Fearin'.

Since young I've never learnt to overcome what I fear

I'm succumbing to fear, steer me away from this sphere

As i listened closely, I hear death.. It's comin' near..

I gotta persevere, strive on, or vanish and disappear

This hunger to be revered.. Ten years on.. But I'm still here

Like a pioneer steppin' on the gear.. I'm reduced to tears

If I fail to win this, I'll rather not exist..

Temptation temptin' me, tellin' me not to resist

Take this fist, clenched, and that too, stenched, I'm over the edge

No I can't speak french, I only warm the bench

Like a communication trench, I'm out-stretched, over-stretched

.. ..

As I stretch out to my sketching pen.. I hear a sound..

"Who's over the ledge?" I uncower, rooted to the ground

I turn around to that bower, eyeing for a hound

INCOMPLETE

Just..

It was just..

Woke up today morning at around 6.30, i think i'm too used to waking up early, but not this early. Usually wake up at around 7 to be JUST on time for school. haha.

Yep. And then the rest i couldn't remember.

Yesterday was Ivan's birthday surprise party-chalet. Eugene, Sze Jun and I were there with the rest of his relatives and friends at Armanda Country Club. It's quite a nice place to be honest. But to think that candy actually did that for ivan. It's so sweet of his gf to organise such a massive thing for him. haha. not that i'm being envy, but i think these kind of ppl are hard to come by these days. anyways, i felt ivan was being somehow different. like.. he's not the kind of person he is in school. i guess everyone's got their side to share. Seems more quiet i suppose. His friends were all these together, but the three of us just sat at one corner eating and chatting away. (Oh yea, i forgot to mention about the cat which was so attention-seeking. haha. it was circling us several times before it went to find other human beings to play with. I think it was looking for someone to bring it home or smth.) Ivan kept asking us to go over with his friends, but I felt it was pointless. I'm not gonna know them well enough anyway. Not that I really need to or have to. Besides, the girls there were all attached =X and they weren't attractive to me in the first place.

I kind of pitied Ivan and Candy's parents. Like they were the ones who organised everything for us, but it had to be them helping us cook. Ivan didn't get to eat much. He claimed that he had eaten before we came, guess he's just being polite or smth. And he's like awkward speaking chinese. ha.

Eugene and sj were in a rush to go home. Think they cant stay out too long. Or they didn't want to. What's more, we felt so awkward with his friends/ relatives. Sj's mum came to fetch him, and eugene, home. The four of us had quite a chat while walking down to the bus stop. Then ivan sent me off at the entrance of downtown east. I can't really recall the topics we talked about, but we did talk non-chalantly before he sent me off. Some thoughts went through my mind, but I couldn't really express myself. Just hope that the 4 of us can stay together after we graduate. I think we're quite good friends, really.

Earlier, yong jie had to call of his plans to proceed to the chalet with us. He said he had to attend some funeral or something. I just hope things remain fine as we proceed into the 7th lunar month. Jianyao actually thought about coming with us to the chalet after he decided to pon co. I think he's quite similar to me - he hates his cca practices too. I used to look forward to it, but the more I go, the more i got sick of it =/ So he, along with sj and i, went to white sands and tried the thai food at the 2nd floor. It's the first time I've been there since they've renovated. I'd say their food is quite nice, and affordable. Maybe next time we could contemplate having our outing meals together over there. At least it's much better than fast food.

We went to buy ivan's gift after that - a white nike shirt with some red stripes on it - kinda resembling that of liverpool's away jersey, just that it's adidas. ha. We were rather choosy over his gift and spent like an hour deciding his gift, where I could have better spent that hour practising my piano piece or smth. Feelin' kinda guilty that i havent been touching my piano for 2 weeks or so. Needa buck up or I'd be lagging behind. Lots.

After that they came over to my place to wrap up the present, and we had a little chat too. Introduced them a few songs which i was glad sj liked. Borrowed my album after that. Shan't go into the details, but I feel that i've been neglecting some ppl lately. Maybe i should change the way i see things.

Went piano after that and then to meet sj and waited for eugene at white sands. Yea he was late, and so was ivan. I'm glad we were later than we were supposed to be or else we'd be sticking around with strangers for an even longer spell. lols.

Yea. that was all about the chalet. I think chalet loses its purpose if you're not going with a bunch of fun-loving people coz that'll spoil the mood. chalet's suppose to be a place people do crazy stuff together, isn't it? apart from just eating. ha.

... ...

Back to saturday.

After reading the papers and times, I couldn't bear the energy draining anymore. So went back for about 3 hours sleep. Woke up, did some chores before heading to City hall to meet yu chuan. I was late, again. and I'm sorry that i made you wait 'aite! 30 mins! i'll rmbr that. Well at least it'l better than the other time i made jm wait for the whole day outside my house =X

We went to st andrew's cathedral first. it's really a very nice church to go to, but i'm not a christian, but it's still a nice place to visit. i think i may wanna go there alone another time. it's so serene and peaceful there. i like that kinda environment.

hmm. then we went to peninsula to check out some guitar stuff. I realise there's more things over there than at swee lee. think i shall check that place out thoroughly instead of limiting my options to just swee lee. hmm. The prices there are much cheaper too. I need a tuner and a proper capo! but first my piano! hmm.

We went for a 'big walk' after that, walking around aimlessly and losing our way, before going all the way back to marina square to have dinner at subway! woot. i JUST love their cookies. and the first time i've tried their white chips cookie. it's nice.. and fattening too! nvm la. i'll play more soccer.

Never knew somethings that turned out the way it was. If i had JUST stayed in sa, maybe i'd be closer to some of them.. But i guess, things have become the way it is, I JUST gotta make do with what i've got.. Perhaps this teacher's day, instead of going back tms, which I dun feel any connection (neither can I relate to it) anymore, i should go find someone whom i think she's forgotten. But i wanna let her know that I've not forgotten her, and i've really taken her words to heart and followed to it closely. Just a pity to have lost her contacts. I wonder how she's doing. Hope to be able to see her back in school on teacher's day.

Ha. Nvm abt that. After dinner we were actually heading for the mrt, then a passer-by came to us asking for directions to marina bay, you know, that floating platform. He said he was going there to view the fireworks..

Hmm? Fireworks? We were taken by surprise coz we didnt know there was fireworks on display today. After giving him directions to marina bay, we took the short route (yes, we told him to walk that longer route by accident =/ ) to marina bay. Hell there were loads of ppl sitting at the stairways leading to the esplanade. we wanted to find some deserted spot where there were fewer ppl, but it was always gonna be difficult. We managed somehow to squeeze thru to somewhere near the Singapore Flyer. It wasn't exactly deserted, beside the river there were all people sitting down at the rocks waiting for the fireworks. We sat down and did some stupid stff. We even took pictures together! Lol. Like a gay couple seriously. I'd upload pictures once my com's fixed. ha.

It was about 9, then yu chuan wanted to go check out the ritz carlton hotel. It was my second time there. The urgent yc went toilet to release his bladder at once, then we rushed outside to take snapshots of the fireworks (quite childish, I know, but that's the way we are, ha). Spend some time there before we noticed a stylo car! I can't rmbr the name of the car brand, but it was hell style! I'd upload once I get them.

So much for taking all the cameo shots. We had to squeeze to the mrt with millions of other ppl. We took like 20 mins to get the mrt, bypassing the place where our first og outing was held! I think yc wants to organise an og reunion next yr or smth. I hope it'll work out fine. =D

We parted ways at the mrt station, guess all good things have to come to an end. Time flies, especially when u're enjoying it. And i was really glad to have meet him too! And, although i have the cd already, thanks nonetheless for the effort. But rmbr, support originality! Dun download or buy pirated / china cds! Support the taiwan music industry! Think about how you'd feel if u were in their shoes. Yea. That was about it.

I just hope to keep some of these souls implanted in my brain for as long as possible. And for the ever-so-far-out-there-but-we'll-remember-you jing, shine on. take care ok!

And that was.. just another saturday.. Well spent.. But not very productive, on the notion that I've got so many hw to do! WR! Damn. I think sj's come running after me for my part =X

p.s. jing i'm still waiting for your letter..! With the stamp of course, I want canadian stamps. ha.

Off to soccer in another 4 hours!

cycle.

Finally! The start of the new EPL season. the long wait is over! Haha. Now at least i have something to keep me occupied on weekends..! And pool just won yday's match by a gerrard winner! woot. one freekick to remember. aiya. dunno why la. i'm like zihai or smth. lol. the beggining of another cycle? hell yea.

Travelling back in space, it's a race for my place
Complacency gets me in place, i'm off without a trace
Opsey dazey, I'm just so pacy, you can see me blazin'
I can't even spell these words even it's simple like abc
Learnt things the easy way, now i see hard tough, tough harder
Fire crackers off in the sky, i'm way up in the sky, even higher
Just a sinner askin' to be forgiven, I'm in seventh heaven
God tells me there's one of him, to the point of no return
Regret, that's what I said, you gotta live to the fullest
Gettin paid for bein' laid, like a bubble 'bout to burst
Maximise your potential, frailed when I fail to hit the nail
Hup-hup, seconds left with one to trail, what does this entail?
This is your turn to burn, like a clockwise turn on the clock
Symbolisin' your time's runnin' out, bullet thru' a shot
Your candle like hope.. always diminishin'.. Thru life.. Alwayz wishin'..
Not to be betrayed.. But that's life.. always greyed..

Hope it's not too bad. Opz please.

it's just that.. I've just had another cycle, skimming thru some of the past.. It's just stupid. Haha. Hope I'll never have to repeat that cycle. thx 'guys.

Ideal

Reality..

Something so far..


And ever so near.


Gunnin' down the troops of liberty, that's the problem with me
I can't sit on the fence and do nothin', that's not like me
When he turns a blind eye to what the truth has to say
He ain't got no proof, tuggin' it out with his homies, today
Or yesterday, Monday to Friday, Friday to Sunday
I'm battlin' for honours fightin' for a future pay
The way of life...? Hmm.. I'm free from treachery, search my treasury
Brotherhood or mankind.. Behold the blood soaked in this weaponry...


That day I came over to this place with no labels or warnings
Death at the end, it's anger over shy, dagger for killin'
The special one, claimed to be the filial one, never enough fun
Three two one, Three to one, it's close to none, you laugh and I run
No joke told like the innocent folk, see where you gettin' at?
It's words with clotted blood, see where the threat is at?
The rat is reared, the brat is here, like how much dread is feared
Nothin' severe, accelerate the gear when death is near..


When you told me rap won't work, this quirk attitude
I was just a little jerk livin' in his world, call me a rube
Shake this head off, what's that, you scared, 'ab? You were dissin' me too
I was a fool to listen to you! And that sunshine ray
I couldn't trust what you said, but I think that's okay to me
At least, that smirk on your face when I saw you that day
Like you spending seventeen like fifty, me spendin' seventeen
Like I was thrifty, to think that I've grown out of my teen
Longer than you did, more than you know, but that's how it goes
When time's spent, emotion grows, and from then we started to roll
Wait a sec, like 'spend some time with me' was our signal
When lone creeps to reap me apart, this line keeps flowin'
Through time, space, you've seen me blazin', and pacin' off
'The Death' was more than you think, like jesus, blowing off
He was revived on easter, the sunday of resurrection
Secular, back in spectacular fashion..

And the ideal world,
Beyond complexion..

Somethin' ever so far.

Didn't really focus on flow.
Just had these thoughts runnin' thru my mind after Saturday morning.

Forgotten.

I think almost everyone feels this fear once in a while. When you're forgotten.

Have been having the same dream about something that I don't even know if it's true. I'm not really bothered by it, just felt that I had to jot it down somewhere for me to recall about it. Let's see if it's really true. Havent been in the right frame of mind lately.

Guess what.

I miss a lot of people.

My family, my relatives, my close friends.

It comforts me somehow, to know these people still remember.
That despite the fact my handphone and com is spoilt.
(I'm using my laptop now. Ain't that sad!)

Hai.

Anyway, thanks to Aidan for that 1+ hr of conversation we had that day. No matter how long u've been gone, I can't forget this friend of mine. It's been some 2,3 years, and it's amazing we can still chat like bestest of friends. To like share so many common topics, I was so happy to be able to talk to him. =D

And Jing. I've received ur letter and replied to it asap. I feel so touched to receive your postcard! =D But the thing now is, o.g. 27 has been torn to pieces. We no longer contact each other anymore, coupled by the fact my com and hp's spoilt. That's worse. I somehow feel kinda irrelavant to a lot of things out there. It's just weird la. I hope all of us can still chat like good friends, but it's hard. Everyone has got their own lives to live.

Even my three very nice 'sisters' =D We can still chat and talk rubbish I hope, although it wasnt too long ago we did that =D And for someone who chu lian le! Hope everything goes out smoothly for you. Anything must update me! =D

To Jun Wei, thanks for going out to the concert with me! It's surprising how we can still be such good friends after being such a total idiotic, selfish bastard I was back in sec 2. Ha. But it's over, I'm just looking forward to a lot of things, amongst which includes the end of promos and PW. These are just short term goals.

And please, if I havent included ur name here, it's just that I feel there's somethings that words can tell. I'd rather keep it in my heart, even if one day, anything's forgotten.

You'll Never Walk Alone.

p.s. THX JING! LOOKING FORWARD TO YOUR NEXT LETTER! =D

Solitude.

Everything seems so fast.. I can barely rmbr what I've done for the past few weeks.

Just a recount of a few things:

Yesterday's class was absolutely interesting. The class like went mad. Everyone was joking in every lesson. Yet somehow, everyone was focussed too. I like my class, the guys. The girls i cant really make any comment cause I've yet to really talk to them. Even if i do, the manner which they respond just makes me lose my appetite.

Not that the guys in class havent really put in enough effort. In fact, I think people like Jian Yao, Eugene and I, we're trying very hard to promote interaction between the class. But why cant everyone tell? It's just. Aiya.

Anyways, Chinese class was totaly rubbish. 2 hours of nonsense. Mr Gan was going through the 成語練習. the scenario was like this:

Mr Gan: 目空一切是什麽意思？
Class: 不知道！
Mr Gan: 目空一切就是很像很驕傲的人啊！我們這班有沒有？
Class: 宇淵！
Me: 我?!
Mr Gan: 是嗎?可是目空一切的人也是要有本事啊！看宇淵這樣的人，怎麽可能目空一切？
Me: ...

Chem Lesson:

(Jun kang throws rubbish, misses the bin)
Mr Goh: Jun Kang go and throw the paper!
Jun Kang: But it went in what!
Mr Goh: No, it didnt!
JK: HA! Parallax Error!

LOL. What the hell is going on??

Today my mum and I went to see Mr Gan for meet the parents session. Didn't get a scolding from my mum, she was very understanding in fact. =D Mr Gan was saying i'm a very 開朗,但開朗不代表隨便. But my mum disagreed. It was more like a crapping session in fact. But Mr Gan was saying he knows that I can do better. And he's worried. After I left the class MR Gan gave me a pat on my back. That made me felt a lot better. He said that it's no more life in jc now, and that I agree. really gotta start buckin' up. Means no more writing, no more hanging out. It's plain stupidity la actually. But to think that everyone is putting in so much effort, makes me feel i should abide by it. Lol. Had a little chat with aidan online. He's doing pretty much well now. And he's hoping to see me soon! i'm just glad not to be forgotten by some of my close friends. But till then, maybe a solitude will tell who they are.

In the meantime, since my hp's spoilt and so is my com, i dont have a choice. Hope everyone can help update me on ur numbers coz i've lose everyone's contacts!

THX!

To the you who's reading this line now,
YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE.

Where we left.. And still at where we left.

S03 at sentosa.

Quite a few of us went.

Victoria, Polly, Dan Fong, Phoebe, Pong, Hazel, Shirley, Yoo, Sharon, Shawn, Lucas, Mark and myself! ha.

This was the class that had so much fun together. Or, maybe, just a few of us, as I realised not everything turned out the way it was supposed to be.

I don't really wanna go into the details, but I feel it's totally different now. Everything is different, people change. And that makes me ponder sometimes, is it worth my time?

Friends, especially good friends are hard to come by, maybe a few will be good enough. Friend treasurer? No matter how much, how great a friend you can be, people will never know unless they acknowledge such a fact.

So to people who feel that they do need to tell someone spccial something, don't be afraid, just let it out. People never know unless you allow them to know.

Three friends whom I don't really got to know, but I really do treat them as friends, good one. But the things that they do, makes me feel like.. We're still at where we left.. And maybe a foot further.

P.S. For the three of you who'll never know, thanks! =D

And so she went...

3 morning calls ensured I woke up on time XD Thanks patricia, yu chuan, jing nan! but jing nan called me at like 8.10. I was already on my way there but she had just left her house - JURONG! Omg?

I reached there at around 8.25. Second to arrive. Upon arrival someone tapped my shoulder from the back. YU CHUAN! With his big eye-blacks that was ever-so evident. Haha. Actually I was really tired too, but for this special friend, I had to sacrifice my sleep =/

Minutes later ruizhe joined us. But he was actually there earlier than any of us. 8, as I heard from yu chuan. By this time it was already 8.30, but she had just left her house not so long ago. Rui Zhe's stomache was rumbling, so we went to Mac to grab a bite. Yu Chuan was browsing through the photo album which I rushed to get it done last night. Some of the photo quality are quite bad, but there's nothing I could do! I think it's Wan Ting's camera that's the problem. Yup.

Anyways, I reserved one special card for Yu Chuan to write something for Jing Nan. Just a pity I should have reserved one for Rui Zhe too. He was, afterall, a part of her life.

Yu Chuan was fiddling around with my faulty phone, in attempt to try to rescue it. But to no avail. I should have it repaired asap I guess =X

9.15. Everyone started to panic. Her flight's at 10.50 and she should have been here a long time ago to check in. So we called like n times, but she didn't pick up. 9.25. Finally she called. And guess what. She had already checked in and having her breakfast.. At TERMINAL 1.

Lucky all of us are patient people. We didn't mind running that extra distance and going through all the trouble for her. Haha. She should thank us ok!

And so we went.

To terminal 1 of course. By the skytrain. It's been a long time since I've taken the skytrain actually, but it really is 15283125 times slower than the MRT! lol. But lucky for us not many people were taking the skytrain. I recall the other time taking the skytrain with so many people boarding! Took us so long to get through. Ha.

At terminal 1, we met up with JingNan at the departure hall. She with her 2 best-est buddies from her secondary school. And it was kinda funny, 'cause as yu chuan said, girls always take very very very VERY long to bid farewells. Haha. They had so much things to talk about that we didn't really converse with jing nan. We managed to get a glimpse of her mum though. She looked so young! I think 30 given her looks. Honestly.

THE BIG HUG.

Patricia kept reminding me to give her a big hug. We'll not see each other for another 3 years I guess? And by then I'll probably be in the army! Hmm. Hope things will go fine for her.

9:58 was the time written on the clock at the airport. It was time to go in. Her mum hurried her to check in while she was so reluctant to leave. Us too. So reluctant to let her go. We'll definitely miss you, jing. For the moments we all had together, all the jokes and laughter we shared, all the fun and problem-sharing time we had. This kind of friends don't come too often. Like how you helped me get past my state of slump after I broke up, I hope you'll remember how we helped each other out. Give yourself chances. There's more things outside of singapore. Much guys, more girls. HAHA! Ok, that's besides the point, but this chance will be a very good one for you to experience and learn things from the outside world. Whilst you continue to educate and upgrade yourself, forget us not.

You were really the best girl-friend I ever had.
And nothing much else words can say.
We'll all miss you.

And so she went...

(p.s. DAMN! Forget to take photos!)

Updated!

Been a few days since I've blogged. Yea i think i should update more regularly. But been kinda lazy lately. I rougly summarise what happened in the past couple of weeks or so.

Tuesday (12 June '07)

Went for ktv with some classmates!

Si Yi, Rachel, Li Feng, Yong Jie, Sze Jun, Alan Teo, Kelvin was there.

But none of the girls sang, except Si Yi at least knew a few songs. It was a very nice day to hang out with, just that I was shocked to see the prices at like $16 per person. Expected it to be around $11 lo. Ha. But one thing I learnt. The tidbits is free-flow! Next time should eat as much as we can since it's free! lol. But Yong Jjie warns that it's easy to get soar throat by eating those. We gave most of our share to the girls, who were responsible for helping us eat tidbits! haha. At least they didnt go for nothing ok! But kinda waste of money to just go there and sit. =X

Next time should get more people to go.

Friday (15 June '07)

Did some recording before going to Bugis to play (watch actually) people playing arcade. Someone completed the whole of the House of the Dead. Not like it's something to be excited about, but it's my first time witnessing that. Yewf explains the story behind the game. The story is kinda complicated with the story of the House of the Dead 4 followed up by the story in House of the Dead 3. Guess I shall just read up on it myself when I'm free.

*Btw, yewf was late and he made jia ming and I wait for an hour! His gf was supposed to come but didn't! Hmm. Wondering what he's up to anyway.

After that I walked him home from pasir ris mrt. Had 2 cans of jolly shandy each too. Lots of things to share! He did talk about somethings I never thought someone would say behind my back, and some lies I shoulda realise or exploited. Ha. But nvm. Let it be. To be fakin' it? I'd rather do that thing I do.

So we chit-chatted for hours at his house void deck. Ah. Cant remember about the frog incident. We heard croaking sounds echoing in the void deck. Being curious in nature, he and i decided to find out what that sound was. In the end the sound came from the recycling bin areas. After listening closely, and with a little of common sense, it must be a frog/ toad! Ah. It's just funny how a frog can land up being in the bin. How unfortunate!

So that day I reached my house at 2 instead of 10. I told my sis I'd reach home at 10, but it never was the case. By the time I came back, even my brother, who usually reaches home later than anyone else in the family, was home already. Lols. But it's been some long time since I've talked to him. Really miss ya dude. And come to think of it, I think I should go find Aaron, Yi He and Willis sometimes. Plus he added me on msn! Must show that he remembers me! How glad!

Saturday (16 June' 07)

Soccer! As usual. This time I woke up late, only for yx to be even later. In the end reached there at around 9.30 instead of 9. But who cares anyway? Everyone's always late. Lol. But this time the clouds were really all dark. Knew from the start it was gonna rain. So in the end we canceled the match. Gabriel and Mary Anne didnt come. Actually we expected it to rain heavily continuously. So we went for brunch. Then the rain stopped. How uncoincidental! But Chang Song suggested we continue playing soccer. So we played for a match or two before the rain set in again. This time for real. We hung out at the void deck near the netball court. Yx, hong shan, bryan were playing among themselves. Then louis, sam tang, thien soon, yong zhi and i were just fooling around and being childish. Playing in the rain with soccer and we came up with a stupid game which nobody obeyed the rule! haha. How childish can we get. Then discussed with sam tang about the outing with jun wei on the saturday on the first week after the common tests. Hope to see all of them soon! After that we had lunch before walking home from kw's house there. In the end kw still forgot to take his game from me. Lols.

Sunday (17 June '07)

It was father's day. But apparently nobody in the house celebrates it. And everyone knows why. It was a pretty plain sunday. The most unforgettable thing was that my dad actually mentioned about the day in front of us. Over the phone, asking his friend how he was celebrating it. I think he was hinting at us. But to no avail. So we kinda celebrated, but not really actually. We went to 8881 restaurant at loyang. Their food used to be good, not till they changed their chef and their boss. Now their service sucks too. Can u imagine. We waited for 1 hour for our food to be served. How horrible. So we stoned an hour of our lives away. Coulda done something more productive. And the food was expensive! I think everything in Singapore has inflated in price. Nobody anticipates July '07.

Monday (18 June '07)

3 outings squeezed in one day. ONE DAY.

Morning:

4V outing at sentosa. Zoe, Cadence, Michelle, Tricia, Mary Anne, Gabriel, Shawb, Benny and I turned up. A disappointing outing with so few people. Lols. Cheryl came late and Bao Chuan couldnt come cause she was grounded. So there was the few of us, nothing to do at sentosa. Except zoe, cadence, mary anne and I swam a bit. The rest didn't want to get wet. The guys were playing soccer. Then Mary Anne suggested we go watch movie at vivo city. But I couldn't. Had to leave early. Cheryl came and cadence left. So the number of people remained the same.

Went for lunch at kopitiam. Inflated prices again! But so long as it filled my tummy I didnt really mind though. Thought we could at least chit-chat a bit at the place, but it seemed like there wasn't any common topic among the girls and the guys. We're not that close afterall, I guess. =X Ah. And so they went to watch Fantastic Four while Benny kepy calling me not to pang seh them! haha. I couldn't. Promises are meant to be made, then realised. =D

Afternoon:

Mini OG27 outing.

TCC at raffles place. YC thought I didn't know the way there. But I always knew I had a fairly good sense of direction. Haha. Reached there at around 3 when they met at 1 or so. Yu Chuan organised this thing. Was meant to celebrate his birthday but I forgot his to bring his present!Have to bring it next time then. No choice. Initially I thought it was only gonna be Ryanna, Mandy, YC and I. But royston and bennedic were there too. Didn't know how to react in the most appropriate way 'cause it was my first time meeting benedic and I always felt awkward when being around with yc's friends. We're not close to them anyway. Had a cheesecake which we all shared. (I hope to get the pics uploaded here somehow) The cheesecake there is really nice! Highly recommended by me! Hah.

They all brought something to study and revise and me, empty0-handed. YC lent me his notes to study, but it just doesnt seem the same as mj's. Mj's notes are more comprehensive and easily understood. That's one thing I like about their notes.

Anyway, straight to the point, we discussed about Jing Nan's sending off at the airport. It's gonna be so emotional! I'll miss her as a very good friend of mine. Someone I didn't know, nor did I ever contemplate to being good friends with. But we did. Haha. Hope to continue writing so long as the friendship stands =D and yea. Mandy was telling me about making cards and notes for her. Let's see what we can do about it though. =D

Evening/ Night:

207 Outing

Seeing that time was running out, I left TCC at around 6. Made it to simpang within minutes. Reached tanah merah at around 6.30 and walked to the street soccer court. Reached at 7. By then the sky was getting darker every second, and it was hard to see the ball in the weak light intensity. But we had fun.

First match was a thriller. We trailed behind by a single silly goal that we never should have conceded. Then Sze Jun struck with 2 nicely-capped goals. The second from the tightest of angles which he slotted the ball in. 2-1 the game ended.

Next up, against a very physical side who used all means to ensure victory. Push, nudge, elbow, slidding tackles all over the court. IT WAS SCARY YES IT WAS. Everyone in the team were unhappy with the way the opponent reacted to our dominance. We did dominate, actually, put were out-muscled to their inferior physique. I was even elbowed in the face. Eugene grew impatient, and the team subsequently gave up on the game. We had to rush for the bbq anyway.

Just a match to remember. I thought I did quite well as a centre back. =D

BBQ at rachels' house. I didn't cook actually, it was much up to clarice, si yi and yong jie. si yi should have went to enjoy herself with the others. But she didn't. So nice of her! Ha. Everyone did take their turn to cook, but I didn't. Guess that was why I didn't get much to eat either. I was left starving even after the fire was ceased.

Had a game of mahjong which I just stood around to watch. Actually what's the fascination over mahjong about? A hobby to pass time with? haha. Actually it's a very intelligent game, but it can be very time-consuming actually. Play cards? Out for me. I was too bored. Swim? I couldn't, having been pulled into the water at sentosa, my extra set of clothes were all drenched. I didn't have any spare. So all I did was to gaze at the stairs at the playground. What a night. Twinkling stars and the feeling was.. so soothing, so peaceful, so serene, so graceful.

Yong Jie, Sze Jun and Jian Yao had a small little chat. I think Jian Yao over-reacted a bit. But it was a nice conversation we had. I think he just needed to chill down though.

After the whole thing ended, Rachel sent us off near simpang. Really nice of her and a great host to have! =D eugene actually thought he was headed to the correct direction and joined jian yao and I at the bus stop with the bus headed to Tanah Merah MRT. Minutes later Eugene had a change of heart and decided to join the rest in the opposite direction. So it was just.. Jian Yao and I. YEA. So what? We had a non-chalant conversation with an array of topics to talk about. Actually I think he and I share quite a lot of similarities! It's nice to always find a friend who shares similar personalities as yourself.

EMO!

2 people talked to me that day. Both emo-ing when they should feel happy. I shan't leak, but to you two, things arent as bad as they seem. Go for it. Somethings don't happen by themselves. You gotta make it happen. So work towards it yea!

An unforgettable Monday. One that'll I'll probably never have. Busy, yet so many things to ponder over. I like this feeling.

Tuesday (19 June '07)

端午節. Chinese's traditional event of the year. And cultural too. I came across a few tv shows discussing about the history behind it, and finally got an overview of the whole story. China does have a history, no doubt. And till today we're still celebrating. For years and centuries.

Went Grandma's house in the morning. Couldn't really be bothered to be involved in the various conversations going on at he dining table. With them around, it's always about academics. Why be so bird-brain. It really doesn't mean, nor does it represent anything. Life isn't just about studies, as 婷婷姐姐talked about. Not like you needed a cert to breathe =D

2nd Aunt fetched us back home. and after that I just fm-ed all the way till at night, when my dad actually asked me out to watch movie with him?! Belated father's day it seems, but it's still better than nothing. Ocean 13 is indeed a nice show with thrilling and tricky scenes. The characters in the show are too brave, confident and smart. Someone any girl would fall for. Lol. But it was a nice movie and I wouln't mind watching it all over again. I'd rather view back the previous shows of ocean. They should be as nice, or even nicer than ocean 13. I simply like these kinda plots and stories. Hope to read or watch such stories next time.

Anyway, time is ticking away and it's only a matter of days before the exams start.. I'd better start studying just in case.

存在！

《存在》

強辯樂團

我會存在這個空間

是我知道你下一秒會出現

穿梭在人群之間

你的身影永遠忽隱又忽現

是不是我無力去挽回

是不是你忘了我的美

是不是我存在你覺得可憐

到不到底問題沒有解決

到不到底希望不在身邊

到不到底我存在是錯是對

存在你的世界

是否需要另一種語言

我永遠不懂你的想法

你所需要的那種心願

是不是你

是不是你

到不到底到不到底

是错是对...?

Shrek 3

Went to watch Shrek 3 today. Hazel organized the whole thing. Actually it kinda shocked me 'cause she mentioned so many names but, as it turned out, only the 6 of us went. Seng Yang, Mark, Hazel, Shirley, Abigail and I. Wanted to ask Zhen Ying, but apparently Hazel didn't ask. So forgetful of ya! And so, that is so much that has remained from the PAE class.

First off, to watch movie. And I was the latest. Oops. Eh I didn't know ok. Didn't know I'd oversleep. Supposed to meet at 2.45 and watch the 3.10 show. In the end I reached at 3.10 =X But yea, we still managed to get the 3.10 tickets which we still managed to watch from the beginning of the show.

The show was nice, with several comical parts and sometimes lame too. Many of which were anti-climax. That's what makes it nice isn't it. The plot wasn't exactly sensible, but all in all a great family show, contrary to what samuel tang said about all the shrek series. Haha. Maybe he's too mature for such shows.

After the show we went to eat at nydc. So expensive! Fancy the 6 of us sharing 3 personal pan pizzas. Craze? Maybe bah. $10 was all that I had left and I spent it all on.. PIZZAS!? I cannot be crazier than that though. Ha.

6 of us at NYDC. Watch Abigail's hand.

Following that, we were a lil more budget. Went HMV. View the latest hits, cds, albums. Shrek 3's soundtracks are nice too I'd say. Listened to the whole CD there. Ha. Then we watched Spiderman 2 which was being displayed there. Spent a reasonable amount of time there I think.

Walk walk for a while along orchard road. Sat down, chit chatted and attempted to rap 中國話. My braces is clearly in my way when I rap! Nvm la. Next week when go kbox can try again. In the meantime I'll try to memorize the lyrics.

Great to see y'all again. Let's hope we get more people to go for the outing next time. Thanks for organizing the outing though hazel!
Lookin' forward to the next time we see each other.

And you'll never walk alone.

《離開地球表面》!

五月天演唱會！

超難得的機會！多虧我表哥拿得到票，而且又是我們全家剛好，還包括我哥女友。（謝謝Ah Hong!) 原本還有多一張能邀Cheryl一起來看，因爲聼她說一直都很期待這場演唱會，特地留下一張票給她。但是打給她，又一直不接，結果就把票讓給Dao Zhe。雖然好像沒什麽聽説他是五月天的迷，但難得有機會能跟朋友一起見個面，我還是想算了吧，把票讓給他朋友好了.

演唱會8點開始，就好歹Cheryl在6.30終于回電。但已經太遲了；票已經讓給Dao Zhe了！可笑的是，她就一直盧我，叫我想辦法讓她去看。我就一直試説服我哥，但真得讓他很難做人。票都已經説好給別人了，那可以說要回就要回勒？君子一言，肆馬難追！真的是有夠令人不知所措。

最後，票始終沒取回，但我們卻想到一個很妙的辦法哦！哎呀還不是我的頭腦靈活，靈機一動，怎麽可能有辦法入場勒？還不謝謝我！哈哈！

一入場，看，哇靠！座位都滿滿的，雖然沒到爆滿的程度，但又就夠啦！人太多又會被擠得像沙丁魚，哪會過癮？

演唱會一開始，就先撥已先準備錄好的一支錄影片，内容其實我不太了解，因爲一直都在跟Cheryl聊天，根本就沒再專心欣賞。但後來他們五人上臺開始表演時，全場歡呼，氣氛馬上開始HIGH了起來！=D

五月天就這樣連續表演15，16首歌，完完全全沒休息到。

（但阿信一直忘詞，嗯奇怪，他怎麽沒唱‘忘詞’呢？）

到了半場休息時，他們才終于和粉絲聊起來，其中瑪莎第一句：'竟然在新加坡，那就用新加坡方式和大家說晚上好：“Good nai eberybodeee, two-nai berii spesho!”'

嗯嗯果然有新加坡人的口腔！

後來冠佑說了些感性的話，但阿信卻打消這氣氛:

冠佑：‘新加坡總是給我留下一個美好的影響。每次來到新加坡，就會想起新加坡的..’

阿信：‘海南雞飯..’

輪到阿信時，他卻沒說什麽，簡單的一句：

‘今晚讓我們踩破地盤，離開地球表面，離自己跟近！’

那句開始，相信沒有一個人不HIGH。全場轟轟烈烈的，真的很棒，很棒。

不想敍述的太多，只能說，這5個人的團體，是我從小時候就很崇拜的樂團，直到現在也依然不變。《為愛而生》這張專輯真的很讚，喜歡聼的人請秀出你的支持，買他們的專輯。我小時的偶像團體，你們的團結心真的令我很佩服，令我很羡慕，有時很嫉妒。

無論怎樣，五月天在我生命中改變了我對一些事情的看法。然而，我總覺得自己離那遙遠的天邊越來越遠，好像總是被地球的地吸引力困擾，幾年了，我還是原地踏步。這是我又翻一翻我以前的專機來聼。《我》就形容我現在的心情。或許吧。

不過現在的我還是照樣在一旁默默的支持你們，默默地向你們看起...

穿越空間，離開地球表面。

今晚，你們做到了。

團結的力量，真的無法測量。

Finally! (1 June)

Finally. It was the day everyone was waiting for. After a long Long LOng LONg LONG term, and hell it was a tiring one, everyone finally can take a good rest. And we could celebrate ryanna's birthday! Yet, it wasn't to be the happiest. Jing Nan will be leaving for good, soon. But nice pen pal to have. She even gave us the kangaroo that I asked for! Haha. (but no crocs)


Ok, let me recall everything in sequence...

Morning:

We were supposed to meet at 10.30 at orchard, in the end everyone was late, and we met up at 11.10! Nvm about wasting the singing time though, 'cause the early bird package is from 11 to 2. Though we extended the time to 3. Had a great time! Woot. Except that today was rather cold. Er. Like. I don't know. Mandy and Jing Nan didn't sing! At least Ji Soo, who usually doesn't go for KTV sessions, sang the songs that she could sing! Haha. Ah. And the song 'Oh Mandy' was quite unexpected. Didn't know such a song existed! Hah.

The girls. Jing Nan looked lethargic though.

YC back at his best, and most enthusiastic.

Just some random picture that only ryanna noticed..

.. But not this time!

Buddies!

OMG! Ji Soo acting cute =D

CHEESE!

The final piece of jigsaw

Then the giving out of presents for ryanna's birthday. Quite unformal actually. No cakes, no birthday songs, just giving out the presents. What kind of organizer is the organizer anyway! Hah. I had previously asked Mandy what to get for Ryanna. She said 'anything will do', so I went to find anything, which I couldn't, so instead I got whatever. Hah. Imagined if i had only given her that. But nah. I gave her dolphins! My favourite creatures! They're friendly right!

Afternoon:

So, it was kbox till 3, and kumar and pat came to join us for lunch. We had lunch at some Japanese underground restaurant. The food did look tempting, so was the price! 0.o Sorry guys, I didn't eat not to remind y'all to pay up, but I really didn't want to spend so much =S Anyways after that Ryanna and Mandy went to Vivo City to get some things, which kept all of us in suspense. Hmmm..

But after that kumar suggested we go play pool. Actually I had no complaints, but he kept reminding us to just play if not waste money. I can understand, but it's just a game right. Why be so serious. Lols.

Thumbs Up!

Jing Nan and Pat and their distorted faces =D

Smiley Photo!

After pool we went to take neoprints! Quite random. But those pictures were nice! Plus Ji Soo is like super pro at it. She knows how to decorate and personalize everything! So cool lor! Jing Nan, please remember to scan and print out the pictures for us! I want a copy of it too! =D

Ha. Yep. That was about it. Everyone went home after that. Ryanna, Mandy, Yu Chuan and I went to have dinner. Pat came to join us later cause she was waiting for her dad to fetch her.

But all in all, it was a nice outing and it was great to see everyone again! Let's hope we'll have more of such outings next time, although Jing Nan won't be with us again =X Anyways, all the best to you jing nan, and to Ryanna, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hope you enjoyed yourself. Really. =D

Let It Be..

Let It Be

-The Beatles-

When I find myself in times of trouble

Mother Mary comes to me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

And in my hour of darkness

She is standing right in front of me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people

Living in the world agree

There will be an answer, let it be

For though they may be parted

There is still a chance that they will see

There will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be

Yeah there will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it beLet it be, let it be

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Ah let it be, yeah let it be

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the night is cloudy

There is still a light that shines on me

Shine on until tomorrow, let it be

I wake up to the sound of music,

Mother Mary comes to me

Speaking words of wisdom, let it be

Yeah let it be, let it be

Let it be, yeah let it be

Oh there will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Let it be, yeah let it be

Oh there will be an answer, let it be

Let it be, let it be

Ah let it be, yeah let it be

Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

It's quite repetitive, but I think it's still quite nice.

Thanks!

It's gonna be Liverpool VS. AC Milan soon. In 30 mins' time. I just cant wait! I'M SUPER EXCITED ABT THIS MATCH. Gonna blog before I prepare for the BIG GAME. Gonna wake everyone up and mass send the score to everyone else later. haha!

Anyways guys thanks for always visiting my blog while I'm busy. I'm not trying to be sarcastic here but I mean it. For you who's reading my blog now, thanks for visiting. I really appreciate it a lot =D Like it kinda serves as a reminder for me to not forget my friends. I feel so glad!

Thanks a lot guys!

And just before the match starts,

let's raise our voices to sing the famous song among all pool fans:

[YOU'LL NEVER WALK ALONE]

When you walk through a storm

hold your head up high

And don't be afraid of the dark.

At the end of a storm is a golden sky

And the sweet silver song of a lark.

Walk on through the wind,

Walk on through the rain,

Tho' your dreams be tossed and blown.

Walk on, walk on with hope in your heart

And you'll never walk alone,

You'll never, ever walk alone.

I'm so looking forward to things!

Tears in Heaven

This was just the song I'm looking for. Went to the sajc's guitar concert on Saturday. Oh my god. That piece was simply lovely. And the singer, michael i think, made the song even better. So touching! There. I think yewf and jia ming cant agree more. Maybe I should ask zhe hui for the score sheets. Hmm.

TEARS IN HEAVEN

(Eric Clapton and Will Jennings)

[Rush Soundtrack]

Would you know my name

If I saw you in heaven?

Would it be the same

If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong

And carry on,

'Cause I know I don't belong

Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand

If I saw you in heaven?

Would you help me stand

If I saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way

Through night and day,

'Cause I know I just can't stay

Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,

Time can bend your knees.

Time can break your heart,

Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,

There's peace I'm sure,

And I know there'll be no more

Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name

If I saw you in heaven?

Would it be the same

If I saw you in heaven?

I must be strong

And carry on,

'Cause I know I don't belong

Here in heaven.

Arco Iris

Actually didn't want to go play soccer with them. Felt like I was there only to make up the numbers. But I went anyway, wanting to just play soccer. Then I went there, played around 3 games, which we were eliminated so fast, and that's it. What a waste of my MRT fare. And not like I wanted to play so dearly. If only kw they all were playing on saturday I wouldnt, and need'nt, shouldn't and couldn't have come for this. Total waste of my morning. I'll rather be at home talking to szejun about random stuff. We were talking about fm and songs online. Woah. I thought that was more productive then going out with them. Seriously. But then sze jun had to go play bball with his friends too. Kinda envious of him that he's got such a bunch of close friends who do the same things with him.



Anyways, after that I took bus 12 specially to go Central to borrow magazines for my mum. Wanted to call a friend whom I havent really talked to for sometime. 2 weeks I guess. Quite a special friend. I hope we get to go out together sometime. But you're forever busy. Just hoping that you'll take care.



Then I was listening to my MP3 while I was walking home. Havent been listening to my once favourite songs. Then came across 'Not Going Back' - by Nas. Just gives me the feeling again. I don't know. It just. Somehow amplifies what I'm feeling now. Maybe somewhere out there someone feels the same as I do. Perhaps.



When I reached home, the first thing I did was to check out people's blogs. Been sometime since I did that. Jingnan, Yuchuan, mandy's blog especially. Discussed about the outing we're gonna have. But somehow the more I think of it, I'm not too sure somehow. I want to make it special, especially for jingnan. She's leaving soon! But I'm not too sure how. And also cheryl's blog. Ha! Finally back from hiatus! Gratz! =D



Anyways I'm hoping that time would fly slower. So I'll have more all the things I wanna do. It's just sickening sometimes. But as I was talking to hazel, people gotta look forward. For everything that happened, forget it. It's just how some things go. If you lose it, buy a new one. Sometimes you find yourself being so idiotic trying to find something that's been picked up by another person eh.

As the evening approached, I was still staring at the ceiling, waiting for time to pass. Then ah! It's 5, had to meet yewf soon. We're going to watch sajc's guitar concert. An event I've always been looking forward to. I met a very nice and friendly senior, we may not be close at all, but I'll always remember you, as much as I remember ms lam. like everytime i step back into the compound i'll rmbr the two of u. Nice people, and people I really enjoy talking to. And I do believe we'll keep in touch. So much so I feel the sincerity. That place has really impacted me a lot. Even though I may not belong there anymore, a part of me will always be there. Once A Saint, Always A Saint!

Back to the concert. It was really nice and enjoyable. Darren's piece of the 'Tsubasa' will never be forgotten. That was the REAL highlight of the concert. Not the rock band. And for you whom I'll never know your name is, I just wanna comment that you have a sweet smile. Unforgettable night. Simply touching. Simply. The sound of music. =D

Arco Iris. It was a much better concert than TJ's. Seriously. Maybe I'm biased. But I think I missed out a lot. For not being there with the team. Looking at darren and zhe hui, and even the president wilson, I just feel. Some thing very special about them. The Saint spirit? Ha.
Arco Iris.
The most memorable concert I've ever attended.

Outing!

This post is entirely for O.G. 27. Totally, wholely, completely. =D

Ok now, as jing nan suggested, let's have another outing before she leaves. it's gonna be some kind of farewell-cum-reunion outing. So let's make it a very fun-filled, comprehesive and complete one for her =D

• Date:

1 June (Tentative), Friday

• Time:

Afternoon - Night (It's the holidays, come on!)

• Venue:

City Hall? Orchard? (Kbox/ PartyWorld) + (Cineleisure?)

• Main Objective:

- celebrate Ryanna's birthday

- farewell for jingnan =(

- reunion for everyone!

- HAVE FUN!

So please remember to prepare your birthday & farewell presents, guys! =D

• People To Invite:

Yu Chuan, Mandy, Ryanna, Wai Sum, Jing Nan, Wan Ting, Ji Soo, Ka Ling, Rui Zhe, Patricia and myself of course.

Did I miss out on anyone?

• Activities (Suggested):

- KTV (a MUST!)

- Dinner (a MUST!)

- Movie? (Optional, 'cause some people don't want to sing, I think)

For any other activities that you all wanna suggest just tag at the tagboard! Thanks =D

P.S. Jing Nan can you please decide on a date which you're free? PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE MAKE YOURSELF FREE =D

Shiver.

It just. feels so cold. Sunday hasn't been pleasant, and I'm still waiting for this month to be over.

Suddenly came across a very old album in my cupboard. 陶哲's 《太平盛世》
Actually I didn't take notice of any of the songs. I actually forgot about the songs in the album. Honest. Then came across a very, not-so-nice, but memorable song. Nope. I'm not gonna post another lyric this time. That's for me to remember in my head. I think I'll never forget it. It may not be nice, but the lyric just swirls in my mind. Yu Chuan, I still agree 陶哲 is a great composer. I've never doubted him. You must be proud to be a david tao fan!
Anyways I'm gonna print this out and try to learn it. Perhaps for friday's audition? Who knows. It's still much up to eugene though. The group depends very much on him.

Been rusty. Trying to keep pennin'.

I know I haven't been keepin' in touch with people as well. Neglectin' sometimes.

Shirley, Hazel, Li Yun: busy huh? I want to watch the reaping! if not, spiderman? potc? hah. and i want my revenge, hazel. shirley, thx for the msg. A good friend of mine gave me that before he left. i'll save it to show how much that msg means to me =) ly: take care. and dun worry i'll rmbr to pay you back ur money. =D

Mdm Lam: u're probably nv gonna read this. But I'll remind myself to go visit you sometimes.

Patricia: Outing this tuesday? Maybe. I've asked jing nan and yu chuan already. hope u're coping better now?

Jing Nan: Hurry let's have another outing before u leave! oh man. Why do so many ppl have to leave?

Yu Chuan: KTV in June. If u ever read this line, REPLY. haha! and tell me who's the HOT GIRL huh? Haha. None in mj! i'm SO deprived. LOL.

Mabel, Meryl and Jonathan: we're supposed to go play pool and watch movie together. But everyone's busy I know. Maybe during the holidays, but y'all wld be having practicals too. All the best yea. keep workin' hard till o's are over. i know jonathan wants to go sa for the sake of.. GIRLS! haha! anyway, work hard for it!

Jun Wei: Complicated case. Better make yourself free this week! Last week to collect results!

Kuan: ok. i'll go learn the chants and songs when i'm free. that'll depend when it is. =/

- Dominic: command and conquer 3 is OUT! rmbr we were sayin' abt linking play? dun forget!
- Aidan: bday comin. but somethings are beyond my reach. I can't say for sure, but things are different now.
- Jasper: i just met aaron recently. Then we happened to be talking about you. whatever, it's a long time, rip yea.
- Mrs Tay: same to you. Some things can never be forgetten. And one of them had to come from you. I'll never forget that.

The Blind: you may never see the end of the tunnel, but it's there. Believe. And feel it. You're so courageous to have walken so far, walk on.
姨姨: 看好那兩個小瓜喲！還有那兩個老的!辛苦啦!
濃：希望樂團會很成功！好懷念過去！下次回去大哥又沒辦法回去.
葉婦夫：我還是很羡慕你們，那麽恩愛！哈哈！
婷姐：結婚沒辦法回去，很可惜..可是又不能‘浪費’。希望你會了解我的明白！


For those who i've left out, there's no reason why you should be mentioned. what's to be remembered, I'll never need to jot them down. my cousin once said 男人是用心溝通的. And till now i still believe in that.

或許我們大家都很渺小...

天又在下雨了..
It's cold.
真的.

I.R.Regular

Rainy morning. Couldnt leave the house till the rain stopped. In the end was late to meet up with yx at tamp. But everyone was late anyways. Except Kai Wu. We played Nintendo Wii for a while. Boxing and Tennis! Hah. It's not realistic at all. The games. Like no matter how many times u punch, it's never accurate. But I still won kai wu anyway. And yx, kw were playing with their ninten-dog. er.

This time, Chang Song joined us for the first time since a long time.
Those who went: kw, yx, kai wu, yong zhi, louis, chang song, jon gan and I. Total 8 ppl. Still missing out on Thien Soon and Zhi Hao. Hong Shan, as usual, was late. Might as well not include him in the 'one of the ppl'.

Made a lot of mistakes from my own play. Couldn't kick the ball hard. All my passes were weak, and often intercepted. Disappointed actually with how things went. But after the 2nd match and a 'lecture', felt I played much better. Ran a lot more and sweated profusely. That's gonna shed me off a few calories in preparation for the upcoming NAPFA.

Things to note:
Passing, ball control, placement and reading of game. Practically, everything.

Must improve next time.

The game ended at around 1+. Then we headed off to the coffeeshop nearby for lunch. After that almost everyone left. Except hongshan, yx and I. Went kw's house slacked for a while. Loads of liverpool song-singing time and W/E. It's just part and parcel of our every saturday I guess. If not for the piano lesson which I used to have on Saturdays. SONGS I HAVE LEARNT TODAY:
- We Won It Five Times
- Du The Dudek
- Ring of Fire (actually heard of it the last time, but didn't really bother to learn)
- Steven Gerrard song (You're Just Too Good To Be True)
- Fields of Anfield
- Luis Garcia song
- McDonald's RAP (MUST D/L)

However, sometimes I do feel left out by some of the things they watch during their free time, which I rarely I ever have now that I'm in jc. I can't get to watch the variety shows they're watching. And I have absolutely no idea what they're talking about. Maybe one day I should get to the bottom of this.

Left for mei xue aunt's bbq afterwards. Actually this bbq was for Jennifer's Birthday, but also partially, because she's returning to taiwan soon. real soon. Perhaps this is one of the last times we're gonna have this kinda gathering anymore. I like her cooking. Urging my mum to learn a few from her before she leaves. Or she could compile her own recipe. Hah!

Jennifer is nice. I find her very sociable and intelligent actually. Only 10, but she likes to talk to talk and involve others in activities. Like pouring water at me for no reason. Maybe that's smth to rmbr when she returns to S'pore next time. But one thing I noted: she could chat with their caucasian neighbours for quite some time before she joined in her gang to play the games. It's amazing how a 10 year old could do that. I would never have done that at her age.

Another thing. The 'looks-like-徐若宣' girl. Only 4. But she's very cute. Found her playing with a kitten at the bush. So decided to play with her. Relatively quiet, but she does know when to play and when to be quiet. Ok maybe she doesn't. But she makes it seem like she does. lol. what am i talking about. Sis decided to play with her as well. And when asked to take pictures with her, she would gladly do so, and even making a lot of poses! can u believe it. when i get the pictures up i'm gonna have it posted...

She's the kind of kid i like a lot. like my own cousin. It feels great to be reminded of your childhood. Sometimes. As I was talking to yewf about it. It's true. I have exact sentiments about this, but no matter what we can do nothing about it. Just look forward yea...

Back to the girl. She gave us her heart-shape balloon before we left the place. And THE BEST THING. She said 'bye' and 'goodnight' on her own without us saying. She even went up to the group of caucasian neighbours to say the same things. The caucasians were all going 'that's so sweet of you', 'how nice'. Even though you might grow up to be different. Gosh. I just want you to know what you were like when you were 4. And on this day 28 may 2007. You were really beautiful. I may not know who you are next time, but it's gonna be hard for me to forget this scene. Ever.

It's just so IRregular.

Reminder for myself:

Next week's the auditions for music extraordinaire. i wonder how i'm gonna cope with all these. plus pi final submission. eugene was reminding me. but no matter what i still hope it's gonna be fine.

Happened to be reading shirley's msg and yu chuan's blog. I think sometimes i do neglect a bit. I'm gonna make and effort to make sure I don't. That's my word.

And collection of o's cert. Don't think will be going with jw. but i can't make others wait as well. Benny, Daniel Chu, Kai Wu.

p.s. the pool kids lost 2-1 to pompey. sacrifice. for next week's clash against chelsea. worth the cause? maybe. let's see how things develop.

性格測試

挑戰型（權威自信，敢作敢為）

您經常是精力充沛、情感強烈、專橫霸道、叛逆、保護者、獨斷獨行、一不作二不休的人。您工作賣力，玩樂也賣力。您擁有一定的個人倫理，涵蓋了整合、真理和正義，透過這個個人倫理，您以正反對立的角度觀看世界。您雖然重視公平，卻不太樂意聽到其他人的觀點。

優點：

您對朋友和所愛的人會極端保護和支持，您會因為他們受到不公平對待，不夠強壯到足以為自己爭鬥的人而努力抗爭。

缺點：

不尊重他人的權利和需求，為了自己而脅迫他人。

愛情：

您深刻重視感情，但由於您獨斷獨行，而且有對控制的需要，可能會出現建立關係的困難。在親密關係中，爭吵對您來說是主要的，這是安全保持連繫的一種刺激方式。

您是能鼓舞對方，有趣的伴侶，而且會永不厭倦地保護對方，支持伴侶自我實現。「我知道她的聰明、能幹，而且我愛這樣，但是踏入這個充滿危險威脅的世界，她跟著我走是重要的，這樣我才知道她是安全的。這看起來像是控制，然而卻是對她的保護。」

安定方位：

付出型在安定的狀態下您會變得順從、願意付出、容易受人影響，讚成和自己有關的事物。

壓力方位：

思考型當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會變得沮喪、怠惰、不溝通，而且無法決定自己在思考的事情，並加以實行。

建意：

學習接受沉悶和恐懼認知並歡迎您的脆弱及無力改善自己責備他人的傾向

最渴望：

控制掌握一切，當家作主

最恐懼：

屈服於人

最難達到的美德：

純真

最難克服的執念：

縱慾

真的假的啊？！准嗎？也很難説..

不如自己去試試看！

http://www.parttimegroup.com/PartTimeLove/Assessories/NineType/_Paper1.aspx

一千個世紀後..

Mayday's best song in <為愛而生>!

介紹給未聼過五月天歌曲的朋友們！

要去找來聼聼哦！

一千個世紀

唱：阿信

詞曲：阿信

編曲：五月天

當時地球還年輕

我們誕生荒涼大海裏

演化到了寒武紀

我們長出脊椎和勇氣

某年我們開始踩出腳印

學會雙手擁抱學會愛情

長出人類的心

啊啊~

我要和你一起走過一千個世紀

每次誕生我都要與你相遇

每次輪回都為你

當時你我都野性

我們學會用火和穴居

後來帝國正崛起

我們戰亂之中更相依

某天我們突然回憶過去

我們只是兩段平凡基因

卻愛的很美麗

啊啊~

我要和你一起走過一千個世紀

下一個我也許是人或螞蟻

每次輪回都是為你

我要和你一起活過一千個世紀

每次誕生只有一個意義

就是和你在一起

直到文明有毀滅

一千個世紀后的第一天

伊甸園裏肩並肩

我們看笑看太陽也熄滅

P.S. I'm posting these song lyrics to remind myself of nice songs ok!

20th April

20th April, Friday

School was supposed to end at 12.55pm for me. But I had to make up for Physics experiment. In the end I left school at 1.30pm.

Many things in mind.
1) Rachel and the rest were hanging out at White Sands. Rachel asked the guys to go meet them there. Actually if I had nothing on I'd probably had gone there too.

2) But the guys wanted to eat in school (I've had enough of school food!) and play a little bit of soccer after that I think. But I couldn't.

3) Go out with aunt and grandparents. They finally came to Singapore. After 2 long years. The last time they came was in 2005 during Chinese New Year. And tragic struck. Since then we've always been the one going to visit them. But I prefer that kinda arrangement. There's more things to do over there. If it wasn't for the promise I made, this would have topped my priority.

4) But no I couldn't. I've already given my word. We finally get the chance to hang out a bit. And some of them even gave up the chance to go out with their classmates after sports day.

Didn't expect so many people to turn up. It was supposed to be a celebration for Hazel's Birthday on Monday! But it was still nice though. Haha.
Hazel, Shirley, Mark, Seng Yang, Sean and Shirley's friend Abigail went.
Li Yun didn't turn up 'cause of her Speech Day. And partially 'coz I had to leave school late.
But I hope we'll get another chance during the June holidays or smth.

They had Yong Tau Foo, which we agreed to have it together! Argh. Next year alright. 20 April 2008. Let's have Yong Tau Foo together. I've never tried Yong Tau Foo at Plaza Sing, but since Hazel says it's nice I shall try it some day.

We sat down and chatted a bit before I suggested going to catch a movie. THE REAPING. I wanted to watch that a long time ago. Heard it's quite nice. But new movies like POTC and spider man are comin' out! and I've already promised to watch TMNT with jun wei and sam tang. There's simply too many things to do now, plus balancing all the workload. Some ppl say it's coz it's MJ, but perhaps, a little stress for 2 years' nothing compared to the result at the end of 2 years. Let's just see how. Haha.

But the girls didn't want to watch. And the guys were going to play pool at 5. So we could only walk and talk. Strictly speaking, it was a non-productive friday afternoon spent at plaza sing, but personally I like hanging out with a group of friends and just catchin' up a bit.

The guys left shortly after. So I was left alone. With the three of them. Oh! hazel would say it's an honour. I guess so. Haha. Like everyone says, SA girls are nice. Haha! They are la. And I've got the job of a mei-po. Eugene's the man. You gotta thank me if it works out. Haha.

Sat down in front of a mirror self-admiring themselves. Teaching abigail to learn to be 自戀！omg. She's already very quiet, that's making her feel embarrassed? Perhaps. Haha. Girls nowadays, including my sister, are so.. typically self-lovable.

I was hungry and wanted to grab something to eat. At Mac. There they taught me how to eat fries the weird way - dippin' them into mcflurry. It's nth new, but i've never tried it before. And it had to be my first time! It's nice though, but make that the last time. hah!

Suddenly I thought of Gab working in Plaza Sing. Poly's starting (for TP), but i was just wondering if he was still working there. So went to check out his shop. Disappointed he wasn't there, but now that the gang is so segregated 'coz of the many things that happened, maybe it's just pointless to look back on the things that I once thought was my everything.

...

Hope was just..

Blind faith.

...

Till the time struck 7, I was exhausted, after going to watch syf on thursday.

...

SYF:

MJ got a gold! again. And eugene was nice enough to thank me, although I really didn't do much. Saw Zhe Hui and the rest of the SA Guitar Club members. Down and disappointed with the silver they attained. I knew they expected more. If only I had stayed. Things would have turned out different about how I feel about things. But now I can't un-do things, that's it. Loads of people have convinced me about my decision, whether right or wrong, but like what he said, experience.. is what you go out there and get. When he comes out from the army for a break, I'll rmbr to tell him about the results. For once, I've let his words be a major factor in my life.

...

So after browsing thru some books, right after 7pm, we departed our own ways. And guess what! I met Rui Zhe at Dhoby Ghaut MRT! I called Jing Nan immediately! Everything after that was like. chill. Fate? Destiny? Made you not meet him there. Whatever, it's a case of I Don't Know. Just see what happens 'aight.

*I know this post's in a mess. Like how I'm feeling now. In a mess.

But all in all, thanks to all who has made my life so different.

And speaking of which, MJ's guitar concert is comin' soon. Hope I get a chance to perform. And I'll be very much looking forward to seeing Ms Lam at the concert.

While this weekend has been fruitful to me, I can't express my feelings out for someone who used to impact my life so much. Even now, when I look at your state, it serves as a reminder that nothing can be taken for granted. Tragic struck on that day, and I saw her tears trickle down her cheek.. Motherly love? I'll never forget that fateful day in CGH. I can't even pick myself up to say thanks to you, even as you're sitting here right next to me.

real.

Another song that I came across on FM 88.3 in the car just as I went to fetch my grandparents from the airport.

愛你不是兩三天

唱:梁靜茹

詞:潘协庆/葛大為

曲:潘協慶

退給你的信只留下最後一封
淡淡筆跡你熟悉的溫柔
請別介意我會將信紙好好手著
當我需要你關懷的時候
走過夏日街頭還是想牽你的手
好像聽到一句溫暖的問候
雖然我們説好了還是朋友
但爲什麽卻沒有再聯絡

愛你不是兩三天
每天卻像想你很多遍
還不習慣孤獨街道
擁擠人潮沒你擁抱

愛你不是兩三天
一眨眼心就能沉澱
你是否想念我喔
還是像我只和寂寞做朋友

擔心你沒有好好的過
又怕你已經忘記了我
剛剛分手像告別很久
還想為你做些什麽

...

我後來才發現..

愛你不是兩三天..

是一天.

...

開個玩笑啦..!

The other day Pat was asking me what 'black humour' was. Just reminded me of this song. So I decided to go online to search for it..

歌名: 黑色幽默
主唱:周杰倫
詞曲:周杰倫
編曲:Baby

難過 是因為悶了很久
是因為想了太多
是心理起了作用

你說 苦笑常常陪著你
在一起有點勉強
該不該現在休了我

不想太多
我想一定是我聽錯弄錯搞錯
拜託 我想是你的腦袋有問題

隨便說說
其實我早己經猜透看透不想多說
只是我怕眼淚撐不住

不懂 你的黑色幽默
想通 卻又再考倒我
說散 你想很久了吧？
我不想拆穿你

當作 是你開的玩笑
想通 卻又再考倒我
說散 你想很久了吧？
敗給你的黑色幽默

我的認真敗給黑色幽默

Keep goin'

He's out.

But he did try. Feelin' sorry for ya, but it's great for you to have the experience.. Instead of being just another audience in the crowd. That's how I felt. Like you had the courage to go up there and perform. So there's nothing to be ashamed of. Although you said you felt like you didn't give your best, we're all proud of ya. We supported you all the way from the first round to the last, because we believed in you! Keep your head up and keep workin' hard! No one can taste success forever, failure is bitter but that's what makes us strive to scale to greater heights!
Remember, whatever you do, we'll be behind ya! And Yu Chuan, [You'll Never Walk Alone]. RMBR! =D

And for those who failed in love, haha! Come on! When you finally realise, you realise everything comes down to.. nothing. There's nothing worth remembering. For those who let you down, for those who cheated on you, for those who made you feel bad, reflect, and think about the situation. You can never be right, but neither can that person be. Analyse. That person could be the reason everything fell apart and shatter to pieces. That's to you, Jing Nan!

'She'll just lose interest for no reason'. I'll remember those words someone said to me.

O btw,
SA's Guitar Ensemble Concert:
19th May 2007
7 p.m.
SAJC Cultural Centre

I'll be going!

Another one.

Couldn't sleep.. In the end I decided to go cage early. For once. I reached there at 8.50 when we were supposed to meet at 9. But nobody turned up on time, 'as usual', said kw. Maybe it's perhaps i'm one of the culprits too. but i was early this time! haha. then strolled to the hawker centre to have breakfast before yx turned up as well. In the end i was late even later than thien soon. anyways we went off to play soccer as soon as hong shan reached kw's house.

Today's soccer was much better. I played much better than the previous few weeks. Although i didn't get onto the score sheet, I felt much fresher and more energetic. Got more of the ball, and ran more. Something I'm quite happy about actually. But thein soon had to spoil everything for the team -.- kept giving the ball away. was quite pissed, but heck it. Seems like everytime we play soccer, it's only yx, kw, louis and I playing properly. Something commendable though. Hong Shan improved a lot! But maybe it's coz of the huge space we gave him.

Played against a group of outsiders and they were very physical. Can't take it. Our team finished them off within 2 minutes on our first attempt but after that we faded. Tryin' to figure out why. Nvm. With every match we shall improve.

Played 'tiang' with thien soon! and HOW CAN I LOSE TO HIM. Had to treat him half a cup of bubble tea as promised. Miracle man.

After sitting down around for a while at the coffee shop, had to dash straight to tampines for piano lesson. This time she was late. But she made it up though. Learnt quite a lot. Just hopin' to get more out of this course in a short period of time. Wanted to eat sushi with my mum and brother but couldn't. Had previously agreed to go meet up with hannah and zhi wei for movie! Sunshine. Quite a nice sci-fi show. But kinda exaggerating, with some realistic parts like the quarrel/ debate over pushing the blame. Reminiscent eh? Driven to desperation, the chinese guy killed himself to take responsibility for his mistake. Sabotage by the No. 1 leader. Insane. Just when they almost did it he gave it all away.

But in the end the sun shone brighter. Much much much brighter. Everything comes to an end one day, we may delay it, but what's the point? For the next generation? Someone's gonna do the dirty job... But for who? Humanity's sake? It just doesnt make sense. Still, it was quite a nice show all in all. The non-typical sci-fi show.

Had dinner with the both of them after the show, caught up on a lot of things. And guess what. How did the news ever get to zhi wei? Zhi wei told me somethings that he overheard from this guy working at plaza sing. Ok. Pleasant. Great. I didn't say a thing and things get on and on and on. Assume? Nah. It's just a case of betrayal. How am i feelin'? Haha. Just forget it. Never expected that but after what yewf had said to me, everything's possible. Now I see the true colour in ya.

Was there for about 1 to 2 hours till hannah had to rush off back home as she was forced to. We split up after that. I had to go find a friend as well to write on something. It was a great evening well spent, and I'd hope to keep in contact with ya guys alright. Esp zhi wei, when the going gets tough, the tough gets going! A great thing you still can remain so happy and cheerful!

Another one that comes in, another one that gets out.

[Imagine That]

]John Lennon[

Imagine there's no heaven,

it's easy if you try,

no hell below us,

above us only sky.

Imagine all the people,

living for today yu-huh.

Imagine there's no countries,

it isn't hard to do,

nothing to kill or die for,

and no religion too.

Imagine all the people,

living life in peace yu-huh.

You may say I'm a dreamer

but I'm not the only one

I hope some day you'll join us,

and the world will live as one.

Imagine no possesions,

I wonder if you can,

no need for greed or hunger,

a brotherhood of man.

Imagine all the people,

sharing all the world yu-huh.

You may say I'm a dreamer

but I'm not the only one

I hope some day you'll join us,

and the world will be as one.

Dear mama.

Sounds familiar?

你比從前快樂

在FM88.3 聽見這首很耳熟的歌..

瞬間讓我回憶..

FM88.3真得很耐聼哦！

不斷的播很多好聽的歌曲..

憲哥的歌..

<-你比從前快樂->

走在熙來攘往的街頭

你不再牽著我的手

小心翼翼的將你的小指勾

淚也小心翼翼的流

有些事情你在瞞著我

你終于還是開了口

淡淡一句還是朋友

撕裂的心也如刀割

知道分手后你不難過,你比從前快樂

那祝福的話叫我如何能夠說得出口

過往的快樂是否褪色,想問你怎麽捨得

不要在耳邊再說你會想我... ...

那就算了吧.

Forgotten.

Happened to be browsing thru cindy's profile.. Had this song on her webpage. Reminds me of my brother's favourite song. Last time. Then he just happened to be singing this song when he came back that day. What a coincidence. A catchy tune, I think anyone in love would love this song. You get what I mean yea.

<-KISS ME->

>-Sixpence None The Richer-<

Kiss me out of the bearded barley

Nightly, beside the green, green grass

Swing, swing, (swing, swing) swing the spinning step

You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift up your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon's sparkling

So kiss me

Kiss me (kiss me) down by the broken tree house

Swing me (swing me) upon it's hanging tire

Bring, bring, (bring, bring) bring your flowered hat

We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon's sparkling

So kiss me

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight

Lead me out on the moonlit floor

Lift your open hand

Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance

Silver moon's sparkling

So kiss me

So kiss me...(2x more)