Let it..

GO!

Yea. went back sa today with the intention to meet ms lam and friends.
Oh man. Today was damn tiring. Although school ended at 2.30.
After school CHIONG to sa. Took 45 mins to reach potong pasir from mj. wah biang. and the worst thing was i didn't bring anything to read on the bus. just listenin' to some songs. i kinda miss long bus trips though. coz now i rarely listen to mp3 anymore. Li yun the smsed me to tell me she had to leave school early. So didn't get the chance to meet her. but pat and jing nan were waiting. Pat was frustrated that i made her wait so long.. but it's not my fault! the route from mrt station to the maingate is extraordinarily long! Was i supposed to know? I never took the route before. And the security guard wouldn't let me in just like that. Still forced me to put on the visitors tag when others just crashed in without noticing nobody. And he dragged the time! I was stuck there for a few minutes for questioning -.-

Anyways, after that i met up with shirley, seng yang and hazel at the cafe. Woah. Never knew u guys were SO united. Chunks to talk about. And yea. After hearing from u guys i guess my brother was right.. all the jcs are the same anyway. who needs the reputation? I'm not discrediting nobody but i think he's right afterall.

Was supposed to go find jing nan and pat first but hazel and co wouldn't let me go! Lol. So pat kept calling me and buggin' me. Jing nan got impatient too =/ So i rushed off to the linkway to find them. Pat was waiting at the junior school side. Didn't dare to step into the jc side. I wonder why she's so timid =X haha. eh but really lor.

Jing nan was showing off the finger print thing. Then i made her do it repeatedly!

Patricia was blabberin' about her uniform and mine. Well it looks the same lor! But cjc's collar pin looks nicer i guess. But sa's still the nicest la i'll admit. If i had to choose schools according to uni, it'll be sa no doubt. =/

Anyways, we walked all the way back to cafe. Met rei, sharon, rahul and some random guy whom I didn't know. Rahul seems to have changed a lot. It's not just the hair la. Something about him just seems different. =X And when jing nan pointed to me their gang. Er. Yea. Gives me an impression.

Chat chat a bit. then finally i was to my ultimate aim: to find ms lam and thank her! but she wasn't in 'her office' today. Kinda disappointed. But i'm still glad i met my friends and all. PAE was REALLY NICE. But i'd say i won't regret la.

Plus after talking to Wilson, the guitar club president, i think so. He's like very depressed or smth. Woah. But at least zhe hui still sounds ok, not so stressed. haha. whatever the case and however i'm gonna walk this path, we can only..

LET
it be the way it is
it be my final decision

GO.

that's it i guess. And yea. 07s207's quite nice. Hope everyone settles in their own school asap. And for patricia, look ahead. =D

Recently I've been.. Reachin'.

Yesterday was rather busy.

Morning went to buy uniform, then was supposed to go support Yu Chuan at CSS. But then couldn't make it. Sorry man. Just glad that you made it to the next round. All the best!

Shortly after that I went to Marina Square just to watch Hazel, Mark, Shirley, Seng Yang and the rest to eat at Jack's Place! Lol. Maybe the trip was worth it 'cause of the amount of water I drank. Lol. Thanks though, Hazel. And you actually remembered to bring the cards (I actually meant poker cards) lol! Haha. Li Yun couldn't make it in time then I was scolding her. In the end I left when she reached. =/
Maybe next time lor.

Xue Qi was angry. Then keep tellin' me about her god-brother. Aiya. Relax la. Everything happens for a reason la. Just look at me. Haha.. Just chill la.. No point thinkin' too much about it.
Just be happy =D

Rushed off to play soccer with kw, yx and co. Was drained by time the match ended. Too long never play soccer! Needs time to adjust la. Played till around 5 then went kw house for a while then we left. Reached Pasir Ris at around 6.20 and yewf made me wait for damn long. Had dinner with his friend Wei Qiang also. At the newly opened Kopitiam at White Sands 3rd floor. Yewf's Vampire friend. Lol. But then he didn't eat. After that walked home, chit chat a bit here and there. He's.. Not bad la. Quite friendly. Haha. And yea. Yewf's been acting weird lately. Aiya just cheer up a bit and open up more.

Walked home from there. Oh man. Took like 30 mins. Chat. Nth much though. Was supposed to play fm but then couldn't use. Not like those photos are in a hurry to be edited right.

Just.. Recently.

Meaning?

To actually treat others even more than me, and then come back around swearing you were always down. To lose a great friend and all this shit. Blame it on me. It's all me. Ok. I would rather have sacrificed those times I had and to have it normal forever. It's just not the same. I went around tellin' people about it? I didn't. But you won't believe. I can't be bothered to explain anymore. You won't want to listen anyway. I never even blog about it. Not till this post. Who blogged?

Those no-friends of yours speak of so many lies. They tell me how they feel about somethings, then tell you another. You don't like how I put it, but it's f- up. You actually trust them. I'm disgusted. Utterly disgusted. If I said this right into your face you would say I'm self-opinionated. So what am I supposed to do? Let it go? Haven't I done that? I never bugged about anything. You wanna talk about it, ok. Nobody's stoppin' you.

I always knew something like that would happen.
If you'd still remember what I said on day 1.

And to not see that 'withheld' shine on my screen again.

I lied to you about how I felt, just to let it go. You believe? You think I really felt that way? Ok nvm. For me to trust so much in you and then that's it. That's it?

Upset ur whole entire life? please.

I didn't want to talk about this anymore. But if I don't jot it down somewhere, who would know?

People only read about it, but they'll never understand.

This is not for you, it's for me. This is not an argument.

Can't get out of my mind

I was initially reluctant to go, because of the thought of having to splendering away more of the little fortune I have left. But since Jing Nan kept persuading me to go, I decided not to let her down. In the end we turned up late too - we were supposed to meet up at 1.30, but we only reached there at 2.50. More than an hour late. =X But at least I made it ok! Plus I didn't want to sing at first! Lol.

So Yu Chuan, Rui Zhe, Jing Nan, Mandy, Ryanna and I went to in there to sing first. Wan Ting joined us later but didn't really sang.

Actually for most of the time it was really Yu Chuan and I singing. Mandy and Ryanna always sang together, but their voice were hardly audible. Lol. Sing louder!!

The drinks that Yu Chuan introduced - Mocha Chocolate and the coffee drink were nice.
But the aloe vera was too sweet - can actually get you diabetes if you drink like one glass a day =X

For long periods of the day Jing Nan was talking on the phone outside. I don't get it - we're there to sing! Not talk on the phone! Lol. And we gotta lighten the atmosphere by ourselves! =D Yu Chuan certainly did. Haha..

We sang till 7. Then after that we remained in the room all singing on our own, though the session was dominated by Yu Chuan's voice. =X We checked the receipt after the session too. Guess what! One hand towel actually costs $1 each! It's totally unreasonable.

Went to eat after that went Takashimaya for a while. Look through books. Then went home. Sorry can't be too bothered to elaborate about things. bleh.

遠走高飛

遠走高飛

演唱：李聖傑

詞曲：蔡伯南

編曲：王豫民

愛你錯了嗎　為什麼會受到這麼多懲罰

他們說的話像針往心裡扎我心中的怕

不知該怎麼做才可以放下

只不過想好好的愛一次啊

（副歌）

帶我遠走高飛　不去理會

這一個蜚短流長的世界佈滿虛偽

是你讓我選擇沉醉　繁星守候月不能睡

只因為愛上了夜的黑

帶我遠走高飛　一起去追

有一個叫做幸福的世界沒有淚水

我已經感覺到疲累　只想在你懷抱入睡

不在乎別人眼中是非

重新再出發　能不能讓這天地不再吵雜

我的心裡面安靜得不像話故事的真假

沒有多餘的力氣去分辨他

只不過想好好的愛一次啊

Repeat （副歌）

Letters to..

School was supposed to end at 1pm. But I had only one lesson after 11.30. So I wanted to leave the school early to go dental. Then Kenji saw me at the corridor, asked me if I wanted to pon or not. So I gladly said yes. So I climbed out the gate with him. As in, really climb. Then after that ran all the way in the rain to the MRT station. Bought the pancake at the hawker centre and we gobbled them up within minutes. Lol. Amazing how fast guys can eat eh?

Then my mum called and said she was at Kovan. So I went there to have lunch with her. Hazel called ask me where I was. Outta school by that time. Too late. Skipped GP. Chatted with Kenji on the mrt. He's quite a nice guy to talk to, and as far as I know, he's an IT expert. Gotta ask him how to use some functions next time. He even has his own website! So convenient to use. And all his datas are all uploaded onto com.. haha.

So I met up with my mum's friends at Kovan then we went for lunch. At lao ban niang's stall. Everytime we go Kovan we'll sure drop by at her stall to eat.

Mum had to go back fetch my brother. Had to go dental. Was talking to Jun Xian and realised he was going dental too! but different place. Wanted to meet up, but then Sam Tang called and asked if wanna go watch movie. At ORCHARD. So I needn't have to go anywhere else. But got stopped at Popular there by this sales girl. Asked me donate. In the end most of the time was spent crapping. Was reluctant to donate initially, but yea.

Came across this book on palmistry.. Actually wanted to buy it but decided to search it up on the internet. Superstitious? Maybe. But personally i find it interesting. About the round and flat type of fingers.. And how that defines people. Kinda true when I think about it.. And the people I know.

The MRT towards Jurong at Kranji was stopped for accident. Worried Sam Tang 'cause they didn't know if they could make it in time. They did eventually. Managed to get the 4.20 tickets which costs $2 less than shows after 5pm. Hakim was - dry. Yu Ren, Sam Tang and I all drenched. Went into the theatre all freezing cold..

Lttrs to..
Nice. So emotional I think Tang got influenced by it or something. Lol. Reminds me of the RB Law which I watched with my siblings and my cousins in Taiwan last time. So realistic. People resort to escaping when driven to desperation - death.

Suddenly I feel like going on another movie spree - which I've been already. Ghostrider, Epic Movie, Lttrs, Just Follow. And more to come. Jun Wei says he wants to watch Pursuit of Happyness. And I'm gonna catch a movie with pschool friends. That's so much I can do before this shit gets serious.

Walked home and talked to LY on phone. LY's having sore throat.. Bad one i think. Can bearly project voice. Lol.

Had late dinner with family at 9pm.

And a gold trophy for you. B' Div Netball. Finally something you wanted so badly to put in your room. Congrats!

Forgive.. But these ideas.. It reminds me.
Churning these data. Analyse?

Who didn't?

That's why it's recorded.

NEC.

Reunion: Best friends from past.

Today I went to find Jun Xian at his work place. It's been a long time since we've met up. So after school I went all the way to Vivo City to find him at Timberland! He works at Timberland! Nice pay and nice working environment yea! haha. Then he took an hour break just before his dismissal from work to drink STARBUCKS with me. Haha. Chit-chatted through out. Then the freezing cold atmosphere made him want to pee. haha.

After that he knocked off from work and we went home together. Talk somemore. Talk talk and talk. Things from the past, the present, and the future. Seems like he's gonna have a good time.
Then we talked about how we're gonna organise a primary school reunion or something. Been talking to Lester and Leonard too. Harng Yi says he'll be in. And Adrian just tagged. Haha. Hopefully the plan's gonna be through.

Primary School has been nice, and hopefully we'll keep in touch again. =)

And for Jun Xian, we were goodest of friends last time, it's a pity we didnt get to keep in touch that regularly, but yea. Hearing about your past and your future plans, I know you're on the right track. I wish you all the best for your future. And I know we'll keep in touch more regularly now. =) Friends forever man.

Not like some others.

If..

If you'd still care.

You never knew me. Talk shit behind me, post it online for everyone to see. Well, who's wrong? I never talked about you online. But if you had to resort to this, what can I do? You probably not gonna read this page, but at least other people will hear of this like you wanted. Ok ok. It's ALL my fault. I'm cowardly. ok. I kept it low-profile. I never told the whole world about it. That's why I'm cowardly. And you have to tell the whole world about it. I'm so proud of it.

I wanted to clarify but you didn't want. We can help correct each other in what was wrong. But you didnt want. Ok ok. I'm guilty. You're angry and so am I. Don't I have feelings too? I NEVER WANTED to upset you. Clarifications' out of the equation.

We both were wrong. I know I was wrong to force an answer outta you. But that was to know how you felt. To know what you wanted. Friendship? I said okay. Then ignore and avoid. I became the worst - in your eyes. Okay. And you too. All your friends have all the qualities that I dun have. Even people whom you once said was horrible. It's nothing, okay. It's nothing. I don't wanna care anymore. We both aren't gonna back out of this. You don't.

Wasn't you who said of the thing that love NEVER existed between us? And now you say I assume. It's always me assuming. I contradict because you said it didn't exist? What sense? We couldn't compromise 'cause we never got the chance to.

It wasn't about pin-pointing the blame. It's about cooling down. You said after CNY. So I waited.

Never wanted to blame you, wanted to come to a conclusion and that's it. Now we can't even talk about it no more. I admit, we were both wrong. I don't wanna pin-point. But the tone you use. Ok. ALL MY FAULT. Keep thinking that way and maybe you'll be the happier one.

Believed in true love, but now, NEVER.

Wished to see you smile once more, and don't be so angry.
Tryin' to inject some sense hoping you could relate.

Now I can't care anymore.