Fearless 011210

Ok, stop it with the emo feelings and shit

As though you need a few more quiet minutes

Fuck you, you been procrastinatin' too long

Don't kid yourself, you think you can sing songs?

Write songs, write lyrics, flow and shit?

You don't deserve to call your shit a decent lyric

You don't deserve to call yourself a lyricist

You don't deserve to pretend to be all of this

What now huh, you a loser, only know how you'd wept

Why you sad and down and depressed, everyone you ever got close to left

You ain't shit, motherfucker, and you know it

Don't try be to hard and try to be fearless and shit

We all know who you are deep down, a big fat clown

Tryna act cool with your fancy hip-hop sounds

You only be the joke of the town, but NO!

Fuck you all the doubters, even the friends I know

You never gave support to me and the shit I wrote

You call yourself a friend when I was alone and broke?

You evoke empty memories flushed down the drain

I invoke rhymes rewrote, delivered to your brain

I'm like a strain of virus, they call me contagious

If you mad at the shit I wrote, then I've succeeded

Like memory files deleted, I close you in a window

I kill you doubts to leave you lost like widows

Cause I be the motherfuckin' fearless

Since death made me stronger, fuckin' tearless

So we as a band, we got a plan to success

We killing bitches like we give a fuckless

I be feeling sick from so many farewells I've bid.

I'm sick of this... Still I stick with this..

Aha

Does anyone even hear my voice?

I guess it's a lonely world out there isn't it.

To you 011210

I know this girl who's fierce and violent towards me

And I have no idea why she hits out at me

I admit I tease her sometimes when I'm bored to death

But she retaliates like she wants the last of my breath

I used to call her bully for the way she treated me

It was slaps, punches and kicks when she greeted me

It was irrational, maybe disrespectful

But I thought that she was just a kid, she had no clue

The line drawn between being rude and being cool

Accepting that she was just a girl still in school

Maybe I was a nuisance, but I loved her responses

Like when she gives me the 'what-the-hell' expressions

In the short term I found it hard to accept

Being the target of her brutal attacks

But in the long run she became my source of fun

Someone to add in the colours in this life of a bum

It's not like I see or talk to her every day

But somehow when we meet there's always something to say

It's strange considering we never talked much

Before that it seemed like the result of her grudge

She didn't care much, and befriended me on Facebook

At a point of her life when she stopped being rude

And at this point of my life I was missing my own life

So when rumours that they were leaving were rife

Suddenly the whole world just crashed upon me

Life's a bitch trashin' on me, .. don't you agree

... ... ...

They were right, sometimes I do complain a lot

Regarding people on this shit land and what not

Neglectin' the people that were always around here

And then just right in front of my eyes they disappeared

She was right, we were never close anyways

So why would I care at all in the first place

As they leave behind everything they had on this island

They leave behind regrets in the hearts of empty men

Wishing they could have done something different

Wishing they could have been better cousins

But we were not, and it's now all but too late

On a Ar-Ess (r/s) report card, with a sub-pass grade

All I have is apologies for all that's amiss

And these words of wish(es), you're stronger than this

People change for the better or the worse, behold

So stay true and stay gold, and some day, some day..

Some day you will shine brighter than gold..

And I know you will shine brighter than gold.

Twenty-ten, what the fuck man?

Twenty-ten, what the fuck man

Gotta wake up those who are scammed

I know things gone change one day inevitably, but

This year will forever be unforgettable to me

What the fuck's happened in this shit year, I don't know

But as far as I recall this is how the story goes:

It goes one for the times the army fucked up my life

Like my JC times, I don't know how the fuck I survived

I know it ain't my style to be vulgar, but look

This is what you've made me, a monster, a stranger, a crook

And now it's proly gonna stick with me till I die

'cause no matter how much I try to severe this tie

I know there are things in life you can't unwind and unlearn

And no matter what, the past's a done fact, you can't unturn

A choice to regret, a friend to get, one to forget

I know what I be saying is sad, like carbon offsets

Concerted efforts to save the world from decay

But ha.. You critics are fuckin' hypocrites, don't you say

So this goes two for the truth you tried to guard and protect

The short tour equipped with guns and cigarettes

Wings on a bayonet, ha, who you jokin' wit

Where you think they actually picked up the dirty habits...?

It's in the year twenty-oh-ten, I stopped to pretend

Havin' countless friends when there's only a hand-full of them

I'm thankful to them, but I'm sorry you missed the list

Maybe in the next life our paths will intertwine and twist..

Third on my list I gotta say thank you to Buddha

For the scriptures you wrote and the way of the Dharma

I'm not religious, but knowledge reigns supremacy

And it's this philosophy I connect with in entirety

Experience speaks louder than speculation and threats

I just heard over the damn news that Korea was attacked

But man, whether you on the same side or not that ain't right

When will the death of humanity ever come to light?

It was the first, the second, and then the cold war

And (End) this mindless obeying to princes who wanna be raw

An idea radicalizes even the strongest minds

And you are the host, it's a virus one of a kind

So come and inhale some of this enlightenment

Befo' shits gets painful, shameful, an embarrassment

Stems from the very fact that punk, yea you got played

When you nod your head in agreement, 'you smarter at fifth grade'?

And if this sounds like the end of the world, that's proly 'cause it is

I won't speculate, but it's only so if you say it is

This fourth one goes to those who fight for their dream

Even when all hope is lost, you know it's the only thang

Worth living for, I never knew better before

IF NOT WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS ONE LIFE WORTH LIVING FOR?

A Freeman Once Again.

NZ 1943 (IB 05/ PACKET 6/ 39J/ with MARCUS & YIWEI)

Arrival:
06 NOV 10/ 0300HRS/ CHANGI AIRPORT/ TERMINAL 3

Things to do (Short-term):
1. JC CLASS CHALET on 07 NOV 2010
2. S2/ S3 BRANCH CHALET on 07 NOV 2010

Philosophy

Yiiiiiiifeng this is the song I was talking about at KTV that day! Couldn't recall on that day heh.

PHILOSOPHY

- Ben Folds Five

(from the 1995 self-titled album)

Won't you look up at the skyline
At the mortar, block, and glass
And check out the reflections in my eyes
See they always used to be there
Even when this all was grass
And I sang and danced about a high-rise
And you were laughing at my helmet hat
Laughing at my torch

Go ahead you can laugh all you want
I got my philosophy
(Keeps my feet on the ground)
And I trust it like the ground
That's why my philosophy
Keeps me walking when I'm falling down

I see that there is evil
And I know that there is good
And the in-betweens I never understood
Won't you look at me I'm crazy
But I get the job done
I'm crazy but I get the job done

I say go ahead and laugh all you want
But I got my philosophy
(Keeps my feet on the ground)
And I trust like the ground
That's why my philosophy
Keeps me walking when I'm falling down

I pushed you cause I loved you guys
I didn't realize you weren't having fun
And I dragged you up the stairs
And I told you to fly
You were flapping your arms
Then you started to cry, you were too high
Too high....

Now you take this all for granted
You take the mortar, block, and glass
And you forget the speech that moved the stone
But it's really not that you can't see
The forest from the trees

You've never been out in the woods alone
So you can laugh all you want to
I've got my philosophy
(It keeps my feet on the ground)
And I love you you're my friend
But you got no philosophy
Now it's time for this song to end

You got the heart?

Yo, it's true I used be a fool back in school

I wasn't rude but I was like a block of wood

Nice to you, whether you cool or uncool

I had no clue who was true or untrue

As a kid I wanted to be a writer

But never did shit; I was just a dreamer

Thought I was smart but I was just immature

Just another chess piece of a chess player

Oh-Four-Oh-Two-Oh-Seven, became smarter

Went on to read things beyond the paper

I guess it's weird I wanna be a rapper

Given how shy I was as a teenager

Always loved the poetry and the music

Now I'm thinkin' about producin' it

I've got my fears, but I gotta face it

One life, one chance, not gonna waste it

Now what do I have, got the rhymes to slay

Emotions to vent, too much words to say

But nothing much else apart from all that

At least I've got the heart and that's a fact

And motherfucker, that's the reason I killed ya back in twenty-0-seven.

You still want the life of a failure? No? Then get your fuckin' ass up and start workin' and stop procrastinatin'. Bitch.

Motherfuckin'..!

Some things I gotta get off my motherfuckin' chest..

I used to be mad and sad at the friends I lost
Put to the test of time but none of 'em passed the course
Mourned the lost, but I got right back up where I fell
Got a few new pals and FOR 'EM MY SOUL I WOULDN'T SELL
Every obstacle we've ever been thru tells, told
How much stick we've been havin' as a general whole
But I'm glad we made it, with a couple of outsiders
We've fucked the empty souls that used to reside inside us
We don't have a common cause, 'cause it's friendships that band us
We'll proly shrug off any offender who offend us
'Cause we're nice people who don't carry lethal needles
We're broke as fuck but we still treat them to nice noodles
But you know what, I'm sick of living aimlessly
I've been dreamin' of striking a balance successfully
Get rich enough to feed and house my entire family
Make 'em proud for who they know me to be..

So I wanna be..
A famous rapper who gives you quotable quotes
An inspiration who shows you and paves the roads
The man who re-wrote history for his country
The man I'm born to be and proud to be.. me.

So fuck everybody who doubted me and who still doubt me
I came back stronger and this time for real I'm ready
I'ma tear apart this fuckin' cage and own the stage
Rappin' from minimum wage to maximum wage
To let 'em all know I've come of my fuckin' age
And this ain't no facade or a god-damn corporate image
So you know why I gotta fuckin' win this..?
I don't wanna live with regret or havin' to swallow this

Now

Now

- by Eyedeas and Abilities

[Intro]

We're here to..
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now

We see through..
repetitive etiquette and the highly unoriginal

We're here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now

..They will lose..

[Verse]

Check it out now, check it out now
This is a necessary change from the grim simple and plain
Gonna exercise that brain to break the chain pain is a part of gain
No need to explain
We innovate to generate an intricately interwoven tapestry
of musical and ethical epiphanies
The interest is minimal
Im on an awsome mission with an angel
That can take it all the way to where the sun is
Just like a runner loving running
Tryina turn it into a simple symphony
Simple sentiment adrenaline is coming back
Im in the innercity, where i gotta be a superstar
Id rather be a galaxy
But how you see is so dependent on the medicine the rhetoric
And how at any second you think you could sit on the brink of this
World is all asleep and i have no apologies
I breathe
Keep my sight on what we ride on
Let bygones be bygones
The migraines dont sidetrack
My final destination nothing rivals predetermination
to exterminate the germination
Of a nation that accepts anything thats thrown in its fat face
'Cause when theres nothing left
Theres no more point to the rat race
We dont waste a minute of the day
Don't be offended what im saying
Trying to send it all way to another stage
A creative alternator rated and greater
The crazy maniac mellodies end up all up in your face wait
Success aint only based on self esteem
It takes a sense to differentiate between
Whats yours and someone elses dreams
I felt the screams climbing up my cold spine
Saying nows the time to put in all the energy
To get rid of the enemy... i said it so..

[Outro]

We're here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now

We see through
repetitive etiquette and the highly unoriginal

We're here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now

They will lose

Cuz music aint good if it got no style

sick of the same old thing

free us and touch what we cant see
twist that knife and watch him bleed
lost inside its way too deep
someone choke me
help me breathe

run from mistakes
right in my face
feels like im running in place

Gamblin' away this

Gamblin'.. Money makin'.. False-hopin'..

The first thing I want to make known is this

The power of the money is no stronger than my fist

And the fact that I've repeatedly cracked my wrist

Gives you a clue you proly didn't make my list

Get the gist, bitch, you just itchin' to get rich quicker

When I be laughin' drunk after I swallow this liquor

I'm a master of the mic, spit faster than you fight

The illest when I write, I'm fightin' for the right

To dominate this cordless mic with a few random lines

Tryin' to rock this stage like it was mine

Cleared the mine before you counted to nine

In time, before you see money for the last time

It ain't worth it, son, that life of a bum

You gon' be thankin' me 'fore the mistake is done

You probably gon' hate me for tryin' to lecture you

Tryin' to cure you because I care about you

This lesson is nothin' new, the intellects are few

And yea fewer are those who be direct to you

That's how I feel, try differentiate the fake from real

I suggest you trust me than try to check the seal

Most counterfeits got certificates they make up

Like poisonous lead in your dangerous make up

It's like investments interventions that you take up

But you still ain't listenin' to my words dude, please wake up

For God's sake, fuck, it's just a topic up in my mind

I've been contemplatin' 'bout leavin' the past behind

But it's temptin' me, attemptin' me, urgin' me to grind

I'm a lost guy, truth in religion I'm tryin' to find

I don't know business so I got a few books to read

They say the secrets in these books are for me to heed

Persistence is essence, wit hope I plant this seed

I don't know what it means but I see the roots bleed..

Sand in a Glass

These nights get a little colder and I'm gettin' older

Enthusiasm's drained, with heavier pressure on my shoulders

What happened to the dream of being a teacher

The day I realized how much data were being censored

What happened to the 'happily ever after'

The day you decided to pen your feelings in that letter

Wrecked my heart broke inside out, shot thru' like a clout

Leavin' me dehydrated in the season of the drought

So the truth I found out, puttin' things beyond doubt

Retarded, that I used to think I couldn't live without

A girl in my world, got me thinkin' irrational;

Livin' life like one of 'em movies, fictional

Illogical, unattainable, unsustainable

This love life's pathological, but still correctable

I avoid gettin' myself in that situation again

But here I find myself fallin' into that quicksand again

Exhaustin' my final mental capacity limits

Tryin' to adjust and resettle in this place I fit

So I run and I hit, but I slipped on my trailing feet

Back to square one, sucked in, dyin' to the scorching heat..

Asian.. So what.?

Okay this is it, I'm comin' into this game for real

No more 'maybe I will', 'cause I know this time I will

Stick true to the game, showcase my charisma and skill

Amplify my name, MCs on stage ready to be killed

Ready to be filled with rhymes and random punchlines

I been consumin', I'm tryna' make up for lost time

That I been procrastinatin', so here's the bottom line

The dark times are over and I'm here for the sunshine

You probably don't understand me but that's fine wit me

But from now on, take some time out and listen to me

When I be spittin' the truth on a simple sixteen

You be enlightened by what you're about to see

First hand, no gimmicks, just me and my rhymes

Spittin' nonsense over this microphone sometimes

'cause we deserve to have some fun once in a while

Now put your hands up, listen up, and give me a smile

.. ..

Now my identity's probably gonna hold me back

If you gonna talk shit 'bout an Asian, hold it back

In fact, you probably gonna talk 'bout me being stateless

Let's face it, there's millions out there in poverty, homeless

Why you makin' it a big deal the state my country's in

When there's more Mexicans illegally migratin'

FUCK YOU if you ain't know the history behind all these shit

Actin' like you were qualified to POP SHIT..
But you ain't, so know your position and be quiet

And truly, truly hear the words of this Asian poet

Who's mastered this foreign language and he bites back at you

Rememberin' his roots, I'm me and I'll never be you

I'm proud of the fact I'm a hundred percent Asian

Product of the values of Confucian education

That's out of sync. with the American equation

Fuck it, fuck fake rappin' with a fake caucasian accent..

Don't F***ing Quit

[Verse 1]

I'm overwhelmed by emotions, fuck all these sentimental shit

Like that night I was sitting down at the stairway, quiet minutes

With myself, alone with no-one else, reminiscing the cool shit I've done

But then I realised I ain't got too much of that shit.. Lack of fun

Lack of funds, lack of firepower in my word armoury.. Guns,

Cigarettes, but I'm glad I never started smoking, hallucinatin'

About the sex and the drugs, the power and the mighty thugs

In a way I was blessed, always well-informed 'bout the rags and rugs

Sometimes I gaze upon the stars at night and wonder naively

If I were one of the stars that were destined to shine brightly

Though I may not be the dopest of all lyricists you'll meet

I'm still gonna the productive citizen the society needs

And no i'm not being humble, I know the limits to my strengths

I was never born to do the sciences, or apply the stats in maths

I honestly used to be filled with thoughts of envy, jealousy

Seein' the kids around me, everyone doin' well except me

Disillusioned with life, I did think about givin' it all up

But something in life told me to look on da bright side, chins up

Took a few moments, a few moments too much, reflecting thru' life

Life, life on a whole.. Maybe it wasn't my fault.. This system ain't right..

[Hook]

Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. (x2)

(Yea you) don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up..

[Verse 2]

There's two possibilities when a dick doesn't fit a pussy

Or maybe the pussy doesn't fit the dick, obviously, you see

The system's flawed, everybody knows that unequivocally

But curiously nothing's been done to provide the remedy

All the talk 'bout reducing inequity and the income gap

Is like vacuum in a fuckin' bag, a concept you just can't grab

The media keeps tellin' us they implement the welfare

Then again I keep seein' people livin' in absolute despair

And the worse part of it all, you can't talk shit, yea keep your mouth shut

But you don't, and they repeat the same shit, havin' your message cut

Havin' your platform shut, "quiet and chew on your betel nut"

And fuckin' with more controversy in the form of cigarette butts

What the fuck, I only patriot if I serve national service?

Understand the need for equality, but whose interest is this?

Back to the days of monarchy authority hierachy,

You want me to think like a man, but behave like your pet monkey?

You can't have your cake and eat it man.. It's either this or that

You discourage multi-tasking, remember? It's as simple as that

So as I sing in tune and recall the moments I spit and rap

I teach myself to look thru' the loopholes and avoid the trap..

[Hook]

Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up..

(Yea you) don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up..

[Outro]

People laugh and mock and scorn,yea they talk a lot and give that smirk

Fuckin' Asians, they don't understand the truth in my work..

It's a pity, 'black music' in they eyes, can't tell the truth from they lies

Rappin' in constellation, I'll shine the brightest, yea that'll be nice..

Indifferent

This was a rhymezone that once belonged to me, completely
Then it distorted and became what I didn't forsee
A lost soul without directions, always complainin'
Always bitchin' 'bout my fucked up life in my writings
But the days just went by and the years just flew by
I couldn't see myself goin' further with these rhymes
Black music, they call it.. Huh it ain't that simple
Because nobody understood what I used to scribble
And nobody felt the way I felt about it
People always sayin' 'ah, I went thru' the same o' shit'
Life gets on and on and on, don't worry 'bout it
Some day you'll look back and laugh at these same o' shit
So you see these guys liked to think they ain't worth it
But I was unlike them, I wanted to be different
I didn't want to be another one of them road side trees
Like 'em used to say, or another fish in 'da fuckin' sea

22nd May 2010

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Thought Product:

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Been having weird dreams lately..

1) People talking behind my back while I was asleep. But those weren't really insults/ mockery. They were complaints about my habits, which I don't think is negative at all. One of it was about my meticulousness, lol.

2) Me going deaf. I dreamt I've been hearing these weird electrical shockwaves, which according to a doctor, is a sign I'm going deaf.

3) People around me attempting to get me to smoke. I refused, but I was tied up and these motherfuckers were putting tobacco powder into mouth and setting it on fire. But don't wanna die in their hands. I don't wanna die yet, there's just too many things out there for me to fulfill.

聽說愛情回來過

聽說愛情回來過

曲：李思菘
詞：李思菘

在朋友那兒聽說

知心的你曾回來過

想請他替我向你問候

只為了怕見了說不出口

你對以往的感觸還多不多

曾讓我心碎的你

我依然深愛著



在朋友那兒聽說

知心的你曾找過我

我要他幫我對你隱瞞

只是怕見了面會更難過

我對以往的感觸還那麼多

曾給我幸福的你

我依然深深愛著



有一種想見不敢見的傷痛

有一種愛還埋藏在我心中

我只能把你放在我的心中

這一種想見不能見的傷痛

讓我對你的思念越來越濃

我卻只能把你把你放在我心中



對你的聲音 你的影 你的手

我發誓說我沒有忘記過

而關於你選擇了現在的他

我只能說我有些難過

我也真心真意的等過

Bring it away..

I used to think they were a part of my short life
Like who's gonna be my best man when I marry a wife
But now these feel so distant in my memory
Because as I went on with my life, they've forgotten me
Remember the times we used to hang out daily
There were so many, I gave up scribblin' in my diary
About what we used to joke in that old classroom
Arm-wrestling and kickin' balls that smashed the broken room
And after school we gave it all in matches
We tackled, we stumbled, we fumbled, got up and made dashes
Moments that defined our current ability
So we pushed on steadily and worked hard consistently
Because in that second we had very nice dreams
Dreams so inspiring we formed our very own football team
Though we weren't unbeatable we never lacked steam
A formidable pair we made, I never thought I'd lose him..

Old Article.

Can't believe people also came across and appreciate an article that I appreciate deeply too =)

Stanford Report, June 14, 2005

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rebel_Without_a_Cause

When She Loved Me

When She Loved Me



When somebody loved me,
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart
And when she was sad,
I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy,
So was I
When she loved me

Through the summer and the fall
We had each other, that was all
Just she and I together,
Like it was meant to be

And when she was lonely,
I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me

So the years went by
I stayed the same
But she began to drift away
I was left alone
Still I waited for the day
When she'd say I will always love you

Lonely and forgotten,
I'd never thought she'd look my way
And she smiled at me and held me just like she used to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me

When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart

When she loved me