Sing-along-song

Sing-along-Song

Singer: Khalil Fong

Music/ Lyrics by: Khalil Fong



I wrote this song it's not too long

'cause I've been thinkin' about you

I wrote this song maybe I'm wrong

To be caught up about you



Well I don't know what you think about me

Or maybe you think nothin' at all

But maybe you could just lie to me

And we could be in love you see



[CHORUS]

Oh it's a sing-along-song it's not too long

It's when I think about you that I hear songs

And you can sing along maybe if you want to

'cause baby I wrote this..

I wrote this.. For you.



I wrote this song it's not too long

'cause I'm the one who loves you

I wrote this song this can't be wrong

I don't wanna smile without you



Well I just want to make you happy

But maybe you want nothing at all

And how I wish that you're meant to be

Forever and a day with me



[CHORUS]



[BRIDGE]

In every way you mean more to me than you'll ever know

Girl I'll show my best to show these words are true

And if you'd like to make a song

And be a perfect harmony with me

Oh I'd find the greatest words to sing

So we could write our own romance

And..



[CHORUS] X2

Birthday thanks..

Thanks..

to first of all, my family. Thanks to my Mum for treating the whole family to buffet at nihon mura (ehub) on 12th july 2009. Thanks to my Bro, Sister and mum (again) for coughin' up the money to buy me an ipod touch. Thanks for the company always. Thanks mum for givin' me life. Thanks to my lil bro, though there was no gift from him (he's expecting me to give him one for his bday haha), thanks for the company, even though I get mad at him sometimes but yea it's niec havin' a kid as a bro. Thanks to Dad for the birthday message I got from him, even though you can't be here physically, but we all know how hard it is out there being the sole bread-winner and workin' your heart out for the decent living standard we're having, and to prepare us kids for future college fees. Really appreciate that. To 姨姨，謝謝你一直以來的支持，謝謝你對我們的要求不厭其煩！我生日那天你寄來的簡訊，提醒了我不應將一切當作理所當然的，應該珍惜我周圍的人。=D

to Alab and Yifeng for celebrating my birthday for me in advance on 13th july 2009. Went teo heng on the monday (I had off for ndp rehearsal on 11th july). Despite the time constraints (we sang from 1.30pm to 5pm) coz I had to book in at night, I thoroughly enjoyed myself. Havent sung for a long time so I'm glad to return to the mic haha. Thanks alab for always providing great companionship when life gets mundane, and thanks yifeng for the support he always provides.

to SzeJun for the birthday greeting on facebook, sorry not that I wasn't concerned about your situation, just thought we oughta look around us for a while, and lend our helping hand to someone we all hold so high regard to. That's what friends are for isn't it. Hope we can do something about it. And of course, hope your situation makes a turn for the better too =D

to Staff haojie for the fabulous meal I had at swensen's on 14th july 2009. Actually expected to go dutch but he treated us all. I feel bad sometimes coz he's so generous and sometimes when I look at myself, damn I'm one ugly selfish bastard who compares people time to time. Thanks staff. For the birthday cake we all enjoyed in branch. Thanks for always makin' everyone feel so welcomed and homely in branch. =D Thanks 3SG Zhiquan, 3SG Benedict, 2LT Kane, Marcus and Sean for the company for the dinner we all enjoyed.

to Patricia for the company on 6th and 7th July 2009 when you were here. Thanks for the birthday present (soccer ball), really glad to have you as a personal friend of mine. Irreplaceable friend. =D Just hope things'll be alright for you over there as I'm speakin' right here. And of course, your fiance! Take care! =D

to Hazel and Shirley for the birthday smses, but most of all, for always providing companionship and always filling my boring days with fun and love.

to ShiJun, for making that effort to make my day on birthday even though it was slip-shot. But hey at least it's an effort, and I appreciate it =D Thanks for the budget card (and you got everyone to sign it), and the breakfast zzz. HAHA. Thanks bro. Lookin' forward to workin' together in army for the rest of our army life.

to Mary Anne (I'll remember your birthday's on 20th dec), JiaMing, JianZhi, Kat for the smses.

to HoYan, Zoe, Ben Chan, Sim Weijie, Emily Huang (congrats on your r/s), Han Liang, Raymond, Esther Chan, Steve, Rossane, Cadence, Lifeng, BaoChuan, Ivan Ho, Lilian, JingNan for the birthday greetings and wishes on facebook. Sorry for the late replies was in camp la..!

Hope I didn't miss out anyone.

Thanks.

Just went out with alab and yifeng to katong to sing song =D

Had a great time, pity didn't sing enough. Had to leave early coz i'm bookin' in back to camp later (in fact, soon, like right after I post this).

Thanks guys.

JC days may have been the worst of my life (apart from my life now), but thanks to you guys for always being there.

Thanks for celebrating my birthday =D

Love.

安安。

忙忙忙忙！

人的一輩子都在忙。
忙著工作、忙著上課、忙著預備考試、忙著應酬、忙著談戀愛、忙著做自己愛做的事..

老了，該退休的時候，想著：我們終于可以放慢腳步，可以對昔日忙碌的，充滿壓力的生活告別。
但卻在這個時候老人卻發現，他雖然在人生的過程當中，雖纍計許許多多的歷練，換來的卻是一生對繁忙世界的俘虜。

身上富有了，卻在這個時候發現：銀行戶頭裏的錢是無法帶入棺材的。
他捫心自問，他空虛嗎？

親朋好友的悲歡離合是無法避免的，面對事實吧。

我只希望能與你們度過我所擁有的每一分，每一刻。
就算不能見面，不能一起吃頓飯，不能一起看電影，不能一起玩耍，
請記得我是很想念你們的。

感恩。

sister.

The first time I saw her, I didn't think much of her honestly
I was into love, so I didn't take anyone seriously
Un-inter-rested in friendships, I took her casually
'Cause none of these people played a part in my life, usually
A friend for a month or a year, but they still don't know me
That's how I viewed most of my friends or that's what they called me
Didn't give a shit what impression I gave them of me
It's hard to swallow I know, like how you drink soured coffee
So when I broke up, I never thought I'd become sociable
Forsaken like the cornerstone, I started to doubt fables
'Cause I figured there were no 'happily ever after'
Afterall, all these while I was livin' in my own corner
And as days slowly turned into months and months turned into a ye-ar (yare)
The sorrow was too much to bear, 'cause I had noone to care
All that people got from me was cold shoulders and a mean stare
I was turnin' into a monster, my mind became temper-flared..

Doubtin' people, but this desire burnin' for someone to trust
Still remained contrast, I was dyin, turnin' me into dust
Time came by and passed, I was hiddin' in my buffer-zoned shell
Prisoner of the heart, locked up in my suffer-zone; cell
I was seepin' thru the creaks of the fiery depths of hell
But she pulled me straight back up before I tripped and almost fell
She caught me by surprise I admit, didn't think she'd fit
As an angel, 'coz angels don't appear wingless and with feet
Wanted to thank her in person, but time prohibited it
After she saved me, she had her ideas, she decided to quit
Life on this barren island, wealthy but was always empty
I respected her choice, though I wanted her with me
I lowered my voice, and requested to at least know her name
And thanked her for makin' my life never the same again
I wanted to hug her tight, and tell her how much I loved her
But I was rooted to my boots... "I love you my sister"

Yea..

I feel a lot better now. =)

ha.

What am I supposed to do?

What am I supposed to say?

What am I supposed to.. feel?

I feel so helpless.. That I can't stop things from happening. And neither can I make things happen.

16 months.

Love.

Lapse.

I guess enough time's just aint passed yet.

I kept thinkin' how I should express myself
To show how much I loved her, but I was like an elf
Dwarfed into her shadows as soon as I saw her
Felt the adrenaline as soon as she draw(s) near
I don't remember lovin' someone so completely
It's hard lovin' someone I hold so close to me
And the last time I did that, she walked out on me
Tryna play smart, but everything's backed out on me
But I swear this time's different; it was platonic
How ironic, I'm serious but I don't mean it
A step behind, wished I was a little quicker
Coz I love you more than my own little sister
I've told you a thousand times she's not my lover
How can I prove it if I keep sayin' "I love her"
Truth is I just wanted to hug her, not kiss her
Tell her 'I love her' to prove how much I'll miss her
She's been taken, but afraid to be mistaken
So I had to reconsider all my options
But I chose to keep my truest feelings unknown
Even if it means becomin' a cornerstone...

Lookin' at Me

(Inspired by 'The Kite Runner')

Lookin' at Me..

Look..

[Verse 1]
Reverse the time, I didn't see my story would unwind
The way it did, since when did I call you a slime?
And those horrible things I did.. I hope you're fine
With each blow dealt, sometimes I wonder if a line
Stands between you and I, like white and black and grey
If I had learnt 'how to save a life' like the fray
I wouldn't let all these happen, but shit happens
You fail to distinguish a brother from a friend
Fail to differentiate love from hate, I love to hate
People sufferin', but it ain't me, goodness sake
How could I possibly have known you as a slave
You've been my fam, my full-time friend, an all-time-fave
But all I had done in that alley down the block
Was watch him rip down your pants, his pants, blown a cock
Thought I was stronger than that, turns out I'm not
I'm just a coward, like sheeps in a herd, I'm just a dirt..


[Hook]
Lookin' at me in the mirror, a thousand times over
I love you, forever, "for you, a thousand times over"
Lookin' at me in the mirror, a thousand times over
I love you, forever, "for you, a thousand times over"


[Verse 2]
Reverse the curse, but too late you still ain't a nurse
You can't heal a scar, let alone these fuckin' burns
That creep into your souls at night, so now you learn
It not the privacy earned, it's the love you yearned
Love of a dad, you've always had, but never read
Through lyin' eyes, hidden money under the bed
A theft that never was, I saw his eyes turned red
Confessin' to a lie, stupid; I admit, my bad
Didn't realise the impact of the words I said
That summer after winter, I'll never forget
Now I'll have to do all those dirty chores instead
Never the same, spendin' time on my own, instead
Of havin' you by my side, overturn the tides
Without you by my side, life's a sole bumpy ride
Wishin' you were here for me, for me to confide
Promise if they hurt you again I'll put up a fight..

I'll put up a fight..


[Hook]


[Verse 3]
Reverse the time, intertwine twenty years down the line
Thought I had you forgotten huh, nah not this time
The call summoned a trial, sentence for my crime
I guess I shoulda read the signs, read your mind
Your voices for me to save your ass for once, this time
But stupid; I couldn't see you drownin' in brine
Where was I? Far away from Afghan, I think I'm blind
Blinded from the good that you shine, the good you defined
Perhaps punishment to leave me alone forever
The most apt; I didn't deserve your love, ever
But you could tell I was the most sorry, said 'I'M SORRY'
But that changes shit, for the first and last time, I cried
'Cause nothin's changin' the fact I made a mistake
God's the only person to decide what to take
From a lethargic liar; just one lie too great
That's all it takes.. To take your life crate..


[Hook]


[Outro]
And perhaps.. There's a way to be good again..
(Loop)
Lookin at me in the mirror..
"For you a thousand times over"

Thanks.!

Perhaps there really are nice people out there.

Today booked out at 5pm after COS Duty on saturday.
When i walked out the gate to the bus stop, the bus just left! Argh. Felt really bad the whole day, things couldnt get worse. Miss that bus, and it was crowded transport, going home late and such.

But this old 46 guy drove past the bus stop, asked if i wanna hop on to jurong point. I gladly accepted it. Why not?

Nice person. Thanks for the ride eh.

For you a thousand times over.

Searchin'..

Summer of two thousand and five, it'll never be the same
For how you changed my life in every single way, it's pain-
Ful now because I lost myself then, and then reclaimed
Myself back, now I'm like a lost soul, searchin' in the pourin' rain
Tryin' to alter things back what you did in every single lane
Tryin' my very best to maintain, trying hard to remain sane
Tryin' all I can to make myself a name, to get myself famed
Tryin' everythin' I have to reconstruct this plane
Tryin' out every single mean, every single pill to relieve the pain
Tryin' on every single jean, every single shirt to look Dane
Tryin' to replace this window pane; inject these veins
Tryin' to figure out if I'm on the right track but the wrong train
Tryin' not to appear disdain, I could use a little champagne
Tryin' to make these images go away, but they'll always remain
Tryin' to convince myself to be nice to these people; entertain
Tryin' to just be me.. But I've had it.. I won't feign...

Never ever.

Fame

Beat by 'Anno Domini Records' (Soundclick)
http://www.soundclick.com/player/single_player.cfm?genre=Instrumentals&songid=7675643&q=hi

We gonna have fame..


[Verse 1]
Imprisonment, insane people go searchin for it
Goin' thru shit for it, doin' the forfeits
True to all you ass-holes, beatin' all the counterfeits
Becomin' one of them jack-assed snakes
Becomin' hypocrites, but they don't realise it
It's a vicious cycle, they try to beat it
Like me, fuckin' asian accent rap coke n' shit
I try to stay true to the game, but fuck it all..
Fuck it all.. if

'We Gonna Have Fame'!

[Verse 2]
It ain't easy in the military, nothin' comes instantly
You rush to wait and wait to rush constantly
But the days pass by so fast, so quickly, so hurry
Before time's over, write some shit quickly
Put it on the record disk, hopin' sincerely
God crosses to his path, helps him partially
A good fifty percent, the rest's his personally
We all know we can't trust Him completely.. if

'We Gonna Have Fame!'

[Verse 3]
Amazin' power, influence, money come with fame
But once you commercialise, it ain't the same
That's acid on rap, corrodes your brain like acid rain
Give you a condom, tell you 'restrain and abstain'
But money's in his bag, so fuck you no complains
I'll kidnap you, package and transport you from spain
To Ukraine, we'll take plane, thru the shorter lane I promise
To fame we must so let's go on this record disc

'We Gonna Have Fame!'

Hurt

Beat by 'Burnsie' (Soundclick)
http://www.soundclick.com/player/single_player.cfm?songid=5889729&q=hi&newref=1

[Verse 1]
I'm losin' my sense of direction, I can't focus; losin' concentration
At this point of my life I need encouragement, your motivation
Havin' had the best days of my life I'm havin' the worst, right now
Coz right now things aren't goin' too well for me, so how..?
Needa pull myself out of this mess; coz honestly
I've let too many people down, this I confess
Thinkin' about how I shoulda have made things better
For you, my family and friends; shoulda treat y'all better
No matter how much I put it, to you it's just words in letters
Put in thin pieces of envelopes, to you just ink on paper
I think about it every night when I tuck myself in bed
The same god-damn bed I put myself to sleep in, blankets laid
On the broken wooden planks that hurt my shoulder blades
I can't go to sleep, I think "I should have done that instead,
Shouldn't have said the words I have said", but soon these images fade
The very next mornin' I wake up feelin' alright, but I know, nightmares await..

[Hook]
I hurt myself.. Today..
To see if I still feel..
I focus.. On the pain..
The only thing that's real..

[Verse 2]
Pain from the hangover last night, not feelin' quite right
Stepped out from a room - pitch dark, feelin' shit; all contrite
Tryin' to get a grip of myself, tell myself it was just a bad dream
And that everything wasn't as bad as I thought, isn't as bad as it seems
Convince, persuade, recognise myself a proud soldier who fights hard all day
To stay alive, but recently I'm findin' it hard to find a purpose to pray,
To the gods who's given me so much help, advice all the while, all the way
Your whispers.. fadin' with each day.. I can't hear what you say no mo'
As if a sign to tell me you're on my side no mo', "Go on without ya"
So I neglet your absence, so far I'm doin' fine without ya
But I'm not so sure I can continue to say that in the future
These people around me have kept me cozy and warm, not one censure
But one thing rest assure, I'm freezin' deep down inside
If you know how it feels like, below zero I take it in my stride
Claimin' to know the truth.. But I don't know why I don't know how
When I feel the pain on my wrist.. Lift my arm and I see a bleedin' scar..

[Hook]


[Verse 3]
The only thing that's real, is that I love y'all, I love you too
But no matter how much I'd like to believe, I'm no hero that's true
Funny how you can see me; cool, but never cooler than the inside
And friends sorry I've lost trust I can't find no one to confide
Minimal energy left to pick up the pen on the table and scrible-
Out descriptions of the remaining emotions in me, fixed and unscrambled
Attempt to feel repent for it, only want to exempt from it
Google, yahoo all I could to search for a beat, make an attempt at it
Murder the beat, backfired and see me epic fail another feat
Crash and burn into ashes, raisin' white flags in defeat
Imagine it another dream, hoping the pain just goes away
Grab an alcohol drink, pop it and swallow my sorrows away
Pain from the hangover last night, not feelin' quite right
Stepped out from a room - pitch dark, feelin' shit; all contrite..
Tryin' to get a grip of myself, tell myself it was just a bad dream
And that everything wasn't as bad as I thought, isn't as bad as it seems..

[Hook]

[Outro]
So I hurt myself today..
Try wakin' me up to reality..
I guess I still have that bit in me to carry on..
Pain.. haha.. The only thing that's real...

Just like the hero.. Dead.

So fast.

USUAL BOOK OUT TIMING: Fridays 1530hrs - 1630hrs
TRADES COURSE POP DATE: 150509 1900hrs - 2100hrs [Friday]
(I drove my BX during the parade! View facebook)

After POP went bedok to eat bbq seafood. Reached home around 11 i guess.

160509 [Saturday] - Played soccer. Supposed to go NTU Tea session but raining. =( No umbrella. Replayed MGS last episode within one afternoon.

180509 [Monday] - Cancel MySavings account. Went to fetch my bro together with my mum.

190509 [Tuesday] - Met Hazel & Shirley for Hazel's belated birthday. Dhoby Ghaut Cathay Nihon Murah. (View facebook)

200509 [Wednesday] - Meet Sam Tang & Jun Wei watched 'Angels and Demons'.

210509 [Thursday] - Went swimming in the morning, then met YiWei, Sean, Marcus, Ben, Jerrold, ShiJun, Jason, Billy for Kuishin-bo at Suntec City at 1730. OMG $40 dinner is burning a hole in my pocket =( (still owe shijun $2)

220509 [Friday] - Went for Thai restaurant in Kovan for lunch. Went swimming after that. Meet Tang and Junwei for 'Night at the Museum 2'. Ate LJS.

230509 [Saturday] - Soccer was pathetic. Only 5 people came (YX left) lol. Played with the kids at the netball court. Nvm then sigh. Met Zhang, SzeJun, Alab for lunch at Carl's Jr. before YiFeng joined us after that. Went Coffee Bean's to chill. Think they went for movie after dinner. Had steamboat at home! I love my mum's cooking. =D

240509 [Sunday] - Blog this thing and get ready for book in.. The same old shit again haha.

1st Book-in after Trades Course: 24th May 2009, 2200hrs [Sunday]

These few nights were damn busy god damn. Finally collected some decent beats.

050509 Media.

Thought of a remake of the 'Media' back in Jan 2006.

Week in, week out, I'm ostracised, confined to the military
Now everytime I'm unleashed to the world I'm lost in reality
That day boredom drove me to switch on my grandy T.V.
What flashed thru' my mind were images of tragedies
A conscript who tastes mild freedom every once in a while
I saw excess, extravagant freedom drivin' people senile
I saw the downside of all these shit; people don't know shit
About the definition of all boundaries and limits; I saw people crazy
Crazy 'bout the media frenzy, masterpieces of papparazi
Politicians charismatic, outspoken with ideals; contradictory
Plainly speakin', people readin', watchin', hearin', speakin' religiously
About systems and institutions put in place by the people before thee
So confident about the understanding of the human society
But to me so obtuse - they institutionalised so completely
'Cause they run their lives so rapidly lately, souls lost completely
Seein', believin', into this vortex of complexity

[Hook]
The net, audio, radio, paper, the media
Extend they hands to greet ya, to meet ya
With toxins, poisoned data to feed ya
Now they ready to pounce, devour and eat ya

The sex and the violence, the rude and the nude
Teachings of failed parents; failed to understood
Most afraid of they kids comin' back home with earrings
Kids blockin' out words of wisdom they hearing
A cartooned body; outlet to vent they frustration
They situation they in, result of failed education
Coupled with inadequate communication with reality
Makin' names for theyselves in virtual reality
Couch-potato lifestyle, eatin' your mashed potato
Makin' news on radio, stories on your T.V. show
So you guys out there get a whole true story video
They just givin' you what you want, entertainment and news
More news, bizzare news, hypocritical views, you can't argue
The weakest link in the poison text filter; through you
What comes around, goes around, it all comes back to you..

[Hook]
The net, audio, radio, paper, the media
Extend they hands to greet ya, to meet ya
With toxins, poisoned data to feed ya
Now they ready to pounce, devour and eat ya


Whatever.. Fuck this.

280409. Untitled.

Have you ever experienced the fragility of relationships
Like you never knew how far close was, till things dip
Things sour, shit happens, rage boils and evaporates
To thin air, leavin' you red faced and your closest friends dead
And then you wake up to your senses, to reality, to realise
You had just self-destructed, faltered defences, you're demise
"What have you done?" Destroying what you helped build
Now you an empty man, trying in vain, escape from guilt
It's stupid..

If you had known, you wouldn't have blown
Wouldn't have retrieved the bone that never was
Coz what you see may all be false
Fuck you if you don't feel remorse..

A couple of years back I had a belief
A belief that true love exists, true love I could trust
Now two years later this story's been told till rust
The more I speak of it, the more flack they cast
It's becomin' a joke, one laugh too much
It's gettin' sticky, like covered in starch
But what can I do? Only to live my life away as a fool
Like the Jack of all tricks, never knew he was just a tool..

If you had known, you wouldn't have blown
Wouldn't have retrieved the bone that never was
Coz what you see may all be false
Fuck you if you don't feel remorse..

So what.

Just met this arrogant bastard from my sec sch days. His initial response was like: 'huh u man ah'?

Wanted to talk back but ah nvm, not like such ppl are of any importance or significance to me anyways.

What's wrong with being a man. I'm doing my best, contributing and still serving for a country I'm not even sure I'm commited to. Perhaps the people here is the reason why I've never felt a sense of belonging here, and I've always felt like going back to where I should be. Sigh.

Can't be officer or sergeant because of sbj? That's stupid.

But in any retrospect, after these 7 weeks here I think I'm starting to appreciate my vocation, but I'm defo not takin' anything for granted. Hopefully the next batch of commanders that come in are decent people. Then perhaps they'll change my perception of y'all local lads.

If I Didn't Have You

"If I Didn't Have You" (Live)
Performed by Randy Newman & John Goodman
Written by Randy Newman
Music From The Motion Picture Original Soundtrack "Monsters, Inc." (2001)
Live At The "Oscar - The 74th Annual Academy Awards" (2002)





If I were a rich man
With a million or two
I'd live in a penthouse
In a room with a view
And if I were handsome, it could happen
Those dreams do come true
I wouldn't have nothing
If I didn't have you
Wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
Wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
Wouldn't have nothing

For years I have envied
Your grace and your charm
Everyone loves you, you know
Yes, I know, I know, I know
But I must admit it
Big guy, you always come through
I wouldn't have nothing
If I didn't have you

You and me together
That's how it always should be
One without the other
Don't mean nothing to me
Nothing to me

Yes I wouldn't be nothing
If I didn't have you to serve
I'm just a punky little eyeball
And an ugly little optic nerve
Hey, I never told you this but
Sometimes I get a little blue
But I wouldn't have nothing
if I didn't have you

Dance with me

I wouldn't be nothing
If I didn't have you
I wouldn't know where to go
Wouldn't know what to do
I don't have to say it
'Cause we both know it's true
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have you
I wouldn't have nothing if I didn't have you

Yesterday

Singer: Atmosphere
Album: "When Life Gives You Lemons, You Paint That Shit Gold" (2008)
Song:



"YESTERDAY"

[Verse 1]
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I didn't stop cause you was walking the opposite way
I guess I could have shouted out your name
But even if it was you I don't what I would say
We can sit and reminisce about the old school
Maybe share a cigarette because we both fools
Chop it up and compare perspectives
Life Love stress and Set backs
Yes'
You could tell me how hard you had it
And you could show me all the scares to back it
And we can analyze each complaint
Break it down and explain these mistakes i make
I like to tangle up the strings of the puppetry
But you knew me back when i was a younger me
You've seen Sean in all types of life
And I've been meaning to ask you if I'm doing alright



[Chorus]
Yesterday, was that you
Looked just like you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you

Yesterday, was that you
Looked just like you
Strange things my imagination might do
Take a breath reflect on what we've been through
Or am I just going crazy cause I miss you



[Verse 2]
I'm Shook
I know
I pushed when I should of pulled
Took it all back if I could I put that on my soul
And I would make a top notch good listener
If you could block off a little time out to give it here
Since we went our separate paths
I hits a couple of snags
That remind me of the past
I cant front I'm having a blast
But damned if I ain't afraid of how long its gonna last
Sitting here wishing we could kick it
Gimme your opinions I do miss the criticisms
I didn't mean to be distant
Make a visit
Ill wait up and keep the coffee brewing in the kitchen
But who am I jokin' with
Theres no way that you and I will ever get to re-open it
It doesn't matter, this is more than love
And maybe if I'm lucky, get to see you out the corner of



[Chorus]



[Verse 3]
And when you left, I didn't see it comin'
I guess I slept, it ain't like you was runnin'
You crept out the front door slow
And I was so self-absorbed I didn't even know
And by the time I looked up it was booked up
Put it all behind you, the bad and the good stuff
A whole house full of dreams and steps
I think you'd be impressed with the pieces I kept
You disappeared but the history is still here
It's why I try not to cry over spilt beer
I can't even get mad that you're gone
Leavin' me was probably the best thing you ever taught me
I'm sorry, it's official
I was a fist-full, I didn't keep it simple
Chip on the shoulder, anger in my veins
Had so much hatred, now it brings me shame
Never thought about the world without you
And I promise that I'll never say another bad word about you
I thought I saw you yesterday
But I knew it wasn't you, 'cause you passed away, dad



[Outro]
Looked just like you
Strange thangs my imagination might do
Take a breath, reflect on what we been through
Or am I just goin' crazy 'cause I miss you?

Junction

I'm tired of saying the same shit everytime I rap
Tired of thinkin' thru the shit that I've never had
All these time, in my life, the regrets that I have had
It's absolute craziness, sometimes it burns when I'm mad
See all these time in my life I've lived passively
Institutionalized, homogenized, conformity
Compromisin' with the system, becomin' one of 'em
Only to realise I'm no different than all of 'em
Used to condemn the life they've had; hypocrite
Now I find myself in an awkward situation; I'm sick
Sick of givin' the same old excuses everytime I quit
Showin' no signs of remorse, reluctant to commit
To this common cause we envisioned to make it
But that was yesterday, it's gone so, ah, fuck it
Let's not accept that we all have limits
Let's see how far we can go with talent we emit

I envision ten years on I'll still be the same
Just another person, passerby, no one knows his name
Havin' made a choice between fame and mediocrity
Never had a shot at producing his own CD
Never had a shit clue about what to do with his life
Never had a breakthrough lookin back in his life archive
Another ten years on sinkin' in a mid-life crisis
Envy of all the wealth, fortune and fame that could have been his
But it don't matter I'm not in here for the money
The tangibles in life; it don't matter really
As long as you have the food, water and shelter
But you don't just wanna be another miss or mister
You just want to be remembered as someone unforgettable
Someone incredibly, truly, remarkably inspirational
So many times in my life I've said it's make or break
Now this time's for real.. Or is it all fake?