POSTED TO..

1. You are posted to 46 SAR.
2. Your new vocation is ARMD INF TPR.
3. You are to report to: Sungei Gedong Camp, BLK 214, S1 BRANCH.
Reporting Date/Time: 23/03/2009 at 0800 hrs.

So far from Pasir Ris! =(

Unforgettable.

Everytime I hear this song.. I feel so touched.

Music of the old generation really is music..
And i really hope the new generation of music can produce this kind of music instead of the mashed music they're repeatedly using!

"That's why darling..
It's incredible..
That someone so.. unforgettable..
Thinks that I am.. unforgettable too.."

Mood.

CIRCLE OF LIFE
- Elton John

From the day we arrive on the planet
And blinking, step into the sun
There's more to be seen than can ever be seen
More to do than can ever be done

Some say eat or be eaten
Some say live and let live
But all are agreed as they join the stampede
You should never take more than you give

(Chorus)
In the Circle of Life
It's the wheel of fortune
It's the leap of faith
It's the band of hope
Till we find our place
On the path unwinding
In the Circle, the Circle of Life

Some of us fall by the wayside
And some of us soar to the stars
And some of us sail through our troubles
And some have to live with the scars

There's far too much to take in here
More to find than can ever be found
But the sun rolling high
Through the sapphire sky
Keeps the great and small on the endless round

(Chorus repeats)

On the path unwinding
In the Circle, the Circle of Life.

MUSIC SCORE: http://www.scribd.com/doc/4104065/Circle-of-Life

20 months left!

POP LOH..!!

9 weeks of BMT have passed by so fast.
Getting to know my platoon mates, although I doubt we'll keep in touch due to army life anyway, was a pleasure. What was more pleasing was that alab's in the same company as I am, yifeng's in my platoon. So far so good. Without them life in the army wouldn't have been the same. Thanks for their help and company whenever I needed them the most =D

Really happy and proud to have completed the 24km march although I must say it was made relatively easier due to the absence of our store items and the time allocated for the march (we woke up at 2am to prepare for the start of the march at 5am).

BMT is just the fundamentals I understand, but these 9 weeks have been nice, despite the punishments and having some uncooperative people but that's okay now that everything's over =D

Now all I can do is rest well during this block leave and prepare myself for the next phase of army - probably as a private. Just so happy and relieved to have completed BMT =D

Special thanks to kai, nam chew who have helped me tremendously through out these 9 weeks =D Nam chew has been really helpful and a good listener. His next buddy would definitely appreciate him I believe, for his pleasant, cheerful and altruist character.

POP TIME: 1600hrs - 1700hrs
BOOKED OUT: 1730hrs
REACHED HOME: 1830hrs

BLOCK LEAVE PERIOD: 120309 - 220309
TO CHECK FOR POSTING ON: 200309 1000hrs onwards
DATE FOR REPORTING AT NEXT UNIT: 230309

But for now, it's rest time!

p.s. going orchard now to meet nic, stuart, quek and kai at orchard at 2130hrs.

Not ok.

Everything's not ok..
And I'm just missing so much of everything.
So much.. Too much.
And wasting so much time on things I dun even know why I'm doing.

Just.. Hope for a better world out there.

A Levels

I dunno how I should feel at this moment. Seeing yifeng, alab and sj getting their certs from principal was kinda envious. They're getting close to full points, but I'm only here with 80. It's not that bad, but it's not that great either. I'll just see the courses available and stuff I guess. But at this moment I dunno. I can't feel anything at all. There just seem to be more important stuff than all the shit that I went thru last year.

I havent talked to yongjie and zhang yet, about their results but I hope they're doing ok. It's just a small step in life I know, but it's still a setback nonetheless. Hope they'll carry on strength to strength. =D

p.s. Went to watch 'watchmen'. Story line's quite interesting. Waiting for new movies to come out! Especially the horror film that we saw during the ads.

: Just wanna thank all those who have made me feel better.

Feeling: A Levels' no more. Fuck the jc life. Fuck the A levels. Just lookin' forward to P.O.P.'s next week =D

LAST BOOK-IN & OUT AT TEKONG

6th Book-out in BMTC: 5th March 2009, 2110hrs [Thursday]

News about the A' Levels Results Released were finally confirmed on Tuesday after our Games Day (Before Recruit's Evening). Though really happy to have this extra day off due to Results Release, I'm feelin' all the tension, anxiety and anticipation.

Let's just see how far my efforts have taken me to. Good luck to myself lol.

6th Book-in in BMTC: 8th March 2009, 2110hrs [Sunday]

Delayed acknowledgement =X

My friend was complaining that throughout my post on Sitex, I didn't thank him for helping me. But hey, he really didn't help me a lot either...

Haha! Alright just kidding. Thanks yx for all the help during Sitex, without you I don't think I would have done as well. And thanks for helping me check in my cheque coz I didnt have the time to meet ya. Thanks man.

India detail!

5th Book-out in BMTC: 28th February 2009, 1230hrs; 1630hrs from Army Museum [Saturday]

Main focus this week:
Sit-test from 230209 to 250209 (Monday- 12km Road March),
HG (Live),
Final IPPT,
Army Museum Visit

7 weeks in the Army already!

5th Book-in in BMTC: 1st March 2009, 1755hrs [Sunday]

Marksman!

4th Book-out in BMTC: 21st February 2009, 1130hrs [Saturday]

Actual book-out was 20th February 2009, 2030hrs. But had to stay back for RT! =X Coz i failed my SBJ and pull-ups. Well hope things get better with extra training!

Main focus this week: Grenade Assault Course (GAC), Basic Trainfiring Package (BTP) until the late late night!

But glad I got my marksman! Although I feel I could have done better =/

4th Book-in in BMTC: 22nd February 2009, 2025hrs [Sunday]

Exhausted.

3rd Book-out in BMTC: 13th Febuary 2009, 1815hrs [Friday]

During this week we had loads of lessons, including the learning to recognise the types of Hand Grenades, how to inspect a hand grenade before throwing, anti-hg drills, how to set up detonators, how to tie the different types of knots and lashings, how to apply first aid dressing, the characteristics of armerusts & mines (anti-infantry mines, anti-tank mines and claymore mines).

Apart from those, we had loads of PT lessons. SOCs after SOCs (we had 3 sessions this week), Strength Training, AGR etc. Really tiring week.

3rd Book-in in BMTC: 15th February 2009, 1740hrs [Sunday]

Field camp week

2nd Book-out in BMTC: 6th Febuary 2009, 1745hrs [Friday]

Reflections:
Field Camp (310109 - 050209) was really tiring, the 8km march was not as tiring as I thought, but the following activities such as the tactical marches, the multiple punishments given out, IFC (especially the firing movements) sure were. Shell-scrape digging seemed difficult, it was really tough I admit, but after the first few hours I think I started to get the hang of it =D Curious I am though, as to how I'm gonna pass the test time-limit of 45 minutes.

Throughout the whole field camp I was really REALLY careful with the handling of my rifle. I never would want to get stunned or misfire and get confined, given guard duty or whatsoever. Those few days I really lived in caution, dread, fear. The rifle would never leave me or any part of my body. I hugged it real tight to sleep. And I can say I'm really proud that I made it without losing my rifle despite the exasperating 1/3 guard duty, sentury duties, stand-to.

A little pity though to alab, who, along with many of his platoon 2 mates (I think 15 other), was punished for poor equipment handling. Worse still, he lost his bayonet, which was afterwards found, and had his SAR21 stunned not once, but TWICE =/ So he had guard duty on friday evening (2hours of duty, 4 hours of sleep, 2 shifts for the night.)

The BIC was really a toll on my fatigue level. I was the last in my section, the machine guns were so loud but I am really pleased I made it. I never stopped, but continued to leopard crawl with all my might =D All I can hope for is for that to build up my combat and physical fitness level. I'm aiming to be a commander. If not I really wanna be a medic. I've had my mind set already. Let's see how the next few weeks would influence my final decision..

This week, I lost another 2.8kg. And I can finally don the grey/silver puma jersey I bought in taiwan last december. It fits nicely on me now =D

I'm still adapting to military life though. Let's hope for the best we shall.

But at the same time, I must really say having read the letter during field camp, so much memories just flashed through my mind. I've probably taken so many things in life for granted. And I miss so many things. So many people... Everything I used to have before 8th January 2009. I just want everyone to be happy.

Take care.

2nd Book-in in BMTC: 8th Febuary 2009, 1925hrs [Sunday]

ARMY MAN.

IMPORTANT DATES:

Date Enlisted: 8th January 2009, 1130hrs [Thursday]
Company Enlisted in BMTC 1: Jaguar Coy, Platoon 3, Section 2, Bed 07 [J3207]
Projected Date of BMTC 1 P.O.P.: 11 March 2009
O.R.D.: 7th November 2010

LANDMARKS:

1st Book-out in BMTC 1: 23rd January 2009, 1730hrs [Friday]

Reflections: It's been really tough, but these 2 confinement weeks has developed some muscles on my biceps (Yay!) Really tired now, just wanna rest well tonight and go out with szejun, alab, zhang, yifeng tmr. Yongjie didn't turn up, he had something on whilst we decided to go to tampines mall and then bugis for dinner. It shall be to raffles city next time though haha! Woke up on 24th Jan at 5am, went to see sinseh at bedok reservoir before gg to meet them.

1st Book-in in BMTC 1: 27th January 2009, 2010hrs [Tuesday]

UPDATE! (finally)

So glad that a levels are over for now, and i can finally do the things i've always looked forward to:

1)Reading
2)Writing? (but i'm not very sure if I'll be doing that or doing option 3 more often)
3)PLAYING!
4)Working (for the money duh!)
5)Meeting (friends i havent met in ages!)
6)EATING (in taiwan mostly, haha, but still must control!)
7)Becoming MACHO (thru ns)

Yea that's mostly it, i'll add a few more once i can think of any. haha.

18th Nov (TUE):
Everything was over, everyone else went settlers, I had fever so went home to sleep. How sad huh! So i stayed at home the whole day again to rest, but in fact I was too bored I was playing MGS4 though. haha.


19th Nov (WED):
Went Bookfest with my mum, i bought a total of six books:
1. Almost A Crime [Penny Vincenzi]
2. No Angel [Penny Vincenzi]
3. Something Dangerous [Penny Vincenzi]
4. The Enemy of God [Robert Daley]
5. A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius [Dave Eggers]
6. The Machiavelli Convenant [Allan Folsom]
Must read finish this holiday!

20th Nov (THURS):
Went tampines to look for controller, coz sze jun, alan, yifeng, yongjie were coming over the next day. Went looking for a shop to trade in xbox as well. In the end went powerhouse to buy controller. $65 off my monthly allowance =(

21st Nov (FRIDAY):
Went kovan in the morning to help my mum buy the ingredients.
Sze jun, alan, yifeng, yongjie came over to my place for ps3, eat my mum's delicate dishes and STEAMBOAT! pity i forgot to take pictures =X Pity also that zhang chuan couldn't come too. =(

22nd Nov (SATURDAY):
Went soccer in the morning at tanah merah that huge patch of grass beside the mrt. Then went gabriel's house for the meeting regarding the sitex job. Went home sleep! I had a wound below my eyelashes i dunno why. My mum say maybe lack of sleep which I agree. I have real dark eye bags! haha.

23rd Nov (SUNDAY):
Usually would be going tuition, but spent today morning at home watching tv, then went to eat dimsum at some coffee shop in tampines. I think it's the nicest dimsum in singapore ba. And it's not very expensive either! Made by true hongkonger. Love it lots! My favourite. haha. Followed by an evening of playing guitar and doing nothing.

24th Nov (MONDAY):
Went clarke quay to meet yifeng for the survey job thing for grey group company. The lady in charge, sharon, was friendly but a little bit of act cute ba! haha. anyways, i thought we were gonna do the survey thing today, but turned out it was for tmr. So went bugis with yifeng, guangming, and the other 2 mj guys (i forgot their names =X). Omg the food there is expensive! And the curry i ordered, which they gave me teriyaki wrongly for no reason, sucks! The teriyaki sucks man. Even my mum can make teriyaki of better taste and quality! =(

25th Nov (TUESDAY):
Went sengkang to conduct the 7-eleven survey at the shell nearest to compass point. Reached at 1030hrs actually, ended work at around 1330, with some help from yifeng actually, who finished his work real early. Went Subway to eat with yifeng, then went vivocity to meet the rest of the guys who were there eating at carl's junior. They wanted to shop for prom clothes actually, I didn't really shop coz i didn't intend to buy anything - probably wearing secondary school grad night clothes and hope i can fit in them =/ Left them at around 6 pm to head for temasek for the air rifle bbq. Didn't eat much actually - spent most of the time listening to the band concert. Happy to see sing wei! Havent seen him in ages! =D After that my mum came to fetch me, and we had dessert at the bedok corner. Ching Tng was sold out, so we had soya milk instead lol. Shall go and find the list of songs heard at the concert coz they were awesome!

26th Nov (WEDNESDAY):
Went to clarke quay early in the morning to return the surveys. I think i reached there at 1100hrs. Sharon really has a lot to talk about.. and really free. haha. I think we spent like 30,40 mins chatting before she decided she should get back to work. haha. She told me about yifeng and his interest.. In someone. haha.

27th Nov (THURSDAY):
Went to work at sitex! Met dz at around 9.45 at expo. Really new at this thing, so was getting used to the whole working thing. Didn't sell anything, was depressed until before closing time a couple who had came to me several times finally decided pacific city was offering the best offer for iMac! =D

SALES: 1 iMac (1 APP)

28th Nov (FRIDAY):
Sitex. The trio consisting of yongjie, alab and szejun, along with desmond, came to expo to find me! Spent some time chatting! How nice of them! haha! =D Sales was still hard though.

SALES: 2 iPod Nanos

29th Nov (SATURDAY):
Sitex. Expected a lot of people and sales were really good for me! Yifeng came to find me, but actually it was shuli who wanted to come more (or so i heard) haha! And really nice of him to bring honey lemon for me! Anyone could tell my voice was getting hoarse by the third day. But I shall persevere! =D Jun Wei and Cheryl came also. Jun Wei came with food from old chang kee! 8dollars nobody paid so I shall foot the bill myself =( Shall remember to pay him back.

SALES: 5 iPod Nanos, 3 iPod Touches, 2 Macbook.

30th Nov (SUNDAY):
Sitex. Szejun and zhang came and visited me! haha. My mum, sis, bro and his gf came to buy an iPod Classic for my sister. Pocketed 3 dollars in the process haha. Almost sold one macbook but for that indian guy to come late when we were closed already! =( There goes my $15! =(

SALES: 3 iPod Classics, 4 iPod touches (1 APP), 1 iPod shuffle, 4 iPod Nanos.

1st Dec (MONDAY):
Slacked the whole day and played ps3 as I awaited for my throat to recover.

2nd Dec (TUESDAY):
Havent met chufeng in months, so went out with chu feng for CAPE NO. 7 at orchard cineleisure as promised. haha. No wonder it's broken office records! Really a hilarious, yet touching story. Recommended! =D And chu feng told me about selling textbooks and notes online for money. Shall create a post on that in a few more days.

3rd Dec (WEDNESDAY):
Was preparing my outfit for prom. Never bought anything, so just wearing whatever I wore for grad night in temasek. Shall not waste anymore money after spending $140 on PS3 this month! ($65 for controller, $75 for MGS4)

4th Dec (THURSDAY):
The big thing. Prom Night. I was late for the meet up at sj's house actually. Supposed to meet at 6, but in the end i reached at 6.15 instead. Everybody else was there already. Alab had his friend to help him do his hair. And we set off for city hall in sj's mum's car at around 6.50. Reached there at around 7.40 coz of the traffic jam in city area. But thanks to szejun and his mum coz going into city area costs like 4dollar (ERP), not even counting the fuel cost. Had a real great night, although i must say the food was omg. not really to the standard i had expected. But it was the other things that made the night. Taking pictures with my gang, the class, with yifeng, sam tang and the rest. I'll post the pictures when I have the time =D (*THE GRADUATION BEAR WAS SO CUTE!)

5th Dec (FRIDAY):
Supposed to go kbox, but ts said it was real expensive ($35 for friday session), so we went movie instead. Dian zhuang, kai wu, thien soon, louis, kuan wei, yu xiang, mary anne, jonathan were there. Watched Bolt, omg real funny man. And the plot was quite nice. On how bolt managed to face, accept, and survive the harsh realities of life with the help of some comical friends he had. Yahoo movie listings gave a 4 star!
Oh wait, did i mention what happened after the movie, after mary anne and jonathan left? We had a real good time playing with kai wu haha! He was so shy he didn't want to talk to his beloved certain someone.. haha. We sang loads of saddening love songs for kai wu as we walked back to white sands.
Mood: Having fun..!

I am..

I am..
Distraught
Untaught
Unthought
I've fought, a lot
I've been.. A have-not

I've bought..
What I've sought
But if I was Bolt
I'd travel in time to see humans rot
If constellations weren't stars but just dots
If people weren't as selfish as you thought
If life wasn't as hard as you thought
If these nights weren't easy as you thought
If only.. You know what it feels like to be distraught.

If these lines make no sense to you
You'd probably think you've got no clue
But it's alright if i've got you blue
Tellin' true-s or down with flu
Yes i am skeptical, i am cynical
I am tangible, my chest's an example
If the treasure dots weren't so simple
More than what you deem as particles
But I guess in life anything is possible
If you realise it's cyclical
That's why we call it seasonal
But I hate times in the chapel
Maybe coz' they aren't conceivable
I've got my own attitude mental

I just hope they could just leave me
Want to be freed, I'll burn them money
And maybe leave them with a couple of pennies
Not that i ain't got sincerity
To offer them sanity
Mention thy vanity
You're sure to embrace me
And with a pen, trace me.
Sure it doesn't make no sense I'm just chillin' on the pressure on me.

When it all amounts to nothing..

How fragile life is.. haha.

"IF I AIN'T GOT YOU"
-Alicia Keys

[Verse 1]
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

[Verse 2]
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

[Chorus]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]
If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

730.5 days of internal torment

Two years have passed with this much tests
It hasn't been the best, this I confess..

I can feel the pressure on my shoulder, for sure
If you want me on the same level, on par with my peer
Life is stressful inside this cesspool we call school
But as you imagined it's over without a clue
And it's true I missed SA, but they all say
They all play the same lame game, leavin' you dismay
They all say you couldn't mug-less for success
But the people before me haven't passed a single test
It doesn't matter if I leave here with a scarce-
city of stress, honestly learning here has been a mess
Even today I'm not sure the treasure in my chest
Because all I learn is to shade the ovals in my test
Yes, exams, stress, school, hypocrites is what I detest
If I were to rename them all I'll call them pests

And unless I see God make the sun rise from the West
I think you guys' have it all, because you're blessed..

Think About It..

Not exactly perfect but I got it done within 20 mins.. So I consider that some achievement? although the hook looks longer than the verses =X Actually I dun really know how I wrote it but I was just trying to picture a movie.. ha. hope it's not too bad!

Beat site: http://www.soundclick.com/bands/default.cfm?bandID=537232

"THINK ABOUT IT"

[Hook]
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time~

[Verse 1]
Just think about why love never turned out the way it's meant to be
The way that we perfected it, the way we imagined it in our mentality
We used to be so close that we couldn't separate, but now it's too late
Maybe it's fate, that we got too close, and now I see love turn to hate
It's entirely okay, okay to say, you were like the shining ray
Shinin' through the eclipse-d days, through walls of opaque clay
Parallel or non parallel, I never knew love could fall on me, fell
Never realised my love was the thin line between heaven and hell

But if I can..

[Hook]
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time~

[Verse 2]
You said love was the purpose in life, if that's the case I have none
Coz you're all that I've got in life, the stormy days haven't been fun
And the truth is life after you hasn't changed much, I still miss you
I guess I should think about what I said, maybe I shouldn't have dissed you
But it doesn't matter anymore does it, since you're gone with my pearl
Never will I feel the same towards girls, not again in this world
Coz if it isn't for you, I'll never fall in love ever again
And you will, and can never feel my pain standing in the rain

[Hook]
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time..
To save my world..

Please Don't Cry

I haven't really got any tune in my head, but it's just a random piece.
Shall edit it further coz it's not perfect.. Loads of room for improvement I know.. Oh well!

"PLEASE DON'T CRY"

[Intro]
You're my baby.. Please don't cry..

[Verse]
I don't know the reason you're cryin, but it makes me sad
So tell me the reason why, it makes me mad if he's bad
There's no need to suffer in silence and pretend you're dead
There's so much to life than

Coz..

[Hook]
If you're the area, I'm the radii
Then you're the sphere, I'm like your pi
If you're in fear, I will stand by (forever)
Coz you're my dear - please don't cry

[Verse 3]
The truth is that I love you like I love my sister (more than anything else)
You're like my sister, but you never know what spells
We're a line before lovers, I've never felt anything like this
Never deny a man of his will, because that's all I wanna do
To protect you from bodily ills with this pair of bare arms
So ring me an alarm
I'll be there for you.. So promise me that you'll never shed another tear for him..

[Outro]
Please.. Don't Cry.

Verse: Cadd9, ...
Hook: Dm, A#, F, C

Upon A Star..

Stories of every famous people makes my heart ache
As I ponder and wonder when it'll be my break
Coz every night I go back to the same god damn bed
Wishin' upon stars on my head, wishin' to get paid
To take back what I said, wishin' for a mate
Wishin' for memories to fade, wishin' for destiny, fate
Yes I yearn for grades, like my parents earn their reds, but wait
The system wants to educate; it rates, degrades, discriminates
The poor, the dumb, the dumber, the fat and the fattest
Leavin behind those the slowest, exalt he who comes first
I was talkin' about life with people I could trust
About the kind of wife I would get, examples I contrast
Results of a sample I don't trust, if they come out fast
But to you it dun matter, you wonder 'what's the fuss'
Gettin' things done not in days, but in minutes
Wait a minute there's nothin' new to it, let's be true to it

......