The fear to lose.. Is it really that scary? Yet, it is undoubtedly true that no one in this world likes the feeling of losing.. But still, does it mean finding weaker opponents to play against and win? No disrespect to 4S, but my point here is that, why are people so coward? Yes, our chances of winnin will no doubt be greater, but does it give you the sense of satisfaction when you win? I'm afraid, it is not so to me. We can brag about our wins, but are they really such big deals? Does it mean we're good? No, we're DECEIVING OURSELVES because we are playing against teams about the same standard as us. If (some people) think that they are good, then prove it. I personally feel that injuries or whatsoever are just excuses.. This is rigmarole man..
Whatever la.. I'm sick of finishin this.. And I don't wanna waste any more of my time talking to people who aint got half the lousy skill that I've got and wanna challenge me.. I don't mind criticism, but please look at yourself before you comment. Oh Please.
Now I'm just waiting how our team cope with the lack of quality in our side, especially when we rely so much on our key players who will not be present tomorrow. Wishing for a positive note for our start to the TMS Cup 'Campaign'. Let's just wish for a 100% victory for our friendlies by winning over 4S tomorrow..
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
Tuesday, March 28, 2006
Aftermath Reflection
I was totally stressed out yesterday after the match.. Reached home at about 7.30pm, ate dinner, did a little homework, then fell asleep on the study table! Lol.. Lucky there weren't much homework yesterday.
Yea. Glad that we won 4V won 4R 3 - 1, although the first half was really some horrible display from our team.. We did start to pass a little more in the second half, which led to some positive moves, but really some chemistry would help. I just cannot link well with Guo Hao! Kept mispassing, and I really feel very guilty for most of the possession lost.
Besides, I feel my level of fitness did drop a lot. Ok, I know I did deteriorate a lot ever since my injury, but this really sums up what I have to say about myself. Pace was slow, stamina was weak, ball control totally sucks.. The only positive is that my heading's still here, although I felt I was rather unlucky not to score from the free-header from the perfectly delivered corner by Guo Hao.. Seriously, I do feel that his soccer has improved a lot since the first time he played soccer with us. If he continues to improve, I'm sure our chances of playing further into TMS Cup will be higher. Elimination is something all of us try to make sure we avoid, but I still feel it's inevitable, given the quality that 5A beholds. Nevertheless, still a good game which showed some teamwork..
*You played very well, Mary Anne! And Kang Yu too! Ran so much.. We would have conceded more than one goal if not for the two of y'all.. Honestly.
Finally, I really feel sorry about what happened to Yu Ren. I didn't have any intent to injure anyone, and I don't think I did anything.. But I just feel so sorry for him.. I hope he gets well soon so that this minor injury doesn't affect him in one way or another.
Overall, I love the feeling of the match, and although I feel fresher after a friendly match, I'm still working on my fitness.. It's now like a race agaisnt time for me.. I need to be at my optimum level when playing.. SOCCER in my viens. I'm gonna give the best shot I've got.
Yea. Glad that we won 4V won 4R 3 - 1, although the first half was really some horrible display from our team.. We did start to pass a little more in the second half, which led to some positive moves, but really some chemistry would help. I just cannot link well with Guo Hao! Kept mispassing, and I really feel very guilty for most of the possession lost.
Besides, I feel my level of fitness did drop a lot. Ok, I know I did deteriorate a lot ever since my injury, but this really sums up what I have to say about myself. Pace was slow, stamina was weak, ball control totally sucks.. The only positive is that my heading's still here, although I felt I was rather unlucky not to score from the free-header from the perfectly delivered corner by Guo Hao.. Seriously, I do feel that his soccer has improved a lot since the first time he played soccer with us. If he continues to improve, I'm sure our chances of playing further into TMS Cup will be higher. Elimination is something all of us try to make sure we avoid, but I still feel it's inevitable, given the quality that 5A beholds. Nevertheless, still a good game which showed some teamwork..
And also, the last goal was rather comical. I was through on goal, ready to slot the ball in anytime. Yet, I wanted to make sure that the angle was just nice for me, so I pushed the ball forward. The keeper almost got to the ball, but fortunately I made it in time to slide it away from him to slot the ball home. Well, almost home, coz' Kang Yu made the last touch. But who cares who scored the goal anyway? A GOAL IS A GOAL.
*You played very well, Mary Anne! And Kang Yu too! Ran so much.. We would have conceded more than one goal if not for the two of y'all.. Honestly.
Finally, I really feel sorry about what happened to Yu Ren. I didn't have any intent to injure anyone, and I don't think I did anything.. But I just feel so sorry for him.. I hope he gets well soon so that this minor injury doesn't affect him in one way or another.
Overall, I love the feeling of the match, and although I feel fresher after a friendly match, I'm still working on my fitness.. It's now like a race agaisnt time for me.. I need to be at my optimum level when playing.. SOCCER in my viens. I'm gonna give the best shot I've got.
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Diary - Blog
Has. Next week's the match 4V - 4R, can't wait to get my feet on the soccer ball. This match's gonna be mine. Kang Yu doesn't mind giving me the captaincy of the team, he told me himself. But should I assume the role? I mean. I do think that I should lead the team, but at the same time, I feel that I lack the qualities to lead. Will I know what to do, what instructions to give before and during the match? Or will the team even listen.
I know, some people laugh at things such as assuming the role of captain. However, soccer is in my veins, I breathe soccer. I don't like the feeling of being on the losing side, no one likes to lose. You can say, 'give it another shot' or 'next time'. But somethings just cannot wait for a 'next'. Everytime I get onto the pitch, I give my best shot, although sometimes my best isn't up to standard. Herm. The worst, our team hasn't even practiced a single match! I strongly believe that our coordination will be worse than that of 4V when they played against 5A. They still had some form of coordination, but it was sorta distorted by the brilliance of 5A. Gabriel jokes that we should have a practice match with 5A, but i certainly don't want to lower our morale, for the consequence is obvious.
Yea. Anyway, just to leave a response to Jie Pin's comments. If a diary is meant for you to write your deepest secrets in it, and you're not suppose to unveil your secrets, what's the point of having a blog? You get it? This blog's not meant for y'all to understand me. It's my own record of my past thinking, and have a good laugh about it in the future when I read about it. Lame I know. But I'm glad at least people read about what I have to say about things circling my life.
But siltl, I dbuot y'all udnrenatsd.
I know, some people laugh at things such as assuming the role of captain. However, soccer is in my veins, I breathe soccer. I don't like the feeling of being on the losing side, no one likes to lose. You can say, 'give it another shot' or 'next time'. But somethings just cannot wait for a 'next'. Everytime I get onto the pitch, I give my best shot, although sometimes my best isn't up to standard. Herm. The worst, our team hasn't even practiced a single match! I strongly believe that our coordination will be worse than that of 4V when they played against 5A. They still had some form of coordination, but it was sorta distorted by the brilliance of 5A. Gabriel jokes that we should have a practice match with 5A, but i certainly don't want to lower our morale, for the consequence is obvious.
Yea. Anyway, just to leave a response to Jie Pin's comments. If a diary is meant for you to write your deepest secrets in it, and you're not suppose to unveil your secrets, what's the point of having a blog? You get it? This blog's not meant for y'all to understand me. It's my own record of my past thinking, and have a good laugh about it in the future when I read about it. Lame I know. But I'm glad at least people read about what I have to say about things circling my life.
But siltl, I dbuot y'all udnrenatsd.
Saturday, March 18, 2006
"The Rain On My Face"
Hehs. Here I am again. This time, with some more thoughts up my brain.
Well, Scriptured Arrival's finally completed, but I can't say I'm really happy with it. I would really wanna make another one! But really, all these time constraints just aint helpin'. I've been trying to write some shit.. But for some reason, nothing seems to come out from my mind. They say 'speak your mind', and how am i supposed to do that when i don't have anything up my mind.
Anyways, I really miss Aidan. He's really a nice guy, and I really miss him. I have repeatedly told everyone not to speak of the past, but it seems now that I'm my the victim of my own words. I'm really envious that he's got out of this f***ing pathetic place.
Hahaz.. Yea. After listening to 'The Rain On My Face", it really touches my heart.. Really empathises with what's inside my heart. Pain and anguish. They're filling my viens. Really. I miss her, and to think that she likes someone else, really makes me feel like a loser. Perhaps I am one, because if not, how could i possibly like you when I'm not even good enough for you? Back in a couple of years. If only I had known her. Shit. It's all too late. I'm wishin she'll come across this blog, but M, i feel I've lost the love race. That's why I'm not pursuing this losing battle. Not ANYMORE.
And Jvt too. You should have known. I haven't thought of a possibility of it anymore, coz I'm a BIG FAT LOSER. If i wasn't, then why would i say i am? Over the past few days at the SLC, I've tried to catch glimpses of you. Maybe that kinda feelin no longer exists, but well. Yea. I still remember the SMS thou. Believe it or not.
Hmm.. Finally. My teeth's still freakin pain. I heard from a lot of people with braces saying that it takes at least 1 week to be okay. But the worse, is that this feeling will happen once every month, after the dentist tightens the braces. F*** it. Haha. But i hope time continues to fly as fast as it is, and so it'll be out in no time.
Last of all,
for those who even bother to visit this blog,
wishing y'all all the best for your future endeavours.
And special thanks to Aidan, for making this world a completely different one for mine.
I really miss you, and I believe everyone too.
Well, Scriptured Arrival's finally completed, but I can't say I'm really happy with it. I would really wanna make another one! But really, all these time constraints just aint helpin'. I've been trying to write some shit.. But for some reason, nothing seems to come out from my mind. They say 'speak your mind', and how am i supposed to do that when i don't have anything up my mind.
Anyways, I really miss Aidan. He's really a nice guy, and I really miss him. I have repeatedly told everyone not to speak of the past, but it seems now that I'm my the victim of my own words. I'm really envious that he's got out of this f***ing pathetic place.
Hahaz.. Yea. After listening to 'The Rain On My Face", it really touches my heart.. Really empathises with what's inside my heart. Pain and anguish. They're filling my viens. Really. I miss her, and to think that she likes someone else, really makes me feel like a loser. Perhaps I am one, because if not, how could i possibly like you when I'm not even good enough for you? Back in a couple of years. If only I had known her. Shit. It's all too late. I'm wishin she'll come across this blog, but M, i feel I've lost the love race. That's why I'm not pursuing this losing battle. Not ANYMORE.
And Jvt too. You should have known. I haven't thought of a possibility of it anymore, coz I'm a BIG FAT LOSER. If i wasn't, then why would i say i am? Over the past few days at the SLC, I've tried to catch glimpses of you. Maybe that kinda feelin no longer exists, but well. Yea. I still remember the SMS thou. Believe it or not.
Hmm.. Finally. My teeth's still freakin pain. I heard from a lot of people with braces saying that it takes at least 1 week to be okay. But the worse, is that this feeling will happen once every month, after the dentist tightens the braces. F*** it. Haha. But i hope time continues to fly as fast as it is, and so it'll be out in no time.
Last of all,
for those who even bother to visit this blog,
wishing y'all all the best for your future endeavours.
And special thanks to Aidan, for making this world a completely different one for mine.
I really miss you, and I believe everyone too.
Sunday, March 05, 2006
It's the end of another weekend.. Time really flies. Still, I havent change my blogskin. The internet just crashes everytime i enter www.blogskins.com. I don't know what's wrong with my com. Or is it with the website? Unlikely. Anyway, some questions have been runnin' through my minds of late.
Firstly, I cannot understand why everyone is acting as if this year is so different from the rest? Yes, it's the O' Levels this year.. But why can't people treat this year the same as we did for the previous years - fantastic years - we had in Temasek? Ok, apart from studying harder this year, and the fact that Aidan has left us - which cannot be changed. Aidan was the spark who lit up the darkest days of our lives. Yes, he bonded us together, but he no longer is here today. And why are we still living in the past? And why can't we possess some of the qualities he left behind? Gone is the man, but his qualities have become part and parcel of the collective memories in our minds. We just gotta replicate what he has left behind, and make this whole world a nicer place to live in. People keep complaining about 'boring lives'.. So my question here is: "What have we done to make all these better for ourselves"? I hope anyone who comes across my blog can think and reflect about this. Everyone can start with being more generous with the word 'Hi', and not pretend not to know each other.
Was chatting with Aidan yesterday on MSN. He sounds as if he's enjoying himself in New Zealand now. I really hope he is. Someone like him really deserves a lot more than he is having now.
Been reading some nice books these few days too. But still havent got the time to read Mary-Anne's "The Alchemist" (Sorry Mary-Anne! I'll read finish and return to you asap!) Herm. Would like to introduce a book I find really worth reading, even though you guys may not like Chinese.
1) 慢活 (Chinese version, available in 17 other languages.. Lol..)
- Original is in English, entitled 'Slow', by Carl Hanore. It's about living in our world where everything that matters now is SPEED. The contents of this book can really make any reader smarter intellectually.
In the meantime, I hope everything will be alright for everyone else. *Peace-
Firstly, I cannot understand why everyone is acting as if this year is so different from the rest? Yes, it's the O' Levels this year.. But why can't people treat this year the same as we did for the previous years - fantastic years - we had in Temasek? Ok, apart from studying harder this year, and the fact that Aidan has left us - which cannot be changed. Aidan was the spark who lit up the darkest days of our lives. Yes, he bonded us together, but he no longer is here today. And why are we still living in the past? And why can't we possess some of the qualities he left behind? Gone is the man, but his qualities have become part and parcel of the collective memories in our minds. We just gotta replicate what he has left behind, and make this whole world a nicer place to live in. People keep complaining about 'boring lives'.. So my question here is: "What have we done to make all these better for ourselves"? I hope anyone who comes across my blog can think and reflect about this. Everyone can start with being more generous with the word 'Hi', and not pretend not to know each other.
Was chatting with Aidan yesterday on MSN. He sounds as if he's enjoying himself in New Zealand now. I really hope he is. Someone like him really deserves a lot more than he is having now.
Been reading some nice books these few days too. But still havent got the time to read Mary-Anne's "The Alchemist" (Sorry Mary-Anne! I'll read finish and return to you asap!) Herm. Would like to introduce a book I find really worth reading, even though you guys may not like Chinese.
1) 慢活 (Chinese version, available in 17 other languages.. Lol..)
- Original is in English, entitled 'Slow', by Carl Hanore. It's about living in our world where everything that matters now is SPEED. The contents of this book can really make any reader smarter intellectually.
In the meantime, I hope everything will be alright for everyone else. *Peace-
Saturday, March 04, 2006
The price to pay
Havent been posting anything these few days.. Been kinda busy with tests. And more tests. Yup
Anyway. I've just got my tooth extracted yesterday. And no, it doesn't hurt, but it's the seperators in between my teeth that's causing all the pain. Can't really bite on anything, let alone chew on anything. Maybe it's just the price to pay to get my teeth straight. My Dad's been nagging about wasting perfectly normal teeth for the sake of beauty. 'Beauty', i suppose. Well, not now at least, but I'm sure it will be in the future. But my biggest achievement for today: bargaining with the dentist to lower the price for making braces, and successfully. But i suppose something else worries me: The whole process will take approximately 23 months. I hope it will be exactly 23 months, or even better, less than that.
Well, anyway, it just appear to me that there's a price to pay for everything else. But I hope I'm not paying over the odds. Cause the feeling's really not nice.
Anyway. I've just got my tooth extracted yesterday. And no, it doesn't hurt, but it's the seperators in between my teeth that's causing all the pain. Can't really bite on anything, let alone chew on anything. Maybe it's just the price to pay to get my teeth straight. My Dad's been nagging about wasting perfectly normal teeth for the sake of beauty. 'Beauty', i suppose. Well, not now at least, but I'm sure it will be in the future. But my biggest achievement for today: bargaining with the dentist to lower the price for making braces, and successfully. But i suppose something else worries me: The whole process will take approximately 23 months. I hope it will be exactly 23 months, or even better, less than that.
Well, anyway, it just appear to me that there's a price to pay for everything else. But I hope I'm not paying over the odds. Cause the feeling's really not nice.
Signing off,
Ee Yen
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