UPDATE! (finally)

So glad that a levels are over for now, and i can finally do the things i've always looked forward to:

1)Reading
2)Writing? (but i'm not very sure if I'll be doing that or doing option 3 more often)
3)PLAYING!
4)Working (for the money duh!)
5)Meeting (friends i havent met in ages!)
6)EATING (in taiwan mostly, haha, but still must control!)
7)Becoming MACHO (thru ns)

Yea that's mostly it, i'll add a few more once i can think of any. haha.

18th Nov (TUE):
Everything was over, everyone else went settlers, I had fever so went home to sleep. How sad huh! So i stayed at home the whole day again to rest, but in fact I was too bored I was playing MGS4 though. haha.


19th Nov (WED):
Went Bookfest with my mum, i bought a total of six books:
1. Almost A Crime [Penny Vincenzi]
2. No Angel [Penny Vincenzi]
3. Something Dangerous [Penny Vincenzi]
4. The Enemy of God [Robert Daley]
5. A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius [Dave Eggers]
6. The Machiavelli Convenant [Allan Folsom]
Must read finish this holiday!

20th Nov (THURS):
Went tampines to look for controller, coz sze jun, alan, yifeng, yongjie were coming over the next day. Went looking for a shop to trade in xbox as well. In the end went powerhouse to buy controller. $65 off my monthly allowance =(

21st Nov (FRIDAY):
Went kovan in the morning to help my mum buy the ingredients.
Sze jun, alan, yifeng, yongjie came over to my place for ps3, eat my mum's delicate dishes and STEAMBOAT! pity i forgot to take pictures =X Pity also that zhang chuan couldn't come too. =(

22nd Nov (SATURDAY):
Went soccer in the morning at tanah merah that huge patch of grass beside the mrt. Then went gabriel's house for the meeting regarding the sitex job. Went home sleep! I had a wound below my eyelashes i dunno why. My mum say maybe lack of sleep which I agree. I have real dark eye bags! haha.

23rd Nov (SUNDAY):
Usually would be going tuition, but spent today morning at home watching tv, then went to eat dimsum at some coffee shop in tampines. I think it's the nicest dimsum in singapore ba. And it's not very expensive either! Made by true hongkonger. Love it lots! My favourite. haha. Followed by an evening of playing guitar and doing nothing.

24th Nov (MONDAY):
Went clarke quay to meet yifeng for the survey job thing for grey group company. The lady in charge, sharon, was friendly but a little bit of act cute ba! haha. anyways, i thought we were gonna do the survey thing today, but turned out it was for tmr. So went bugis with yifeng, guangming, and the other 2 mj guys (i forgot their names =X). Omg the food there is expensive! And the curry i ordered, which they gave me teriyaki wrongly for no reason, sucks! The teriyaki sucks man. Even my mum can make teriyaki of better taste and quality! =(

25th Nov (TUESDAY):
Went sengkang to conduct the 7-eleven survey at the shell nearest to compass point. Reached at 1030hrs actually, ended work at around 1330, with some help from yifeng actually, who finished his work real early. Went Subway to eat with yifeng, then went vivocity to meet the rest of the guys who were there eating at carl's junior. They wanted to shop for prom clothes actually, I didn't really shop coz i didn't intend to buy anything - probably wearing secondary school grad night clothes and hope i can fit in them =/ Left them at around 6 pm to head for temasek for the air rifle bbq. Didn't eat much actually - spent most of the time listening to the band concert. Happy to see sing wei! Havent seen him in ages! =D After that my mum came to fetch me, and we had dessert at the bedok corner. Ching Tng was sold out, so we had soya milk instead lol. Shall go and find the list of songs heard at the concert coz they were awesome!

26th Nov (WEDNESDAY):
Went to clarke quay early in the morning to return the surveys. I think i reached there at 1100hrs. Sharon really has a lot to talk about.. and really free. haha. I think we spent like 30,40 mins chatting before she decided she should get back to work. haha. She told me about yifeng and his interest.. In someone. haha.

27th Nov (THURSDAY):
Went to work at sitex! Met dz at around 9.45 at expo. Really new at this thing, so was getting used to the whole working thing. Didn't sell anything, was depressed until before closing time a couple who had came to me several times finally decided pacific city was offering the best offer for iMac! =D

SALES: 1 iMac (1 APP)

28th Nov (FRIDAY):
Sitex. The trio consisting of yongjie, alab and szejun, along with desmond, came to expo to find me! Spent some time chatting! How nice of them! haha! =D Sales was still hard though.

SALES: 2 iPod Nanos

29th Nov (SATURDAY):
Sitex. Expected a lot of people and sales were really good for me! Yifeng came to find me, but actually it was shuli who wanted to come more (or so i heard) haha! And really nice of him to bring honey lemon for me! Anyone could tell my voice was getting hoarse by the third day. But I shall persevere! =D Jun Wei and Cheryl came also. Jun Wei came with food from old chang kee! 8dollars nobody paid so I shall foot the bill myself =( Shall remember to pay him back.

SALES: 5 iPod Nanos, 3 iPod Touches, 2 Macbook.

30th Nov (SUNDAY):
Sitex. Szejun and zhang came and visited me! haha. My mum, sis, bro and his gf came to buy an iPod Classic for my sister. Pocketed 3 dollars in the process haha. Almost sold one macbook but for that indian guy to come late when we were closed already! =( There goes my $15! =(

SALES: 3 iPod Classics, 4 iPod touches (1 APP), 1 iPod shuffle, 4 iPod Nanos.

1st Dec (MONDAY):
Slacked the whole day and played ps3 as I awaited for my throat to recover.

2nd Dec (TUESDAY):
Havent met chufeng in months, so went out with chu feng for CAPE NO. 7 at orchard cineleisure as promised. haha. No wonder it's broken office records! Really a hilarious, yet touching story. Recommended! =D And chu feng told me about selling textbooks and notes online for money. Shall create a post on that in a few more days.

3rd Dec (WEDNESDAY):
Was preparing my outfit for prom. Never bought anything, so just wearing whatever I wore for grad night in temasek. Shall not waste anymore money after spending $140 on PS3 this month! ($65 for controller, $75 for MGS4)

4th Dec (THURSDAY):
The big thing. Prom Night. I was late for the meet up at sj's house actually. Supposed to meet at 6, but in the end i reached at 6.15 instead. Everybody else was there already. Alab had his friend to help him do his hair. And we set off for city hall in sj's mum's car at around 6.50. Reached there at around 7.40 coz of the traffic jam in city area. But thanks to szejun and his mum coz going into city area costs like 4dollar (ERP), not even counting the fuel cost. Had a real great night, although i must say the food was omg. not really to the standard i had expected. But it was the other things that made the night. Taking pictures with my gang, the class, with yifeng, sam tang and the rest. I'll post the pictures when I have the time =D (*THE GRADUATION BEAR WAS SO CUTE!)

5th Dec (FRIDAY):
Supposed to go kbox, but ts said it was real expensive ($35 for friday session), so we went movie instead. Dian zhuang, kai wu, thien soon, louis, kuan wei, yu xiang, mary anne, jonathan were there. Watched Bolt, omg real funny man. And the plot was quite nice. On how bolt managed to face, accept, and survive the harsh realities of life with the help of some comical friends he had. Yahoo movie listings gave a 4 star!
Oh wait, did i mention what happened after the movie, after mary anne and jonathan left? We had a real good time playing with kai wu haha! He was so shy he didn't want to talk to his beloved certain someone.. haha. We sang loads of saddening love songs for kai wu as we walked back to white sands.
Mood: Having fun..!

I am..

I am..
Distraught
Untaught
Unthought
I've fought, a lot
I've been.. A have-not

I've bought..
What I've sought
But if I was Bolt
I'd travel in time to see humans rot
If constellations weren't stars but just dots
If people weren't as selfish as you thought
If life wasn't as hard as you thought
If these nights weren't easy as you thought
If only.. You know what it feels like to be distraught.

If these lines make no sense to you
You'd probably think you've got no clue
But it's alright if i've got you blue
Tellin' true-s or down with flu
Yes i am skeptical, i am cynical
I am tangible, my chest's an example
If the treasure dots weren't so simple
More than what you deem as particles
But I guess in life anything is possible
If you realise it's cyclical
That's why we call it seasonal
But I hate times in the chapel
Maybe coz' they aren't conceivable
I've got my own attitude mental

I just hope they could just leave me
Want to be freed, I'll burn them money
And maybe leave them with a couple of pennies
Not that i ain't got sincerity
To offer them sanity
Mention thy vanity
You're sure to embrace me
And with a pen, trace me.
Sure it doesn't make no sense I'm just chillin' on the pressure on me.

When it all amounts to nothing..

How fragile life is.. haha.

"IF I AIN'T GOT YOU"
-Alicia Keys

[Verse 1]
Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

[Verse 2]
Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you

[Chorus]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]
If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

730.5 days of internal torment

Two years have passed with this much tests
It hasn't been the best, this I confess..

I can feel the pressure on my shoulder, for sure
If you want me on the same level, on par with my peer
Life is stressful inside this cesspool we call school
But as you imagined it's over without a clue
And it's true I missed SA, but they all say
They all play the same lame game, leavin' you dismay
They all say you couldn't mug-less for success
But the people before me haven't passed a single test
It doesn't matter if I leave here with a scarce-
city of stress, honestly learning here has been a mess
Even today I'm not sure the treasure in my chest
Because all I learn is to shade the ovals in my test
Yes, exams, stress, school, hypocrites is what I detest
If I were to rename them all I'll call them pests

And unless I see God make the sun rise from the West
I think you guys' have it all, because you're blessed..

Think About It..

Not exactly perfect but I got it done within 20 mins.. So I consider that some achievement? although the hook looks longer than the verses =X Actually I dun really know how I wrote it but I was just trying to picture a movie.. ha. hope it's not too bad!

Beat site: http://www.soundclick.com/bands/default.cfm?bandID=537232

"THINK ABOUT IT"

[Hook]
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time~

[Verse 1]
Just think about why love never turned out the way it's meant to be
The way that we perfected it, the way we imagined it in our mentality
We used to be so close that we couldn't separate, but now it's too late
Maybe it's fate, that we got too close, and now I see love turn to hate
It's entirely okay, okay to say, you were like the shining ray
Shinin' through the eclipse-d days, through walls of opaque clay
Parallel or non parallel, I never knew love could fall on me, fell
Never realised my love was the thin line between heaven and hell

But if I can..

[Hook]
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time~

[Verse 2]
You said love was the purpose in life, if that's the case I have none
Coz you're all that I've got in life, the stormy days haven't been fun
And the truth is life after you hasn't changed much, I still miss you
I guess I should think about what I said, maybe I shouldn't have dissed you
But it doesn't matter anymore does it, since you're gone with my pearl
Never will I feel the same towards girls, not again in this world
Coz if it isn't for you, I'll never fall in love ever again
And you will, and can never feel my pain standing in the rain

[Hook]
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time.. For you to think about it..
Give you some time.. You better think about it..
Give you some time..
To save my world..

Please Don't Cry

I haven't really got any tune in my head, but it's just a random piece.
Shall edit it further coz it's not perfect.. Loads of room for improvement I know.. Oh well!

"PLEASE DON'T CRY"

[Intro]
You're my baby.. Please don't cry..

[Verse]
I don't know the reason you're cryin, but it makes me sad
So tell me the reason why, it makes me mad if he's bad
There's no need to suffer in silence and pretend you're dead
There's so much to life than

Coz..

[Hook]
If you're the area, I'm the radii
Then you're the sphere, I'm like your pi
If you're in fear, I will stand by (forever)
Coz you're my dear - please don't cry

[Verse 3]
The truth is that I love you like I love my sister (more than anything else)
You're like my sister, but you never know what spells
We're a line before lovers, I've never felt anything like this
Never deny a man of his will, because that's all I wanna do
To protect you from bodily ills with this pair of bare arms
So ring me an alarm
I'll be there for you.. So promise me that you'll never shed another tear for him..

[Outro]
Please.. Don't Cry.

Verse: Cadd9, ...
Hook: Dm, A#, F, C

Upon A Star..

Stories of every famous people makes my heart ache
As I ponder and wonder when it'll be my break
Coz every night I go back to the same god damn bed
Wishin' upon stars on my head, wishin' to get paid
To take back what I said, wishin' for a mate
Wishin' for memories to fade, wishin' for destiny, fate
Yes I yearn for grades, like my parents earn their reds, but wait
The system wants to educate; it rates, degrades, discriminates
The poor, the dumb, the dumber, the fat and the fattest
Leavin behind those the slowest, exalt he who comes first
I was talkin' about life with people I could trust
About the kind of wife I would get, examples I contrast
Results of a sample I don't trust, if they come out fast
But to you it dun matter, you wonder 'what's the fuss'
Gettin' things done not in days, but in minutes
Wait a minute there's nothin' new to it, let's be true to it

......

Rusteze

I've got this sudden urge in me to showcase my flexibility
With a little bit of vodka enough to ignite my ability, liability
There ain't no better person to understand me than myself
So there ain't no better reason to rid innocence of yours at twelve
I feel the society's pushin' me, him, her, students, teachers
Hopin' to get us back on world map, with a price tag leisure
To improve material standards, but where's the moral standards?
As I see cultures erode, histories untold, stories unfold
I can't but imagine life without freedom, I can do without peace
Coz you see a society without social fabric gives me unease
But havin' a poor balance of both is like a stress ball squeezed
Like a kid comin' thru the ranks havin' been quized
Bein' laden with irrelevant information that creates retaliation
Obessesion with work, workaholic, a brand new robo-sensation
But this is life man, I'm a human not a fuckin' programmed robot
Like the rest are, whether they're oblivion to it or not.

I need some rusteze.. Quick.

Slow down..!

It just feels like everyday flies past so fast, and I'm like ageing so fast too. I guess nobody can ever say when they are too young or old enough.

The Earth still rotates on its axis with an orbital period of 24hours, yet with this result-oriented world, the time frame seems to shrink as each day drags closer to whatever we anticipate - or not.

Please. Somebody freeze this time and let me take a look of whatever happened in my life, albeit it's been a 'short' 18 years. I'm seeing a friend who felt the same way I did 2 years ago, but now that time's past, I do think nothing's worth remembering after all. Everything seems meaningless. Ha.

If only the world could all come to a conclusion together to slow the pace of life down.

Everybody's getting richer faster, but not necessarily happier.

孫仔

How much a blind man's dialect songs can be so influential..
Yet someone who was once so close to me gave up so easily..
It's really a difference like that of heaven and hell.

I don't really know how to speak my own dialect (which I'm quite ashamed of, haha). I keep telling myself I've gotta learn how to master my dialect properly, and that how, someone who doesn't know how to speak cannot exactly call himself a taiwanese.. But then again, I keep wasting my holidays, but I hope after A levels it would be all so different.

And how, words, painted from the hands of a blind man, can touch the hearts of many.

蕭煌奇 - 阿嬤的話

作詞：蕭煌奇　
作曲：蕭煌奇　
編曲：胡官宏

在細漢的時陣　阮阿嬤對我尚好　
甲尚好的物伴攏會留乎我
伊嘛定定帶我去幼稚園看人在七桃
看人在辦公伙兒　看人在覓相找
伊定定跟阮說　叫阮著要好好仔讀冊
嘸通大漢像恁老爸仔這麼狼狽
在彼個時陣　阮攏聽攏嘸

阿嬤　你到底是在講什麼
大漢了後　才知影阿嬤的話
我會甲永遠永遠放塊心肝底
想可一步一步的過去　定定攏會乎人真難忘
時間一分一秒塊過去　在阮的心內定定攏會想到伊

阿嬤你今嘛在叨位　阮在叫你你甘有聽到
阮的認真甲阮的成功你甘有看到　
阮在叫你你知影
沒阿嬤你今嘛過的好麼　甘有人塊甲你照顧
希望後世人阮擱會凍來乎你疼　
作你永遠的孫仔擱叫你一聲「阿嬤」

oh man

Oh man.
It was so embarrasing.
Just so embarassing.

Words

Just feelin' a lil random.. Like sometimes after reading something that actually makes much sense do I reflect about somethings.. And how much we owe to culture for creating communication media so that we understand each other better.

And how much, for the sake of 'the future', we forgo our roots, our roots, our culture, our heritage, our history, hoping for economic progress.

On paper, we have progressed as one world.

But how much have we progressed spiritually?

Not all things can be measured and recorded. We may be able to take pictures as evidence and proof of our treasured memories, but no matter what kind of golden chest we put them into, they can never become alive again.. Technology, through one magical device we call camera, allows us to take down memories of that split second... But as much as we'd like to relive it in the future, it is a nothing more than a mere (not merily as junkang pronounced, ha) replicate.

If only my voice reaches out somewhere, perhaps we will forever be living on borrowed past. Trying to encourage preservation of culture, but here we are allowing globalisation and homogenisation to devour our roots. There's so many examples by simply observing the things around us. If one doesn't think the way I am, I'd like to think he's probably numb all the things around him that he's grown, day by day, to succumb and become oblivion to them. We don't know who we are anymore.

We are, indeed, a lost generation.

I'd like to end of with quotes of words, because I do think words have evolved tremendously due to culture enrichment. We may embrace another language, but it is equally important to remember our own and accept them for who we are. As descendants of the original language users through so many generations, I think it's only right we preserve it.

"The trouble with words is that you never know whose mouths they've been in." -- Dennis Potter

"Words are not as satisfactory as we should like them to be, but, like our neighbours, we have got to live with them and must make the best and not the worst of them." -- Samuel Butler

"A word is not the same with one writer as with another. One tears it from his guts. The other pulls it out of his overcoat pocket." -- Charles Peguy

"A wise man hears one word and understands two." -- Yiddish Proverb

"Words convey the mental treasures of one period to the generations that follow; and laden with this, their precious freight, they sail safely across gulfs of time in which empires have suffered shipwreck and the languages of common life have sunk into oblivion." -- Anonymous

"But words are things, and a small drop of ink, Falling like dew, upon a thought, produces That which makes thousands, perhaps millions, think." -- Lord Byron

"Words, as is well known, are the great foes of reality." -- Joseph Conrad

"We should have a great fewer disputes in the world if words were taken for what they are, the signs of our ideas only, and not for things themselves." -- John Locke

"Words not only affect us temporarily; they change us, they socialize or unsocialize us." -- David Riesman

"Man does not live by words alone, despite the fact that sometimes he has to eat them." -- Adlai Stevenson"

"Words are plentiful; deeds are precious." -- Lech Walesa

"Don't, Sir, accustom yourself to use big words for little matters." -- Dr Samuel Johnson

"We are getting into semantics again. If we use words, there is a very grave danger they will be misinterpreted." -- H. R. Halderman

Thanks everybody.

I woke up feelin' like it was just another day.

6.00am. Woke up just to wake up patricia for her first day of the school term. Gosh i didn't expect myself to really wake up on time so early! HAHA. Anyways she was the first to wish me a happy birthday (10pm the night before) actually. But that's coz of the time difference between melbourne and singapore. So she was 2hours early. But it doesn't really matter. It's the sincerity that counts. =D Just wanna thank pat for being a really good friend all these while. And reading your post on her blog really touched me =D I hope, as much as you do, that we can maintain this long distance friendship for a long, long, long time to come. Thanks patricia! =D

(i'll post those pictures as soon as I've got the complete set)

Zhiling and Yuxiang were the other two who messaged me at the stroke of 12am (singapore time). Zhi Ling, i suppose, got to know about my birthday through cheryl i guess. Sometimes I do feel her indifference to me, but oh well, just wanna thank her for her birthday wish. As for yuxiang, I guess there's really too much to talk about, we've shared so many things, yet there always seems to be so many things we can share and talk about, for we have become such good friends through a very uncommon way. Never in the same class, but we somehow got to know each other through our daily dose of soccer back in those sec 2, 3 days. And besides my family, he's a person I'm fully indebted to. Without you, I doubt I would have been who I am today. Let's keep our friendship long-lasting, and if there really comes a day we'll have to make sacrifices to achieve our dreams, I'm sure willing to risk it with ya. Life without a dream, and the pursue of it, is completely meaningless. Thanks for going the distance with me.



On the way to school, chufeng smsed and wished me happy birthday as well. I really havent hung out with chufeng in singapore all these while, but she's a nice fellow taiwanese friend of mine, and I do enjoy your company especially when I go back taiwan (i don't have any other friends in taiwan, and not that you're just someone to keep me company) i really hope we can keep in touch once in a while. Of course we'll be able to go out together more often after a levels and back in taiwan - i won't be going back taiwan as often because of my ns commitments from next year onwards. Thanks for your friendship. =D As for eunice who texted me after that, and although i must admit i dun really know you, thanks for the birthday wish.

Thanks to gabriel for your birthday wish too, though it sounded rather sloppy. haha. nvm i still appreciate that.

Immediately after morning assembly YiFeng came up to me and gave me a hershey's chocolate bar. But eh! It wasn't even chilled. So it was all melted. Haha. But for a guy to give another guy chocolate for his bday.. hmm.. a little suggestive i suppose? haha. but he's a nice guy and another jason mraz fan! We could go watch jason mraz's concerts next time, i know this time singfest seems impossible for us, financially and given the situation we're in - stress! But I shall remember to give u back smth in return for your birthday. 13 sept 13 sept!


During recess, zhiling messaged me to walk towards her class table. There cheryl tan passed me a box of gifts. Didn't even give me a clue! Except that it was fragile. That was just the beginning! I was so nervous when I walked towards her class coz this girl was there! And perhaps I was wrong, but I hope I heard correctly, that yuling said she wished me happy birthday! woot. Finally she recognised me existence. After like 5 months? Since valentines day. haha. Woot! After that I was so happy through out the day I couldn't calm myself down in the chem lecture after that =D Oh yea here's pictures of Cheryl's gift:




[A nicely wrapped blue box]


[Surprise! Two nicely decorated mugs and a nicely done card =D]

THANKS CHERYL! I shall try to become a good guy whenever I can in order to save this sheep from the horrid wolf (junkang). haha. A nice person, although I'm always the victim of her vicious, provoking language that somehow always is on the thin fine line that distinguishes joking and genuine provocation. Haha! A nice, fun loving person to be with. Ok when you and zhiling's bday's nearing then I'll treat you all to the chocolate fondue. PROMISE!

Thanks to my biological older brother, whom I just refer to as da_ge. ha. U may have missed my last birthday i'm gonna have with my braces on, and that sometimes whatever you say really pisses me off, I guess as I grow and mature, I have learnt to overlook some of them sometimes. We're a family after all. A simple message was enough - since you want to treat us to lunch this saturday! HAHA =D

Thanks to BaoChuan, perhaps the only person whom I really talk to most from class 4v. Seriously. And to think I didn't really talk to the girls in class. A lively person, and someone who always brings up fresh conversation topics! Thank you, and whilst I'm gonna be realy busy these few months, rest assure we're gonna have our steamboat once my nightmare's over! Your simple message was enough to showcase your sincerity =D

Oh and then i think JunWei suddenly remembered it was my bday. haha. Last night when he called I thought he was gonna wish me happy bday. then it turned out it was a discussion for tuesday's dinner -.- haha. But nvm that, you're one of the closer few I know from 2/3. Secondary school days may have seem so distant and irrelevant from our current lives, but thanks for accompanying me to go ns check-up, to go for the fir concert that's coming up, for organising things as and when. A conservative person, though I very much like his cool personality a lot. Thanks junwei for the birthday sms wish =D

After school Hannah, my air rifle junior, smsed me to greet me. Perhaps I cant really relate to a lot of juniors these days, but yea you're a friendly person who tries to keep friends close, especially with people like ZhiWei and myself. A rather eccentric person though =/ But thanks for your greetings =D I hope you're doing fine in tpjc.

Jing Nan, my penpal who just came back from Canada (she's having summer break now, waiting to enter uni), suggested we meet at white sands. Actually I really didn't think much about what they were gonna do, but I was so so SO delighted to see her again! Along with Wan Ting of course. We met at pasir ris mrt, although they had initially wanted me to meet them at macdonalds. I was so happy when i saw her, then she gave that dao face! and both of them acted really weirdly. They asked me to go all the way to mac 2nd floor and then they just rushed off - and came back with one mini bens and jerry ice cream cake! haha. So grateful! We had fun taking loads of pictures, i'll upload some here when jing sends me them =D



[Pictures of Jing, Wanting, myself]



The three of us did talk about quite a bit of things till I receive a very, VERY unexpected call. Overseas call. When i answered to hear a super strong caucasian accent, I knew who it was. Almost spontaneously, immediately, sporadically, instantly. it was AIDAN!!!! A new zealander friend I've not talked to for a long long LONG time. And you know what, after 2 minutes of talking, my hp battery died on me! I panicked so much I hurriedly switched to wanting's phone hoping aidan would try calling me again. And oh my god he didn't give up trying to reach me. He called back, and we had some 30,40 mins of talk time. Got to know him and his recent life better, details I shall not say, coz we simply shared so much things during that short 30mins I'm having difficulty trying to recall all the things we talked about, not to mention in sequence. haha. After I got home I hurriedly emailed him (as I post this latest blog post), and gosh, i'm still feeling the after-effects of excitedness! =D i hope he's all well and pursuing his dreams! =D
Oh yea, not forgettin' to thank Lilian, Rahul and Farah (i'm not sure who this is) who left comments at my friendster.

Of course, thanks to my family for really going to buy Swensen's Ice Cream cake for my birthday. I know it's kinda a waste of money to really be spending so much on my birthday, that's why all the more i appreciate what they've done for me. I even got the same mug as my sister (she wanted me to have the same mug with another print) so we can have a family of mugs for personal use I guess. Drink more water! haha. it's good for you.

Also, thanks to my aunt who called me from taiwan to wish me happy birthday! my little cousin, ie. my aunt's son, shares the same birthday! Actually was supposed to call her back at night, but after my dad called to wish me happy birthday, i totally forgot to call her back! =X

I guess family forms a real big important part of everyone's lives.. without a family is like a tree without leaves.. without roots too. Thank you to my family for being who they are. =D

Other special thanks:

Hazel, Shirley, Li Yun for the cap and dry-fit shirt for my birthday present (8 july tues).

YongJie, Szejun, Alab for the company at k-box (12 july sat) and treating me! Thanks for so much for providing the only happy things I have during these 2 fucked up life of mine in mjc.



Hmm.. did i leave out anyone?

Birthday Celebrations! KBOXING!

Saturday morning. Soccer was cancelled 'cause not enough people.. So.. Kbox at the newly opened ehub! We had a lot of fun and joy. I hope we get to enjoy more of such sessions in the future! Thanks Yongjie, Alab, Szejun for making it a really enjoyable time of my life! Pity I had to leave early after pool to send patricia off. Sorry guys! Hope you guys understand that I really had to go =/ And thanks for the treat. Never thought you guys were gonna treat me! =D Nothing else words can say, but a really BIG THANK YOU to you guys! =D Especially yongjie who made a great effort in organising the stuff =D






(Sorry for the weird expression. Lol)











































And we ended off with this murder picture. Lol. I should photoshop and add in a knife or a razor blade or smth. lol.

So fast.

It's not often that I go out on late sunday nights. Not anymore since being in mj. But 7th July 2008 was different. The following day, a monday, was youth day, my last in fact, so there was a day off. A great timing to have a break after a hectic 2 weeks of school. Ha.

After tuition which ended at 11, I raced off to the usual netball court to find the rest of the guys, only to realise half-way I had left my shoes at tuition centre. Hey it's not that I carry another bag to tuition very frequently! So it just slipped my mind I was carrying another bag. Hai. So there it was, missed another morning of soccer session with the rest of the guys.

Walking home alone without tired feet was weird for me. So without the work out I guess that gave me the chance to have enough time to catch on some lost sleep in the afternoon. Slept from 2 to 5, before the call from Mum woke me up - time to meet Patricia!

Actually I had thought kumar was going to join us, but nevermind I still met patricia at 6.30 at city hall. Had planned before hand to grab some bite before going to singapore flyer.

She reached city hall first, I was slightly late by 10 mins (went to change aussie currency before taking the mrt) =X Then I couldn't find her although she said she was going shoe-hunting LOL! Turned out she had walked up the escalators at the middle while I walked all the way to the escalators to marina square via city link. There was a great distance between the two linkways -.- Walked all the way back to find her since she said she was 'missing'. Haha. She was 'shocked' when I appeared out of nowhere - she was noticing the figures at the far end when I was just in front of her HAHA.

She passed to me 2 GIGANTIC bottles (500g) of PIAF skin lotion that my mum wanted, along with a jar of AUSTRALIAN sweets which was really very nice! The jar was attractive as well, and the words 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY' was so apt coz my bday's just around the corner =D

[PICTURES OF WHAT SHE GOT ME]

So as we walked thru citylink she was trying to show me how to solve rubik's cube. She's really mastered it well, being able to solve a jumbled rubik's cube within several minutes. And she's taught me how to solve it! At least the first 2 layers =D

We went to some kopitiam near singapore flyer coz she said she missed asian food, so we had satay =/ and after that off we went to singapore flyer!

I think it's her first time there, so we got to do a lot of things. Here's some pictures we took! And we actually made a bear in eeyore costume at the make-a-bear shop..!

(Pictures not in order of time taken)









(Tries to look away from the camera.. and succeeded!)

Birth of a Religion..

Sometimes life isn't the way you like it, but accept it...
Equality, the product of conformity and brain-washing twiks
Since the laws of physics were written like wounds twice bitten
We attempt, picture, procreate, envisage with pens to our page as we ink'em
Over-writting every progress we make, defying all potential barriers
We grow to realise we, alone as personality individuality warriors
Carry on life with boulders on shoulders, on a roller-coaster adventure
And as we grow older, passion's lost, indifference sets in and we get colder
Practisin' solitudes of various magnitudes, cross multiply the perception angles
Ignorin' the opinions and the facts, in our faith in a religion struggle
That we call the truth, like fuck we know it without surveilance proof
When people got merry together under the same one-of-a-kind roof
And the next moment the roots creep onto us, in the name of 'evil', we pencil
The cents, dollars, notes, cash, cheque, debits, credits, for the greed this hassle
So much for the faith in our core values of the Cancer, I guess this is the answer
Till you know who's holdin' the knife at the back of your neck, it's pretty much a blur..

Like how I used to envy the natives back in my hood, I was young and rude
Pretendin' to personify personnels I thought were cool, but I guess I was hated like 'Ruud'
And so I hungered for the multi-tongue, sting and stung words with accents of their roots
It never occurred to me all this was an illusion, hallucination, just an immitation, a fluke
In the year of the horse, the coarses calmed, a war without corpses, bullets, bombs
Minus the tension, rivalry, suspicion, controversy, as freedom was freed from the wrong
That was the strife of life - like a choice between black and white, between wrong and right
It was, awkwardly, the irony between security and the desire to live happily, we might
Still abide, until the day, today, if you know what I'm sayin', laws of proportionality
So often we've encountered them in lines that undergo gradient contortionality
But the fact is, these were never real, nothin but ideas we construct and assume
And then stick into our books with pricetags on the back of each cover we consume
I guess what I'm sayin' is there's no need to take things so serious, but hillarious
These foundations we build upon could just bring us down with flaws, precarious
Never put your reliance on another is what I'm puttin it in another spectrum
Like how I'd never think of puttin' your whole trust, truly or virtually, is my theorem..

o.s. like how religions empowered man to revolt and revolutionise, and how these (the latter) were the results of war and such, I guess belief is what keeps life goin'..

And so I developed a new religion..
With mistrust at its core, with hostility as its own philosophy.

blehblurblurbleh.

It's gonna be a roller coaster week for me.
After the two papers on monday and tuesday (which i really just scraped through, i didn't feel anything despite not finishing my chem paper, i think i'm pretty immune to chem failure lol), but i'm feeling worried - that i'm not worried.

Anyways there's still 5 more days to go.. So let's just hope for the best!
23/06/08 (MONDAY): General Paper P1 & P2 [Morning] - OVER!
24/06/08 (TUESDAY): Chemistry P3 [Afternoon] - OVER!
25/06/08 (WEDNESDAY): Mathematics P1 [Afternoon]
26/06/08 (THURSDAY): Physics P3 [Morning]
27/06/08 (FRIDAY): Physics P1 & P2 [Morning]

30/06/08 (MONDAY): Mathematics P1 [Morning] & Economics [Afternoon]
01/07/08 (TUESDAY): Chemistry P1 & P2 [Afternoon]

Oh yea.. Great to hear Dominic's back from USA for a short break here, really been a long time since I've saw him, the last time we went City Hall for New York New York lol. And it's just been a crazy time.. I wonder how many things we've been missing because of all the small things that seem so amplified in this society.. It's just.. Crazy.

Hope to see him soon tmr anyway! It'll be a short meet up session with the rest of the guys, i hope it'll be time well spent! For I had given up time to study for Physics for this ok! =/

If I even meant.

Hahahahaha...

Back when we were still young kids
You used to treat us well, yes you did
Travelling together in the coolest fashion
Your family and mine, kins with passion
Maybe I'm losing some for myself, rap and all
Those I thought were my friends in a brawl
Fuck that, the beat just changed again
Must be me rusty, slow, boring, mundane
But relax, I'm just gettin' my own life back
Before it's too late to sew up this crack
Sounds restricted with the two-by-two bars
Poor flow, with this beat that I really call slow
Shoudn't be da case, but I guess I don't blame it
The society, media, school, you name it
Straight back to the doctor, the dentist
It flips your lid when you are a kid
Like the doctor, put your hands up for the doctor
The psychopath, magic wrath, you can laugh all you want
And wake up the next day tryin' to pray but you can't chant
Then's when you realise you don't practise what you preach

So much for havin' looked up to you as a kid
Thank you so much for tellin' me how to skid
But that's really a history, I admit
Lovin' the life of hallucinatory, fanta-story, I like it
Rather than feedin' off the left-overs of you
I'd come right up to ya face and be real
Coz' that's what I feel, the anxiety and thrill
You could be fakin' it to be chill, pretendin' to be ill
But with all that shit gutted down my throat
I can't believe my ears hear you betray your oath
Your wishes for a happy family, is a never fairy
Tale, diabolical master plan deemed to fail
Everytime I reminisce about footage trails
How you started off bringing us on train rails
Gettin' us familiar with the neighbourhood I call home
So near.. yet always so far, like entry in the tomb
More like gantries from rome, forever a desire
To be part of this growing nation fire
But I guess fitting into somewhere I dunno has always been dire
Passin' off as my background, not knowin' I've been such a liar..

The person you've always looked up to gives you the go signal
To leave you dissapointed, dismal in facin' truth in denial
Peakin' through albums believin' the good guy in you..
But times have changed, I guess one world is better than two...

If you know what I mean.
Or if I even meant at all.

Another world.

Friday (30th May) Night:

Reached airport at around 4 or 5 i think.

Went Suzhou (Dad's place) :))

Waiting for my rocket to launch.

Adaption from: http://news.sg.msn.com/article.aspx?cp-documentid=1439878

How Self-Made Titans Got Their Starts

• Don't have a silver spoon? Neither did they
• How Seven Self-Made Titans Financed Their Success
• Secrets of the Self-Made Billionaires
• How to Make a Million Before You Turn 20
• Are You Born to Be a Billionaire?

By Melanie Lindner
Capital is a constraint for many would-be entrepreneurs--or is it?
Scan the Forbes list of the world's richest people and you'll come across moguls from startlingly humble origins. How did they get their impressive empires off the ground? Sweat, savings, schmoozing, creativity and a dab or two of good fortune.


To be fair, the lucky few "born on third base" probably have a better shot at stardom than those without a safety net. According to a 2002 U.S. Census Bureau survey representing some 16 million business owners, a whopping 55% were initially funded by personal and family capital. Just 11.4% snagged bank loans and 8.8% got going on personal and business credit cards; much of the remainder lived on government loans and outside investors.


Some world-beating entrepreneurs--like John Catsimatidis, owner of the Red Apple Group and aspiring mayor of New York City--scared up capital by getting to know the right people.
The son of a busboy, Catsimatidis entered the grocery industry in the summer of 1966, just after graduating from high school. Befriending the owner of a Manhattan superette, he started taking on more responsibilities. Four years later, the owner offered him a 50% stake in one of his stores, to be acquired over 10 months at a rate of $1,000 per month.


Within a few months, the store's sales doubled, and Catsimatidis was earning a profit of $500 per week (not bad for a 20-year-old back then). After dropping out of New York University just eight credits shy of a degree, he launched his own grocery chain, the Red Apple Group. Lacking working capital for inventory, Catsimatidis charmed vendors to let him buy on credit, something he says "would never happen today." By the age of 25, he owned 10 stores--debt-free--netting a combined $1 million on $25 million in sales. Today the Red Apple empire includes Gristede's, Sloan's and Red Apple.


While Catsimatidis struck out on his own early, others, like Sandy Weill, saved their pennies before taking the plunge. Born in Brooklyn, N.Y., to Polish immigrants in 1933, Weill graduated from Cornell on scholarship before working as a runner for Bear Stearns and nabbing his stockbrokers' license at night.


A few years later, in 1960, he and three friends pooled their savings--an estimated $200,000--and opened their own brokerage firm, called Carter Berlind and Weill. Two decades of acquisitions later, their Travelers Group was the industry's second-largest brokerage, trailing only Merrill Lynch. In 1998, Travelers Group merged with Citicorp to make what is now known as Citigroup.


Old fashioned bartering helped put Kirk Kerkorian, farmer's son and future Wall Street titan, on the map. In the late 1930s, Kerkorian offered to look after famous female aviator Pancho Barnes' cattle in return for flying lessons. During World War II, he took a job with the Royal Air Force transporting planes from their Canadian factory to England at $1,000 per month--an especially treacherous journey as the planes weren't designed to withstand the long trip or the harsh weather over the North Atlantic.


With savings from his wartime job, Kerkorian purchased Trans International Airlines for $60,000 in 1947. (It is unclear as to whether he needed additional financing.) He later sold it to Transamerica for $104 million in stock, used to fuel further investments. His private investment firm, Tracinda, now owns 53% of MGM Mirage (nyse: MGM - news - people ).


Sometimes sheer talent and persistence is enough. As a single mother on welfare in Scotland, J.K. Rowling began writing the first Harry Potter novel in Edinburgh cafés whenever she could get her infant daughter to sleep. After being rejected by 12 publishing houses, Bloomsbury, a small publisher in London, offered an advance of 1,500 pounds (about $2,400)--even while one its editors, Barry Cunningham, advised Rowling to get a day job.


Good thing she didn't listen: The following year, U.S. publishing rights to the first Potter book sold for $105,000. Rowling has since moved nearly 400 million copies worldwide, and is the only author on our list

honest.. i like that.

A friend tell' stories of a person who never got anything
And contrastin' the glory of a man who lost everything
Then reading across the flashin' pages of disasters
Confession of a hero to none, but the first to run
Choice of hero or coward, he's his own master
At the end of the day nothing's at stake, who's won
The battle of violence, bloodshed and catastrophe
Perhaps replies adventured from mother nature
Fault versus blame - moral against self, controversy
Truth and reality, fact is it's art over pleasure
Self above others, or rather it's a case of my generation
Selfish, self-centred, called the "I, Myself and I generation"
But I don't blame the people themselves, no
They have complete say - their lives is their control
So let 'em go, the real problem is in the head
Skies aren't blue these days, gloom is in the red
Of course it gotta be with education like this;
Of course it gotta be with manfactures like this
Hot from the oven without true spiritual inspiration
All they get is facts and stats in the process of transmission

So don't blame the kids - they're not at fault
But of course a little wisdom would help a lot

And oh yes.. About the 2 men..
Maybe it's better to have loved and been loved
Rather than be a man soul-less and never been loved
But I guess the fear is in losing what we have
But you realise after all - we're all broken, deprived and empty anyway.

If I should be so bold to adopt loss as second nature.

haa.

Lucky.

Lucky to be finally back home from shanghai trip. Wouldn't say i wasted it, but it hasn't really been very pleasant, especially with the polluted air that made me sick for 2 days or so. But i must say the lights at night is really pretty, but watching those tv on national geog at night (there's nothing much else to do) makes me prefer natural sites than artificial ones. heh. Shall blog about my trip there during my study break time during these 2 weeks, which I am determined to make full use of. Wish myself luck huh =X

Song: Lucky.
Singer: Jason Mraz (featuring Colbie Caillat)
Album: "We sing. We Dance. We Steal Things." - released on 20th May 2008.

[Jason Mraz]
Now do ya hear me
I’m talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my..
Oh baby I try

[Colbie Caillat]
Oh boy I hear, in my dreams
I hear your whisper, across the sea
I keep you with me, in my heart
You make it easier, when life gets hard

[CHORUS]
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oh, oh, oooh..

[Together]
You don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye, I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for youI promised you, I will… oh

[CHORUS]
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home some day

[Jason Mraz]
And so I'm sailing, through the sea
To an island, where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fill the air
I put a flower in you hair

[Colbie Caillat]
And though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
Let the world keep spinning round
You hold me right here, right now

[CHORUS]
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home some day

Oh, oh, oooh..Oh, oh, oooh..

Sloppily lazy

I'm crazy, that's what somebody once said to me
Just coz I can't wait to see this world in harmony
"But too bad that ain't happenin'" she said
"This world's gonna rot before the last man gets paid"
The ice's gettin' pretty thin, girls gettin' ready to trim
Slim into tight fit bikinis, find mr. right and swim
To regret when he's got no money for a diamond ring
Breathless, loss of direction, that death thoughts bring
Suffocatin' is for weaklings, I see hope on the horizon
'V. Techs' on the uprisin', Vio-'lense' is in the pistons
Bortex' on sky flyin', suddenly the world's in a vortex..
Neck-breakin' speed, battles 'tween the rich and sex
The poor's inevitable presence is the consensus
What makes the fences, is the defences they claim
Censorship on immoral material and values that brains
Smarter brains, Powered brains, and breeds Painer pains
"I need some counterpain from the bruise and burn
Inflicted damage from the ink of this page overturned"
How that's happenin' is outrageous, utter ludicrous
Designed, custom-made intellect genetic material
Rids us of our ability of think, decide and choose
So the smarter we get, the more rights we lose
And till this point I can't but stop and think, before I go crazy,
That she was right - I was crazy - just so crazy.

Music > Entertainment.

Sometimes u think about how music can change moods and such.. And you question if it's really just about entertainment that music thrives on.. Sometimes I think, there's no harm in having entertainment music.. Suddenly caught this song on some blog, felt it really suited the shrek theme. Perhaps music is also about having the ability to adapt to the different themes..

All Star

from the movie "Shrek"

Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me

I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed

She was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her

Thumb in the shape of an "L" on her forehead

Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming

Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running

Didn't make sense not to live for fun

Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

So much to do so much to see

So what's wrong with taking the back streets

You'll never know if you don't go

You'll never shine if you don't glow

[CHORUS]

Hey now you're an All Star get your game on, go play

Hey now you're a Rock Star get the show on get paid

(And all that glitters is gold)

Only shooting stars break the mold)

It's a cool place and they say it gets colder

You're bundled up now but wait 'til you get older

But the meteor men beg to differ

Judging by the hole in the satellite picture

The ice we skate is getting pretty thin

The waters getting warm so you might as well swim

My world's on fire how about yours

That's the way I like it and I never get bored

[CHORUS] X2

Somebody once asked, "could you spare some change for gas

I need to get myself away from this place"

I said yep what a concept

I could use a little fuel myself

And we could all use a little change.

Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming

Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running

Didn't make sense not to live for fun

Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

So much to do so much to see

So what's wrong with taking the back streets

You'll never know if you don't go

You'll never shine if you don't glow

[CHORUS]

(And all that glitters is gold)

Only shooting stars break the mold...

How fast

Wednesday (21/5/08)

Finally the last day of school for term 2. Couldn't have come at a better time. Totally exhausted and drained from all my energy, I seriously needed a long break, and of course, time to catch up on my work.

And it was the soccer final as well. MJ - VJ at Jalan Besar stadium. The pitch seemed a lot smaller than usual (I thought our school's was small enough, turned out it was smaller than our school's, I think) The match started on a real high. The first goal came within the first minute - Mahdi scored after a VJ defence scramble - they had failed to clear an easy ball they should have dealt better and mahdi just slotted it cooly into the corner of the goal. So we thought the game would be an exciting one since VJ would definitely be fighting to claw a goal back. And they eventually did, having hit the post earlier after the mj keeper failed to hold on to a weak long shot. After a lot of long balls from both sides, MJ's sloppy defending allowed this VJ striker to be left unmarked and he just volleyed straight at the keeper. The keeper palmed it - but into the back of the net -.- And that was really just the start of the battle. Mahdi terrorised thru the left flank, dribbling past the defenders again and again - and it was him who provided the cross near the byline for mj striker to head in. Well-worked, and thoroughly deserved lead.

But after the break it got pretty boring - both sides still adopted the long-ball tactic, and they were just muscling around instead of making full use of the ball. So injuries were inevitable - both sides suffered 2 injuries i think. And the mj sub-striker hit the post towards the end of the match. But that didn't have any bearring on the match anyways - mj still won 2-1, reclaiming their title after defeats in the 2006 and 2007 finals.

Soon after the award ceremony, I rushed to find Harng-Yi in the VJ contingent - still has that same face despite all these years. Haha! And he's got braces too! Though he's taking them off soon. Should have taken picture of something. But then again, my hp camera sucks (it's not my camera actually, it's my bro's) Sianz. Still, we managed to talk a bit, though I felt rather guilty for holding him up (think he was supposed to go home with his classmates or something), so after some time I decided to head off to find alab, yongjie and the rest at city hall.

It's always nice meeting up people whom you've not met for a long time and catch up a lil bit on how each other have been doing - really gives a sense of time and great pleasure recalling things from the past - how i used to call wan xin peacock and such. Ha. But harng-yi says he's not 'as arrogant as he used to be', so i really wonder how he's like. ha. But looking at marists in mj (with the exception of kenneth), I dun really think they give a damn of their old classmates anyway. Like my sis had said, I don't really think classmates are that important as I thought they were. Dun get me wrong, I'm not saying they aren't, but most of them aren't, I guess - they'll probably forget about you and get on with life as if they hadn't known you. But of course, it's the exceptions that make a difference. How fast time's catchin up on me. How fast.

Dreamer.

Aussie, on his way to find his biological daddy
Separated since a kiddy, now that he's age twenty
In his head he's got a responsibility on his shoulder blades
Said he's on a mission to find out the truth before life fades
On this plane of this famous local brand which I shall not name
Things started out happy at first, but life never was the same
Would have been in ashes had he sat on the left side of the plane
But then the plane burns into ashes as he saw his teacher's brain
Splatted all over the floor, as he crawled out of the torn plane with a fall
The plane had crashed into the hall of a building forty-storeys tall
He dashed away from the scene, lights of the flame erupted in beams
Explosion, followed by concussion, immediately blinded it seems
What happened for the rest of the day, he had not known
The next thing that happened was in a hospital back at home
How he survived was a blur, with minor scratches and burns on his feet
Whilst the rest had died, not even knowing they died in the heat
Of all this misery, he couldn't see, or hear, from tapes and CDs
The emotions of these people, as he sat there watching the TV
He couldn't believe he was the only survivor of this trauma
As he read, the death toll more than 110,000, 5 months lata..

[Documentaries keep playin' it, they keep repeatin' it
He tries to hide away from it, tries to avoid it
But all he gets is the pain and trauma from it
The shock and disbelief, god was hiding it
The book of death, he would and should have died
With the rest, he'd rather not be blessed
The media keeps comin' up to him, requestin'
For interviews for this exclusive broadcastin'
But fuck it, he ain't doing it for his own sake
He ain't gonna earn easy cash in this flake
He had seen enough of God's treachery
He's had enough of it.. All he wants is some peace and be free]

And when I woke up from being a dreamer
To being haunted by it all morning, like fever
Never leaving the top of my head, I guess
I'm finally starting to see these images
Nobody wants to be a child nobody cares
But all they wanna do is to earn their wages
Well if that's what you want, staying hungry
And foolish.. I guess I can only disagree
So maybe the next time you call people stupid
Know you ain't nothing till you've seen this side of it..

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幾次的擦肩而過 你是否有察覺到
陌生的背影暗示 你那迷人的味道
在我周圍圍圍繞 希望你能微微笑
請你對我示個好 說個哈儸讓我發燒..

[副]
我們膽小得可愛 只懂在一旁等待
期待你主動告白 現在才終于明白

現在我一人發呆

無緣等那天到來

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Gen.

I'm happy in my own zone, frozen in time zone
No worries and whatever, so please leave me alone
Tired of always being treated second class
It's just not in my culture, origin or past
My generation of never ration, vortex of illusion
We need some rarefactions, like waves, compressions
Depression got me staring far into future
Is it a proof? The truth? Or is it all spoof?

See this thing works on a simple basis
It's either kill or be killed, so face it
We ain't got nothing since day one
So I contemplate the day we eliminate guns
Masters of weaponry, speaking of which contrary
It's an eye for another, degradin' nature mother
So as I see 20 other cities emerge and prosper
Urban lives the bed of crimes, socialised, marginalised

[Outro]
Ironic how lives should been better, but I bet you
50 years down, problems wouldn't be this few
So fuck it, let me see you judge,
I'll see you higher classes stumble and crumble
Humbled and fumbled when you start to mumble
I just realised this space's too small for me to grumble
It's late and my belly starts to rumble..
So fuck it, I could be havin' apples to keep doctors away
While 20 million people die silently, kept and locked away..

Started: 12.59
End: 1.15

recover time.

E: I love rhyming.
A: That's the tenth time you told me that.
E: I mean, just exactly how many times can you rhyme?
A: Ok, that's the eleventh time.

I can't stop rhyming, sometimes
One after another, in bars and lines
Words, can't get out of my mind
I need some peace, space and time
And for once stop being a mime
Feelin' sour after having lime
Doing tricks that you feel sublime
That'll be the eighteenth time
I rhyme for the nineteeth time
Well if you can't shut up then fine

-some random lines talking to zy. Don't really make sense, but I'm just tryin' to recover.

Observation zero.

"It's early in the morning, I'm just wakin' up,
I had a rumble in my belly, I am R. Kelly".

Thinking about the Jim Carrie's parody in Physics lecture about Quantum Physics, it just made me recall about the times I used to watch so much parody, of which "Trapped in the Closet" was one of the first MadTV parodies I watched. Went to watch it again, probably wasn't as hilarious or stupid that I felt about it the first time I watched. But it was the rhymin' that got me goin' on listenin'. Perhaps after A Levels I guess. Kinda miss the time doing all my favourite things. Seriously.

Anyways, was supposed to wake up at 6 (as I always do on Fridays) for morning run, but got so tired from teachin' Chem till 3, that I decided not to. Fridays, I really love them. Short 4 periods only, though I had extra Physics consultation, which has cleared doubts for me. At least for Forces and Dynamics. But still, there's so much ground to catch up on. Can't believe it's gonna be less than half a year before A's! Was talking to Hazel, got to know her Chem SPA was today, wonder how come theirs was 2 weeks later than ours. She mentioned though, that she was really worried for her other subjects other than Maths. Their principal actually sent their block test results to their parents! =/ Gosh. That's like worse than mj.

After school headed to Orange Valley Home in Simei for Guitar Club's CIP. Didn't do a lot though, it was mostly the rest doing the job. In all honesty, I didn't have the mood actually, but did try to listen closely to whatever the person-in-charge, Eathel, said. She's quite an inspirational person, but I still do think these were just some of the things that we tend to neglect in life because of everyday work - so much so we don't have time to stop and think about them.

There's just so much more else things to do than studying, which I'm starting to get sick of.

Mood: can't be bothered about anything else but soccer tmr. Maybe I should stop going for guitar lessons for the remaining 6 months or so and look for another teacher instead. Thought it was supposed to be more fast-paced since it was 'intermediate', it wasn't, and I don't think I'll learn much from this course. Piano after A's? Maybe bah. Just put it aside first.

The simplest things

Today (saturday) was supposed to be a stressed one for me, but it didn't turn out to be so. I dunno how i got away with all the troubles I had over my undone work and revision. Oh well.

Woke up at 10, i got a shock that I slept for 12 hours. And it was only due to the last min cancellation of soccer that I managed to get the luxury of the long hours of sleep that I've been so desperately deprived of late. My lil bro wanted my to accompany him to buy Mac breakfast, I think it was all the accumulated fatigue that glued me down to my bed. I rejected and stayed in bed playing gameboy, reliving all the childhood memories of pokemon as he went out to get breakfast for us.

What seemed like a good act, was to be followed by a complete day of tantrums.

First, the debate over the mcgrill. I wanted to try coz i've nv had that. Then he wanted it for himself. Lol. So nvm about that
Then he didn't want to do work or at the least abide by any of the rules set by mum.
And more of course. I cant really be bothered about the details. No violence, but all bicker. haha.
Pretty good a reminder wad i was like as a kid. haha.

Anyways, i had unknowling undergone a whole day of 'wasting time' practising guitar, piano [天空!] and doing all sorts of things that I know i shouldn't be doing at this point of time. I guess people need a break from their day to day work sometimes. And if there was anything I needed, this was it.

Went to guitar after my failed attempt to complete the sgc on isis portal before 6.20. Anyways didn't really cover much. All steven covered was 'what i've done' by linkin park and 'first time' by lifehouse, both pretty catchy songs, although not really my type of songs. But nonetheless, nice. Had a little problem mastering the songs coz of the complex chords + tuning down thing (first time) and strumming patterns (what i've done). still working on them though.

Pretty weird I havent seen hong xiang for 3 consecutive weeks now. Wonderin' how he's doing coz he's the only person i talk to in class. Gotta ask for his contacts the next time I see him. Think the workload's catchin up with him recently. I used to be overwhelmed by all the things we had to do in j1 after the honeymoon first three months. Oh well the vicious cycle just repeats in every system I guess.

So I had thought that the movie would start at 8, until confirmation with eugene that it was at 8.30 that I decided to walk home instead of the bus to save money. Pretty broke these days coz I havent collected my allowance and i dun feel like touching my savings. And there's still tuition fees, dental fees, hp fees! oh man. the only commendable thing is at least I've got my hp fees in check. it's declining for sure. [so sorry to pat if u read this, that'll mean i'll have to reduce my global smses =X]

Didn't change after I got home, and only reached tamp at 8.25. waited at the contro station for a while coz i had expected somebody to be there somehow. Then huiping told me she'll be late. So i headed for gv first. And wth! My earpiece spoilt when I walked thru courts via the 3rd floor. The cord entangled with the cupboard knob and then the whole thing came out! It got loose after that.. And only one side had sound! Damn. More $$$ to be spent! Couldn't have come at a worse time. And that means going to tuition tmr without music! that's a torture, really.

[Eugene didn't ask me to go for movie! Think the rest of the ppl outside exco weren't invited for the movie, but rosanne asked huiping i think, who asked around after that] And that caused chaos, i think, coz they had booked the tickets earlier. The tickets (for initially me and zhiling, i dunno why the arrangement, i think it was darren who suggested it) for me and kaiping were in theatre 3 while their were in theatre 1. There's like somekind of ongoing scandal rumours i think. And that's quite surprising considering I've never been suggestive or whatever. sigh.

Anyways kaiping's quite a nice company to watch movie with! haha. quite talkative and discussions were lively during the show eh! albeit softly coz we are considerate viewers who dun want to disturb the others! I think i should have gotten a drink or smth coz my throats were thirsty at the end of the movie. Pretty nice plot, although actions were rather limited, i think. But i felt it was okay, just nice, considering it certainly did give non-ironman-readers, like me, a very clear picture of exactly who iron man was and how he came about. Several humurous parts too. Tonny starks certainly has a way with words, as illustrated with his sweet-talk prowess in the first parts of the show. haha.

DAMN we shouldn't have left the place early. i suggested we go out wait for the rest coz i didn't anticipate more to come in the credits, and thought the rest would have been outside waiting for us, which wasn't the case of course. Sorry kaiping!

After the movie i guess everyone was so tired that the only thing that we all wanted to do was to go home and have a good rest. Everyone dispersed immediately after that, with huiping (bus 27), aiman and i walking to the same bus stop. Wanted to take the mrt since it'll be faster but decided to take bus 21 with aiman instead. Pretty much to chit chat about, and only then did i realise aiman's not a malay, but an indian! but from the way she talks, it's read hard to tell. haha. she's better off being like her mum, like i think i am. ha. and she plays dota too! okay, she's only picking it up now, but still! girls dun really play the com these days, do they? or is it a wrong assumption i'm making? certainly not for my mum and sis, and definitely not when it comes to fighting/ strategy games like dota. pretty cool huh. No wonder arvin.. *coughs*

That was it I guess, after sending her home and getting home myself, it was close to 12. Guess it's the simple things that can be satisfying sometimes. And in that I dun suggest the first sentence in this paragraph is. I'm saying about today in general. ha. if only life was so simple to look at and deal with.

Then i slacked a bit, tried completing my sgc but no avail. no thanks to jake who got me distracted as we rhymed a few bars. wanted to post our convo here but then both of us had closed the convo window as I was about to end and publish this post.

Damn.

Coz i thought those lines were rather reflective of my current ability (they sucked), but after a's i'm gonna work on it.. for sure.