somewhere else

I'M VERY CONVINCED I DON'T BELONG HERE

'cause this is the only thing i want to do

I WILL BE A FUCKING DOPE LYRICIST

travel!

http://www.fluentin3months.com/life-lessons/

無暇的美麗

無暇的美麗

現實生活中我們不在一起

但妳可知道我每天想著妳

我們的愛情史美麗得可惜

同住在這城市卻失去聯繫

成人生活繁忙複雜得可怕

這世界又一直不停的變化

讓人不再擁有單純的想法

我想再來的話也不一樣吧

在分手時說出最狠的話我沒忘記

我們用歲月建立的一切多不爭氣

妳不顧我軟弱脆弱的心將它打碎

現在互相後悔也不能彌補得了誰

日子匆匆過去我的人生向前走了

我不再幼稚了從此再也不抱怨了

但偶爾的寂寞不斷勾起我的回憶

我也只能偷偷回頭迷失在那夢裏

感謝妳讓我看到真實的殘酷事實

人生的不完美其實才是完美的事

所以我用回憶畫出曾經完美的妳

只有在那時空裏妳是無暇的美麗

friend on fb.. so?

connected by the internet

but it's sad we no longer chat

放棄

有太多的話想對妳說

太多的想法說不出口 我太懦弱

太害羞膽小不敢獻醜 我想太多

想當初的溫柔當初的見面

現在只想要再多見妳一面

你怎麽沉默不説話了

難道連朋友都不當了 我說穿了

我知道妳比從前快樂 那我呢

我只能在這角落等待未來

等待未來有一天妳會回來

外面的世界紛擾喧鬧

電視的負面新聞報道

我們的故事沒有人會知道

他們不瞭妳對我有多重要

我又到這路口的交叉

這就是我們的結局嗎 沒準備好

來得太快來得太突然 我沒想到

原來我是這麽這麽的愛妳

我是多麽的不捨得放開妳

明知道不可能 卻又想牽起妳的手

有種莫名衝動 把妳摟在我的胸口

求妳今晚別走 願妳陪我躲在被窩

我們什麽不做 讓時間像流沙溜走

或許輪回注定 這一生不能在一起

所以選擇放棄

yachtes and boats

Hello, are you dead or are you still running alive

Times get harder and colder after you survive

Living on borrowed times, whose turn is it to shine

It's laughable how you try put your past behind

Reclaim stolen eclipse and sunshine, these are shadowed times

Of mellow rhymes that cannot cross the yellow lines

Where's the boundary, can't locate it, you forsake it

You berate it, like vanished money that you donated

What a tragic, swami gimmicks turned black magic

Coming around and calling it philosophy of logic

History repeats, yet another generation fooled

Paper chasers believing religiously in schools

These are peasant tools, you critic Socratic methods

Set the ball rolling, turning moments like effect Ratchet

Hatred in the veins of pessimists, socialists and Marxists

Axis tipping mentalists, opportunists and batteries

Work overload, I deviate onto the lonely road

Leavin' you cold, friends turn into the phony mode

So I'm searchin' for antidotes for the people I dote

Assailed by doubts as I embark a different boat..

what struggle?

As I sat at my table thinking of themes to write

I scratched my hair, pullin' those that had turned white

And still, I couldn't think of anything to write

So I sat there wasting my time from day to night

It's a mental fight, how did I end up in this woeful plight

Becoming a thief, stealing rhymes, with styles I bite

Becoming everything but the man who swore to abide

By the principles and rules I preach and cite, it's like

Exhaustion from the path and the waves you ride worldwide

Constantly searching for the grass 'on the other side'

Wished someone was here to be my guide, a bona fide

Teach a man to 'rap homicide', and whet his appetite

But look how he betides, angels circling the devils inside

Feelin' like politicians losing dignity and pride

Like political prisoners who die before being tried

Cast aside the great divide of the blacks and whites

Killin' the innocent like concentrated pesticides

They try to hide, insightful insights like the war brides

And denied to everybody they did it, fucking lies

But it's only time that people with real eyes will realize

Suddenly I feel like I have finally recognized, that

In comparison, my struggles are minute in size

Nobody sees tears when you're standing in the storm huh

Be a man, get up and fight for it, cousins, sisters.. bruh'

who sees your pain when they themselves are in adversity?

Nobody sees tears when you're standin' in the storm

Cancer (November 2011)

His best friendship asset: Deep Feelings

Since most relationships are initiated by a him, he looks to give rather than take, but at the same time wishes to be given too.

Science and mathematics are not ideal for a him as they don't allow sufficient space for personal opinions.

He will always try to maintain some kind of connection even in the most extreme circumstances.

He's one of the most bipolar signs, only true friends know how to deal with them.

morning mrs tay

Dear Mrs. Tay

I feel like paying you a visit after my exams.

But where and how do I find you?

I'm sure you're resting well among the stars.

Since 2005.

Yours sincerely,

Love

time to do something

Tired of hiding behind the screen?

It's time to do something.

be a happy mum

And she's been sleeping on the bed for 2 entire days already.

This is worrying. Please. be happy.

lame love rhymes

We're connected by the phone, by the texts

By emails, by facebook, the internet.

But still, you and I, we feel so distant

Your hair, your smile, so reminiscent

lame love rhymes lol

take care.

Okay I'm just skimming thru' the old photos of myself and some of my friends..

And geeez look how far I've come from being an introvert to who I am today.

And then I thought about you. We were so alike.

You used to be so quiet, so introverted.. So blue and so sad.

I'm just glad you went overseas and became a lot happier.

I'm really happy for you.

And even though I'm probably forgotten by you, I will never forget the fun times we had.

You were like my sister. I loved you so much. But I had to let go didn't I.

The best decision your parents ever made for you.

I looked outside of my window and saw the twinkling star.

And I wonder how you are. lol so cliche but really.

i felt the love tonight

I just heard one of the truest love story ever told

Noddin' my head in agreement, then I felt the cold

With tears of gold, she flips thru' historical pages

Of a normal school teen, fast-forwarded marriages

They never got together, and that's a regret

Boy met the girl, but that was 28 years back

Thru' the darkest times, the darkest storms, she cries

Infinite maybes and possibilities, she tries

To stop herself from imagining the impossible

Time already robbed your youth, this is no fairy tale

But think about the seas you've traveled, the skies you soared

The kids you've raised, pride, yes, someone give her an applause

Crumble down the wall, back then it was a tall order

Rewind it back now and you might reconsider

But if you was her, would you merge the tools of convenience

Or entrust on dwelling sentiments, the test of patience

You see the success of the man who used to love you so much

Yet it was you who let go of that golden touch, as such

As much as I empathize with you, it's sad that it's true

He never hated you, still blessed you, he still loves you

Ain't no way you two will ever be together again

There ain't no way you can sing the songs of forever again

But deep inside in that little corner of his heart

The memories you paint is your greatest work of art

28 years later the story is retold

As I sat there listening, your hand tightly I hold

This ain't about the cling, this ain't about the gold

Seems like some things we'll never, ever let them go

If you never said, I'd probably never, ever know

Past tragedies, life's misery that you never, ever showed

Applauding your bravery, I know that I'm lucky

To be sitting right next to you as you finish this story

reminiscing about you

I know it was over the moment I penned that letter

It was nothing personal, I only hoped for the better

Why would I destroy something I worked so hard to build

But you never gave a piece about me, and that's how I feel

What I feel, my feelings intersected with aphrodisiacs

So I stepped back, tried to figure this picture, this mosaic

I was fallin' in deep, thinkin' 'bout you even in my sleep

You're the reason I keep havin' paradoxical sleeps

Walkin' down the streets thinkin' what would have been, could have been

The nicest chapters written in our lives, the world would have seen

But clearly you wasn't into it, I feel so stupid

Like an idiot, so I'm breakin' the relationship

I just couldn't handle the emotional torment

My sadness flows like the river of sentiments

While my friends sit across and laugh at the opposite

Tellin' me "I told you so, you just wouldn't hear it"

Retrospectively they were right, about bitches and life

Rewinding the scenes constantly, soon dusk turns into night

I'm wasting precious minutes of my youth reminiscing

Someone I barely knew, but memories they still cling

semester 1 shits

all the shit this semester

1. i just fucking lost a friendship

2. my grades have fucking dropped like fuck

3. fucking caught in a car accident, thought i was gonna die or some shit

(hope to sammy gets the good news that he waits for)

4. my grand-aunt is in the hospital for the nth time

5. exams are coming up and i cannot fucking pick myself up

6. nothing except one thing excites me no more

7. i'm about to lose more friendships. about to break more relationships.

8. exams are coming up and i dunno what the fuck i have learnt. at all.

still have no fucking idea what to do with this one fucking life

but i still got your love. the only thing that is keeping me together

and i keep thinking about my friends and relatives overseas.

i ain't gonna quit. i'm not a quitter

你說的我一定會實踐諾言

still writing lyrics and rapping in my fucking four walled room

so what if you think it's whack, who the fuck is you

SAME SHIT AGAIN

姨媽又住院了..

好不容易痊愈的說，現在又住院了

陸陸續續好起來又入院老天爺你覺得這樣很好玩嗎

請你不要再折磨她了好不好

我真的很難過你知道嗎

sorry. i'm sorry.

I can't believe you actually did that on me.

You're the one who needs to get the clearer picture.

I've helped you so much, and you couldn't even help do me a simple favor?

that's fucked up.

i say fuck your pretense, lies, excuses and shit

but i like you, so i might forgive if you admit

i thought we could have been real friends but god damn it

from the beginning it was one-sided friendship

i showered you my love, concern and my care

almost crossed the boundary right over there

told everyone how great you were thru' both of my eyes

and now you won't even look straight into both my eyes?

don't forget who used to give you company and help

till you became independent, easy, I could tell

get it right, you're about to lose a big asset

since i changed poles and repelled like a big magnet

you say my eyes are small like fuck, that is true

can't believe i wasted my time giving in to you

you're always the center of the attention, fair enough

but i pity those who willingly walk the same path

why they even help you, i can't know fo sure

character is embedded, there is no cure

they say you're beautiful, but that's really all there is to it

i will never STOOP so low and fall for your lame tricks

and that's it. i'm sorry that's it. no more.

enough of the ranting coz my mouth is sore

but you should hang a warning sign on your shirt

i don't want to see another person treated like dirt

in reconciliation, you better have a good reason for this.

mazeee

You say you hate your life, yeah you ain't the only one

Tired of being dragged around when you're the chosen one

It is no fun, this city is down, weary and fucked

This road is lonely, all I need really, is luck

Nowadays I only think about writing the lame rhymes

On the same lines, conjuring rhymes in the same mind

But nobody understands the pain that you go thru'

While you're wallowing in the blood veins that run so blue

Caged in four walls, barely space for you to even crawl

But no-one responds to your pathetic little bird calls

Your fall from grace is the only thing that they all laugh at

Remindin' you the fact, curiosity killed the cat

Fuck a map, fuck a trap, fuck your ex-lover's slap

Love turns hate, our emotions we need to recollect

We're lost souls, can't do it alone, we all need help

Unite the human spirit, liberate the self

我的宿命

我竟然一邊聼著這首歌，一邊留下眼淚

大白天，大男人，你哭什麽哭

相信很多人聼過孫燕姿《我不難過》、王菲《旋木》這兩首動人動聽的歌曲..

聼久了，聼了太多遍，已經對歌曲中的悲傷麻木了..

直到..

直到我今天去搜尋歌詞作家的背景和故事，我頓然愣住了，突然覺得心中的不愉快並不算什麽

From Wikipedia:

（楊明學2004年死于肺癌）

外型相當不錯的楊明學曾擔任王菲《旋木》一曲MV的男主角，此MV的女主角爲其當時女友許維恩。2009年1月前偶像團體B.A.D成員田恩沛與許維恩結婚時，在婚宴進行到新娘抛捧花時，就為其妻演唱這首已故前男友所創作的《旋木》，並對她說：“我知道這首歌對你的意義。” 讓許維恩在場衆多賓客都不僅感動落淚。

你知道每一首背後的故事嗎？我錯了..我真的錯了..

楊明學，你的人生雖然短暫，但你留給這世界很多美好的創作，將會影響很多人，甚至還是一輩子呢

寫歌詞是我的宿命，千萬千萬不能忘記

wy do i love you?

And again today I tried to be your friend.

And again tonight before you disappeared,

You didn't even say 'goodnight'.

YOU DIDN'T EVEN FUCKING SAY GOODNIGHT.

I'm tired of this one-sided friendship.

Well you know what 2 more Freitags and we're done.

Haha I'm kidding. You know that I love you.

Lügen

STOP FUCKING LYING TO ME

跟劇本走

謝..我很想相信你但是以目前情況看來..有點很難置信~

或許有些事情不該讓人知道..知道了反而更氣因爲故事沒跟劇本走

但我還是要繼續努力，不辜負你對我的期待

寫歌詞是我的使命

keep or delete

Re-reading my posts.. I don't know man.

I should probably take back whatever I've written when I was depressed. I should probably delete them. I thought too much, too deep.. Truth be told, I was going insane.

But. I guess. It's all part of growing up. Even if it comes back to haunt me one day.. Oh well.

At least I'm man enough to admit I did write that stuff when I was younger.

And looking back, do you even recognize the same person who's reading this post now?

99.99% sure you won't.

自由

我給你自由~

OK TIME TO STOP READING.

READING TOO MANY CHICK LITS RECENTLY WHAT THE HELL

EASY A: Pocket Full of Sunshine Clip. Watch more top selected videos about: Cam Gigandet, Lisa Kudrow

Still remember I watched this with zhiquan and co. hahaha omg so gay.

check check!

Lol just checking, if anyone was thinking the previous post for intended anyone, WRONG.

i just need to tweek a bit to write into a verse.

great time last night

Had a great time last night, that's all that matters.

NEVER MIND

I don't think anybody believes the shit I say. but, whatever man haha.

not again

又來了. DAMN