy me an ipod touch. Thanks for the company always. Thanks mum for givin' me life. Thanks to my lil bro, though there was no gift from him (he's expecting me to give him one for his bday haha), thanks for the company, even though I get mad at him sometimes but yea it's niec havin' a kid as a bro. Thanks to Dad for the birthday message I got from him, even though you can't be here physically, but we all know how hard it is out there being the sole bread-winner and workin' your heart out for the decent living standard we're having, and to prepare us kids for future college fees. Really appreciate that. To 姨姨，謝謝你一直以來的支持，謝謝你對我們的要求不厭其煩！我生日那天你寄來的簡訊，提醒了我不應將一切當作理所當然的，應該珍惜我周圍的人。=D
to Alab and Yifeng for celebrating my birthday for me in advance on 13th july 2009. Went teo heng on the monday (I had off for ndp rehearsal on 11th july). Despite the time constraints (we sang from 1.30pm to 5pm) coz I had to book in at night, I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Havent sung for a long time so I'm glad to return to the mic haha. Thanks alab for always providing great companionship when life gets mundane, and thanks yifeng for the support he always provides.
to SzeJun for the birthday greeting on facebook, sorry not that I wasn't concerned about your situation, just thought we oughta look around us for a while, and lend our helping hand to someone we all hold so high regard to. That's what friends are for isn't it. Hope we can do something about it. And of course, hope your situation makes a turn for the better too =D
to Staff haojie for the fabulous meal I had at swensen's on 14th july 2009. Actually expected to go dutch but he treated us all. I feel bad sometimes coz he's so generous and sometimes when I look at myself, damn I'm one ugly selfish bastard who compares people time to time. Thanks staff. For the birthday cake we all enjoyed in branch. Thanks for always makin' everyone feel so welcomed and homely in branch. =D Thanks 3SG Zhiquan, 3SG Benedict, 2LT Kane, Marcus and Sean for the company for the dinner we all enjoyed.
to Patricia for the company on 6th and 7th July 2009 when you were here. Thanks for the birthday present (soccer ball), really glad to have you as a personal friend of mine. Irreplaceable friend. =D Just hope things'll be alright for you over there as I'm speakin' right here. And of course, your fiance! Take care! =D
to Hazel and Shirley for the birthday smses, but most of all, for always providing companionship and always filling my boring days with fun and love.
to ShiJun, for making that effort to make my day on birthday even though it was slip-shot. But hey at least it's an effort, and I appreciate it =D Thanks for the budget card (and you got everyone to sign it), and the breakfast zzz. HAHA. Thanks bro. Lookin' forward to workin' together in army for the rest of our army life.
to Mary Anne (I'll remember your birthday's on 20th dec), JiaMing, JianZhi, Kat for the smses.
to HoYan, Zoe, Ben Chan, Sim Weijie, Emily Huang (congrats on your r/s), Han Liang, Raymond, Esther Chan, Steve, Rossane, Cadence, Lifeng, BaoChuan, Ivan Ho, Lilian, JingNan for the birthday greetings and wishes on facebook. Sorry for the late replies was in camp la..!
Hope I didn't miss out anyone.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Thanks.
Just went out with alab and yifeng to katong to sing song =D
Had a great time, pity didn't sing enough. Had to leave early coz i'm bookin' in back to camp later (in fact, soon, like right after I post this).
Thanks guys.
JC days may have been the worst of my life (apart from my life now), but thanks to you guys for always being there.
Thanks for celebrating my birthday =D
Love.
Had a great time, pity didn't sing enough. Had to leave early coz i'm bookin' in back to camp later (in fact, soon, like right after I post this).
Thanks guys.
JC days may have been the worst of my life (apart from my life now), but thanks to you guys for always being there.
Thanks for celebrating my birthday =D
Love.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
安安。
忙忙忙忙！
人的一輩子都在忙。
忙著工作、忙著上課、忙著預備考試、忙著應酬、忙著談戀愛、忙著做自己愛做的事..
老了，該退休的時候，想著：我們終于可以放慢腳步，可以對昔日忙碌的，充滿壓力的生活告別。
但卻在這個時候老人卻發現，他雖然在人生的過程當中，雖纍計許許多多的歷練，換來的卻是一生對繁忙世界的俘虜。
身上富有了，卻在這個時候發現：銀行戶頭裏的錢是無法帶入棺材的。
他捫心自問，他空虛嗎？
親朋好友的悲歡離合是無法避免的，面對事實吧。
我只希望能與你們度過我所擁有的每一分，每一刻。
就算不能見面，不能一起吃頓飯，不能一起看電影，不能一起玩耍，
請記得我是很想念你們的。
感恩。
人的一輩子都在忙。
忙著工作、忙著上課、忙著預備考試、忙著應酬、忙著談戀愛、忙著做自己愛做的事..
老了，該退休的時候，想著：我們終于可以放慢腳步，可以對昔日忙碌的，充滿壓力的生活告別。
但卻在這個時候老人卻發現，他雖然在人生的過程當中，雖纍計許許多多的歷練，換來的卻是一生對繁忙世界的俘虜。
身上富有了，卻在這個時候發現：銀行戶頭裏的錢是無法帶入棺材的。
他捫心自問，他空虛嗎？
親朋好友的悲歡離合是無法避免的，面對事實吧。
我只希望能與你們度過我所擁有的每一分，每一刻。
就算不能見面，不能一起吃頓飯，不能一起看電影，不能一起玩耍，
請記得我是很想念你們的。
感恩。
sister.
The first time I saw her, I didn't think much of her honestly
I was into love, so I didn't take anyone seriously
Un-inter-rested in friendships, I took her casually
'Cause none of these people played a part in my life, usually
A friend for a month or a year, but they still don't know me
That's how I viewed most of my friends or that's what they called me
Didn't give a shit what impression I gave them of me
It's hard to swallow I know, like how you drink soured coffee
So when I broke up, I never thought I'd become sociable
Forsaken like the cornerstone, I started to doubt fables
'Cause I figured there were no 'happily ever after'
Afterall, all these while I was livin' in my own corner
And as days slowly turned into months and months turned into a ye-ar (yare)
The sorrow was too much to bear, 'cause I had noone to care
All that people got from me was cold shoulders and a mean stare
I was turnin' into a monster, my mind became temper-flared..
Doubtin' people, but this desire burnin' for someone to trust
Still remained contrast, I was dyin, turnin' me into dust
Time came by and passed, I was hiddin' in my buffer-zoned shell
Prisoner of the heart, locked up in my suffer-zone; cell
I was seepin' thru the creaks of the fiery depths of hell
But she pulled me straight back up before I tripped and almost fell
She caught me by surprise I admit, didn't think she'd fit
As an angel, 'coz angels don't appear wingless and with feet
Wanted to thank her in person, but time prohibited it
After she saved me, she had her ideas, she decided to quit
Life on this barren island, wealthy but was always empty
I respected her choice, though I wanted her with me
I lowered my voice, and requested to at least know her name
And thanked her for makin' my life never the same again
I wanted to hug her tight, and tell her how much I loved her
But I was rooted to my boots... "I love you my sister"
I was into love, so I didn't take anyone seriously
Un-inter-rested in friendships, I took her casually
'Cause none of these people played a part in my life, usually
A friend for a month or a year, but they still don't know me
That's how I viewed most of my friends or that's what they called me
Didn't give a shit what impression I gave them of me
It's hard to swallow I know, like how you drink soured coffee
So when I broke up, I never thought I'd become sociable
Forsaken like the cornerstone, I started to doubt fables
'Cause I figured there were no 'happily ever after'
Afterall, all these while I was livin' in my own corner
And as days slowly turned into months and months turned into a ye-ar (yare)
The sorrow was too much to bear, 'cause I had noone to care
All that people got from me was cold shoulders and a mean stare
I was turnin' into a monster, my mind became temper-flared..
Doubtin' people, but this desire burnin' for someone to trust
Still remained contrast, I was dyin, turnin' me into dust
Time came by and passed, I was hiddin' in my buffer-zoned shell
Prisoner of the heart, locked up in my suffer-zone; cell
I was seepin' thru the creaks of the fiery depths of hell
But she pulled me straight back up before I tripped and almost fell
She caught me by surprise I admit, didn't think she'd fit
As an angel, 'coz angels don't appear wingless and with feet
Wanted to thank her in person, but time prohibited it
After she saved me, she had her ideas, she decided to quit
Life on this barren island, wealthy but was always empty
I respected her choice, though I wanted her with me
I lowered my voice, and requested to at least know her name
And thanked her for makin' my life never the same again
I wanted to hug her tight, and tell her how much I loved her
But I was rooted to my boots... "I love you my sister"
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
ha.
What am I supposed to do?
What am I supposed to say?
What am I supposed to.. feel?
I feel so helpless.. That I can't stop things from happening. And neither can I make things happen.
16 months.
Love.
What am I supposed to say?
What am I supposed to.. feel?
I feel so helpless.. That I can't stop things from happening. And neither can I make things happen.
16 months.
Love.
Lapse.
I guess enough time's just aint passed yet.
I kept thinkin' how I should express myself
To show how much I loved her, but I was like an elf
Dwarfed into her shadows as soon as I saw her
Felt the adrenaline as soon as she draw(s) near
I don't remember lovin' someone so completely
It's hard lovin' someone I hold so close to me
And the last time I did that, she walked out on me
Tryna play smart, but everything's backed out on me
But I swear this time's different; it was platonic
How ironic, I'm serious but I don't mean it
A step behind, wished I was a little quicker
Coz I love you more than my own little sister
I've told you a thousand times she's not my lover
How can I prove it if I keep sayin' "I love her"
Truth is I just wanted to hug her, not kiss her
Tell her 'I love her' to prove how much I'll miss her
She's been taken, but afraid to be mistaken
So I had to reconsider all my options
But I chose to keep my truest feelings unknown
Even if it means becomin' a cornerstone...
I kept thinkin' how I should express myself
To show how much I loved her, but I was like an elf
Dwarfed into her shadows as soon as I saw her
Felt the adrenaline as soon as she draw(s) near
I don't remember lovin' someone so completely
It's hard lovin' someone I hold so close to me
And the last time I did that, she walked out on me
Tryna play smart, but everything's backed out on me
But I swear this time's different; it was platonic
How ironic, I'm serious but I don't mean it
A step behind, wished I was a little quicker
Coz I love you more than my own little sister
I've told you a thousand times she's not my lover
How can I prove it if I keep sayin' "I love her"
Truth is I just wanted to hug her, not kiss her
Tell her 'I love her' to prove how much I'll miss her
She's been taken, but afraid to be mistaken
So I had to reconsider all my options
But I chose to keep my truest feelings unknown
Even if it means becomin' a cornerstone...
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