If I even meant.

Hahahahaha...

Back when we were still young kids
You used to treat us well, yes you did
Travelling together in the coolest fashion
Your family and mine, kins with passion
Maybe I'm losing some for myself, rap and all
Those I thought were my friends in a brawl
Fuck that, the beat just changed again
Must be me rusty, slow, boring, mundane
But relax, I'm just gettin' my own life back
Before it's too late to sew up this crack
Sounds restricted with the two-by-two bars
Poor flow, with this beat that I really call slow
Shoudn't be da case, but I guess I don't blame it
The society, media, school, you name it
Straight back to the doctor, the dentist
It flips your lid when you are a kid
Like the doctor, put your hands up for the doctor
The psychopath, magic wrath, you can laugh all you want
And wake up the next day tryin' to pray but you can't chant
Then's when you realise you don't practise what you preach

So much for havin' looked up to you as a kid
Thank you so much for tellin' me how to skid
But that's really a history, I admit
Lovin' the life of hallucinatory, fanta-story, I like it
Rather than feedin' off the left-overs of you
I'd come right up to ya face and be real
Coz' that's what I feel, the anxiety and thrill
You could be fakin' it to be chill, pretendin' to be ill
But with all that shit gutted down my throat
I can't believe my ears hear you betray your oath
Your wishes for a happy family, is a never fairy
Tale, diabolical master plan deemed to fail
Everytime I reminisce about footage trails
How you started off bringing us on train rails
Gettin' us familiar with the neighbourhood I call home
So near.. yet always so far, like entry in the tomb
More like gantries from rome, forever a desire
To be part of this growing nation fire
But I guess fitting into somewhere I dunno has always been dire
Passin' off as my background, not knowin' I've been such a liar..

The person you've always looked up to gives you the go signal
To leave you dissapointed, dismal in facin' truth in denial
Peakin' through albums believin' the good guy in you..
But times have changed, I guess one world is better than two...

If you know what I mean.
Or if I even meant at all.

Another world.

Friday (30th May) Night:

Reached airport at around 4 or 5 i think.

Went Suzhou (Dad's place) :))

Waiting for my rocket to launch.

Adaption from: http://news.sg.msn.com/article.aspx?cp-documentid=1439878

How Self-Made Titans Got Their Starts

• Don't have a silver spoon? Neither did they
• How Seven Self-Made Titans Financed Their Success
• Secrets of the Self-Made Billionaires
• How to Make a Million Before You Turn 20
• Are You Born to Be a Billionaire?

By Melanie Lindner
Capital is a constraint for many would-be entrepreneurs--or is it?
Scan the Forbes list of the world's richest people and you'll come across moguls from startlingly humble origins. How did they get their impressive empires off the ground? Sweat, savings, schmoozing, creativity and a dab or two of good fortune.


To be fair, the lucky few "born on third base" probably have a better shot at stardom than those without a safety net. According to a 2002 U.S. Census Bureau survey representing some 16 million business owners, a whopping 55% were initially funded by personal and family capital. Just 11.4% snagged bank loans and 8.8% got going on personal and business credit cards; much of the remainder lived on government loans and outside investors.


Some world-beating entrepreneurs--like John Catsimatidis, owner of the Red Apple Group and aspiring mayor of New York City--scared up capital by getting to know the right people.
The son of a busboy, Catsimatidis entered the grocery industry in the summer of 1966, just after graduating from high school. Befriending the owner of a Manhattan superette, he started taking on more responsibilities. Four years later, the owner offered him a 50% stake in one of his stores, to be acquired over 10 months at a rate of $1,000 per month.


Within a few months, the store's sales doubled, and Catsimatidis was earning a profit of $500 per week (not bad for a 20-year-old back then). After dropping out of New York University just eight credits shy of a degree, he launched his own grocery chain, the Red Apple Group. Lacking working capital for inventory, Catsimatidis charmed vendors to let him buy on credit, something he says "would never happen today." By the age of 25, he owned 10 stores--debt-free--netting a combined $1 million on $25 million in sales. Today the Red Apple empire includes Gristede's, Sloan's and Red Apple.


While Catsimatidis struck out on his own early, others, like Sandy Weill, saved their pennies before taking the plunge. Born in Brooklyn, N.Y., to Polish immigrants in 1933, Weill graduated from Cornell on scholarship before working as a runner for Bear Stearns and nabbing his stockbrokers' license at night.


A few years later, in 1960, he and three friends pooled their savings--an estimated $200,000--and opened their own brokerage firm, called Carter Berlind and Weill. Two decades of acquisitions later, their Travelers Group was the industry's second-largest brokerage, trailing only Merrill Lynch. In 1998, Travelers Group merged with Citicorp to make what is now known as Citigroup.


Old fashioned bartering helped put Kirk Kerkorian, farmer's son and future Wall Street titan, on the map. In the late 1930s, Kerkorian offered to look after famous female aviator Pancho Barnes' cattle in return for flying lessons. During World War II, he took a job with the Royal Air Force transporting planes from their Canadian factory to England at $1,000 per month--an especially treacherous journey as the planes weren't designed to withstand the long trip or the harsh weather over the North Atlantic.


With savings from his wartime job, Kerkorian purchased Trans International Airlines for $60,000 in 1947. (It is unclear as to whether he needed additional financing.) He later sold it to Transamerica for $104 million in stock, used to fuel further investments. His private investment firm, Tracinda, now owns 53% of MGM Mirage (nyse: MGM - news - people ).


Sometimes sheer talent and persistence is enough. As a single mother on welfare in Scotland, J.K. Rowling began writing the first Harry Potter novel in Edinburgh cafés whenever she could get her infant daughter to sleep. After being rejected by 12 publishing houses, Bloomsbury, a small publisher in London, offered an advance of 1,500 pounds (about $2,400)--even while one its editors, Barry Cunningham, advised Rowling to get a day job.


Good thing she didn't listen: The following year, U.S. publishing rights to the first Potter book sold for $105,000. Rowling has since moved nearly 400 million copies worldwide, and is the only author on our list

honest.. i like that.

A friend tell' stories of a person who never got anything
And contrastin' the glory of a man who lost everything
Then reading across the flashin' pages of disasters
Confession of a hero to none, but the first to run
Choice of hero or coward, he's his own master
At the end of the day nothing's at stake, who's won
The battle of violence, bloodshed and catastrophe
Perhaps replies adventured from mother nature
Fault versus blame - moral against self, controversy
Truth and reality, fact is it's art over pleasure
Self above others, or rather it's a case of my generation
Selfish, self-centred, called the "I, Myself and I generation"
But I don't blame the people themselves, no
They have complete say - their lives is their control
So let 'em go, the real problem is in the head
Skies aren't blue these days, gloom is in the red
Of course it gotta be with education like this;
Of course it gotta be with manfactures like this
Hot from the oven without true spiritual inspiration
All they get is facts and stats in the process of transmission

So don't blame the kids - they're not at fault
But of course a little wisdom would help a lot

And oh yes.. About the 2 men..
Maybe it's better to have loved and been loved
Rather than be a man soul-less and never been loved
But I guess the fear is in losing what we have
But you realise after all - we're all broken, deprived and empty anyway.

If I should be so bold to adopt loss as second nature.

haa.

Lucky.

Lucky to be finally back home from shanghai trip. Wouldn't say i wasted it, but it hasn't really been very pleasant, especially with the polluted air that made me sick for 2 days or so. But i must say the lights at night is really pretty, but watching those tv on national geog at night (there's nothing much else to do) makes me prefer natural sites than artificial ones. heh. Shall blog about my trip there during my study break time during these 2 weeks, which I am determined to make full use of. Wish myself luck huh =X

Song: Lucky.
Singer: Jason Mraz (featuring Colbie Caillat)
Album: "We sing. We Dance. We Steal Things." - released on 20th May 2008.

[Jason Mraz]
Now do ya hear me
I’m talking to you
Across the water
Across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my..
Oh baby I try

[Colbie Caillat]
Oh boy I hear, in my dreams
I hear your whisper, across the sea
I keep you with me, in my heart
You make it easier, when life gets hard

[CHORUS]
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oh, oh, oooh..

[Together]
You don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye, I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for youI promised you, I will… oh

[CHORUS]
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home some day

[Jason Mraz]
And so I'm sailing, through the sea
To an island, where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fill the air
I put a flower in you hair

[Colbie Caillat]
And though the breezes through the trees
Move so pretty, you're all I see
Let the world keep spinning round
You hold me right here, right now

[CHORUS]
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home some day

Oh, oh, oooh..Oh, oh, oooh..

Sloppily lazy

I'm crazy, that's what somebody once said to me
Just coz I can't wait to see this world in harmony
"But too bad that ain't happenin'" she said
"This world's gonna rot before the last man gets paid"
The ice's gettin' pretty thin, girls gettin' ready to trim
Slim into tight fit bikinis, find mr. right and swim
To regret when he's got no money for a diamond ring
Breathless, loss of direction, that death thoughts bring
Suffocatin' is for weaklings, I see hope on the horizon
'V. Techs' on the uprisin', Vio-'lense' is in the pistons
Bortex' on sky flyin', suddenly the world's in a vortex..
Neck-breakin' speed, battles 'tween the rich and sex
The poor's inevitable presence is the consensus
What makes the fences, is the defences they claim
Censorship on immoral material and values that brains
Smarter brains, Powered brains, and breeds Painer pains
"I need some counterpain from the bruise and burn
Inflicted damage from the ink of this page overturned"
How that's happenin' is outrageous, utter ludicrous
Designed, custom-made intellect genetic material
Rids us of our ability of think, decide and choose
So the smarter we get, the more rights we lose
And till this point I can't but stop and think, before I go crazy,
That she was right - I was crazy - just so crazy.

Music > Entertainment.

Sometimes u think about how music can change moods and such.. And you question if it's really just about entertainment that music thrives on.. Sometimes I think, there's no harm in having entertainment music.. Suddenly caught this song on some blog, felt it really suited the shrek theme. Perhaps music is also about having the ability to adapt to the different themes..

All Star

from the movie "Shrek"

Somebody once told me the world is gonna roll me

I ain't the sharpest tool in the shed

She was looking kind of dumb with her finger and her

Thumb in the shape of an "L" on her forehead

Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming

Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running

Didn't make sense not to live for fun

Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

So much to do so much to see

So what's wrong with taking the back streets

You'll never know if you don't go

You'll never shine if you don't glow

[CHORUS]

Hey now you're an All Star get your game on, go play

Hey now you're a Rock Star get the show on get paid

(And all that glitters is gold)

Only shooting stars break the mold)

It's a cool place and they say it gets colder

You're bundled up now but wait 'til you get older

But the meteor men beg to differ

Judging by the hole in the satellite picture

The ice we skate is getting pretty thin

The waters getting warm so you might as well swim

My world's on fire how about yours

That's the way I like it and I never get bored

[CHORUS] X2

Somebody once asked, "could you spare some change for gas

I need to get myself away from this place"

I said yep what a concept

I could use a little fuel myself

And we could all use a little change.

Well the years start coming and they don't stop coming

Fed to the rules and I hit the ground running

Didn't make sense not to live for fun

Your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb

So much to do so much to see

So what's wrong with taking the back streets

You'll never know if you don't go

You'll never shine if you don't glow

[CHORUS]

(And all that glitters is gold)

Only shooting stars break the mold...

How fast

Wednesday (21/5/08)

Finally the last day of school for term 2. Couldn't have come at a better time. Totally exhausted and drained from all my energy, I seriously needed a long break, and of course, time to catch up on my work.

And it was the soccer final as well. MJ - VJ at Jalan Besar stadium. The pitch seemed a lot smaller than usual (I thought our school's was small enough, turned out it was smaller than our school's, I think) The match started on a real high. The first goal came within the first minute - Mahdi scored after a VJ defence scramble - they had failed to clear an easy ball they should have dealt better and mahdi just slotted it cooly into the corner of the goal. So we thought the game would be an exciting one since VJ would definitely be fighting to claw a goal back. And they eventually did, having hit the post earlier after the mj keeper failed to hold on to a weak long shot. After a lot of long balls from both sides, MJ's sloppy defending allowed this VJ striker to be left unmarked and he just volleyed straight at the keeper. The keeper palmed it - but into the back of the net -.- And that was really just the start of the battle. Mahdi terrorised thru the left flank, dribbling past the defenders again and again - and it was him who provided the cross near the byline for mj striker to head in. Well-worked, and thoroughly deserved lead.

But after the break it got pretty boring - both sides still adopted the long-ball tactic, and they were just muscling around instead of making full use of the ball. So injuries were inevitable - both sides suffered 2 injuries i think. And the mj sub-striker hit the post towards the end of the match. But that didn't have any bearring on the match anyways - mj still won 2-1, reclaiming their title after defeats in the 2006 and 2007 finals.

Soon after the award ceremony, I rushed to find Harng-Yi in the VJ contingent - still has that same face despite all these years. Haha! And he's got braces too! Though he's taking them off soon. Should have taken picture of something. But then again, my hp camera sucks (it's not my camera actually, it's my bro's) Sianz. Still, we managed to talk a bit, though I felt rather guilty for holding him up (think he was supposed to go home with his classmates or something), so after some time I decided to head off to find alab, yongjie and the rest at city hall.

It's always nice meeting up people whom you've not met for a long time and catch up a lil bit on how each other have been doing - really gives a sense of time and great pleasure recalling things from the past - how i used to call wan xin peacock and such. Ha. But harng-yi says he's not 'as arrogant as he used to be', so i really wonder how he's like. ha. But looking at marists in mj (with the exception of kenneth), I dun really think they give a damn of their old classmates anyway. Like my sis had said, I don't really think classmates are that important as I thought they were. Dun get me wrong, I'm not saying they aren't, but most of them aren't, I guess - they'll probably forget about you and get on with life as if they hadn't known you. But of course, it's the exceptions that make a difference. How fast time's catchin up on me. How fast.

Dreamer.

Aussie, on his way to find his biological daddy
Separated since a kiddy, now that he's age twenty
In his head he's got a responsibility on his shoulder blades
Said he's on a mission to find out the truth before life fades
On this plane of this famous local brand which I shall not name
Things started out happy at first, but life never was the same
Would have been in ashes had he sat on the left side of the plane
But then the plane burns into ashes as he saw his teacher's brain
Splatted all over the floor, as he crawled out of the torn plane with a fall
The plane had crashed into the hall of a building forty-storeys tall
He dashed away from the scene, lights of the flame erupted in beams
Explosion, followed by concussion, immediately blinded it seems
What happened for the rest of the day, he had not known
The next thing that happened was in a hospital back at home
How he survived was a blur, with minor scratches and burns on his feet
Whilst the rest had died, not even knowing they died in the heat
Of all this misery, he couldn't see, or hear, from tapes and CDs
The emotions of these people, as he sat there watching the TV
He couldn't believe he was the only survivor of this trauma
As he read, the death toll more than 110,000, 5 months lata..

[Documentaries keep playin' it, they keep repeatin' it
He tries to hide away from it, tries to avoid it
But all he gets is the pain and trauma from it
The shock and disbelief, god was hiding it
The book of death, he would and should have died
With the rest, he'd rather not be blessed
The media keeps comin' up to him, requestin'
For interviews for this exclusive broadcastin'
But fuck it, he ain't doing it for his own sake
He ain't gonna earn easy cash in this flake
He had seen enough of God's treachery
He's had enough of it.. All he wants is some peace and be free]

And when I woke up from being a dreamer
To being haunted by it all morning, like fever
Never leaving the top of my head, I guess
I'm finally starting to see these images
Nobody wants to be a child nobody cares
But all they wanna do is to earn their wages
Well if that's what you want, staying hungry
And foolish.. I guess I can only disagree
So maybe the next time you call people stupid
Know you ain't nothing till you've seen this side of it..

untitled/

幾次的擦肩而過 你是否有察覺到
陌生的背影暗示 你那迷人的味道
在我周圍圍圍繞 希望你能微微笑
請你對我示個好 說個哈儸讓我發燒..

[副]
我們膽小得可愛 只懂在一旁等待
期待你主動告白 現在才終于明白

現在我一人發呆

無緣等那天到來

[Incomplete]

Gen.

I'm happy in my own zone, frozen in time zone
No worries and whatever, so please leave me alone
Tired of always being treated second class
It's just not in my culture, origin or past
My generation of never ration, vortex of illusion
We need some rarefactions, like waves, compressions
Depression got me staring far into future
Is it a proof? The truth? Or is it all spoof?

See this thing works on a simple basis
It's either kill or be killed, so face it
We ain't got nothing since day one
So I contemplate the day we eliminate guns
Masters of weaponry, speaking of which contrary
It's an eye for another, degradin' nature mother
So as I see 20 other cities emerge and prosper
Urban lives the bed of crimes, socialised, marginalised

[Outro]
Ironic how lives should been better, but I bet you
50 years down, problems wouldn't be this few
So fuck it, let me see you judge,
I'll see you higher classes stumble and crumble
Humbled and fumbled when you start to mumble
I just realised this space's too small for me to grumble
It's late and my belly starts to rumble..
So fuck it, I could be havin' apples to keep doctors away
While 20 million people die silently, kept and locked away..

Started: 12.59
End: 1.15

recover time.

E: I love rhyming.
A: That's the tenth time you told me that.
E: I mean, just exactly how many times can you rhyme?
A: Ok, that's the eleventh time.

I can't stop rhyming, sometimes
One after another, in bars and lines
Words, can't get out of my mind
I need some peace, space and time
And for once stop being a mime
Feelin' sour after having lime
Doing tricks that you feel sublime
That'll be the eighteenth time
I rhyme for the nineteeth time
Well if you can't shut up then fine

-some random lines talking to zy. Don't really make sense, but I'm just tryin' to recover.

Observation zero.

"It's early in the morning, I'm just wakin' up,
I had a rumble in my belly, I am R. Kelly".

Thinking about the Jim Carrie's parody in Physics lecture about Quantum Physics, it just made me recall about the times I used to watch so much parody, of which "Trapped in the Closet" was one of the first MadTV parodies I watched. Went to watch it again, probably wasn't as hilarious or stupid that I felt about it the first time I watched. But it was the rhymin' that got me goin' on listenin'. Perhaps after A Levels I guess. Kinda miss the time doing all my favourite things. Seriously.

Anyways, was supposed to wake up at 6 (as I always do on Fridays) for morning run, but got so tired from teachin' Chem till 3, that I decided not to. Fridays, I really love them. Short 4 periods only, though I had extra Physics consultation, which has cleared doubts for me. At least for Forces and Dynamics. But still, there's so much ground to catch up on. Can't believe it's gonna be less than half a year before A's! Was talking to Hazel, got to know her Chem SPA was today, wonder how come theirs was 2 weeks later than ours. She mentioned though, that she was really worried for her other subjects other than Maths. Their principal actually sent their block test results to their parents! =/ Gosh. That's like worse than mj.

After school headed to Orange Valley Home in Simei for Guitar Club's CIP. Didn't do a lot though, it was mostly the rest doing the job. In all honesty, I didn't have the mood actually, but did try to listen closely to whatever the person-in-charge, Eathel, said. She's quite an inspirational person, but I still do think these were just some of the things that we tend to neglect in life because of everyday work - so much so we don't have time to stop and think about them.

There's just so much more else things to do than studying, which I'm starting to get sick of.

Mood: can't be bothered about anything else but soccer tmr. Maybe I should stop going for guitar lessons for the remaining 6 months or so and look for another teacher instead. Thought it was supposed to be more fast-paced since it was 'intermediate', it wasn't, and I don't think I'll learn much from this course. Piano after A's? Maybe bah. Just put it aside first.

The simplest things

Today (saturday) was supposed to be a stressed one for me, but it didn't turn out to be so. I dunno how i got away with all the troubles I had over my undone work and revision. Oh well.

Woke up at 10, i got a shock that I slept for 12 hours. And it was only due to the last min cancellation of soccer that I managed to get the luxury of the long hours of sleep that I've been so desperately deprived of late. My lil bro wanted my to accompany him to buy Mac breakfast, I think it was all the accumulated fatigue that glued me down to my bed. I rejected and stayed in bed playing gameboy, reliving all the childhood memories of pokemon as he went out to get breakfast for us.

What seemed like a good act, was to be followed by a complete day of tantrums.

First, the debate over the mcgrill. I wanted to try coz i've nv had that. Then he wanted it for himself. Lol. So nvm about that
Then he didn't want to do work or at the least abide by any of the rules set by mum.
And more of course. I cant really be bothered about the details. No violence, but all bicker. haha.
Pretty good a reminder wad i was like as a kid. haha.

Anyways, i had unknowling undergone a whole day of 'wasting time' practising guitar, piano [天空!] and doing all sorts of things that I know i shouldn't be doing at this point of time. I guess people need a break from their day to day work sometimes. And if there was anything I needed, this was it.

Went to guitar after my failed attempt to complete the sgc on isis portal before 6.20. Anyways didn't really cover much. All steven covered was 'what i've done' by linkin park and 'first time' by lifehouse, both pretty catchy songs, although not really my type of songs. But nonetheless, nice. Had a little problem mastering the songs coz of the complex chords + tuning down thing (first time) and strumming patterns (what i've done). still working on them though.

Pretty weird I havent seen hong xiang for 3 consecutive weeks now. Wonderin' how he's doing coz he's the only person i talk to in class. Gotta ask for his contacts the next time I see him. Think the workload's catchin up with him recently. I used to be overwhelmed by all the things we had to do in j1 after the honeymoon first three months. Oh well the vicious cycle just repeats in every system I guess.

So I had thought that the movie would start at 8, until confirmation with eugene that it was at 8.30 that I decided to walk home instead of the bus to save money. Pretty broke these days coz I havent collected my allowance and i dun feel like touching my savings. And there's still tuition fees, dental fees, hp fees! oh man. the only commendable thing is at least I've got my hp fees in check. it's declining for sure. [so sorry to pat if u read this, that'll mean i'll have to reduce my global smses =X]

Didn't change after I got home, and only reached tamp at 8.25. waited at the contro station for a while coz i had expected somebody to be there somehow. Then huiping told me she'll be late. So i headed for gv first. And wth! My earpiece spoilt when I walked thru courts via the 3rd floor. The cord entangled with the cupboard knob and then the whole thing came out! It got loose after that.. And only one side had sound! Damn. More $$$ to be spent! Couldn't have come at a worse time. And that means going to tuition tmr without music! that's a torture, really.

[Eugene didn't ask me to go for movie! Think the rest of the ppl outside exco weren't invited for the movie, but rosanne asked huiping i think, who asked around after that] And that caused chaos, i think, coz they had booked the tickets earlier. The tickets (for initially me and zhiling, i dunno why the arrangement, i think it was darren who suggested it) for me and kaiping were in theatre 3 while their were in theatre 1. There's like somekind of ongoing scandal rumours i think. And that's quite surprising considering I've never been suggestive or whatever. sigh.

Anyways kaiping's quite a nice company to watch movie with! haha. quite talkative and discussions were lively during the show eh! albeit softly coz we are considerate viewers who dun want to disturb the others! I think i should have gotten a drink or smth coz my throats were thirsty at the end of the movie. Pretty nice plot, although actions were rather limited, i think. But i felt it was okay, just nice, considering it certainly did give non-ironman-readers, like me, a very clear picture of exactly who iron man was and how he came about. Several humurous parts too. Tonny starks certainly has a way with words, as illustrated with his sweet-talk prowess in the first parts of the show. haha.

DAMN we shouldn't have left the place early. i suggested we go out wait for the rest coz i didn't anticipate more to come in the credits, and thought the rest would have been outside waiting for us, which wasn't the case of course. Sorry kaiping!

After the movie i guess everyone was so tired that the only thing that we all wanted to do was to go home and have a good rest. Everyone dispersed immediately after that, with huiping (bus 27), aiman and i walking to the same bus stop. Wanted to take the mrt since it'll be faster but decided to take bus 21 with aiman instead. Pretty much to chit chat about, and only then did i realise aiman's not a malay, but an indian! but from the way she talks, it's read hard to tell. haha. she's better off being like her mum, like i think i am. ha. and she plays dota too! okay, she's only picking it up now, but still! girls dun really play the com these days, do they? or is it a wrong assumption i'm making? certainly not for my mum and sis, and definitely not when it comes to fighting/ strategy games like dota. pretty cool huh. No wonder arvin.. *coughs*

That was it I guess, after sending her home and getting home myself, it was close to 12. Guess it's the simple things that can be satisfying sometimes. And in that I dun suggest the first sentence in this paragraph is. I'm saying about today in general. ha. if only life was so simple to look at and deal with.

Then i slacked a bit, tried completing my sgc but no avail. no thanks to jake who got me distracted as we rhymed a few bars. wanted to post our convo here but then both of us had closed the convo window as I was about to end and publish this post.

Damn.

Coz i thought those lines were rather reflective of my current ability (they sucked), but after a's i'm gonna work on it.. for sure.

Zoom.

Ok, actually was supposed to finish blogging on recent happenings on the day itself, but sigh. Got loads of things to do. So i was thinking i'd might as well update all at one shot during this labour day holiday.

It traces all the way back to 11 April.

• 11 April - Shirley's Birthday!

PRE:

It took us quite some time doing all the planning for Shirley's birthday. Liyun texted me to remind me of her birthday, which I obviously did remember! ha. But decided to wait to see if they wanted to do anything. And so that week we (Liyun, hazel, myself) decided to meet up on Saturday, but turned out that Liyun had her taek stuff so it was just hazel and I. But seng yang joined us after his talent management workshop. Can't remember the exact date, I think it was 5 April, a Saturday. I had to stay at home cause someone from the HDB wanted to check our pipes. Which meant I sat out soccer that day, after much persuasion and convincing from my mum and sis to skip soccer that saturday. They were done with the pipe checking after around 1 pm, and then I rushed all the way to Marina Square to meet hazel. Honestly speaking, we didn't have a clear plan on what to do or buy, so the both of us spent a LONG LONG time coming up with ideas and finalised with 18items. Initially I suggested buying a pencil box and 17 pens. Ha. In the end we didn't, of course, we had: a bottle of beer, some mug + fortuneteller + cupnoodle piggy pank+ 1 comb + 1 mirror (from minitoons), water bottle, wallet, handphone pouch, pencil box (with a few pens to make up 18 items =X). And did i tell shirley that we had come up with so many things that she already had! Damn! haha.

Anyways, on shirley's birthday itself, a friday, it was e-learning day for me and that meant no school! So we had planned to meet shirley in school early in the morning that day at the block of flats near sa. My mum suspected something actually, but I managed to pull through =D

Woke up at 5.30am just to prepare to go sa early in the morning! I think shirley was touched and surprised with whatever we did, I hope. She even initiated buying of all the stuff for hazel that she even gave me a full description of making a "Taurus baby" shirt for hazel. Cool huh. Well I really hope that kept us closer together, after not meeting for such a long time. The only pity was that Liyun couldnt join us in time =X

Having met shirley, hazel and sy, I had to RUSHRUSHRUSH all the way back home to get my guitar for the class CIP at some senior citizens centre. On my way home I happened to tune to 五月天's 《金多蝦》, which I thought I could have played for the old folks. But I freaked out la, especially with only like 20 mins of practice of the song. I was overconfident I guess. But turned out I was a piece of shit. Bleh. Oh yes, today was the day the PW results were released and Huiping helped checked the results for me coz I was rather lazy to go school again =/ An 'A'! So that's 2As so far, I hope will be able to go further come march next year. But there's still a long way to go of course! =X MJ's PW results were frightening: 76% As i think, 23% Bs and the rest (only less than 1%) got below B! Incredible huh!

And then RUSHRUSHRUSH back to sa for the LIVE! Concert, which yuchuan had planned about a couple of weeks ago during the time nearer to jisoo's bday. A lil cheapskate as a birthday present i admit, haha, but nonetheless, it's the thought that counts. The concert wasn't particularly entertaining, rather repetitive, but it was the feeling of the school that brought back so much things that we shared as an og. The freshie feeling of being a noob around in school keeps popping up and the images keep flashing in the back of my minds. How childish and kiddish i was as a j1 freshie when i thought i had the whole world under my feet. haha.

Nvm about that, I passed to jisoo her bday present, a korean guitar song book, which i dunnno if she liked it, but i couldn't find a better alternative =X and of course, jinang's letter which I had kept so long. Pretty pointless now i guess, but i hope it does remind us of the freshest and most memorable memories we had at the exact same spot we were seated. sa's lecture hall does have this smell and feeling I'll never forget, which jisoo shared the same view that I had =D

A nice time we had being together. Missed those times which we'll never be able to go back to.

p.s. steven claimed he saw me coming back from the concert although i dunno how or where he saw me though. hong xiang suggests he was stalking me! =X

• 19 April - RUSH!

Pretty much so i guess. After soccer I had to go around kuan's neighbourhood in search of a bookshop that provides photocopying service at the lowest rate. In the end it was a case of me searching for a shop with the best service among all the shops. All three shopkeepers weren't particularly helpful, the second even wanted to charge me extra money just for helping me staple the notes together. wth. But no choice, coz the school didn't upload balance of payments notes online, so had to photocopy for shirley coz she claimed sa's econs notes were rather messy and disorganised. haha. The photocopying cost more than i had expected, in fact much higher coz each page (not paper) was 10cents. wth. but considering it wasn't really a lot, nvm ba.

So RUSH and RUSH and RUSH to marina square to buy hazel's gift - the fortuneteller-in-a-bottle thing. Bought one for hazel and cheryl (tan), then the shopkeeper told me it was buy 2 get 1 free -.- i didnt need the third actually, but decided to give one for my sis.

• 20 April - nth much, tuition, write letter, do hw

• 26 April - guitar concert

• 1 May - watch movie with cheryl and zhiling

Fruitful holiday? Maybe. Haha.

p.s. Description of shirt (it's in my sim card, but just in case i forget =/)

-Top front right corner put a hazel nut then write 'Happy 18th Birthday' around it then on the sleeve write her name 'hazel'.

-At the back write a taurus baby is born on [put a pic of taurus] 23/4/1990 at the bottom put e picture of a taurus a bit different can write a taurus baby girl instead then draw a baby girl pic instead of taurus then the rest the same like that seems easier.

Maybe we could get her t-shirt done after a levels. I know it seems rather distant but it'll be here and over VERY VERY VERY SOON!

Jiayou guys! =D

愛誰

最近在電視上看到一對男女對唱《愛我》（原唱：柯以敏&林志炫），讓我常常在夜深四周靜默的時候一直想起這首歌..很感人，而且讓我不自主地問我自己這問題：
真的只有愛情能解脫人的寂寞嗎？是不是沒了愛情，我們就寂寞？還是寂寞只是人心裏上的障礙；不是寂寞選擇我們，而是我們選擇寂寞？..

或許，人生真的有很多點點滴滴的東西/事情，都沒有一定的答案吧..

歌名：愛我

歌手：林志炫,柯以敏

专辑：散了吧

（女）

你的手指你的眸

你的喉结你的口

我总忍不住

徘徊逗留怕一生爱都挪不走

（男）

你的笑容你的愁

你的心情你的梦

我总忍不住窥探追究

在生命的旅途中我想与你甘甜与共

(女)

爱我

因为你我变得好富有

在你怀中被爱占有

那种满足是一切都比不过

（男）

爱我

没有你我变得好贫穷

在人世中少你左右

我想我连什么价值也没有

（合）

好好爱我

（男）你的过去你的忧

（女）你的未来你的路

（合）

我都很愿意分享共有

在每一个晨昏中

我亦步亦趁陪你走

（男）

尤其在人海沙漠

（女）

人的心越来越难懂

（合）

至少心中有个你寄托

Count-Ddown.

Yea.. havent really been updating much recently.. there's nothing much going on in the first place (or rather, i'm too lazy to try to be observant). Next week's gonna be a headache, I think. Sometimes I dunno why I'm study so much, but I guess that's how things work. Oh well.

Anyways, I think my email account's been hacked or something. It sends out mail by itself although I havent used the com for the past few weeks. I suspect it's a virus file, so don't open any mails you might get from my account. Thanks.

As I was telling my friend I haven't really been writing as much as I used to, so I was feeling a little shameful when I read people's essays which I think I might just be as capable of, but I'm just so rusty and 'blunt'; I need to sharpen my writing.

So one conventional platform I shall use from now on, is probably this huge block of blogosphere.

Taiwan's presidential elections are coming, yes I know how fast time flies, but yea, I can't wait for 'd-day'. Let's hope YuChuan isn't right. Ha.

To all those having their tests and exams, all the best, take care and rest well.

This whole blogosphere thing really magnifies people's insincerity by not interacting people directly, but hey, I think I'm trapped in this vortex too, as much as anyone else is.

But seriously, take care yea. I miss spending quality (and quantity) times with my friends, and friends these days are hard to come by.

Can't wait for this whole thing to be over. prolly 7 more months to go!

February.. So far so fast.

2 feb - go rjc, meet liyun

7 feb - cny performance, went to pass things to ms lam, meet bro at sengkanh, walk to grandma house for reunion dinner.

8 feb - go grandma house for lunch, return home after that, call to organise lunch tmr -> talk to hazel coz she was so damn bored! haha.

9 feb - invite yu chuan, jiaming, junwei, yewf to house for lunch, watch kungfu dunk -> waste of money!

13 feb - go dental till 8 pm then reach pasir ris, buy chocolates.

14 feb - sent flowers to sisters, go home, study for test.

15 feb - chingay preview - get to know waichung

16 feb - chingay actual - reach there late coz of soccer, sending dad off. after that meet with bro at around 1 at city hall, take cab home.

17 feb - tuition - how much i love tuition! haha. go home, sleep, go sakae, do hw.

In 10 mins! Too long for this short.

Everytime I step into the same old place with sighs in my face
I can only regret what I did, or said, and go in search of solace
Seeing these pretty faces of the same race staring me in the face,
"It's a crazy race," I tell myself, as I yearned to be in outta space
Feelin' outta place, hopin' I could vanish without a trace
Only to embrace the fact I'm the one out-paced and outta pace
If that's the case I'd wish for a wish for my memory to erase
And replace it with some garbage I could treat as waste
But fuck that, I'm in a couch potato, like a hot potato
Being thrown and passed down the line, and I summon a rhyme
With words sworn one at a time, like stories 'once upon a time'
This ugly blue donned with a platted silver, without it it's a crime
I ate this, you take this, I wake this, you fake this, I hate this!
How much you didn't know words were lethal till you make this
Pissed, angered, teenage angst boils within, till I questioned Him
What made me deflect off his path for me, "I was here by no chance"
As he spoke, reflectin' off my wrath for 'thee, "No one is here by chance"
Some crazy shit makin' me choose things I regret, but it's the little things I get
That makes the whole lot of a difference, if only I was still young..
But no more, as I've lived to outgrown this immaturity that's swallowed my tongue..

Time..

Youth doesn't last forever. And you only have once.
"So why not give it a try? Capitalise on it, if not you'll never use it."

That was my argument.

Yet time just slips away every single moment, and so does our youth.

From what I thought were good friends of mine, each turned out to be.. Distant.. And even more so with time.

Pat told me "True friends don't have to stay in close proximity", and how people tend to be "not in sight, not in mind". These things overwhelm me. I couldn't stop myself frow the flowing of these ideas.

I think I was a little naive.. Maybe too much.

真的是想得太完美了。

On ideas how to make this place a better place to be in.

A billion dollars to buy out LFC?
Haha. Dream on, said kw.

What a dreamer, but I don't think I'm the only one. I don't have to pinch myself to know i'm not dreaming. It's real.

Ha. What am I talking about? I don't know. I'm ENFJ. It's not entirely true. But about the blog thing, maybe. Haha. It was just last week I was still enjoying myself.. Still spending time with my relatives. And now I'm back here. Nevermind, fuck it. Blogs are not a convenient place for people to express themselves. I'd just like to recount my mood at this point of time.

Undistinguish-able.

Went Chingay briefing today morning.

Well I was late, waking up at 7.00 when I was suppose to meet cheryl tan at 7 at white sands. ha. The first thing I did after I woke up was to hurry change and rush down to the mrt station. It was 7.35 when I reached there. Felt so bad having her wait 30 mins for me for nothing. But fortunately it's just one person. How much trouble I would have brought to the rest had I decided to go with yongjie, steve, ivan, jianyao, jonathan, kelvin. Ha. But it was still a hard day for me. I woke up feeling shitty and couldn't pick myself up to be ready for the day.

And the longer the day dragged, the worse I felt. Lucky I had the company of cheryl to talk rubbish with. I can't stand people who are too serious and fake. Ha.

Anyways, the thing was suppose to start at 8.30 and end at 12.30, but it started at 9.30 instead (I reached at 9 =X), and ended at 12.30 too. I have no idea why they had been so optimistic that their activities would be fun and engaging when it seemed so easily settled. The situation thing was suppose to last for an hour, but it was little more than 30 mins at most. Lol.

So it turned out to be a good thing at least, for me, I was undergoing further torture. The icebreakers were okay, but I never got the feeling it was gonna be successful, as in, get people to engage and know each other. We're still total strangers, no matter how much they try to inculcate the unitedness in us. Ha.

Don't matter. After chingay we all waited for yongjie (he's leader of carpark 9, ha) before leaving. I left for bugis to have lunch at ajisen with mum and sis whilst the rest went junction 8 to have lunch together.

Yet, up till this point I've not mentioned anything about anything undistinguish-able. It's what I feel, is the truth. How you feel about others may not necessarily be the case. Someone who was ur buddy for a year may just become another common stranger standing beside you in the next year. How funny right.

Whatever, whatever. I can't take the pressure anymore.

Finished on 22 jan, 5.45pm.

Quality > Quantity.

Yea yea JC's stress and tough that's for sure. Undeniable. So these days when I get the time to go out with friends I can't feel grateful enough when I get the time. So I realised. It's not about spending a lot of time together with your friends.. That'll be great of course, but sometimes reality clamps us down and we gotta be satisfied that we get the chance to go out together. Even if it means like once in one or two months.

So we had actually planned to go out together to buy myself a guitar. Jisoo suggested sunday, since she has church and performs every week (or so I think). YC, Jisoo and myself we all three play the guitar, so she suggested we watch her perform and then head on to buy my guitar before having lunch.

It's the first time I've seen Jisoo perform! I still remember her playing my guitar at the SA canteen, although can't really recall what song she performed. She said she played the electric guitar, so I was really looking forward to listening her perform.

As it turned out, she didn't perform those songs which I thought would be able to show her technique - it was for church! How can I forget. But still the smooth, flowing melodies were nice, and I could feel for the guitarists who had to strum none-stop for the whole session..!

I wanted to take pictures of her performing but our view were blocked by the group of singers in front of her! Ha. So nvm, we just sat there quietly (and clapping) with Jisoo's sister listening to the melodious tunes. Oh and I didn't know Jisoo's dad was some head for the korean church (The bible society). He was reciting the prayers as the three of us slipped through the back door silently. Ha. His dad looks like those type of dads who are strict.. and conservative? I think. Not really sure how his dad's like.. I've never hear jisoo talking about her dad, but that's my first overall impression. ha.

With just a mere budget of $250, I knew I was always gonna experience some difficulty in getting an acoustic guitar I'll really like. We went to peninsula there, and, as i expected, many shops were closed on sundays. So that limited my choices even further. We spent some 2 hours i think, walking around and trying out the guitars. It was really quite embarassing for us coz we seemed like the only noobs around there! =X

Finally I managed to find a guitar I really like, but it costs $380! It comes with an inbuilt tuner, amplifier and a guitar bag. It's worth the money I think. I'll try to convince my dad to get me one of those I hope. That's my target (minimum), and that'll mean I'll have to work extra harder to save even more if I wanna satisfy myself. Ha.

Jisoo was starving, so we went off to.. SUBWAY! Insatiable appetite I had cause I was hungry too, and craving for those subway sandwiches which I haven't had for.. MONTHS! Had loads to chat about, ranging from PAE, to our new schools, what our future career choices are like, to how's life been for us recently. Jisoo actually wants to be a dentist! Ha.

After lunch at subway (which we spent around 1.5 hrs), we went walking around aimlessly in marina square. Moneyless, cashless, aimless, we could only touch and envision ourselves possessing those materialistic things we can dream of having. Hai. That really emphasizes again the power of money in today's world. Without it, there's so many things we can't do. But with money, we probably will never need to wander around craving for those.. with our friends. ha.

It's really quality > quantity.
It's been quite incredible how we can come so far from being regular, casual friends from PAE, to becoming friends who just enjoy each other's company, no matter how seldom we actually get to enjoy that, it's still quality time spent. Everyone's future come first. What we can do is encourage each other, and hope we'll stick through these tough times together.

Really hope we'll get to stick together for the many years to come.

Farewell.

Sorry have been delaying and procrastinating this post for like.. 3,4 weeks! Time really flies. Hey but at least I tried uploading several times! And really was frustrating I had to try several times before it could upload.

It just seemed like we got to know each other weeks ago. But it's really a year since SAJC PAE Orientation 07. Pat was still having her braces on and yuchuan was still crazy about kboxing. ha. we were all slackers, but we didn't regret - those were the few days we could slack. Not the pressure and stress just mounts and mounts so high that I can hardly look back.

It was New Year's Day. We were all preparing for the start of the new year. Couldn't say it was a last minute thing, but we really only decided the time and the people on the day itself. Tried to get more people to come, but didn't really know who else to ask from the OG. Initially I thought pat's flight was in the morning, so Ji soo gladly said she could come along to send pat off. Till the confirmation that the flight was at night. 11pm flight if i can remember. Having prepared all the things (it wasn't a lot, but still it was from the heart), I met yuchuan before going to meet pat so that he could sign and write on the card.

Pat was so nice she prepared farewell gifts for us too! A book for me and a box of chocolates for yc. And of course, what she left with us is more than just the book and the box of chocolates. It was memories. Sweet memories.

Really can't wait for the OG to be reunited once everyone's done with their education and NS. The OG's reduced to just yc, jisoo and myself, but really, it's quality over quantity. What SA left with us, despite it being just 2 months - is something that I don't think I'll ever be able to experience again.

Below are photos at the airport. Sorry there were actualy more, but some were blury =X The rest is with Pat and YC..




Pat reluctantly gave in to my persistent requests for BIG WIDE smiles. Without her braces. Haha.

Someone please tell me how to rotate the photo in blog!


At the Xmas tree near T2 Burger King.


Well we won't get to take such pictures for years again.

That's about it.
Somethings in life we will never be able to keep, for these are what we call treasure.

2008

So 2008 started with the departure of another friend - Pat.

I didn't really feel anything when she left initially, I just felt it was a part and parcel of everyone else; everyone had to leave someday.

Then suddenly reality came down on me.

O.G.27 has been splitted up.

How Pat used to tell me that WeiQi reminded us OGs wouldnt last till June. She was right - partially. At least a few of us tried real hard to keep in touch with one another.

• Yu Chuan: I did hang out with YC sometimes, occassionally once in a while. We even went to watch fireworks the other time. Ha!
• Pat: The random smses. Even though they can be real short sometimes, it can be heart-warming to know at least she's making an effort to keep in touch with her friends, no matter how difficult it can be in a difficult time like in JC.
• Jing: My penpal!
• Ji Soo: Well I don't exactly really know her, but she's a nice person! I hope we'd get to celebrate her birthday this year or smth. One year passes so fast! To think the other time Yu Chuan and I treated JiSoo, Jing and Mandy to Gelare. Ha.

So there were so many things we did together, although there really wasnt much time for us to hang out together.

But we did! That was what's important - the memories! But it seems everyone's just got on with their own lives.

How how I felt so bad and saddened when I saw the new batch of JC1s. Is it just another cycle of what we had? I don't know. Everyone's left the O.G., although I'll still of course, try to get everyone to keep in touch. YuChuan especially, since he used to be the 'head' of the O.G. ha.

And now that the next batch isn't gonna have PAE, whether that is a bad thing or not remains to be seen.

The first week of school hasn't been a pleasant one - forget about having a fun one. The only thing I could take pride from was that a few of us went to the gym together to train. I hope I'll be able to pass my NAPFA minimum requirements this year. I certainly do not want to waste anymore time doing things that aren't worth my effort and time.

I'm not happy with life here, I don't know what else there's for me to look forward to. But so long as I'm well and alive, I think I shouldn't complain. I should just concentrate and focus to think about my future - university choices of course. And before I can even think or talk about that, I think it's still the mouthless paper that does all the talking - the exam grades certs of course.

And when 2008 comes to an end, I'm not sure how many people will look back on this, but it's the choices that we make that has contributed to so many of these things!

Now it has come to a point whereby I don't even know whether I should be doing all these or not. But one thing for sure, I love my family, my sisters (those 3 of course), my friends. I hope to keep in touch with all, but when the day comes, I'll have to accept it. No matter where everyone'll go. You've all been a part of my 2007.

Where maturity grows, there'll be elements of innocence lost. I did try to look forward to 2007, but the same cannot be said of 2008. I've seen through things.. I wished I hadn't.

Anyways, I must say a big thank you to Pat for giving me that book which I have just started to read a few moments ago. It's not the enlightenment, but rather, the understanding of what I used to believe in. Nonetheless, a big thank you to you. =D

Take care, my friend.

親自體驗原住民（泰雅族）的生活！

這次回去臺灣的11月24日（星期六），難得有機會去山上‘旅遊’。其實當天是瓦夏阿姨女兒訂婚的日子，那sayun阿姨想說回去新竹家鄉去幫舅媽拿豬肉。（泰雅族的傳統習俗是說男方要送豬給女方家裏所有的女生。聽説以前是要送上20-30只給女方！可是因爲時代的變化，現代的原住民也很少有人自己家裏養豬，所以就要花錢買。）sayun阿姨想說一個人拿不懂那麽多東西，而且他們也知道我一直都很想去看看，體驗原住民的生活環境，所以就找我去。

這次去，雖然很辛苦（我可是熬夜沒睡覺就要出門呐！），不過本身還是覺得真的賺到了。除了能感受到山上清新的空氣，還能跟原住民小孩子接觸，親眼看到原住民結婚典禮，殺豬的過程，所以還是覺得獲益不淺！=D

And what made me realise the purest element on earth - the innocence in children.

以下是我去新竹一日遊的一些照片:

早上8點的新竹。我們才剛下公車，去菜市場吃米粉之後。

山上的路上。

Sayun阿姨的姐姐的家。

很漂亮的風景吧！空氣很新鮮呢！

去舅媽、Sayun阿姨家鄉的路上。

阿姨家鄉的下層。

好高的一棵樹！

排在一起的山端！

根本就看不到後面的山！他們說柿子院就在這座山的後面！夠遠的啦！

Terraces. 他們在這一層一層的土地上種蔬菜。

近距離得拍攝！

More terraces!

我們的午餐！糯米飯團！雖然淡淡的，不過在細嚼慢嚥之後，發現糯米飯其實甜甜的！比一般的飯糰更有味道！

殺豬！連女生都要動手哦！右邊穿紅色衣服的是舅媽、Sayun阿姨的大姐。

觸目驚心的畫面！

花了2個小時，好不容易把2頭豬砍完！

新鮮的豬排骨！

Sayun阿姨和姐姐。

看這小弟偷吃..我們的飯糰。=X

（紅衣）瓦夏阿姨又胖了！
昨到右: 無名的阿姨、瓦夏阿姨、我、瓦夏阿姨的..姐姐吧。哎呀他們親戚關係還真複雜。

昨到右: 瓦夏阿姨、我、瓦夏阿姨的‘姐姐’。

瓦夏阿姨和Sayun阿姨兩姐妹合照。


姐妹倆。

天真無邪的小孩子！過後他們一直搶著要拍照，或許他們真的沒用過相機吧。

他們皮膚都很健康吧！小小年紀就曬得一身古銅色。

我發現他們牙齒都很白！他們竟然說他們從不刷牙！他們看到我矯正牙齒，我還跟他們説是不刷牙的後果！糗大了！

這孩子還真愛吃！

製造對白：干嘛偷拍我！

好豐盛的菜！旁邊還有一大大大大大大鍋的豬雜湯！

旁邊不知道誰引起他們的注意。

連分配豬肉都要好多工喲！

主角駕到：大家集合在一起準備吃飯。他們大伯發言。

拍的不是很清楚 =X

大家敬酒！

It's gonna be.. a splendid Christmas! (ya rite)

（手機）怎麽會不見！

Lost my phone today! Shit la. So don't call me/ sms me. Call my house if you need to contact me. Sorry about those smses anyone has sent out =X


Like a few days ago I received a few nice songs from Cheryl, and from my sister as well, cause usually I don't go online searching for these songs on my own =/


The thing is, my hp is ex! And it's rather new! Costed around $400, and it comes with a 2GB memory card! Just got it like in August!


And I seriously dunno how I lost it.


The moment I saw yuxiang at tampines, I put it in my bag. Confirm!

Found out that it went missing only at Tanah Merah the netball court there where we have our weekly soccer. Sian! Then no mood la. It was a great day to play soccer but just no mood! How to play when it's missing! Sian.


And singapore's police sucks to the core. Whilst other countries have devices that can track any, and I emphasize, ANY, phone, what does method does Singapore acquire to track down lost handphones? It seems like the only way to recover it is for the culprit to sell the handphone to a second-hand shop. And that possibility is like, i dunno, 30%? Anyone who picks up my phone'll probably use it for himself/ herself. Anyone who has a better phone than that'll probably sell it, but anyone who knows how the police tracks down lost phones, i'm sure, is not stupid enough to sell it to second-hand shop.

So the chances of getting back my phone? Negligible i think.

And my dad's not gonna get me another phone, I understand why, and I'm not angry. I think I've gotta save up again to get another h/p or suffer months of emptiness without my handphone. Ha.

So, my conclusion is..

1. Never lose your handphone, not in Singapore at least.
2. Singapore's not that advanced.
3. Life without h/p can be miserable, especially when it's during a festive season like Christmas. 'Cause nobody will be able to contact you.
4. It's always safe to have your house phone number known to others.
5. Always check out what happened to people who suddenly 'decide to disconnect him/herself from the rest of the world'. Ha.

Please update me your phone numbers (with address if possible, I've lost plenty) through email if you happen to know me.

With tears (ha),

THANKS!

Enchanted.

In the end, I wasn't really enchanted by the show.

Went to watch with Cheryl (from MJ, dunno her surname) at Tampines, she told me she's been wanting to watch for some time, and since Hazel had already watched it twice, Shirley was going to watch with her class today as well (she told me later that she went to watch something else instead), I thought she was the only person I'd probably watch this kinda shows with.



The idea was one of a kind, the music was nice, it was rather realistic, as in the images, including the part about the chipmunk not being able to talk in real life, but I'd still say the show was just ok.

There wasn't much of a twist in the story, and the story ended abruptly, I'm not sure if it's due to the lack of time or something. But I must say the music mixing was great, the music came in at the appropriate scenes and it fitted in very nicely.

Four songs from 'Enchanted':

1. True Love's Kiss (Intro song)
2. That's How You Know
3. So Close
4. Ever Ever After

I think the OST should be quite nice, may consider to get it once it's out.

Reminder for myself: needa buy 鬥牛.要不要 OST. It's not out yet though.

12月..的寂寞？

• 12月1日（星期六）：

我2點才起床，就想直接去泰順街好了， 反正好久沒回去看阿嫲。

回到家，阿嫲依舊躺在床上，都沒起來活動，誒... 陪她聊一聊，過後姨姨說要去幫丞丞撿葉子，我建議去大安森林公園，然後我們大家沒一下子就出門去！姨姨想說身上有好幾張Subway折扣券，不如我們去吃Subway好了。Chicken Teriyaki跟Seafood。價錢跟新加坡差不多，口感卻不一樣！而且飲料免費暢飲！

（Subway圖片）

在大安森林公園，目的是爲了撿葉子，檢了4，5片，天就黑了。看不到樹上葉子的形狀，最後我們只好選擇今日告一段落。

説好要跟舅舅，舅媽一起去夜市吃晚飯，但表舅媽一通電話叫我們去家裏吃飯，姨姨就叫我們先去新店陪她們吃飯。其實我早料到一定會很無聊，但在姨姨的慫恿下，我也無可奈何！=X

果然夠無聊。表舅又不太會招待我們小孩子，我和妹妹只能跟昱昱，丞丞，保恆和阿浚玩。

那叫我們去就算了，還叫舅舅舅媽，媽媽一起去（昏倒）！拖延了我們去夜市的時間。

然後我們去師大夜市買妹妹的包包，買了個500元的包包，看起來還相當起眼的。我們也在路上踫到舅舅舅媽以前店裏請的印尼妹妹，還聊了滿一下子的。原來，老闆-員工的關係還可以以維持在朋友與朋友之間的那關係。真的還很難的。有時候想，會踫到舅舅舅媽他們這樣的老闆，真的很難的，員工應該要好好珍惜，想到前2個禮拜請來那位姐姐，真的台懶散了。

珍惜吧。

• 12月2日（星期天）：

原本打算要全家一起去宜蘭，結果因爲大舅生病（好像是感冒） ，所以撤銷了原本的計劃。濃濃也因爲以爲我們回去宜蘭，早答應朋友一起去台中看棒球（日本對韓國）。

後來因爲熬夜打電動的關係，1點才起床，就吃舅舅他們一大早起床去買的鍋貼，炒麵跟類似薄餅的潤餅卷。想快回新加坡，還是乘這幾天要好好享受臺灣的美食，小吃！

後來我們一起去信義的誠品書店去買書（爸爸之前托我們買的書）。去那買，因爲東西規劃得比較整齊，而且舅媽說是臺北最大的誠品書店。

説好2點在誠品和媽媽，姨姨和小瓜他們一起會合，結果他們3點才到！舅媽就一直碎碎念，說他們真沒有時間觀念！呵呵！

到了之後，舅舅第一帶我們去5F,孩子區，東西真的好多！有適合孩子的書和玩具，還有很大的遊樂場！而且遊樂場特殊的地方是那裏有分屬於不同職業的區，不同的玩具，放在不同職業的地方！有玻璃（清潔工人），百貨公司，警察局，等等... 舅舅就建議姨姨，以後可以帶小瓜來這種的遊樂場，讓他們玩耍，好過整天呆在家裏玩電腦...這聼起來還有點像我自己 =X

舅舅說，現代太注重小孩子的學業，忽略了應該他們成長中應有的美好童年，造成孩子長大后，除了讀書之外，根本不記得童年時到底做了些什麽，是相當遺憾的事。

我們去寵物部門買了黃金獵犬的書後，我就想說買幾本吉他和鋼琴的樂譜，回新加坡可以自己練習。緊接著，因爲舅舅不舒服的關係，舅媽叫我們快點買一買然後回家。因爲時間的關係，只賣了2本吉他譜，1本鋼琴譜，不過都是厚本的，所以還是蠻值得的！

本來要回家的，結果我們又跑去吃！吃樓下食堂的米台暮（冷），還真得不錯吃！小瓜因爲還沒吃東西，肚子餓，先點個咖喱飯來吃；妹妹點了韓國拌飯，阿浚點了焗飯。舅舅，舅媽，媽媽和我先去喝咖啡，80元一杯！雖貴了點，可是口感的確讓人覺得很舒服..或許是心靈上的想法吧，可是臺灣的東西品質，很多國家本來就比不上。

我是想去睡舅舅家，但想說濃濃晚上很晚才會回家，還回泰順街好了。

• 12月3日（星期一）：

今天晚上我們一起去吃韓國烤肉，大葉對面，公館附近的‘江梅’韓式烤肉，一人300元，說貴不貴，我覺得還不錯（又不是我出錢 =X ），有無限暢用的韓國泡菜，韓式年糕，甜地瓜，飲料（麥茶，冬瓜茶），還有冰淇淋！醃肉味道還不錯，而且我蠻喜歡韓式烤肉的烤法。他們的鍋子跟一般烤肉，火鍋的鍋不一樣，吃出的味道也當然不一樣咯！

其實我之前有跟媽媽，舅舅，舅媽，皮皮哥哥來吃過，當時他們就在這發現他們店隔壁以前打工的妹妹。還記得舅媽上次還跟她比胸部！超爆笑的！

那這次呢，是因爲妹妹和阿浚上次沒來過所以才來的。這次有一飃人！舅舅，舅媽，媽媽，姨姨，妹妹，阿浚，昱昱，丞丞還有我自己。

用餐時，舅舅就一直說一些道理給我們聼，希望我們日後待人，待事，會有所不同。説實在，我的觀念有一大部分因爲他說的話而變了..變得比較成熟..真的。

誰說只有律師，老師，總統，總理，大人物講的話才會有道理？其實那些做小職業的人，頭腦也不簡單。會讀書的人，不代表一定聰明，而不會讀書的人，不代表一定是笨的。

不要以外貌，職業，人在社會的地位取人，那些只是做來參考。而要懂得一個人，還是要和他真正相處過，才懂。

所謂“海水不可斗量，能人不可貌相”，而“路遙知馬力，日久見人心”，不要因爲某人給你的第一印象，而立刻判斷一個人，為他下結論。

• 12月4日（星期二）：

下午我們約3店，一起坐車（約30分鐘）去汐止的黃昏市場買甜不辣，還買了小孩子愛吃的棒棒雞（我也是）。此外我們還去買要帶回新加坡的一些吃的。甜不辣，蜂蜜蛋糕，魚肉，雞翅，胡椒餅，等等。那家的雞肉震得很好吃！那我們就這樣，買一買一堆的東西，然後都是我在扛 XP

還有，就在這一天，我目睹了姨姨有史以來，跑步最快的一天。就在我們走去公車站時，一輛公車（好像是925）剛好來，姨姨第一時間馬上跑去，哇賽！眼見公車本來要走了，姨姨竟然在離我們約100米的地方，叫到車！太強了！

（還要說一件事。昱昱在車上聼歌，還是饒舌歌，表情超認真的！後來濃濃就說，他還可以慢慢培養他呢！哈。）

我們在家附近的公車站下車，妹妹說要去配眼鏡，姨姨和媽媽就陪她去，剩我一人要扛一堆的東西，還要帶昱昱回家！回家雖然只需10分鐘左右，但感覺就像是我這生最久最長的10分鐘！超累的！

回到家，先叫小孩子來吃雞塊，阿公就一直罵我們，吃不健康的食物 =X 過一下子，媽媽他們就回來，我們等到10點左右，去公館跟大家吃天外天，就連阿嫲也有去！就少了阿公，不然就一家團聚咯！吃東西的時候，我們小孩子的話並不多，就一只聼大人講話。

那天吃飯時就只記得他們問阿嫲她最疼誰了，她就說，：“大家啊！”，但感覺卻有一點點怪怪的。

還有阿浚去幫姨姨，妹妹把飲料，那我剛好被麻辣湯給辣到了，想趕快跑去拿飲料。那阿浚剛開了兩瓶，我就想說，先喝一口，但又想其中一瓶少了一點，一定會被發現，所以就乾脆兩瓶都喝一口，水面看起來都一樣，該不會被發現。沒想到，還是被姨姨敏銳的觀察力給察覺到 =X

阿浚發脾氣事件：

吃完后，我們想，還是走一走才坐車，吃飽先散佈散佈一下。後來大家都坐上車，只有我跟阿浚要去睡舅舅家，但誰會想到，他們一走，阿浚就發瘋！號啕大哭！我們大家都不知道發生了什麽事，莫名其妙。

原來，他說他們上車沒有叫他，其實他也想回泰順街，可是他剛剛明明就說他要去舅舅家！那舅舅無可奈何，只好叫我跟濃濃一起坐計程車送阿浚去泰順街。

我想，也好，我先回去，然後拿自己的衣服，不然到時候又要把濃濃他們的衣服送回去，那有多麻煩阿！那沒想到，回到家後，阿軍又說要回舅舅家，真是三心二意！阿浚就只好頭低低的回舅舅家，真是丟臉！=X

• 12月5日（星期三）：

回新加坡僅剩一天，想說要好好利用一天的時間，結果我們又睡到下午2點才起床 =X

一起床，我跟浚一起趕去大葉，舅舅早就休息了，說舅媽在隔壁店吃羹，吃魚丸。我原本説好跟阿浚去公館，結果被舅媽叫來吃羹 =X 我想一定吃不完，所以只點了一碗。結果我們在等食物端上來時，舅媽咬下去的福州丸噴出湯汁來，噴到我衣服袖子都是！=X 果然是多汁的福州丸！哈哈。

我就跟阿浚一起去公館，喝Mr. Wish，我點他們的白色珍珠奶茶，浚說要試試看他們的冰淇淋紅茶，結果他也沒把它喝完！浪費我的錢！一杯可要40，50元耶！

不過也想說快回去了，錢留在身上也沒用，算了吧。然後呢，我們逛一逛那裏，可是因爲身上沒多少錢，什麽東西都沒買，原本看到幾件衣服還不錯看，想等下叫媽媽陪我去買，可是結果沒時間去買 =X 我們繞一繞公館，在一家二手店看到了bread的精選集，或許下次回去時可以買吧。

空手回店裏，相同情況有發生了！媽媽，姨姨説好5點在大葉見面，結果姨姨卻打來，說在家裏等我們，我們想店裏的人越來越多，怕人手不足，還是在店裏先幫一下，等舅媽來店裏時才走。舅媽平時5，6點就回到店裏，不料他7點才到家裏，阿平哥哥就在我幫忙點菜時，幫我們炒炸醬。阿浚幫忙收拾碗碟。

舅媽一到，我們趕快回泰順街，叫妹妹先準備，舅舅舅媽8點多到家裏接我們，一起去寧夏夜市，吃控肉飯，炒空心菜，豬雜湯，蠔仔煎，還去吃古早剉冰，回去新加坡就吃不到了！我們還喝了姜汁，超辣的，舅媽喝了一半，就想說阿公正好也感冒，就大包一碗給他喝。

（拍到的照片不清楚！）=X

• 12月6日（星期四）：

我們的班機是7.40點，而從家到機場需約40分鐘，所以5店就要出門。媽媽說4點事就要先準備，那反正我們常熬夜，想說不如不睡好了，淩晨我們就整理行李就好了。

我的東西其實不多，因爲沒買到什麽。我都還有時間去師大後面的一之軒買麻薯給Cheryl Tan，還有愛心手帕給 Kuan Wei！妹妹東西就很多，然後還要打包吃的，冷凍的，所以還是等到4才整理。阿浚趁這段時間完麻將online,妹妹則是看American's Next Top Model 3。我也很無聊，就跟著妹妹看，然後打電話給濃濃跟他說一下話。

好像就這樣吧。

4點媽媽起床，我們一起打包冷凍的東西，還真的滿多的。然後我們輪流跟阿公阿嫲說拜拜，就想要怎麽用比較不感傷的口吻跟他們說再見，因爲知道阿嫲心理一定會不好受。

果然，她又流淚了，雖然我這次心裏比較平靜，但真的，說起來還有些離譜。

破了Godfather和MetalGearSolid3破到後面，去了新竹舅媽和SAYUN阿姨她們的家鄉，去了烏來，雲林之外，還有在店裏幫忙，這個假期，好像沒想象中那麽得輕鬆。因這跟阿德吵吵鬧鬧的因素，搞到全家天翻地覆，真傷腦筋。不過有時會想起小時候全家很團聚的畫面，我還是會覺得很溫馨，還是會有點想哭。時間過得很快，人，也變得很快..

親眼看到一個原本能快快樂樂的過生活的人，因爲身體某一部位的損壞，失去了方向，失去了理智，失去了朋友，就連一個家庭..也漸漸失去她了。

什麽星光大道，什麽榮華富貴，或許都是空虛的。

找到一個適合自己的另一半，建立個穩定，開心的家庭，才是真正人生所能期待的。

最後，當然也少不了政治這話題。有些人真的需要好好反省，飲水思源，我們還是不要忘記民主的來源吧，不要什麽都不關心，關心‘大中致正’四個字，真的太無聊了吧。去紀念蔣介石，還不如我們紀念希特勒。神經病！臺灣真的太亂了！

p.s. 我們跟星光幫搭同一架飛機，本來還要跟他們要簽名，經紀人一直叫我們等一下，還叫我們不要拍照 ！太誇張了！機場又不是他們的地盤！結果我們就真的沒跟他們拍到照，因爲出去後實在太多人！或許應該像阿平哥哥，姨姨講的，臺灣人就是要罵！想起來還真的有點氣！

難得有緣分跟他們同搭飛機，既然沒簽到名！

不過最好笑的是，我一直叫不出潘裕文的名字，妹妹就問，“是誰啦！你朋友哦？”

讓我啼笑皆非。-.-

Oh. And I called Cherly in the morning and woke her up. Sorry! =X

誒。

想說，回到新加坡一切又要從頭開始了，我是有點厭倦了，我是有點累了。

新加坡待了這麽多年，卻總是無法讓我又那種歸屬感。

或許是父親這邊親戚的冷漠，或許是新加坡人真的缺乏人情味，還是說，我根本就不屬於這裡？

我..就在這時..

突然感覺到新加坡在12月的寂寞。