A Freeman Once Again.

NZ 1943 (IB 05/ PACKET 6/ 39J/ with MARCUS & YIWEI)

Arrival:
06 NOV 10/ 0300HRS/ CHANGI AIRPORT/ TERMINAL 3

Things to do (Short-term):
1. JC CLASS CHALET on 07 NOV 2010
2. S2/ S3 BRANCH CHALET on 07 NOV 2010

Philosophy

Yiiiiiiifeng this is the song I was talking about at KTV that day! Couldn't recall on that day heh.

PHILOSOPHY

- Ben Folds Five

(from the 1995 self-titled album)

Won't you look up at the skyline
At the mortar, block, and glass
And check out the reflections in my eyes
See they always used to be there
Even when this all was grass
And I sang and danced about a high-rise
And you were laughing at my helmet hat
Laughing at my torch

Go ahead you can laugh all you want
I got my philosophy
(Keeps my feet on the ground)
And I trust it like the ground
That's why my philosophy
Keeps me walking when I'm falling down

I see that there is evil
And I know that there is good
And the in-betweens I never understood
Won't you look at me I'm crazy
But I get the job done
I'm crazy but I get the job done

I say go ahead and laugh all you want
But I got my philosophy
(Keeps my feet on the ground)
And I trust like the ground
That's why my philosophy
Keeps me walking when I'm falling down

I pushed you cause I loved you guys
I didn't realize you weren't having fun
And I dragged you up the stairs
And I told you to fly
You were flapping your arms
Then you started to cry, you were too high
Too high....

Now you take this all for granted
You take the mortar, block, and glass
And you forget the speech that moved the stone
But it's really not that you can't see
The forest from the trees

You've never been out in the woods alone
So you can laugh all you want to
I've got my philosophy
(It keeps my feet on the ground)
And I love you you're my friend
But you got no philosophy
Now it's time for this song to end

You got the heart?

Yo, it's true I used be a fool back in school

I wasn't rude but I was like a block of wood

Nice to you, whether you cool or uncool

I had no clue who was true or untrue

As a kid I wanted to be a writer

But never did shit; I was just a dreamer

Thought I was smart but I was just immature

Just another chess piece of a chess player

Oh-Four-Oh-Two-Oh-Seven, became smarter

Went on to read things beyond the paper

I guess it's weird I wanna be a rapper

Given how shy I was as a teenager

Always loved the poetry and the music

Now I'm thinkin' about producin' it

I've got my fears, but I gotta face it

One life, one chance, not gonna waste it

Now what do I have, got the rhymes to slay

Emotions to vent, too much words to say

But nothing much else apart from all that

At least I've got the heart and that's a fact

And motherfucker, that's the reason I killed ya back in twenty-0-seven.

You still want the life of a failure? No? Then get your fuckin' ass up and start workin' and stop procrastinatin'. Bitch.

Motherfuckin'..!

Some things I gotta get off my motherfuckin' chest..

I used to be mad and sad at the friends I lost
Put to the test of time but none of 'em passed the course
Mourned the lost, but I got right back up where I fell
Got a few new pals and FOR 'EM MY SOUL I WOULDN'T SELL
Every obstacle we've ever been thru tells, told
How much stick we've been havin' as a general whole
But I'm glad we made it, with a couple of outsiders
We've fucked the empty souls that used to reside inside us
We don't have a common cause, 'cause it's friendships that band us
We'll proly shrug off any offender who offend us
'Cause we're nice people who don't carry lethal needles
We're broke as fuck but we still treat them to nice noodles
But you know what, I'm sick of living aimlessly
I've been dreamin' of striking a balance successfully
Get rich enough to feed and house my entire family
Make 'em proud for who they know me to be..

So I wanna be..
A famous rapper who gives you quotable quotes
An inspiration who shows you and paves the roads
The man who re-wrote history for his country
The man I'm born to be and proud to be.. me.

So fuck everybody who doubted me and who still doubt me
I came back stronger and this time for real I'm ready
I'ma tear apart this fuckin' cage and own the stage
Rappin' from minimum wage to maximum wage
To let 'em all know I've come of my fuckin' age
And this ain't no facade or a god-damn corporate image
So you know why I gotta fuckin' win this..?
I don't wanna live with regret or havin' to swallow this

Now

Now

- by Eyedeas and Abilities

[Intro]

We're here to..
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now

We see through..
repetitive etiquette and the highly unoriginal

We're here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now

..They will lose..

[Verse]

Check it out now, check it out now
This is a necessary change from the grim simple and plain
Gonna exercise that brain to break the chain pain is a part of gain
No need to explain
We innovate to generate an intricately interwoven tapestry
of musical and ethical epiphanies
The interest is minimal
Im on an awsome mission with an angel
That can take it all the way to where the sun is
Just like a runner loving running
Tryina turn it into a simple symphony
Simple sentiment adrenaline is coming back
Im in the innercity, where i gotta be a superstar
Id rather be a galaxy
But how you see is so dependent on the medicine the rhetoric
And how at any second you think you could sit on the brink of this
World is all asleep and i have no apologies
I breathe
Keep my sight on what we ride on
Let bygones be bygones
The migraines dont sidetrack
My final destination nothing rivals predetermination
to exterminate the germination
Of a nation that accepts anything thats thrown in its fat face
'Cause when theres nothing left
Theres no more point to the rat race
We dont waste a minute of the day
Don't be offended what im saying
Trying to send it all way to another stage
A creative alternator rated and greater
The crazy maniac mellodies end up all up in your face wait
Success aint only based on self esteem
It takes a sense to differentiate between
Whats yours and someone elses dreams
I felt the screams climbing up my cold spine
Saying nows the time to put in all the energy
To get rid of the enemy... i said it so..

[Outro]

We're here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now

We see through
repetitive etiquette and the highly unoriginal

We're here to
bring the people and the music and the movement all together now

They will lose

Cuz music aint good if it got no style

sick of the same old thing

free us and touch what we cant see
twist that knife and watch him bleed
lost inside its way too deep
someone choke me
help me breathe

run from mistakes
right in my face
feels like im running in place

Gamblin' away this

Gamblin'.. Money makin'.. False-hopin'..

The first thing I want to make known is this

The power of the money is no stronger than my fist

And the fact that I've repeatedly cracked my wrist

Gives you a clue you proly didn't make my list

Get the gist, bitch, you just itchin' to get rich quicker

When I be laughin' drunk after I swallow this liquor

I'm a master of the mic, spit faster than you fight

The illest when I write, I'm fightin' for the right

To dominate this cordless mic with a few random lines

Tryin' to rock this stage like it was mine

Cleared the mine before you counted to nine

In time, before you see money for the last time

It ain't worth it, son, that life of a bum

You gon' be thankin' me 'fore the mistake is done

You probably gon' hate me for tryin' to lecture you

Tryin' to cure you because I care about you

This lesson is nothin' new, the intellects are few

And yea fewer are those who be direct to you

That's how I feel, try differentiate the fake from real

I suggest you trust me than try to check the seal

Most counterfeits got certificates they make up

Like poisonous lead in your dangerous make up

It's like investments interventions that you take up

But you still ain't listenin' to my words dude, please wake up

For God's sake, fuck, it's just a topic up in my mind

I've been contemplatin' 'bout leavin' the past behind

But it's temptin' me, attemptin' me, urgin' me to grind

I'm a lost guy, truth in religion I'm tryin' to find

I don't know business so I got a few books to read

They say the secrets in these books are for me to heed

Persistence is essence, wit hope I plant this seed

I don't know what it means but I see the roots bleed..

Sand in a Glass

These nights get a little colder and I'm gettin' older

Enthusiasm's drained, with heavier pressure on my shoulders

What happened to the dream of being a teacher

The day I realized how much data were being censored

What happened to the 'happily ever after'

The day you decided to pen your feelings in that letter

Wrecked my heart broke inside out, shot thru' like a clout

Leavin' me dehydrated in the season of the drought

So the truth I found out, puttin' things beyond doubt

Retarded, that I used to think I couldn't live without

A girl in my world, got me thinkin' irrational;

Livin' life like one of 'em movies, fictional

Illogical, unattainable, unsustainable

This love life's pathological, but still correctable

I avoid gettin' myself in that situation again

But here I find myself fallin' into that quicksand again

Exhaustin' my final mental capacity limits

Tryin' to adjust and resettle in this place I fit

So I run and I hit, but I slipped on my trailing feet

Back to square one, sucked in, dyin' to the scorching heat..

Asian.. So what.?

Okay this is it, I'm comin' into this game for real

No more 'maybe I will', 'cause I know this time I will

Stick true to the game, showcase my charisma and skill

Amplify my name, MCs on stage ready to be killed

Ready to be filled with rhymes and random punchlines

I been consumin', I'm tryna' make up for lost time

That I been procrastinatin', so here's the bottom line

The dark times are over and I'm here for the sunshine

You probably don't understand me but that's fine wit me

But from now on, take some time out and listen to me

When I be spittin' the truth on a simple sixteen

You be enlightened by what you're about to see

First hand, no gimmicks, just me and my rhymes

Spittin' nonsense over this microphone sometimes

'cause we deserve to have some fun once in a while

Now put your hands up, listen up, and give me a smile

.. ..

Now my identity's probably gonna hold me back

If you gonna talk shit 'bout an Asian, hold it back

In fact, you probably gonna talk 'bout me being stateless

Let's face it, there's millions out there in poverty, homeless

Why you makin' it a big deal the state my country's in

When there's more Mexicans illegally migratin'

FUCK YOU if you ain't know the history behind all these shit

Actin' like you were qualified to POP SHIT..
But you ain't, so know your position and be quiet

And truly, truly hear the words of this Asian poet

Who's mastered this foreign language and he bites back at you

Rememberin' his roots, I'm me and I'll never be you

I'm proud of the fact I'm a hundred percent Asian

Product of the values of Confucian education

That's out of sync. with the American equation

Fuck it, fuck fake rappin' with a fake caucasian accent..

Don't F***ing Quit

[Verse 1]

I'm overwhelmed by emotions, fuck all these sentimental shit

Like that night I was sitting down at the stairway, quiet minutes

With myself, alone with no-one else, reminiscing the cool shit I've done

But then I realised I ain't got too much of that shit.. Lack of fun

Lack of funds, lack of firepower in my word armoury.. Guns,

Cigarettes, but I'm glad I never started smoking, hallucinatin'

About the sex and the drugs, the power and the mighty thugs

In a way I was blessed, always well-informed 'bout the rags and rugs

Sometimes I gaze upon the stars at night and wonder naively

If I were one of the stars that were destined to shine brightly

Though I may not be the dopest of all lyricists you'll meet

I'm still gonna the productive citizen the society needs

And no i'm not being humble, I know the limits to my strengths

I was never born to do the sciences, or apply the stats in maths

I honestly used to be filled with thoughts of envy, jealousy

Seein' the kids around me, everyone doin' well except me

Disillusioned with life, I did think about givin' it all up

But something in life told me to look on da bright side, chins up

Took a few moments, a few moments too much, reflecting thru' life

Life, life on a whole.. Maybe it wasn't my fault.. This system ain't right..

[Hook]

Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. (x2)

(Yea you) don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up..

[Verse 2]

There's two possibilities when a dick doesn't fit a pussy

Or maybe the pussy doesn't fit the dick, obviously, you see

The system's flawed, everybody knows that unequivocally

But curiously nothing's been done to provide the remedy

All the talk 'bout reducing inequity and the income gap

Is like vacuum in a fuckin' bag, a concept you just can't grab

The media keeps tellin' us they implement the welfare

Then again I keep seein' people livin' in absolute despair

And the worse part of it all, you can't talk shit, yea keep your mouth shut

But you don't, and they repeat the same shit, havin' your message cut

Havin' your platform shut, "quiet and chew on your betel nut"

And fuckin' with more controversy in the form of cigarette butts

What the fuck, I only patriot if I serve national service?

Understand the need for equality, but whose interest is this?

Back to the days of monarchy authority hierachy,

You want me to think like a man, but behave like your pet monkey?

You can't have your cake and eat it man.. It's either this or that

You discourage multi-tasking, remember? It's as simple as that

So as I sing in tune and recall the moments I spit and rap

I teach myself to look thru' the loopholes and avoid the trap..

[Hook]

Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up..

(Yea you) don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up.. Don't give up..

[Outro]

People laugh and mock and scorn,yea they talk a lot and give that smirk

Fuckin' Asians, they don't understand the truth in my work..

It's a pity, 'black music' in they eyes, can't tell the truth from they lies

Rappin' in constellation, I'll shine the brightest, yea that'll be nice..

Indifferent

This was a rhymezone that once belonged to me, completely
Then it distorted and became what I didn't forsee
A lost soul without directions, always complainin'
Always bitchin' 'bout my fucked up life in my writings
But the days just went by and the years just flew by
I couldn't see myself goin' further with these rhymes
Black music, they call it.. Huh it ain't that simple
Because nobody understood what I used to scribble
And nobody felt the way I felt about it
People always sayin' 'ah, I went thru' the same o' shit'
Life gets on and on and on, don't worry 'bout it
Some day you'll look back and laugh at these same o' shit
So you see these guys liked to think they ain't worth it
But I was unlike them, I wanted to be different
I didn't want to be another one of them road side trees
Like 'em used to say, or another fish in 'da fuckin' sea

22nd May 2010

Windows Vista Date & Time Synchronization:
http://www.howtogeek.com/howto/windows-vista/dealing-with-windows-vista-time-sync-problems/

Word:

http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/sinister

Thought Product:

http://www.soundclick.com/bands/default.cfm?bandID=960099

Been having weird dreams lately..

1) People talking behind my back while I was asleep. But those weren't really insults/ mockery. They were complaints about my habits, which I don't think is negative at all. One of it was about my meticulousness, lol.

2) Me going deaf. I dreamt I've been hearing these weird electrical shockwaves, which according to a doctor, is a sign I'm going deaf.

3) People around me attempting to get me to smoke. I refused, but I was tied up and these motherfuckers were putting tobacco powder into mouth and setting it on fire. But don't wanna die in their hands. I don't wanna die yet, there's just too many things out there for me to fulfill.

聽說愛情回來過

聽說愛情回來過

曲：李思菘
詞：李思菘

在朋友那兒聽說

知心的你曾回來過

想請他替我向你問候

只為了怕見了說不出口

你對以往的感觸還多不多

曾讓我心碎的你

我依然深愛著



在朋友那兒聽說

知心的你曾找過我

我要他幫我對你隱瞞

只是怕見了面會更難過

我對以往的感觸還那麼多

曾給我幸福的你

我依然深深愛著



有一種想見不敢見的傷痛

有一種愛還埋藏在我心中

我只能把你放在我的心中

這一種想見不能見的傷痛

讓我對你的思念越來越濃

我卻只能把你把你放在我心中



對你的聲音 你的影 你的手

我發誓說我沒有忘記過

而關於你選擇了現在的他

我只能說我有些難過

我也真心真意的等過

Bring it away..

I used to think they were a part of my short life
Like who's gonna be my best man when I marry a wife
But now these feel so distant in my memory
Because as I went on with my life, they've forgotten me
Remember the times we used to hang out daily
There were so many, I gave up scribblin' in my diary
About what we used to joke in that old classroom
Arm-wrestling and kickin' balls that smashed the broken room
And after school we gave it all in matches
We tackled, we stumbled, we fumbled, got up and made dashes
Moments that defined our current ability
So we pushed on steadily and worked hard consistently
Because in that second we had very nice dreams
Dreams so inspiring we formed our very own football team
Though we weren't unbeatable we never lacked steam
A formidable pair we made, I never thought I'd lose him..

Old Article.

Can't believe people also came across and appreciate an article that I appreciate deeply too =)

Stanford Report, June 14, 2005

'You've got to find what you love,' Jobs says

This is the text of the Commencement address by Steve Jobs, CEO of Apple Computer and of Pixar Animation Studios, delivered on June 12, 2005.

http://news-service.stanford.edu/news/2005/june15/jobs-061505

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Rebel_Without_a_Cause

When She Loved Me

When She Loved Me



When somebody loved me,
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart
And when she was sad,
I was there to dry her tears
And when she was happy,
So was I
When she loved me

Through the summer and the fall
We had each other, that was all
Just she and I together,
Like it was meant to be

And when she was lonely,
I was there to comfort her
And I knew that she loved me

So the years went by
I stayed the same
But she began to drift away
I was left alone
Still I waited for the day
When she'd say I will always love you

Lonely and forgotten,
I'd never thought she'd look my way
And she smiled at me and held me just like she used to do
Like she loved me
When she loved me

When somebody loved me
Everything was beautiful
Every hour we spent together lives within my heart

When she loved me

Ordinary..

I wanted to thank God one day for my existence
Givin' me life and strength to live thru' the seasons
But give me reasons, to face all these confrontations
And the consequences that comes with it, lesions
Life lessons, everyone wants to be special
Stand out from the norm, but I wanna be normal
Like another molecule in the hot flask thermal
Sometimes I get angry and temperamental
I flare up 'coz I'm flammable, I rage in my fury
Keep me burnin', alcohol swipes to injury
I scream in pain when it eats into my flesh
Tell me, HOW THE FUCK am I supposed to stop this rash
It starts creepin' up on my arms, on front of my neck
It grabs me by the throat when I get nervous and sweat
But what am I supposed to do huh, live in a air-con cell
Away from the sun and the fun, I'd rather live in hell..
Than to be kept hostage..

[Hook]
There's a cure that heals me..
GOD you're torturin' me..
Fuckin' censurin' me..
Can't I be ordinary?

I'm full of apathy, indifferent to your state of mind
I struggle to live on, but I'm losin' hope in mankind
Schools pledgin' to educate but I find them propagate
Ideology for the people we all love to hate
Nature reserves brushed aside for development
Number one top priority, our entertainment
Homogenizing your world and mine, my culture and yours
Embracin' the carcinogenic burger fleet force
Can't y'all see the fuckin' problem here? It puts me off
We don't see the need to resolve it 'fore the world froths
... incomplete.

history

I don't need you comin' back and forth knockin' on my back door
Pretendin' to be down 'coz you regret your deed when you were raw
You were wrong, 'coz you started pointin' fingers in the blame game
Talkin' shit behind me, try'na defend your image and name
And three years down the road you still wonder why you left me
Alone in the dark, along the paths of hollow, deathly
You had the death of me, but I was reborn on fourth February
An infant with collections of previous life memory
Insane, 'coz time after time they came back to haunt me
Like how many times I gotta say "get the fuck away from me"
I'm doin' fine and I don't need nobody's fuckin' sympathy
So hear me out, I think you need a fuckin' therapy
Insane, 'coz when we meet face to face I don't say all these
In fact it's with you in this time of space I speak the least
Can't bring myself to tell you straight in your pitiful face
That I hate talkin' about happenings in that phase
It's only givin' me the distance between my friends and I
Now I don't even know damn (them) friends and you know exactly why
And I can't hide from history, that state of sorry..

..Beautiful..

Actually watched Disney Pixar's 'Up' when it first came out early this year, but having watched it again on DVD with my siblings just now, I feel that its theme song, "Married Life", is so.. beautiful.

Hope to learn how to play this song on the piano one day!

God Loves Ugly..

Nice to listen to some old music.

Atmosphere - GOD LOVES UGLY



I wear my scars like the rings on a pimp
I live life like the captain of a sinking ship
The one thing that i can guarantee
I'm like a stepping razor, i suggest you stay fair with me
Been payin dues for a decade plus,
Before that i was just another face on the bus
Tappin my foot, to the beat on the radio
Dreamin 'bout the mic and the money and the ladies
Oh mom, i promise im gonna be large
Someday im gonna stop tryin to borrow your car
Gonna go far, with charisma and skill
Until they put my face on a million dollar bill
Atmosphere, its just a ten letter word
Discretion is the name of my cement-feathered bird
And if you didnt hear, fuck whatevers heard
I think you got the sickness i suggest you get it cured
Caught up in the mix, of a bottle full of fix
Im gonna hobble down the street 'til i reach knob creek
Its not that i dont like you, i just dont wanna speak
You fuckin freak
Now keep your days out my week
The world keeps a balance, through mathematics
Defined by whatever youve added and subtracted
Im pushin on the hammer, to trigger the brain
Embrace how i live it, god loves ugly

[chorus]
God loves ugly...

Once upon a time in minneapolis, yo
I damn near had to steal the show
I stepped on the stage, who is it?
My names slug ive come to kill a couple minutes
Whats up with the way, that everybody gathers around each other
So they can steal each others sound
If its all about gettin down with the get down
How long i gotta wait for these fools to sit down?
Appears more clear in its simplest form
Nobody sees tears when youre standing in a storm
Abandoning the norm, and handling the harvest
Measuring the worth by the depth of the hardships
I welcome all the hatred you can aim at my name
I held on to the sacred ways of how to play the game
When the soldiers started runnin short on rations
I began tappin the egg, to spark the hatchin
Make it happen
And take this captain to the gallows
I keep steerin us into an area thats shallow
Talkin to my shadow, he advised me not to worry
He said i should plant my tree and let it rise out of the fury
So give me some light, a little love and some liquid
Im gonna creep through the night
And put a plug in the spigot
And when the water grows
And the dam starts to overflow
Ill float atop the flood, holding on to my ugly

[chorus]

Why scream, when you can lose yourself inside the wide-screen
Let life be a bowl of melted ice cream
Or be the deer thats caught in my high beams
Im rollin with the lights on, scared stiff
Reality is just too much to bear with
Paranoid, walkin around careless
No wonder youre in love with your therapist
Go to sleep my little time bomb

Future..

Just thought maybe I should start readin' up on the things that I'll be studying in university.

Sociology: http://socioblogsg.wordpress.com/events/
Economics: http://www.nus-ens.com/
Political Science:
Psychology:

Can't find the other blogs (if there's any) but I'm gonna start readin up first =)

Well time to start gettin' back in touch with the outside world I guess.

Things to do:
1. Get driving license.
2. Play harmonica/ piano well.
3. Maybe start learnin' a new language?
4. Read up on my own background and some history stuff. Always wanted to know more but never had the channels to learn.