his.story.

is this how history played itself out?

history doesn't have to affect the way we deal with people today, but some people are just outright arrogant and annoying.

and history teaches. once again.

What time is it?

Wait, is this the right time?

Think about your future.

One too many

Too many people tryin' to play judge

Too many people tryin' to stay plugged

Too many people tryin' to juggle

Too many things in their struggle

Too many people innocently venal

Too many people accidentally viral

Too many people manipulating

Too many people needin' contemplating

Too many people playin' with history

Too many people blinded wit' his story

Too many people giving too many chances

Too many people giving too few chances

Too many people broke in their talents

But remain people rich in their balance

Too many people broke in their balance

But remain people rich in their talents

sorry.

Maybe next year.

I can't wait for then either.

But so many things on hand..

So many things.

dear protagonist

Dear protagonist,

Skeptical about who you hang out with.?

Maybe? Maybe!

Your sincerely.

Educate, people, educate.

Am I suggesting that these ministers and politicians are venal?

No I am not.

I don't believe in a corrupt-free society, but the amount of money we taxpayers pay to be manipulated is ridiculous.

It's even more outrageous when I hear coffee shop talk about how generous the establishment is, with the funds we collected recently.

First off, it's not a lot, when you consider how much we are paying in taxes.

Secondly, it's our own motherfucking money. We paid for our own shit.

How ignorant and oblivious can these people be?

Our people need to be educated.

The elections may have been over, but there's still a long way to go for change.

2011年5月8日，母親節

是親情，讓每一天的生活充溢著一份很平常但卻永恒的溫暖。

隨著嵗月逝去，我們常常將我們最珍貴，最完美的呵護 - 母愛，待為理所當然的。

但不管我們再怎麽錯，你瞧，每個媽媽的笑容中浮現著愛，那是無私的愛，是崇高的愛， 是偉大的母愛。

有人說，母親是心靈的港灣，而媽媽們的笑容，讓美麗完美無瑕.. 這句話我同意。

謝謝媽媽的愛，五月的康乃馨將為妳們而燦爛盛開。2011年5月8日，母親節快樂！

But this pen.

This is all I have. I have nothing else.

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Melodies played in symphonic rhythms

The beauty of the art spread with a mission

We need to familiarize with the system

Or risk losing our eternal freedom

It's sad to see, apathetic children

Fucking up as the next generation

We need to resolve the situation

Or risk ruining your constitution

Education is much more than just tuition

Learning is not just regurgitation

Of mandatory sentences in lessons

We'll risk these bodily mechanisms

If we don't relax the stress and tension

Life cannot be simplified to equations

Not to mention, they're missing on the actions

Enjoy this second, or risk losing the moment

Love and sex, damn, what a mix and match

God created this bond we cannot detach

Why is love a sin and lust a sinful act

Fucking is only human and that's a fact

If I love a girl, I will love her everything

Bottom to top, top to bottom, everything

If I love her soul, I will love her skin

If lust is a sin, we're all products of sins

Even the test-tube babies are not spared

Do we really need you to share our air?

Nah I'm just playin', the world is all fair

Because to everyone else life is not fair

So whatever reason you're in this life for

Choose your own destiny, this life is yours

The door is open but you've gotta enter

You are the enemy you've gotta better

Untravelled terriroties

She started breathing even before I was in the womb
Got to the age I started reading, she was in the tomb
And then there was all this talk about her revivin'
From the underground down, they never stopped believin'
That one day she would resuscitate and come back greater
Meanwhile the media potrayed the, lime-lighters as saviours
The groundbreakers never stayed outside the picture
Meanwhile the angry and the money rappers were head-liners
Grammy's whack rappers, pretending to be dragon slayers
I'll kill you motherfuckers and your gimmicks, what say ya!
Recyling Asian jokes on incoming Asian rappers
Typical Americans and the rest of the world, fuckers!
Meanwhile I was tryin' to understand the term Hip Hop
Designin' rhymes in limited times, I didn't stop
Dreamin' about grippin' the mic in one hand, just rappin'
Spreadin' the love and the art in different directions

[Hook]
Hip Hop.. is alive again! X 4

Twenty ten was the year I thought I've hit the wall
Dream in shatters, I thought I'd never make another song
Doubters were laughin' at our immaturish dreams
It seemed only two other men were standing in my team
This whole fuckin' hip hop dream? It all seemed distant
Who would support local music coming from an Asian?
So, instead, I stopped playing the race card like Shigga Shay
That ain't never gonna work with those weak ass word plays
Fuck what the world has to say, this is what I have to say:
You motherfuckers cannot feel me, you cannot kill me
I'm bringing Hip Hop to untravelled territories
The truth to the light is shinin' brightly for you to see
If you thought Hip Hop was dead, think twice and think again
Her heart is beating and poundin' in the prides of Asians
This is the home to the world's greatest populations
Hip Hop is reborn in this region, you just have to listen!

[Hook]
Hip Hop.. is alive again! X 4

your struggle. my struggle.

Felt I've been letting myself down for a while.

And the swollen eyes and face and the cracked lips... and the headache.. isn't helping.

This ain't no love song, but..

These bad habits are working up again

Think I need a course on life management

I'm in a mess and nothing else you say make things better

Feel like a thrash, I just felt I had to write this fucking letter

I never envisioned things to turn out the way it did

I never knew I might live and go on to regret it

It started with innocent words that sounded absurd

But nowadays I gotta stay alert with every single word

Like the determinant factor, the guardian of death

It is lives I've stolen, so I am the culprit of theft

Please stop making yourself look like the victim alright

You're not the only one who suffers in them lonely nights

You need act right, while I need to learn to rap tight

There's this thing that's avoiding me, and that's the will to fight

But I will fight even if I've been losing this battle

Fuck handles, I'd still cling on this dream amid the struggle

what kind of love is this?

...it's been a hell of a emotional turbulence
a week before i was happy and all i feel now is sadness
my soul had been filled like a half-filled glass of water
took a sip, and right now there's nothing left in here, it's sad in here
it's mad in here, feel the loneliness in the atmosphere
saw your tears, but u know i was crying too, inside here
you couldn't hear, 'cause my heart was sobbing quietly
all this life i've always tried to live my life righteously
but you couldn't see, how time's gotten the best out of me
i used to be, the man who spoke and wrote confidently
till i figured, i've yet to figure out this whole ropes thing
you're the only one who queues up to hear me sing
and i was happy and exuberant, in bundles of joy
they can try to hurt me but i'm clearing these hurdles of ploy
damn, i don't know what she sees in me, but very clearly
she dotes on me and in return i love her even more dearly..

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Fuck airports and airplanes, fuck these runways

Reminds me of the pain, when you're off to a different place

Life is a race with the rush of pain when you're off the pace

Somebody needs to tell me the way out of this maze

I try to disguise the shit that hurts with this happy face

'cause it's in these moments of silence when I sought solace

I would have bought this place if I had the money

But I don't, 'cause I know money makes a man act funny

I hope to be free and that one day I be something big

However, the evidence I have is weak, it is bleak

But I ain't affected, like those North Koreans deflected

Livin' in nightmares but that's not scarin' me

I've had my share of misfortunes but that's not scarrin' me

They're scared of me, I might just be revolutionary

That's the reason they censor my lyrics and my music

It just happens I answer the critics and coffee shop, bitch!

Risky business!

The world is passing me by, but I ain't movin'

My friends and my enemies have left me, but I ain't movin'

They've got their own lives to meddle and be busy about

While I was still stuck here in this lab thinkin' of a way out

This world right here is addicted to speed that we don't need

That's the reason why these kids are growing like weed

Reminiscing about the old days, damn I do feel old

Those days were great, but since then the days have been real cold

I've been told, that the straight aces will get you somewhere

But meanwhile I see straight faces spreading everywhere

I think I have a reason to be scared of death to death

Tweelaophobia when I find my balance has nothin' left

But there's still a long way to go, there's still places to go

Lifes mazes to blindly follow and life races to blow

They say stick to the status quo but I say fuck it

If life is a chance then it's a risk I'm willing to take it

drained

Drained from the energies sapped from the inner soul

He can't think straight without a purpose or a goal

Braggin' about his talents and dreams in broad day light

But it still remains that dream he dreamed at night

Nobody shares the same plight or that Asian pride

And the truth is the only thing they cannot hide

Victorious between the battle of persuasion

Standing tall among caucasians, standing for asians

Playing down the race card in every rhyme he writes

Silently he tries to hide the mind's internal fights

At times trying to sound white, maybe black

Amid the identity crisis he draws constant flak

It's him against the stigma of the status quo

Doesn't want to battle or write the dopest quotes

But always proud of every rhyme he's written and wrote

But gotta stay humble while learning these ropes

Hogging on to that one dream behind the screen

That's the only one thing he learnt since aged sixteen

And this typical dream is typical except one thing

This guy's really got material in the shit's he's writing

that's (not) it.

and shit gets more and more tiring with every week

my hands are locked up in chains like a repeat convict

neo-colonialism pushin' me to the brinks of breakdown

grey hairs threatenin' with single blinks and fake smiles

clowns moving from town to town, industry meltdown

sounding profound, the saddist inverting their frowns

convinced happiness is within the reach of that hundred pounds

i'm just a fish like the rest of you, i'm just lurkin' around

tryin' to remember who I used to be, what my dream was

but too many distractions try to strike me off course

and of course i wanted to be somebody useful

except i never wanted to be used as a tool

too many jobs offering you low flat wages

but i know i'm worth more than that shitty ass wages

i try to get pass the stages, try to break these cages

this is just one life chapter as i flip thru these pages..

seal the fuckin' contract, dude!

you know you've been side-tracked awhile.. it's like selling your soul away for this fuckin' contract man.

the difference is, you know you've only pawned it away.. you're gonna get it back soon enough.

just grit ur teeth and bear thru' these 2 weeks.. and you're all gonna find a way out.

eventually.

but time waits for no man..

you ain't getting nothing but older, so HURRY THE FUCK UP before you lose the moment.

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Was trying to sleep, but this thing keeps lingering on my mind..

Like I don't know man, the final jigsaw was found, I thought the puzzle was gonna get pieced up, and then so many new chips are introduced in.. It all doesn't make sense now. I wanna just see the bigger picture, without the chips.

It's fun and shit, but something just keeps telling me to ignore these chips, reminder of how much they used to mock at you, and how they still hold that judgement of you.

And I'm at a lost of what to do.

Piece of shit.

Reminders February 2011.

我還是喜歡在臺灣的生活！

這次新年回去，臺北街上空蕩蕩，讓我體會到臺北的另一面。

去了日月潭，那兒的山水如畫，空氣新鮮，早上湖上的霧如仙境般，而且還好那天沒太多的大陸客:p 有空想再去台中玩，在那邊住個兩三天也不錯。

也在初一去了新竹縣 > 五峰鄉 > 桃山村 > 清泉 找娃夏阿姨，在那兒住了一晚。在山上最難忘的是我和妹妹第一次放鞭炮，是走吊橋看風景，是站在大卡車上兜風對大家大喊 “新年快樂！”，是在寒冷的晚上在路邊泡腳 (還有那超丟臉的事！呵呵) ，是天上那數不完的閃亮星星，是原住名的熱情（鄉長祝福我和妹妹我們這兩個陌生人有個美好的未來，以後娶個好老婆，嫁給個好老公 --- 姐姐說他是不是上臺演講的臺詞背太多了！），是很傳統的在地上鋪面被睡覺，是娃夏阿姨和的細心照顧，讓我們有個很美好的一段的2011新年回憶 :)

去了大葉幫忙會手忙腳亂，有時午餐時間排長隊，讓我和妹妹招架不住，還挨舅媽的批評，但我知道，批評是因爲要求我們兩進步，做事更有效率! 以前常看濃、姐姐、阿平哥哥在店裏做事，現在自己做起來才知道其實一點也不簡單！不用謝謝我們，我們吃了那麽多年舅舅的麵 （還有你們常請客），這也是應該的！ 謝謝你們帶我們去山上，去吃日本餐 （日戶屋）、法國餐 （SOGO台北復興館 10F 法樂琪精緻沙拉吧）、麻辣火鍋 （馬辣）、四川菜（西門町 & 忠孝東路 216巷），阿濬說的沒錯，他的確拜對 “乾家” 嘻嘻~ 也謝謝舅舅和阿平哥哥和我聊天，讓我發現我很多想法思維上的的錯誤，也同時給了我一些些生活上的小撇步和 idea..

謝謝婷婷姐姐（還有姐夫幫我買眼藥水，載我們上下山）還有你們家潔妹帶給我們的娛樂和快樂！現在有了小孩子，生活上開始忙得不可開交了哦~下次有機會再一起出去！

可惜我在臺灣沒幾天濃濃就要去日本遊學，但那幾晚在舅舅家裏晚上打電動，看電影，讓我很懷念以前小時候無憂無慮的生活，在深夜打電動直到舅媽起來給我們訓話 ！

還有，在泰順街住，肚子絕對不會餓的啦！阿公常到外面買便當或是去菜市場買菜回來煮飯, 謝謝阿公！

在臺灣的最後一晚去了淡水，之前下午去了野柳地質公園，與女王頭拍照，在海邊刮刮很涼快的風，在綿綿的雨中與姨丈、妹妹、承承、昱昱散散步，拍拍照，感覺還不錯！也真幸好當天沒太多的大陸客 :/ (還記得我們前面兩對大陸客霸佔女王頭超久的！) 謝謝姨丈也送我到機場！

最後，我覺得這次回去最辛苦的是姨姨了.. 每晚上玩班後還要幫我們想節目去師大夜市、景美夜市、五分浦買衣服、公關買東西吃東西、去永和吃牛排、去關渡宮拜拜，我生病時帶我去看醫生、又帶妹妹去配眼鏡... 回到家還要煩兩個小瓜的事，真是辛苦你了！

雖然這次回去又感覺臺灣/臺北人好像變得比較冷漠，不友善，素質似乎變差了一點（現在很多人搭捷運都不排隊了，很多人不禮貌，待人怠慢），但不管家裏、世界再怎麽紛紛繞繞喧喧閙閙，很欣慰我們這一家能團聚，回到臺灣總有一種從未離開這裡的感覺！

我已經開始想念臺灣，想念你們了~！

（差點忘了這次回去的其中最重要的事：姨媽中風住院，這次回去去探望姨媽3次，3次姨媽精神元氣都有進步。常回想起幼時姨媽帶我去大安公園餵鴨子，來家裏時一定會買一大箱我最愛的養樂多給我喝~姨媽人真的很慈祥..希望姨媽能早日康復，下次返臺能去姨媽家看看她。）

This trip has softened me a little bit..

But I was just trying to remember where the fuck I came from.. And who the fuck I really was..

And how things really are..

As a kid so many things were so perfect in my eyes

But now it just seems that the nice people weren't really nice

The people who's stuck through with me are the real deal in this life

When all these time I wanted to just settle down with a wife?!

Fuck that!

Who can feel the way I feel? Who can see the things I see?!

Who can understand the way things were? Who can you see?

It's me, so why can't you take this pill and swallow the fact

It's much easier if you could listen and follow the act

And maybe if you listened you wouldn't have fallen into that trap....

And still hold that pride of yours and be snorting off at the people who loved you

When they still loved you..

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY 2011.

So I told myself to be strong. And to learn to distinguish opinion from fact.

If I gotta crack my head and soul out to do the things I want, I've still gotta do it

It's the only god damn thing I know how to do.

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There's this emptiness inside of me, and it's killing me slowly
I've got so fuckin' many problems to contemplate, it's scary
My body has a mind of its own, it's tellin' me to live lazy
And my mind doesn't allow me to think too much, it's crazy
But when I switch on the tv, and try to direct my attention
To the public's attention and try to digest the information
I don't absorb shit.. It's the invasion of the fuckin' white noise!

random ink.